Fate is the enemy GL

Short story, [I don't want to open a new hole]

They, they, they.

Text/Andu Feishen

01 Shame

They always say I look like my mother.

When Father Chen said that, I tore his book and threw it all over the floor.He twitched his eyebrows and looked sad.

"Confucius!"

I was nine years old when my mother was dragged out to parade in the street.I remember that the Baisha River was rushing from south to north, and Tie Sheng, who was guarding the ferry, silently looked at the village at the pier. He was dark and strong, his face was as red as the setting sun, and he had iron-like arms and chest, and a strong body.He finally handed over the pipe and asked me to fill him with tobacco.

"Don't you call me daddy?"

"you are not."

I quickly installed it, and when I turned my head, I saw the winding river bank. The stones on the bank loosened and fell into the river with a plop.The mother was tied to a wooden frame and paraded through the streets, naked and white all over. Those men shouted loudly from below, which frightened the sky full of gray birds. Some of those little things with white bellies and gray backs landed on the ferry. Sheng suddenly dropped the pipe I handed over, stood up and rowed.Shot to the other side like an arrow.

"Father, where are you going?" At that time, I yelled subconsciously, but he was not my father, my father was the lame man from the mill, but Tie Sheng always laughed and said he was my father.

So he smiled: "Go and save your mother."

I remember he broke into the crowd and pulled down his mother who was as soft as mud. She hung on Tiesheng's shoulders. Father Chen stood at the gate of the ancestral hall and called a group of men to chase him and his mother, just like a group of dogs chasing The meat rabbit scene.

I don't know why, but I still remember the scene of that day, when Tiesheng carried his mother on his back, he suddenly stopped his feet, and he said to his mother, "Are you following me?"

"Follow!" With a resolute tone, Wei Xiang taught me the word resolute.

They jumped into the Baisha River, like fish, and the osprey couldn't find them.

Father Chen told me: "They are going to turn into water monsters!"

But I didn't tell him. Later, in the small forest downstream, I saw two people walk out hand in hand, and jumped onto the bandit's boat.

At that time, I was secretly looking forward to it, and someone took me to become the king of the mountain.

But I also feel ashamed, being stripped naked and walking on the street without seeing the sun.

The ferry boat became mine, and girls were not allowed to take the ferry, so Father Chen made the decision and found me a husband's house.

02

"birthday."

"The tenth day of October in the year of Bingyin."

I just got married and married Mizuki.Shuishu was still a three-year-old milk baby, and I was still watching him when he caught Zhou. He sat on the futon, opened his eyes stupidly, and touched the oars.

He touched the paddle?I secretly smiled.

"Hey, he must be an expert at making waves!" Someone in the crowd shouted, but Shuishu's mother was not happy, so she grabbed his hand and put it on the copper coin: "Shuishu wants to make a lot of money."

"Wrong, I want to be a high-ranking official." Shuishu's elder sister Shuixiu took a small iron mark and pushed it over.

"The dead girl wants you to tell me?" Shuishu Niang rolled her eyes at her daughter, and pulled the child with such force that Shuishu cried, and everyone in the ancestral hall fell silent.

"Oh, my baby doesn't cry, it's not auspicious to cry for a week, and you will be in tears all your life..." Shui Shuniang rolled her eyes at everyone, as if it was all because of us that Shui Shu was here on this auspicious day Crying out, "Come, grab the money, you are lucky, you have land, and you can ask for a wife."

I thought it was very funny, Mizuki was crying on the futon, with snot and tears all over his face, I squeezed through the crowd, and handed it to him, the silver bracelet on my wrist was polished and shiny.

Mizuki grabbed my hand just like that, and the crowd burst into laughter.

"Shuishu is going to ask Xiaoyu to be his wife!"

I suddenly became annoyed, I didn't like that sticky hand, I shook off him and walked outside, my name is Meng Dong, my mother's name, but my lame father called me Xiaoyu.

He started crying again, instead of calling his mother, he called his sister.

His sister Shuixiu went to hug him, but he was still crying. I was so frightened that I ran all the way back to the small mill.

