halfway friend

The sky was as gloomy as a long-used cloth, and the thin clouds were colorless and messy like dirty foam.Under an office building, the wind in late autumn broke through a few columns wantonly, blowing the single-layer trousers to stick to the legs, and it was only about six or seven o'clock at this time.

It is very early, but time has no meaning to a person who suffers from insomnia.I don't even care when the lock on this glass door is unlocked.

"Chen Su!...why..."

Last night when I realized that one of my peers was Cheng Cheng, my guilt increased tenfold.She was carrying a schoolbag and holding the registration book, and she didn't even take a pen. She might never have thought that she would actually catch a pair, or such two people...

Ouyang let me go, out of the corner of her eye, she wrapped her bangs with her hands, without saying a word.I didn't look at her face, let alone look directly at the teacher who was too scared to speak.

"You... you two, come to me before class tomorrow morning." Her tone was serious, full of shock.

After an unknown amount of time, a female teacher with a wrinkled face appeared in front of her eyes. Judging from her figure, she should be the same person from yesterday.

She glanced at me and opened the glass door. "come in."

Follow her upstairs and into a silent hallway.This place is full of adult atmosphere, iron clank, no room for it.Standing at the door of the Academic Affairs Office, the memories of coming here for the first time were brought back.

It was after one of my monthly exams. Because I missed the answer to a big question, I rushed into this door recklessly and begged the director to let me finish painting. The result can be imagined.Looking back, I was still too naive and so fearless, and I was willing to save face for a few points.

Today, however, the situation is fundamentally different.Thinking of her who has not been seen yet, I think I must not shrink back.

"How long have you been dating." So straightforward.

"...not very long."

"What is it?"

"..."

"Do your parents know?"

"I don't know..." Helpless.

"Okay." She adjusted her glasses, took them off again hesitantly, and rubbed her eyes for a while.

I stared blankly at the document in her hand.The words in her eyes were blurry, and she moved them away before I could see them clearly.

Questions about a student's file?It was terrible.

"Actually, the teacher really wants to know how you thought about starting this relationship in the first place."

"I……"

"The comprehensive score remains in the top 20%, and the strength of liberal arts is about stable in the top 5%... You even got No. 1 in the city essay competition. The evaluation in all aspects is not low... Chen Su, even if you are not top-notch, you are good enough. "She looked into my eyes.

"Although I have never heard your name, I knew you would be a good boy at the first sight today," she said. "It's not scary to make mistakes, no matter how ridiculous they are. What kind of students have I never seen? Impulsiveness at your age can be salvaged."

I kept digging at the corners of my clothes with both hands. I was afraid that I would not be able to bear the bombardment, so I kept circling a sentence in my mind.

Ouyang, why don't you come, why don't you come...

"Listen!" She suddenly raised her voice, putting her right hand on my shoulder, "I know you are a very purposeful child, and I don't want to see you ruin your career."

"Chen Su, look at the teacher," she actually smiled, "I believe your parents won't want to see you give up because of a girl, right?"

Thorns of fear grow wildly from under one's feet, and shudders are followed by cruel stings.

"Go back and think about it." She winked and dismissed.

Walking towards the door I should have been eager to escape to, my feet struggled like lead.Struggling in my heart, I turned around, lowered my head and pleaded, "Teacher... can you not tell my family about this?"

She thought for a while, and then asked, "Can you promise to break this relationship immediately?" Her eyes were too deep, and I couldn't read them.

Ten seconds later.

"I... I promise."

……

Chen Su, Chen Su, you still said it, can't you restrain it?Sure enough, you are still afraid.

Sure enough, a coward!

The half-hidden door opened, and the wind rushed in, rubbing against me and sniffing.I have rehearsed countless ways of being tortured and humiliated in my heart all night. I thought I could resist any temptation with silence, but at this moment, self-disappointment overwhelmed anxiety, resentment, and even shame...

Ha, so I just surrendered.

Covering his mouth and running away, he was so confused that he didn't see the figure by the door.

"If anyone misreads the sign here again, don't blame me for being cruel."

"Geography is not memorization by rote, but if you don't even work hard to memorize it, it is quite difficult to learn..."

"The so-called 'facts' of the Sanyuanli anti-British period mentioned in the book are just for you to cope with the unified examination..."

"In your opinion, is Dan Ke a hero in the traditional sense?"

……

"Su Su?"

I turned my head.

"Teacher Cheng called you..." She carefully pointed at the podium.

I numbly stood up and looked at the teacher.Because of the long pause, the students in the front row turned around one after another.

"Just tell me how you interpret the image of Dan Ke."

After half a day of living as a walking dead, I just want to crash into the cold water and never come out again.

"Chen Su! Cheng Min is looking for you, go to her office." Chaoyang said to me.

"Yeah." What should come will still come.

"Susu!"

I saw Zheng Xin, she called me and ran quickly.I don't know what kind of emotion, I ignored her, and rushed to the office, the pace was so fast that I was surprised.

The class teacher was drinking hot tea, and the steaming heat lingered around my face.There are students and teachers coming in and out from time to time, this is not a deserted place.

"What happened in class today?"

I was silent for a long time, and said, "Teacher...you can just say it, it's okay."

"You are just too sensitive," she sighed softly, "I don't know if it's good or bad..."

"Hey, I don't really want to worry about the relationship between men and women. But for self-conscious students, especially you, I don't have to worry about it at all. You can relax and adjust your status slowly. What should you do?"

She lowered her volume and said quietly: "If you really like that boy, you can also keep him in your heart. Time will prove everything, believe in the teacher."

Relationship between men and women? ... boy?

So this is my last mercy?Just treat it as a normal relationship between a man and a woman, and cover up the fact that you think it's despicable?

The girl in the huge grooming mirror has loose hair and disheveled bangs. Her face is more lifeless than a dozen punches, and she is as pale as paper.Suddenly I really want to laugh at this naked person.

The other person in the mirror slowly approached me, her hand was raised a little, and then lowered.My facial features began to twitch, and finally I couldn't bear it anymore, I turned around and hugged her...

"Cry, it feels better to cry..."

I was deeply buried in the fragrance of her long hair and burst into tears.

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