The high-risk occupation is actually me

"What kind of tone, I want you to coax me? It's not big or small." Hua Ci took the cup, and wrinkled her nose when she sniffed it, like a picky cat.

Hua Lei looked at him with a correct gaze, which slipped to her lips that were a little too rosy.

Hua Ci pinched his nose and drank the milk, handed the cup back, and finally emphasized that he really hates drinking milk the most, hoping to inspire his brother's kindness and not force him next time.

Hualei sighed: "Brother also said not to coax, children drinking milk are not as troublesome as you are."

After finishing speaking, he raised his hand to wipe off the milky white on Hua Ci's lips, the movement was natural and smooth, but it was too intimate, when Hua Ci reacted and wanted to back away, Hua Lei had already retreated to a suitable distance.

The rough touch of the thumb still remained on the lips, and there was a slight tingling. Huaci was inexplicably uncomfortable, but couldn't say anything, so he could only touch the back of his neck and coughed in a disguised way.

In Hualei's eyes, this little action was like a few stones falling on the surface of a silent sea, silently sinking into the bottom of the sea.

"How did I come back just now? You didn't wake me up."

Hua Lei said indifferently: "I carried you back. I remember that you had insomnia for a while before. Seeing that you rarely slept soundly today, I didn't call you."

Huaci thought that she was really good, and she was almost [-] and wanted to be hugged by her younger brother. It was really embarrassing to talk about it.

"I've been fine for a long time. Next time you just wake me up. It's also strange recently. I always feel sleepy and fall asleep very quickly."

Hualei stood up: "Maybe it's spring, and the spring is tired and the autumn is exhausted."

But Huaci knew that he was not. He was afraid of the cold, so he would be weak and sleepy in winter. In previous years, after spring, he would feel obviously relaxed. It is rare for him to be so sleepy like this year.

He opened his mouth, but didn't say anything.Hualei is very thoughtful, he has missed him a lot in the past, and he doesn't want Hualei to worry too much about him.

After chatting casually for a while, it was getting late.Before leaving the room, Hua Lei asked: "Where will I eat tomorrow, at home or at the company? If I eat at home, I will contact the nanny in advance."

Hua Ci was stunned for a moment: "I can do it, you decide, I'll listen to you."

Hualei smiled, and gently closed the door for him after saying good night.For some reason, he felt that Hualei seemed much happier after hearing this sentence.

Why is that?

Because you listen to him?

Are you too busy recently, thinking about these weird things...

Huaci shook his head, went into the bathroom to wash up, and when he looked in the mirror, he found that his lips were a little different from the redness of the past, and the tingling sensation has not disappeared.

Is it swollen?

Huaci leaned closer to the mirror to look, the water was steaming, he wiped the mirror several times but still couldn't see it clearly, the phone rang, he simply didn't bother to take care of it.

"Yo, Master Fengda, if you don't spend the night with your drawings this big night, why do you think of me?"

"Don't run on me, it's rare for me to call you, how unhappy I am."

Huaci laughed, put the phone on the table and turned on the speakerphone, and dried her hair: "I'm not joking with you, what's the matter?"

He and Feng Tang are both busy with work, afraid of delaying the other party's business, they will say anything that is not important through WeChat, and seldom call directly.

Feng Tang's voice was a little excited: "Brother, I will return to S City at the end of April. I just confirmed today. I told you first, and I am ready to clean up the dust for me!"

This is really a surprise, the design firm where Feng Tang works is very famous, he has been at the headquarters in City B since he graduated, and he has never heard that he has plans to come back, it is really sudden.

Hua Ci took two quick steps, picked up the phone: "Why, you were finally opened by your design?"

He talks to Feng Tang most casually, he never has to think too much about what to say, just like now although he is full of happiness that his good friend will come to his city, he still has to run.

"Fuck you, if I'm really fired, are you still gloating?" Feng Tang laughed angrily, scolded him a few words, and stammered, "I'm... going back to find true love."

Hua Ci was silent: "What surprises do you have that I don't know about?"

Feng Tang just waited for his words, and couldn't wait to tell him in detail from the beginning to the end of his frustration experience in less than two months since the end of the year.

Huaci listened without saying a word: "So you fell in love with the soul of one of your customers in S City, and even the two of you haven't met, and you don't know what she looks like, so you invite her Work in S City, in order to pursue your true love down-to-earth."

"That's right, that's right, that's it. Let me tell you, I haven't seen someone whose soul is so compatible. There are many points that I can't even express. I don't need to say more. If I mention it a little, she will understand immediately. I I've never felt like this before!"