They said that I really look like my mother, my mother was also dragged by my father, and she married into the mill, my mother married, but I didn't want to marry, and finally married.The ferry boat became the Mizuki family's, and that was my dowry.

I was nine years old that year, and I got married on the tenth day of October. That day was my birthday. Unfortunately, no one celebrated it for me, and it never happened.

Mizuki called my sister and asked me to take him to play.

"You have to pound rice, then you can go." I pulled my bracelet upwards.

"I won't." Shui Shu's voice was soft, his face was pale, and he wore a melon cap, which looked very much like his annoying father.

"Then wait a while, go and get me the axe."

"Oh." My little husband staggered across the threshold, not at all like a husband.

Shuixiu came in and laughed at me, she was only ten years old, I smiled modestly: "You will marry too, or maybe you won't, anyway soon."

It didn't sound like I said it, but it was really me who said it. I suspected that my mother was attached to me, looking at the front with her transparent eyes, and it sounded like an old lady. the words said.

She suddenly panicked, covered her mouth and nose and ran out to cry. Shui Shuniang waved the broom and said, "Little slut turned back the moment he entered the door? You and your mother are the same vixen."

If my mother was here, what would she say?I kind of wanted to kick over the slop bucket and scold Shuishuniang.

"Shuixiu will follow Cyclops to fight the revolution? Be a bandit?" I wrung a few rags and told lies, which were not considered lies, and my heart was full of pleasure.That's my little secret.Saw it with my eyes.

Mizuki opened her eyes wide.

03

One-eyed Zhang's box gun is what Tiesheng wants most. In his dreams, he wants to twist off one-eyed Zhang's head, and then kill the bastards in the village.

Tiesheng turned out to be such a fruit and vegetable, he fantasized about it while propping up his long pole, his eyes seemed to be filled with rainbows.

"Then you also beat me to death?" I peeled off the lotus pod and ate it, while my mother bundled tobacco leaves inside.

"Bah, you are not a bastard, you are my species, the best! Your mother knows."

Mother scolded: "Not serious."

It was this unscrupulous Tiesheng who led me over the wall and into Cyclopedia Zhang's big cottage that day.

Tiesheng walked towards the front of the mountain, but I got behind the mountain, and I heard a faint voice coming.

From far to near, I heard a woman's mournful cry.

Tiesheng taught me: "Don't look at you as a girl, you have to be bold."

So I ran over, hid myself in a clump of trees, and watched the scene in the small open space.

I saw Mizushu Niang counting a few silver dollars, smiling like a split chrysanthemum.

Shuixiu's trousers were taken off to the ankles, and a man's dark buttocks were shaking violently between his legs.

The man had only one eye open, and I recognized him as the one-eyed Zhang, and I kind of didn't understand what they were doing, but judging from Shuixiu's miserable crying and the blood between his legs, I decided it hurt, and I was a little The son is afraid, afraid of being discovered.

Later, when I grew up, I realized what kind of thing it was. One-eyed Zhang liked to do it the most.I'm glad I didn't yell out, and I didn't go out. After the one-eyed Zhang left, I actually slept in the grass.

After waking up, it was Tiesheng who carried me down the mountain: "Fucking bastard, one eye is not there."

I know where the one-eyed Zhang is, but I dare not tell.

Tiesheng's shoulders and back were a bit like one-eyed Zhang. I was terrified and said, "You let me down, I can walk by myself."

"What's wrong?" He squatted down obediently.

"It's not good." I ran down the mountain in a hurry, my brain was full of blood, and Shuixiu, who was eight years old at the time, screamed pitifully.

In those years, I often had the same dream. I dreamed that my pants were pulled down, and there was a secret pain between my legs until I was 13 years old.That was scarier than the story of the water monster. When I woke up, there was blood between my legs.

At that time, the water tree was breathing evenly beside it, and the moonlight was as bright as mother's mirror.I came to the monthly letter, I didn't understand, got up silently, didn't dare to do anything, sat on the threshold, felt that I was going to die, wanted to cry, but felt that there was no future, so I didn't cry, like a mother.

