The Canary's Trap

Wang Fang shook her head: "No. Yu Chuan has never been angry with Shen Cheng. The person he hates the most is actually himself. After he went to the United States, he never came back."

"But it's definitely not because of resentment and Shen Cheng's abandonment of him. Yu Chuan just felt that he had done something wrong. When he found me later, he also explained the reason. He said that Shen Cheng must have resented him for sending him away so cruelly. He, I don't want to see him again."

"But uncle has been waiting for him to return to China..." Lu Ling interrupted.

"Yes, Shen Cheng has always wanted Yu Chuan to go back to China to take a look at him, but Yu Chuan has never been back since he went to the United States. He thought that Shen Cheng didn't want to see him, and he also felt that he had concealed He Jing's cheating. This matter has been kept a secret for several years, it is an accomplice who deceived Shen Cheng, and he has no face to go back and accuse him of it."

"Lu Ling, this is exactly his lifelong regret, and it's also where his knot lies."

"Hard knot?" Lu Ling asked back.

"Yes, that's why he has been suffering from insomnia." Wang Fang's expression became serious: "Yu Chuan finally got through the test in his heart, and couldn't help but want to go back to China to see Shen Cheng, but what he got was that he had already left. The news of his death in a car accident happened so suddenly that Yu Chuan didn't even see him for the last time, which became the biggest regret in his heart."

"And that's when I became his psychological counselor. On the day he came to see me, it rained heavily."

Wang Fang was so impressed with that day.

It was raining heavily and the sky was dark. Seeing that there was no one in the hospital, Wang Fang planned to get off work and go home early.

"When I pushed open the door of the office, I saw Yu Chuan was drenched and standing alone in the corridor."

The light in the corridor was too dim, and Shen Yuchuan's face was buried in the shadows, so he couldn't really see the expression on his face at that time.

His clothes were all soaked by the rain, dripping on the hospital floor, and there was a misty cloud of water vapor on his face, his whole body was full of embarrassment and decadence.

He raised his head, his eyes were red, and his voice was hoarse: "Hello, are you Aunt Wang?"

Only now did Wang Fang see clearly that he was Shen Yuchuan whom he hadn't seen for a long time, and she was taken aback: "Yu Chuan...is that you?"

Shen Yuchuan silently nodded to her.

Since Wang Fang got married and worked, she rarely went back to her hometown, and she didn't know much about the recent situation of Shen Cheng's family. When she left her hometown for work, Shen Yuchuan's family moved to City A, and the couple divorced at that time.

She is usually busy with work and has her own family, so it is difficult to pay more attention to other things.

But after several years, when he saw Shen Yuchuan again, he couldn't help being surprised and uneasy, and vaguely felt that this child was a little different from before.

"How should I put it, this may be my intuition as a psychiatrist. I also grew up watching Yu Chuan. He was a bit withdrawn because of He Jing's gossip since he was a child. Seeing him again, I feel that nothing but Loneliness, and something else."

"He was only a teenager at the time, but there was deep hatred in his eyes, which made people feel chills."

"Hate?" Lu Ling was startled.

"Yes, hate." Wang Fang replied, "I didn't know until later what he was hating."

Shen Yuchuan followed Wang Fang into the room. Wang Fang was afraid that he would not catch a cold if he got wet in the rain, so she found a set of clean casual clothes for him, and told him to go to the changing room to change.

When Shen Yuchuan sat next to her again, there was a haze in his eyes, and Wang Fang was able to see clearly that his arms were covered with small but deep-burned knife wounds, which made it uncomfortable to watch.

He sat alone for a while, and began to say to Wang Fang with no expression: "I'm sorry, Aunt Wang, to disturb you suddenly, but I—"

"I really need your help."

Shen Yuchuan had heard from Shen Cheng that Wang Fang was working as a psychiatrist in this hospital before, and he couldn't trust others, and being able to find Wang Fang was enough to show that he was almost unable to hold on.

Wang Fang has practiced for many years and has seen all kinds of patients. It is not uncommon for Shen Yuchuan to be more defensive than Shen Yuchuan, but Shen Yuchuan is obviously more difficult than others.

"He is willing to cooperate with everything, but he is unwilling to say anything." Wang Fang sighed, "To put it simply, Yu Chuan has something hidden in his heart, and he wants to forget it, or knowing it will overwhelm him, but he suffers from For some reason, I can't tell."

"He told me that after Shen Cheng passed away, he would have nightmares every night."

——"Aunt Wang, I... I have suffered from severe insomnia recently. I started to take sleeping pills and I was able to sleep well for a while, but later, the sleeping pills didn't work anymore, and no matter how high the dose was, it didn't work."

"I would dream of my father... he was standing in front of me, but I couldn't see his face clearly, his body was covered with water, and he stretched out his hand, as if he was asking me for help, but when I wanted to hold him, he would suddenly disappear--"

Shen Yuchuan had more and more nightmares, but no matter what kind of dreams, Shen Cheng would always exist.

