The Canary's Trap

After the heavy snowfall in the small town, the weather has never been clearer, and the temperature has begun to rise sharply.

Not long after, Lu Ling resigned from the bar, and Shen Yuchuan was also anxious to put an end to things here.The two of them didn't say anything, and they made peace with each other. Taking Lu Ling back seemed to be a tacit agreement between the two of them.

Lu Ling was obviously anxious in those few days. Shen Yuchuan was not a careful person, but he could feel all the changes in Lu Ling's emotions and mood. Thinking about it, he just put all his feelings for the outside world on Lu Ling, that's why I can understand him better than I understand myself.

He knew that Lu Ling's heart knot also needed to be untied, and he also hoped that he would be the one who saved him and could be trusted by him.

One night near New Year's Day, Lu Ling was lying on the balcony alone in a daze.

As soon as Shen Yuchuan walked out of the kitchen, he saw him standing there in thin clothes, indescribably lonely in the winter night, and his heart twitched. He couldn't help thinking that he had walked here in this year. Regret that I did not find him sooner.

Shen Yuchuan took off his coat from the hanger, walked gently to Lu Ling's side, put it on him, and rubbed his hair: "Lu Lu, what are you doing standing here in such a cold weather?"

Lu Ling turned his head, his eyes sparkled, and he smiled and said, "Brother Shen, look—" He pointed to a few sparse and bright stars in the night sky, "I can see stars today."

Shen Yuchuan followed his gaze, bent the corner of his mouth: "I can indeed see it."

Lu Ling raised his hand, and said as if thinking of something: "Brother Shen, do you know that when you reach out to pick up the stars, even if you pick up the sky, your hands will not be full of dirt."

Shen Yuchuan pulled him into his arms, and finally smiled: "If you can't pick it up, I will pick it up for you."

"No!" Lu Ling refused, "Shen Yuchuan, am I a child, I need you to help me with anything."

Shen Yuchuan was stunned for a moment, also, Lu Ling is no longer the same Lu Ling from before.

"Well, I won't help you." Shen Yu changed his words, "You come by yourself, and I will stand behind you."

Lu Ling's heart warmed up, and she felt as if she had the courage to face all the difficulties of returning to City A.

Under the dim starlight, Shen Yuchuan squeezed his fingers, Lu Ling was extremely peaceful, he cherished this moment very much, and finally made peace with himself in his heart.

"Shen Yuchuan..." He raised his head and called to the man behind him with a soft voice.

"Well, tell me, I'm listening."

Lu Ling smiled relievedly: "You know, when I was standing here just now, I kept thinking..."

"Thinking about what?"

"I'm thinking about what kind of experience can make me reborn and really grow."

Shen Yuchuan's heart tightened, he remained silent, and quietly listened to what he said.

"Probably by smashing every bone and seam of me and grinding the blood and meridians of my whole body into powder, in order to fabricate a new self, a self that can withstand all sufferings, and can also look down on all the honored self."

"I completed my long-overdue growth in just one day. And my 24-year-old is also growing."

Shen Yuchuan clenched his hand even harder: "Lu Lu, I'm sorry, Brother Shen is all stupid, if I let go of my hatred for Lu Zhengan sooner—"

"Brother Shen, you didn't feel sorry for anyone, and I didn't feel sorry for you either. I paid myself to you."

Shen Yuchuan hugged him from behind, buried his chin in his neck: "Lu Ling, I only want you."

Lu Ling continued to look up at the stars in the sky: "On the contrary, Shen Yuchuan, I should thank you for this growing pain, thank you for not regretting all my choices. I have never hated you, Brother Shen, you have everything Didn't do it, but I grew up because of it."

Shen Yuchuan nodded: "Well, my little friend has grown up."

Lu Ling turned around easily, hugged him, and then said seriously: "Brother Shen, do you know that I seem to have left City A, the Lu family, and lived independently for so long, but I am still timid. Little one, I sent my father to prison, and my grandma didn't care about me anymore, I...I really hurt in my heart, I dare not face it when I leave them. "

"I don't even know what I'm doing is right or not. I've been stuck in a tangle of guilt and can't get out. It's not that I don't want to go back with you, Shen Yuchuan, I don't hate you a long time ago..." Lu Ling paused when he said this For a moment, "No, I never hated you. In front of you, I will never have any feelings other than liking. Even if it is hard to be sad, it is based on my liking for not giving up."

"I don't leave with you, not because you imprisoned me, deceived me, and threatened me. On the contrary, I now know that I...we are the sinners. In fact——" Lu Ling's heart finally opened to Shen Yuchuan, He also opened to himself, "Brother Shen, I don't think I deserve happiness or being liked by others. I can only exile myself in this way so that I can feel better and reduce my debt to my father and grandma."

"I don't dare to go back to City A, I'm afraid they won't want to see me, I'm afraid that I will continue to be in pain, and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be in pain."

Shen Yuchuan felt so distressed when he heard Lu Ling say these words, but he didn't interrupt Lu Ling, he knew what kind of courage and determination Lu Ling was using to bid farewell to the past.

"But", Lu Ling smiled brightly, "When I saw Yuan Qi, I suddenly figured it out."

"Brother Shen, my choice is not wrong. If I do it again, I will do it again." He seemed to make a promise to himself and others, "After doing this, I will choose another one." A way to face it, instead of evading it like it is now."

"However, it's not too late, Shen Yuchuan, I'll go back with you."

Shen Yuchuan's eyes were sour, he didn't know what to say to Lu Ling to express his feelings at the moment, so he just nodded stupidly.

Lu Ling had never seen him so dull, and when he made him laugh, his heart became more and more open.

Yuan Qi returned to his hometown and started his new life, and Shen Yuchuan also gave up his long-standing hatred for Lu Zhengan.Then he did nothing wrong.

He was just sorry for Lu Zhengan and Shen Yuchuan, so he would use his whole life to repay it.

They are the most important people in their life, and they must understand him and not blame him.

Lu Ling felt that at this moment, he had truly grown up.

Seeing his serious and determined appearance, Shen Yuchuan felt suddenly relaxed, and asked him with a smile: "My little friend, did you cry when you grew up?"

"Why am I crying?"

"When children grow up, they always have to cry a lot."

Lu Ling tilted his head to look at him, and replied, "I cried before when I was not growing up."

"But when I grow up, I won't cry anymore." After thinking about it, I added: "I have never cried in front of others!"