It was only later that I realized that it was just a false alarm. Shui Shuniang taught me to use long strips of cloth as sanitary belts. I had a stomachache. I knew it would be useless not to tell her.I saw Shuixiu leaning against the door, looking over with a sneer, she didn't have that.I looked at her too, feeling proud.

The way she looked at Shui Shuniang was called hatred.

04 obedience

Chunxi lured Shuixiu to do bad things. It was Xin Sinian. Chunxi was the long-term worker in the family. He had solid eyebrows, could sing folk songs and make lanterns.He originally made a lantern for me, and when he handed it over, his thick arms wrapped around my waist.

"What are you doing?" I lowered my voice and struggled. Mizuki ran from the kitchen and saw this scene. He was ten years old and understood a lot. Those men were with him and often told him: "Mizuki, your sister I'm afraid I'm going to run away with someone!"

"Don't be afraid, she is my daughter-in-law, if she runs away, I will beat her!"

"Water tree, do you dare?"

I know that Shuishu doesn't dare, he treats me better than Shuixiu, he is afraid like he treats his mother.

Seeing Chunxi's actions, he became annoyed, but he couldn't tell what I was thinking.

I told him softly: "Shui Shu, come and drive away this bad guy!"

Shuishu waved the hatchet, Chunxi touched my chest, and walked away with a smile. Shuishu was going to chase him out, so I called him: "Why are you chasing the dog?"

He came back, threw away the knife, and looked at the lantern in my hand for a while: "Sister, you ran away with him, and you will be sunk in the pond."

"Nonsense, I don't want him to run away." No more words, just thinking of my mother, took the lantern and went out.

Shuishu's father died early. In the early years of the cruise ship, he fell headlong from the ferry that Tiesheng left me.

There can't be ferrymen in the village, Shui Shuniang said, so let Chunxi go, I don't want to, but I can't.Father Chen is very old, he bowed his waist like a sledge, he told me that a group of female students come every year, and told me to be a female student, saying that the female students speak strangely, just like me.

He said that suddenly, so suddenly, I was a little scared, so I was annoyed.

"I want to do what you want! What am I going to do?"

When I went up the mountain, Chunxi was singing in the valley, and the ferry was standing aside, lazily and aboveboard.The word fair and aboveboard was learned from Wei Xiang, who was sitting next to Chunxi and listening to him sing at that time.

I threw the lantern in front of him, turned my head and left, someone called me: "Are you a little fish? The hair rope is loose."

That was Wei Xiang, with a lake blue satin dress, white socks and black shoes, and half of her calf exposed. The female students had their hair cut to the bottom of their ears, but she wore long braids and looked at me with a smile.

I couldn't tell what it meant, so I looked at her in embarrassment: "Yeah, the headband is loose and there is no way to wear it, and the buttocks are exposed and there is no way to cover it."

After I finished speaking, I ran down the mountain. She probably didn't understand what I said.

On the first day of October in Xinsi year, Shuixiu and Chunxi did something bad, how did I know?Everyone in the village knows.

If he was caught by One-eyed Zhang, he rode a horse, brought a group of people, and pointed his gun at Chunxi's forehead: "Do you dare to fuck my woman?"

All I can think of is the blood between my legs and the screaming.They represent a metaphor.

"Kneel down and call me grandpa, and I'll let you go. Otherwise, I'll cut off your dick and feed it to the dogs." One Eye stepped on Chunxi's head with one foot, and Chunxi knelt there, being pinned to the ground by several men.

Tiesheng later said that it was a humiliating gesture, a man is not allowed to be stepped on like this, and he will die if stepped on.

"What about Shuixiu?" Shui Shuniang hid behind the crowd, and I was at the front, hearing Cyclops' strange laughter: "Take me back to be my concubine, hey, are you calling or not?"

"Grandpa." Chunxi blushed and whispered.

"Speak louder, I can't hear you."