In the dream, sometimes it would rain heavily, and Shen Cheng would knock on his door in the rain, saying that he regretted driving him away and wanted to bring him home, but in the end he would always be brought to the bridge where the car accident happened, suddenly gloomy Sen's smile firmly dragged him into the icy river.

Sometimes, he would also dream of the scene of Shen Cheng's car accident. He saw Shen Cheng lying in a pool of blood and wanted to hold his hand, but the next second, Shen Cheng would suddenly open his eyes and slam him with bloody hands. push into the bridge.

Shen Cheng began to appear around him everywhere, tore open a gap in the gate of hell, and stretched out his hand in an attempt to fall into the abyss with him.Shen Yuchuan even felt that he was not actually dead, he was always watching him by his side, when he did anything, he felt a pair of eyes staring at him, smiling at him, wanting to talk to him.

But he still couldn't hear what Shen Cheng was saying, the more he tried to listen, the more Shen Cheng didn't say anything, he would only drag him into the same darkness as himself in his dreams again and again.

And Shen Yuchuan couldn't see his face clearly in his dream at all, he was dripping with blood, covered in water, and always had a strange smile on his face.

"Aunt Wang, Dad is asking me for help, he hopes that I can save him...or, he wants me to avenge him." Shen Yuchuan was in a trance when he said these words.

Wang Fang concluded that he had developed severe hypochondria.

"I told him that it was his obsession, as well as his bewilderment and fantasy. Shen Cheng didn't ask him for help or ask him to take revenge. Yu Chuan didn't refute me like other patients and didn't trust me. Instead, he agreed with me. He also cooperated with me very much and did a lot of treatment. Unfortunately, I failed to help him. His insomnia began to get worse and worse, and he had more and more nightmares. When he came to me, he was more energetic than ever One time, I am very worried about him, afraid that this kid will not be able to survive."

"Shen Cheng's death brought him a lot of trauma. I also took over similar difficult illnesses, lost loved ones, and couldn't get over the hurdle in my heart. But in the end, I can always find suitable therapy to help them out of the shadows. But these are all ineffective on Yu Chuan's body."

Wang Fang's expression gradually froze, she glanced at the pale Lu Ling, and asked concerned: "Student Lu, are you alright?"

Lu Ling shook his head dully: "I'm fine, Doctor Wang, you can continue."

"Later, in the process of constant contact, I finally knew what he hated and what he was obsessed with—"

"Shen Yuchuan is hating himself, hating himself for cheating the best person in the world to him with He Jing in order to conceal his life experience, and betraying his trust. But this itself is understandable, he just needs to get along well with Shen Cheng By apologizing and making up for him more, the relationship between father and son can be repaired, but he encouraged himself to get out of that hurdle, and when he took the first step, Shen Cheng died in a car accident."

"This is the cut that Shen Yuchuan will never get through later. He did one thing wrong, and he finally mustered up the courage to repent, but God didn't give him this opportunity. If there is a way to make up for the previous regret, then the later The car accident will completely deepen and aggravate this level of regret, and all the irreconcilable pain will be infinitely magnified, tormenting him repeatedly. He hates himself, hates the car accident, if he was lucky enough to meet Shen Cheng , tell him a word of humility, and Shen Cheng is willing to confess to him his good intentions, telling him that he has never complained about his deception, maybe Yu Chuan will not be so painful."

"When he was most flustered, he just begged Shen Cheng not to leave him, but he didn't have time to say sorry to him, but it was too late when he wanted to. Lu Ling, do you know how much he can hurt? He Later, I kept having nightmares, all of which were inseparable from the car accident, and I gradually discovered some abnormalities."

"Yu Chuan's hatred seems to have shifted. Apart from hating himself, he seems to hate something else. I boldly guess that it has something to do with the car accident. The car accident seems to have become the cause of his hatred. He found something in the car accident that could untangle his knot, but he said everything, and deliberately concealed some truths and secrets that he didn't want me to know."

"Lu Ling, this secret may be the reason for his insomnia, and it is also his obsession for so many years to get to the present."

"I am a failed psychiatrist. Yu Chuan then received treatment intermittently for several years. Every year, we would agree on a fixed time and place. He came back to China to find me. It was difficult for him to trust other people. Only when he was in college, we suddenly lost contact. I couldn’t help him, and I didn’t want to continue to bother him. In fact, psychological illness often needs enough time to heal itself. At that time, I hope that he can get out of this trauma."

"I contacted him again. A few months ago, he took the initiative to call me and said that he encountered a problem that could not be solved and wanted to ask me for help. We made an appointment, but he unilaterally canceled it." Fang looked at Lu Ling with anticipation: "Until I accidentally saw you in the hospital, Lu Ling, I finally saw something else in Shen Yuchuan's eyes. Auntie is not stupid, nor is she a stickler. He likes you." You, I like you very much, Lu Ling, you are the antidote that can save him, and it is for this reason that I tell you these things, so that you can understand Shen Yuchuan better and know how important you are to him .”

If the antidote is lost, it will become his poison again, just like you give a life-saving spring to a traveler on the verge of death in the desert, but take away his camel and put him in deeper despair. Just go completely insane.