The high-risk occupation is actually me

Hualei had long noticed the small movements of Huaci when he was about to wake up. First, his dark eyelashes shook irregularly a few times, and then his index finger trembled suddenly, which meant that he was about to wake up.

Huaci's index finger trembled unconsciously, opened his eyes, and buried himself in Hualei's shoulder for a few minutes in a daze, then raised his head to meet his focused gaze, his expression still a bit dazed.

The two stared at each other silently for a while, Hua Ci suddenly realized something, raised his hand to cover his lips, Hua Lei's tendency to kiss did not stop, tilted his head slightly, and a deep kiss fell on his warm palm.

Quietly and thrillingly.

Hua Ci's fingers subconsciously curled up. He looked down at Hua Lei who was close at hand. His side face was focused and gentle, his long eyelashes drooped slightly, and his eyes were filled with a vast black color. .

Huaci was held in his arms and kissed for half a minute before he completed the "good morning kiss" and was let go.

"What time is it? I didn't set the alarm clock yesterday, and I was afraid that I would go to bed too late."

Hualei said, "It's okay, I'm here."

Huaci supported his chest and sat up, frowning: "Did you not rest?"

Hualei avoided talking about it, and just said: "I haven't set the alarm clock for a long time, and I have never slept late, because you are very stingy, and you don't want to appear earlier in your dreams. Every time I dream of reuniting with you, I know Its daybreak."

Huaci's heart skipped a beat, and she turned her head to look at him steadily.

Hualei also sat up from the bed, raised her eyes to meet his gaze, her gaze was calm and gentle: "But I didn't miss you every day, I hid you very deeply at that time, only occasionally Digging it out from a very deep place to take a look, it's like... having to float up from the bottom of the sea to take a breath."

Hua Ci opened his mouth, but was unable to speak.

"Why do you look like you're about to cry?" Hua Lei sighed and said with a smile, "I didn't want to make my brother feel bad."

Hua Ci threw her arms around his neck, hugged him very tightly, and whispered: "Do you have to break my heart to be happy? You were still a good boy yesterday."

Hualei hugged him back, buried him by his neck and took a deep breath, hugged him tightly to the side of the bed, leaned over to put on socks for him: "But I have a bad nature, and I like to see you caring about me the most. Only seeing you love me and hurt me and I can't extricate myself can I feel at ease."

The content of the sentence is not pure, but the tone is by no means aggressive, but rather like a request.

Love me a lot.

Love me a little more.

Just love me, count me please.

His eloquence and eloquence are never used in affectionate places, as if subconsciously isolated, but Huaci can understand, his gaze suddenly became deep, and he leaned forward and patted his hair: "Okay, promise you."

The daily schedule of the nursing home forced him to stop his daily hurried steps, Huaci seemed to be wearing a small tail, and accompanied him to finish breakfast, and then went for a walk together.

There was still some cold humidity by the lake in the morning, Hualei refused to let go of the flowers and left there, supporting him for a slow walk in the cedar forest.

"When will brother leave?"

Hua Ci's hand was warmed by him putting it in his own pocket, and his fingertips were itchy from being kneaded. He was stunned for a moment, and looked at him sideways: "Aren't you going to let me accompany you?"

There are not many people around. Occasionally, people jog on the long trail, and it is very quiet. The white lines on both sides of the trail stretch forward infinitely, as if leading to an invisible end.

Hua Lei didn't look at him, but said, "Don't you still have a lot of photography invitations? You can't stay here for long."

"It's just a hobby, and you can put it aside for a while. I'm also writing articles for some websites and magazines, as long as I have a computer at hand." Huaci said, "I asked the dean, and he can transfer us a suite. , I can be here."

"If I can't be cured, I will be locked up here forever, and you will accompany me?"

Huaci paused, frowning slightly, Hualei followed him to a standstill, her expression still normal.

"The dean said that you are actually very well controlled, and there is no big question..."

"I know that I can't become normal. I need constant treatment and suppression to keep from getting out of control. Every time I get out of control, it means that I will hurt you." Hua Lei's tone remained the same. Very calm, "And my brother has his own freedom, there are things he wants to do, isn't one of your dreams just getting angry? How can you stay here with me all the time."

Hua Ci's throat moved. He felt that he was suddenly faced with some problems, but he didn't know where to untie the mess, so he could only pick one point first: "About the matter of freedom, I have always emphasized it because I think we are brothers. The family will be separated, you have someone you really rely on, but now we are already a family in another sense, if you don’t let me go, I will never leave you in this life, so career is just an accessory of my love for you , I still want to be with you more."