"Grandpa!" Chunxi cried and roared out, one-eyed Zhang grabbed his hair, pulled it hard, and tore off half of his scarlet scalp, which was rancid and bloody.

Shuixiu also cried, and knelt in front of the one-eyed Zhangjiao.

"You let him go, you let him go! You can do anything to me!"

Mizuki trembled with fright, I asked him to go home in a low voice, but he refused to go.

"Sister, let's go back together."

"Don't be afraid, I want to see what the end of this is."

05

I am not afraid.

Back then, my mother's flesh and blood remained in me.

I squeezed a sunflower plate and bowed my head to eat melon seeds. I was at the most prominent position in the crowd, and my one eye glanced at me, then turned back.

There are several silver dollars on the ground, stained with Chunxi's blood.

His uplifted thing was cut]【dropped, and thrown to the dog, the dog's fur was smooth.

The blood splashed on the silver dollar at the waist of Duo Yan Zhang, and he threw it on the ground casually, looking at people slowly.

Someone has already run home.

Shui Shuniang moved forward involuntarily, and she knelt in front of those silver dollars.

"want to?"

One-eyed Zhang's slow and deep voice is like a lonely ghost in a cemetery.

There was no answer, but her mouth grew, sticky saliva came out.His eyes were fixed on the silver dollar on the ground, like a dog, with a high buttocks and a wagging tail.Everywhere.

"It's yours after licking it clean." One-eyed Zhang wiped the knife and smiled.

So quickly, she grabbed the bloody silver dollar and stuffed it into her mouth, laughed a few times with one eye open, threw a few more down, spit on it, and crushed her feet a few times.

Shui Shuniang still hurriedly grabbed it, stuck out her tongue and licked it, and the saliva flowed down her neck.

Everyone dispersed, and the one-eyed Zhang shot at Shuishuniang, who fell down clutching the silver dollar tightly.White, red, thin, thick, all mixed together.

"Why don't you go?" One-eyed Zhang got on the horse and pointed his gun at me. I didn't speak, so he put away the gun, "Your surname must be Zhang."

"My surname is not Zhang, my name is Xiaoyu."

"Then your name is Meng Dong! You really look like your mother. You resemble everything, but your eyes are the most similar, like a wolf."

"I'm not Meng Dong, I'm Xiaoyu." After I finished speaking, I turned around, and when I heard Chunxiu's cry, I took another look. She was carried on the horse's back, her eyes were full of tears.

"Forget it, your father must be Zhang Tiesheng." He smiled unabated.

"My father's name is not Zhang Tiesheng. My father is a lame man from a mill."

"Your father is not a cripple, but Zhang Tiesheng. You are not called Xiaoyu, you are called Meng Dong. This was decided before you were born. You will be in charge of your in-laws. The ferry is yours, and the mill is yours. Tell me to do it." father."

He restrained his smile.

"who are you?"

"Your father beat me to the song, I am his enemy, I am still his brother, you call me godfather, I will treat you well."

Then I heard a shot, and the cripple of the mill was shot by One Eye.

06

Shuishu fell in love with the ferry, so I told him to learn from the sailors, and I gave him the ferry, and I owned the mill, and hired long-term workers to grind rice and flour.

Then one day, I saw Shuixiu's body thrown at the entrance of the ancestral hall, with black lips and swollen lower body.Mizuki didn't dare to pay attention, and I remembered the dirty and obscure pictures I saw in the woods.Kneeling down and looking at the bruised place, three silver dollars were stuffed inside, the flesh was cut through, the blood had solidified, her whole body was stinky, everyone hid.

"Shuishu, bring me a basin of water." I stretched out my hand to take out the silver dollar, and found that I couldn't get it out after turning over many layers of skin and flesh. The people on the side didn't know what was inside, so they looked at her and me.

They said that Shuishu's daughter-in-law was very much like her mother and her mother-in-law, and loved money.And calm.

The women in the ten miles and eight villages all spread the news of my behavior that day with lingering fear, their faces were calm, and they bowed left and right. From the woman's private parts, which were rotten and ugly, I escaped from there three silver dollars with pus and blood.

