After the substitute, he counterattacked and became Bai Yueguang

Qi Tang seems to have become more silent than before, he still smiles gently, and still tolerates Lin An's petty temper.

But Lin An could feel that something was different.

What exactly had changed, he couldn't tell.

Staying with Qi Tang every day, Lin An is happy and satisfied, but also has a fear of gain and loss.

He has a feeling that the child is around him, but his heart is not there.

And he always felt that the bond between the two was as fragile as a spider's thread.

Lin An tossed and turned every night, and his insomnia began to worsen, but when he saw Qi Tang during the day, he would feel at ease again.

That suitcase has been there for several days.

Every time Lin An noticed it, his eyes would stay for a long time.

Once when he got up early, he suddenly found Qi Tang squatting at the door, packing things into boxes.

Lin An was a little curious, but he held back and didn't ask further questions.

The life of the two of them is very ordinary, but there is a kind of quiet beauty.

Until Lin An found out again that Qi Tang was packing things into that box.

He always felt a little uneasy in his heart, so he asked casually:

"Is this box going out? Is it for storing things?"

Qi Tang just glanced at him indifferently, with a calm expression: "Don't ask, I don't like it."

Lin An was stunned, and felt a dull pain in his heart, but he quickly calmed down and forced a smile: "Okay."

'I don't like' these four words, he used to say to Qi Tang often.

Whenever Qi Tang touched his restricted area, or mentioned something he didn't want to communicate, he would say with a cold face, 'I don't like it. '

Qi Tang is sensible and gentle, every time he utters these four words, he will stop in time, and will return to his original position in a gentlemanly and considerate manner, without asking or caring about anything.

Now that Feng Shui is turning, Lin An knows how lethal these four words are to a person who loves you.

It is like a no-passage order, which brutally keeps the other party out of the door and closes the other party's right of passage in your world.

Lin An covered his face, a little weak.

After Qi Tang returned to his room, he secretly opened the suitcase, only to find that most of the empty suitcase had been filled.

Inside are some daily necessities that will be used when traveling.

Lin An panicked, he hurriedly closed the box and put it back to its original place, and sat alone in the living room for a long time.

Where are the children going?

Do you want to leave him?

Will you come back after leaving?

The sense of panic spread, but he had no choice but to look at Qi Tang all the time, for fear that the child would disappear in the blink of an eye.

These few days were Lin An's most frightening days. He was like a mouse in a bellows every day, and when the wind moved a little, he would be terrified.

But that day still came.

It was a fine morning, and Lin An hadn't slept well for a long time, so he got up a little later today.

According to the usual habit, the first thing to do when you wake up is to see if the box by the door is still there.

When Lin An stepped out of the room and looked towards the door, but only saw an empty space, he felt that the blood in his whole body was cold.

Lin An didn't know how long he stood there. After he realized it, he searched for that familiar figure like crazy.

The bedroom is empty, the kitchen is empty, the bathroom is empty.

There were several sets of clothes missing in the closet, and even the toothbrush utensils on the sink were gone.

Lin An stood in the living room in a daze, unable to move his eyes.

After a while, he thought of something again, and frantically called Qi Tang, but the phone was turned off.

Lin An covered his face and tried to calm down. After he calmed down a little, he quickly grabbed the car keys on the table and drove the car recklessly on the road.

When he rushed to the studio, Lin An looked at the locked door, holding the key tightly in his hand, his eyes were full of scarlet.

He lost his baby again.

Lin An walked a few steps, but because of excessive exhaustion and sudden stimulation, he fell to the ground.

He got up, looking a little embarrassed, got into the car and dialed Assistant Tian's number.

Lin An's voice was very calm: "Go and find out where Qi Tang went."

With one hand on the steering wheel, he frantically stepped on the gas pedal with the other.

After hanging up the phone, Lin An drove home.

As usual, he washed the clothes they had changed, mopped the floor, and made another delicious-looking lunch.

They are all Qi Tang's favorite dishes.