Hua Lei looked at him and smiled, but he was not so happy: "Then if we are brothers, you can rest assured to pursue your freedom and watch me die in the mud? And why do you say that I won't let you go?" , you won’t leave me. Until now, you still think that I have the possibility to let you go? Why do you doubt me? Why do I let you go, and you just go? Didn’t you say you would never leave me? So Is it still conditional?"

Huaci was stunned by the continuous calls like a cannonball. Seeing Hualei who spit out these words with a gentle expression on his face, he shivered in the cold wind.

Hua Lei never let go of his hand. Seeing Hua Ci's shivering, he rubbed his hand again and hid it tightly in his warm palm. He raised his head and smiled again: "So I said I'm not normal. Ah brother, just like this, I will continue to have similar thoughts, constantly questioning myself and you, I need infinite love, and it may not be able to fill my black hole, are you afraid?"

Bai Qi fluctuated between the two of them as they spoke, blurring their expressions.

Huaci seems to finally understand what is the problem between the two of them. This problem is very simple, but the consequences are endless. Hualei thinks it is very difficult. In fact, the solution is very simple. Him, let him feel incomprehensible.

"So are you going to let go of my hand?"

Hua Ci took out his warm hands from his pockets, his hands rarely have such a comfortable temperature in such weather.

Hua Lei was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, and subconsciously wanted to grab Hua Ci's hand back, but before he could, he looked down at the corner of Hua Ci's cold lips, and suddenly there was an angry self-defeating in his heart.

However, before the emotion surged, Huaci had already grabbed his collar to force him to bow his head, bit his lips very hard, and then rubbed it gently, as if he still felt distressed.

"I'm going to be forced into a kissing maniac by you." Huaci murmured in a low voice, letting go of Hualei who looked at her foolishly.

He raised his hand and knocked on his forehead, as it should be, "Little bastard is getting worse and worse than before. He used to be able to say a few obedient words when he acted like a baby, but now he only scares people when he acts like a baby. Who else can understand what you mean. "

Hua Lei frowned: "I'm not kidding you."

"It doesn't matter if you're joking or not." Huaci felt a little cold, and when Hualei was staring at him, he shoved his hands back into his coat pocket, "I'm not scared at all, but rather happy, because You told me everything, your troubles and your unhappiness, I want to know all of these."

His gaze became very deep and serious: "As you said, I don't question the fact that you will be by my side for the rest of your life. Do you want to question my inexhaustible love for you? You can weigh it yourself, Am I pouring all the love of my life on you alone?"

Hua Lei looked down at him with dark eyes.

"There is a normal standard for my younger brother, but everyone's lover standard is different, so I don't love you normally, I love every aspect of you, how bad thoughts you have for me, how strong monopoly Desire, I think you are very good, handsome, and I like you very much. So you don’t have to be afraid, I have endless love to fill you, because every time I look at you, my love for you will increase by hundreds, no There will be a day when it runs out."

Hualei felt that he was getting smaller and smaller as he lived. He didn't even dare to think about such nasty words before, but now he can stand on the road under the blue sky and daylight, looking at Hualei's eyes without turning red, saying every word. Clearly and resoundingly.

Of course, Hualei doesn't feel nauseous, he just feels like a spring breeze, wishing to record these words and play them a hundred and eighty times a day, and set it as a mobile phone ringtone.

"Will my brother tell me that every day?"

Huaci froze for a moment, then nodded with a smile: "Yes."

Hualei clenched his fingers tightly: "Then if I do this again in the future, will you find me annoying?"

The smile on Hua Ci's lips did not fade away, dragging him to continue walking slowly along the long white line: "No."

Hualei paused for a few seconds, then whispered to Huaci: "Brother, take me out...I don't want to be locked up here anymore, I don't like it here."

Huaci's heart sank softly, and said: "Then please beg me."

Hua Lei didn't pause at all: "I beg my brother."

Hua Ci's laughter was clear and bright: "Okay, my brother will take you to elope."

Huaci could decisively agree to him, of course, he had talked with the attending doctor and the dean in advance. They all explained that Hualei was accompanied by Huaci, and his condition was not serious enough to require compulsory medical treatment. As long as it can be controlled slowly and reasonably with drugs, Fully capable of self-healing.

Huaci is also sensitively aware that Hualei is always depressed in this pleasant place, and he has long had the idea of ​​taking Hualei out. At this time, Hualei can propose by himself, and naturally agrees kindly, but there must be three chapters along the way. , ordered Hualei to take good care of her body, and could no longer torment herself with electrotherapy.