I buried my hand and the silver dollar in the water basin: "Her price is these three yuan. Bury her, and use the rest for the coffin."

So that's how the funeral was done, and it was a farce.

Wei Xiang's original words are as follows: "Inherited physical advantages and status advantages, and a Greek mythological farce between ordinary people, the god of relief appears, and that is you."

I rarely understand her words, and I don't know why I hooked up with her.

The soft fingers sink into my recommendation, bringing unspeakable tremors.The first time I did this with her was at the mill, when the water wheel creaked and turned, and her hand stopped on my inner thigh: "Don't be afraid."

I just remembered the scene I had seen, and I was afraid that someone would touch it.

I told her that the eight-year-old Shuixiu was done with that, and the blood flowed out, which was very scary.

So she laughed, put her left hand on my chest, and kneaded slowly: "I am a woman, so don't be afraid."

"Why are we doing this?" I was a little dazed for a while.

She said: "If you don't like it, you will stop when I take off your clothes. You like this feeling. Your ten-year-old husband can't do it. I like you from the moment your hair falls out. You love it, so I do it because I like it, I'm leaving, I want to prove it to you."

On her right hand, I put the bracelet on her wrist. It is shiny and looks better.

She only lied to me once, she said it didn't hurt the first time, but I hurt, I bit her shoulder and groaned like a sigh.I roughly understand why Shuixiu does bad things, Wei Xiang said, pain and happiness, this is called philosophy.

"Do you love me?" Her eyes were full of mist. When I said I love her, she smiled: "Okay, then I love you too, so please reach out." She put my hand on her * "Here, the heart is next to it. If there is a disease there, I will die. Don't give me silver dollars."

I laughed too, and I told her that she wouldn't put silver dollars, and she wouldn't die.She just pinched my nose and kissed my lips.

07

Wei Xiang left in the second year.

Shuishu was already able to ferry, and he left a handful of mulberries for Wei Xiang: "Sister Wei Xiang is coming again, and Sister Wei Xiang is the second most beautiful."

"Who is the most beautiful?" Wei Xiang yelled at the water tree outside, she deliberately teased him.

"It's me!" I continued, we smiled at each other, we were separated from Shuishu by a bead curtain, so we took a long kiss.

There was no news of her after that.

I just think of her, she is prettier than any woman in the village, she has been educated, and she has an extraordinary bearing.

At the age of seventeen, Shuishu realized that I was his wife. He shyly mentioned the matter of consummating the house. I just fed the chickens and ducks, and after a while I turned around and said, "Shuishu, you will cry."

Won't open, always won't open, works horribly there, he tries to force it once, I'm in so much pain, push him away, roll over to sleep, I hear him whimpering, very softly.My consciousness sank, as if soaked in fog.

I dreamed of Shuixiu again, her face had long been blurred, but her private parts were clear and scary, where endless blood flowed out, I got up, in the middle of the night, the flames shot into the sky.

"The revolutionary party is coming!" Someone howled and ran away, I put on my clothes and got out of bed, the water tree was gone, and I sat on the threshold.

A group of people were running outside, and I watched coldly: "Don't run, why are you crying about the big things? Those who should collect rent will collect rent tomorrow, and those who should go to the mill will go to the ship."

"Young Mistress, the Revolutionary Party is coming! One-eyed Zhang is also gone, let's run too!"

"Go back, if the sky falls, you won't be able to bear it!" I yelled sharply, pulled off the silver hairpin from my head and held it in my hand, no matter who came, I should kill one of them.

The revolutionary that day was Tiesheng. When he came back, I used a silver hairpin to draw a hideous slash on his face, and then I saw that it was him.

He recognized me and touched my head. It was the tenth day of October in the Wuzi year, and it was also my birthday.

Everyone came out to celebrate my birthday that night, because Tiesheng wanted them to come out, and he said, "You are Meng Dong, how did the cripple die?"

"One-eyed Zhang shot him down."

"I shot one eye out." He stretched out the gun as he said it, smiling comfortably.