"I can tell that you are very excited." Hua Ci nodded, and asked while replying to the email, "What did the other party say when they knew you came to S City, didn't you say you want to meet?"

Feng Tang: "Ah? What? She doesn't know, I didn't tell her, what a burden she has!"

"..." Hua Ci, "I can't understand it, but I was shocked."

Feng Tang disagreed: "What do you mean by that? Why aren't you happy for me?"

Hua Ci: "Well... do you artists think like this? I didn't realize that you are such a serious person before?"

I never saw before that you are such a person who is easily deceived by the lard of love.

He chose his words carefully, thinking of the friendship between the two of them, he still shut up.

"First of all, I don't do art, I do architecture." Feng Tang's tone became a little more serious, "Secondly, Hua Ci, I really think that finding a soul mate is more important than anything else, money, fame and fortune in this life They are all false, only the resonance of the soul is real and can last forever."

"Since there is such a person here, I think it's worth it for me to go back to S City."

"How many people spend their whole lives throwing sesame seeds and picking watermelons, but in the end they don't know what is the most precious. Instead, they feel that their feelings are vulgar. They think they are mature. I have been single all these years because I don't want to get married or fall in love. I just want to find someone like you. The right person seems to be found now, I have to drop everything and go find her, I have to try, I'm afraid I'll miss it."

"Love is something that some people have never experienced in their entire lives, and some people don't take it seriously when they get it. I'm different. I knew it was rare from the very beginning, and I was just waiting for it."

The fingertips tapping on the keyboard slowly paused, and Hua Ci's attention was taken away from the email.

"Hua Ci, let me tell you these things directly. Did I catch up in the end? Is it this person? What results did I get? I don't feel ashamed if I let you know. It's not just because we grew up together Yes, I know you understand, you understand what I mean."

The two were silent for a while on the phone.

Hua Ci calmed down, he knew that he really understood.He has never been so impetuous, like Feng Tang, they are the ones who know what is the most precious from the very beginning.

A long, long time ago, all Huaci’s thoughts on life were exactly the same as Fengzhe’s current path. Do what .

These thoughts, which are as clear as glass, have long been forced to deviate from the track and become a thorn in his heart, reminding him from time to time that he had such a beautiful dream when he was young.

When he was deeply drunk, or when he was too sober, it hurt him, so he also buried this glass deeply, at first he pretended to forget it, but now he really forgot it.So much so that when he really saw the windshield glass glistening in the sun, his first reaction, like all ignorant, arrogant, greedy and remorseful people, was that it was absurd.

"Congratulations on finding your true love soon...I really envy you." Huaci said with a smile in his voice, "You said how lucky you are, so lucky that I'm a little jealous of you."

This time, it was Huan Fengzhang who was silent: "Huaci... I, hell, I don't know how to say it... But now that Hualei has grown up, you have managed the Hua family well enough, and you have done well enough That's enough."

"The... car accident back then was an accident. You were an underage child at the time. You really don't want to put such heavy shackles on yourself. It's not your fault."

"Feng Tang, stop talking." Hua Ci's voice was slightly hoarse.

The two remained silent.

"If I don't say it, no one will really say it." Feng Tang's voice also lowered, "Your body injury has healed long ago, but what about your heart? Do you remember what you were like before you were 17 years old? At that time you How did you laugh and talk, what did you want to do at that time, can't you let yourself go?"

Word by word, every word, pierced Hua Ci's throat, blood flowed down her throat, internal organs were burning, burning violently, the smell of gasoline...

The sound of tires rubbing violently...

The shattered glass slid across the cheek, and the nose was bloody...

Men and women rushed towards him in panic, and the mountain-like body was protecting him, which was a burden he could not bear in his life.

"Small words—"

"Help... help..."

"Xiao Ci, don't be afraid... take care of my brother..."

"Brother, woo woo, why are you still awake..."

"Brother, why did Mom and Dad disappear?"

"Brother, I'm afraid..."

Hua Ci's breath was tightly clenched, and he gasped for breath with difficulty. He stood up abruptly and hung up the phone, leaning on the table and bending down in pain.

Let me go?

Then who will let Hualei go?He didn't have to grow up without father and mother, he should have been carefree.

Then who will let Hua Muzhi and Li Mingjuan go?They have a successful career, a loving husband and wife, and a smart and beautiful son. They should have had a good life, and they should have a life that is so happy that everyone envies.

Just like before Hua Ci appeared...

Why should he let himself go?Does he deserve it?

If it wasn't for his existence, perhaps that accident would not have occurred, and perhaps Hua Muzhi and Li Mingjuan would not have died when the accident happened...

Why should I let myself go?

I am a thief.

I stole their happy life.

All because of me.