Wind Shakes the Barley

"If he really...he won't have a crush on you, will he?"

Chang Qi kept replaying this sentence in his mind, together with Jiang Xu sending him things, chatting with him, and calling him in the past, he suddenly became suspicious.

Although these can be regarded as Jiang Xu's admiration or respect for him, it seems to make sense to regard him as approaching him with ulterior motives.

If Jiang Xu really likes the same sex, then he can almost be sure that he is missed by Jiang Xu.

Thinking of this possibility, he suddenly felt uncomfortable.

If Ni Shu's guess is true, then even if he didn't show up, Jiang Xu should still fall in love with the same sex in the future, and he shouldn't feel guilty about it.But he really couldn't comfort himself so peacefully, because he knew that Jiang Xu realized that he liked the same sex, and the cause must be himself.

There is still a big difference between 17 years old and 27 years old when they find out that they are gay.

Apart from these, if Jiang Xu admits, what will he do?

Chang Qi held the phone and felt that he had never been so sad. He just felt that this child was not easy for Jiang Xu, and he was motivated, so he wanted to help if he could, and Jiang Xu happened to be treated by someone else. It's the kind that he can return ten points, which leads to the relationship between the two getting closer.

He didn't want to hurt Jiang Xu, but he wanted to be close to being a lover... He never thought about it that way.

One is that Jiang Xu is too young, he has always regarded Jiang Xu as his younger brother.

The second is that he is not clear about his sexual orientation. If he dared to say that he likes girls a few years ago, but he is already 25 and has never thought about girls. Stop re-examining your own sexuality.

Chang Qi immediately passed through the men with good relationships around him, and suddenly found that he didn't seem to be interested in men, so he laughed at himself. Could it be that he is asexual?

Chang Qi never let uncertain things bother him for too long. If his guesses about Jiang Xu were all wrong, then he could leave these questions for later.

So whether to ask Jiang Xu directly, or continue with doubts, Chang Qi hesitated for a second before decisively choosing the former.

At around eight o'clock in the evening, Jiang Xu was staring at the physics test paper in front of him, when the cell phone next to him suddenly rang.

Seeing the name on the screen, he immediately cheered up, and his voice was cheerful: "Doctor Chang!"

As soon as he finished yelling, he heard Dr. Chang throw a bomb at him: "Did you take the comics on the table?"

Jiang Xu was stunned, and involuntarily looked at the drawer of the desk, and then quickly retracted it, feeling that his gaze had nowhere to rest.He pressed his heartbeat and said, taking a breath: "I was worried that it would be seen by others if I put it in your place, and it would have a bad effect on you, so I took it and threw it away."

"Really throw it away?"

Jiang Xu blinked: "Well, after tearing it up and throwing it away, it's not good for someone to pick up that kind of book."

"you……"

Jiang Xu paused for breath, and while he was afraid, he couldn't resist putting his ear into the sound tube, for fear that he would hear the slightest sound over there.

Hearing that Dr. Chang said "you" without further words, his heart beat wildly again.

Does Doctor Chang suspect him?He instantly regretted that he shouldn't have taken the comic. If Doctor Chang guessed that he was gay, he would definitely be disgusted.

Must not be found!

Jiang Xu clenched his fists, and his palms felt pain from his fingertips. He came back to his senses and told himself to stay calm.

"Do you know about homosexuality?"

There was a bang in Jiang Xu's head, his whole body convulsed, his ears buzzed, and he felt his chest beating faster and faster.

Jiang Xu pressed his chest and left the chair lightly. He squatted down on the ground, gave a soft "Huh?", and asked, "What is that?"

He didn't hear clearly what was said on the other end of the phone, but only vaguely heard the words "same sex", "love" and "manga".

He pressed his ears, trying to make the sudden tinnitus go away quickly.

"Hello? Jiang Xu? Are you listening?"

An echo suddenly appeared in Jiang Xu's ears, and the humming became louder and louder.

The lamp on the desk went out with a "snap", and the room was half dark immediately. The dim light printed the curled up shadow on the ground. This group of shadows kept floating and shaking.But at this moment, Jiang Xu was like a wild animal cub being aimed at by a shotgun. Even though he was trembling badly, he was still desperately looking for a chance until the last moment.

"I don't know what homosexuality is! I threw away that comic a long time ago, why did I keep such disgusting things! If you suspect that I am also gay, then stay away from me!"

Jiang Xu gasped and threw the phone aside, the phone hit the wall and made a muffled sound, but Jiang Xu squatted on the ground as if he didn't hear it, buried his head in his knees, and after a while, a voice came from the room. Depressed sobs.