I brought him a bowl of rice wine: "You are brothers."

"People shouldn't have brothers, he stole your mother away." Tie Sheng drank it down.

I watched him for a long time, then took a bowl of stewed meat and a jar of rice wine to the bank of Baisha River.

"Mizuki, my sister is coming to drink with you." I sat on the ferry and watched him, but he didn't speak.

I said I really look like my mother, and he looked up at me: "Sister, you won't be paraded through the streets."

"Because my father is a revolutionary party?"

"Because you are not a dog." He smiled slightly, "Sister."

"Huh? Eat yours quickly."

"No." He lowered his head and began to eat, holding the side of the boat with his left hand.

The hand looks like the movement he made when he grabbed Zhou.

08 ending

More and more corpses drifted from the banks of the Baisha River.

I'm still that little fish, no, it should be Meng Dong, who jumped into the Baisha River in Xinmaonian Tiesheng.

Never came out again.

His gun was handed over to me: "The last bullet is for you."

I told him that I don't know how to shoot, and he said it's fine if someone else can.

Only then did I understand that he pointed to my death and said the last big truth, which is more useful than Confucius.

Why he jumped into the river has become a mystery, I know everything, no one in the village knows, only my heart is bright.

I still look like my mother, and I feel the same way myself.

People would sigh when they mentioned the scene of my death, it was the day when Wei Xiang came back.

Unfortunately, only two silver bracelets came back.

Mizuki pushed her off the ferry and forcibly picked off two bloody bracelets and gave them to me.

"What are you doing?" I stared at Mizuki, and he pushed me down on the bed.

"I take it off myself." So I took off my clothes, and he held my shoulders. My lower body was still very dry, and he leaned over with fierce eyes.

I told him: "Don't look at me, you come in from behind."

"Why?"

"I'm not a human anymore, I'm a dog, that's the dog's posture."

So I turned over, his lower abdomen was pressed against me, I was in terrible pain, as if his movements were violent and wanted to destroy me, I gritted my teeth, for some reason I thought of Shuixiu, Wei Xiang, and her Together, the bottom will get wet.I don't dare to think about it anymore, it will be even more uncomfortable.

I stuffed three silver dollars in my private parts and gave the gun to Mizuki.

"Good boy, it's life, you come and beat me to death."

He didn't say anything, just looked at me for a long time before saying, "Sister, do you hate me?"

"I don't hate you or my life, it should be like this, I am like my mother, I am also like Shuixiu, I am also like Wei Xiang, I am like One Eyed Zhang, I am like Tiesheng, and I am also like you, so my name is Meng Dong, and I am also called Xiaoyu. How many months has it been?"

"October."

"Then throw me out! The river is so cold." After I finished speaking, Mizuki took the gun.

"Why do you have to die?"

"I must die, only those who deserve to live can live. Tie Sheng is right. All the bastards in this village must die. Wei Xiang is also right. This is a Greek mythological tragedy. The God of Relief appears. that's me."

The wind blows into the cracks in the bones, and there are water trees singing on the ferry on the Baisha River. It is the song Chunxi sang, escaped from the ravine, and blew up the lanterns all over the sky. It was also like my mother, who opened her cloudy eyes to see people coming and going, and I was naked, just like her.

Father Chen is getting older, but he is not dead yet. He has a cane, and no one will tie me to a wooden frame.

He said: "You really look like your mother." After a pause, he added: "You look like many women."

I raised my drowsy eyelids, and felt that they were all churning into a mess, his voice came out of the rice pile, his beard stuck to his nose, his eyes were caught behind his buttocks, and his private parts were swollen and painful, I felt something Blood slipped out, they were the water of Baisha River, floating densely packed dead bodies.

So I forced my head up and said, "There will be no one like these women, and no one like me."

"What did you say?" He breathed out slowly, inaudible.

"There won't be any more." After a pause, I exhausted all my strength and said, "Even if there were, they wouldn't be like me anymore."

In the distance, there was a faint gunshot coming gradually, which was vague but real.

I'm sure there won't be any more.