The dormitory of Miaotou Town Hospital.

"You guessed wrong, he is not, not only is he not, but he is also very repulsive to homosexuality. Before I said a few words, the child immediately became anxious with me." Chang Qi sighed, and did not expect Jiang Xu to have such a big reaction.

Speaking of it, he didn't think carefully, and he just asked like that, isn't it obviously suspicious of others?Some straight men are particularly repulsed by homosexuality, Jiang Xu should be one of them, I knew he should be more tactful, or ask the next time we meet.

"Extremely repulsive?" Ni Shu thought for a while on the other end of the phone and asked, "Do you know the term 'homophobia means deep closet'? "

After a moment of silence on the phone, Chang Qi suddenly said: "Do you have any opinion on the child? Although he was not particularly enthusiastic towards you at the beginning, he was dedicated to you, and he didn't forget your share of the gift. Why are you so angry?" Want to put him on homosexuality? If the work is too leisurely, go outside to pick up garbage and make some contributions to the country's environmental protection!"

Ni Shu stared at the phone that was hung up, and was so angry that he wanted to rush over and lift his brother's eyelids, so that he could see clearly whether it was he who insisted on putting Jiang Xu on him, or Jiang Xu himself. Expose yourself!

Even so blind, he accepted it.

And that stinky boy Jiang Xu actually knows how to play with retreat.

Ni Shu gritted his teeth. He didn't expect that the child looked so innocent, but his thoughts were so deep. Did he want to boil his brother like a frog?

At five o'clock in the afternoon the next day, Chang Qi changed clothes after get off work and left the hospital. He went to the intersection and took a taxi directly to the county seat.

He had heard from Jiang Xu that there would usually be stalls at the entrance of the elementary school after school, but when he got there, he didn't find Jiang Xu.

He went to several other places that Jiang Xu frequented, but he still couldn't find anyone.

"Hi Uncle, let me ask, is "Jiangjia Snacks" here today? "Chang Qi walked to the nearby stall selling candied haws and asked.

The uncle was wrapping candied haws for someone, but he didn't look at him when he heard the words, and said in a rough voice: "No, I haven't seen that child all day today."

"You didn't come in the morning?"

"not coming."

"Young man, would you like to try my family's golden silk cakes? It's no worse than Jiang's snacks." An aunt in her forties next to her greeted Chang Qi, "Come and have some? It's delicious."

Chang Qi glanced at the pancakes on her car and looked away, and was about to leave to ask other places when she heard the aunt say: "Young man, why are you so stubborn? If you want to look for it elsewhere, I advise you not to. After spending so much effort, the kid didn’t open the stall today.”

"How do you know he didn't open a stall?" Chang Qi turned to look at her.

"Hey, why do you look at me like that? Although we both sell cakes, we have a good relationship." The aunt gave Chang Qi a blank look, "In the past, my old man and the kid would set up a stall at the attached primary school every morning, but At noon, I heard from my old man that the child did not go, and many people are asking him today, and you are not the first one."

Chang Qi walked to the aunt's booth and took out ten yuan: "Thank you, bring me ten yuan cakes."

Chang Qi carried the cakes and walked towards Jiang Xu's rented house. The child loves to make money so much that he won't rest when he has nothing to do. Could it be that he is sick?

Thinking of this, Chang Qi unconsciously quickened his pace.

When he arrived at the door, he knocked on the door first, but found that there was no answer inside. When he opened the door, he found that it was locked. He suddenly had a bad feeling in his heart, and quickly took out the spare key that Jiang Xu had left with him from his pocket. He unlocked the door directly and entered the house.

"Jiang Xu?"

Chang Qi looked at the empty living room and felt even worse.

The door of the kitchen was open, and the inside was neatly tidied up. The beans were still soaking in the pot, but some of them had sprouted, perhaps because they had been soaking for too long.

Chang Qi took out his mobile phone and dialed again, but it was still the same as countless times before, saying that the connection could not be made.

He stood in the living room, regretting his decision for the first time, why did he doubt Jiang Xu's sexuality because of a comic, and even called to ask.

Although the child looks soft, he has always had a strong self-esteem and a stubborn temper. Knowing that he is suspected of being gay, he must be very angry.

Chang Qi blamed himself terribly, he should have come to see it last night when he found out that the phone couldn't get through.

The author says:

Don't worry, I won't abuse you~

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Ni Shu: Brat is really scheming!

Chang Qi: Children have strong self-esteem and cannot tolerate nonsense from others. Be gentler in the future.

Jiang Xu: Scared me to death! ! !