He had never done these chores before, and his slender white hands had been roughened by housework.

Then Lin An went to Qi Tang's room, the bed was full of children's smell, which made him greedy and crazy.

Lin An didn't know how long he had been lying there.

Maybe half a day, maybe a day, maybe two days, I only ate something in the middle, and then went back to lie down.

Until one evening, there was a sound of opening the door, which was particularly ear-piercing in the silent room.

Lin An's eyelids moved.

Then there was a sound in the living room, and the sound of the suitcase being dragged. It wasn't very loud, but it made Lin An's heart that had stopped beating come back to life.

He slowly opened his eyes, then dragged his tired body to sit up, and walked out of the room barefoot.

Seeing the familiar figure in the room, Lin An's eyes turned hot, and he forced a smile while enduring the soreness and pain in his heart.

"You're back." The smile was pale, with a hint of despair that hadn't dissipated.

This sentence seems to be welcoming a lover who has returned from a long journey, and it seems that he is saying it to himself.

Qi Tang didn't even look at Lin An: "Yes."

After he packed his things, he went to the kitchen, and soon there was the sound of chopping vegetables in the room.

Lin An squatted on the ground clutching his heart, a colic pain spread from his heart to his limbs.

But it was also because of the pain that he felt alive again.

His baby is back again.

Lin An didn't know where Qi Tang had been during this period of time. He almost used all his powers in France to find out.

When the two were eating, the atmosphere on the table was dull.

Lin An didn't ask Qi Tang why he suddenly disappeared, why he didn't say hello, nor where he went or what he did these days.

He just ate in silence, his eyes were bloodshot.

Suddenly, a slender and powerful hand stretched out, Lin An raised his head slightly, and a plate of dishes was pushed in front of him.

That was his favorite dish, and Qi Tang would often cook it for him in the past.

Lin An rolled his throat several times with difficulty, picked up a chopstick, and stuffed it almost roughly into his mouth to eat.

It looked so embarrassing, so embarrassing that it made people feel distressed.

But if he didn't, he couldn't help it.

Qi Tang glanced at him, stopped his chopsticks, and said calmly, "Eat slowly and drink some water."

Lin An hadn't heard such a gentle tone for a long time.

He looked up at Qi Tang, gritted his teeth and smiled palely: "Yes."

The hand holding the chopsticks was so vigorous that the knuckles turned white.

Isn't this back?

It's good to be back, it's good to be back.

After eating, Qi Tang opened the suitcase and started tidying up.

He took out the contents one by one.

Lin An stood aside and watched, staring at the box.

When Qi Tang handed him the item, Lin An was still in a daze and didn't react.

"Put it back." Qi Tang said softly.

Lin An's heart suddenly warmed up, he felt that these words were like Qi Tang saying "I'm back" to him.

Those fox eyes flickered a few times in bewilderment, then took what was handed over, turned around mechanically and put everything back in place.

Lin An suddenly felt relieved.

Maybe the kid just encountered an emergency and forgot to tell him before leaving.

It's just that after this incident, Lin An watched Qi Tang even more closely, and wanted to cling to her everywhere.

Qi Tang did not reject his behavior, but became much gentler.

She even started to take his hand actively.

Feeling the warmth of his palm, Lin An clenched it tighter, this time he will never let go again.

The two were walking by the river, and the evening wind blew over in gusts, their foreheads were disheveled, but their hearts were warm.

Lin An looked at Qi Tang's gentle and handsome side face for a while, then suddenly said:

"Let me tell you about my family."

He remembered the time when they broke up in the studio, Qi Tang's eyes were full of pain, and she accused him word by word:

"You don't value me, so you never let me get involved in your world, your plans, your family, you don't tell me."

Lin An admitted that although he wanted to be with Qi Tang for a longer time at that time, he never thought about staying with Qi Tang for a lifetime.

So he only cares about whether the two of them are happy and happy together, and the rest is unnecessary.

Lin An will deliberately avoid and hide issues that may even cause quarrels.

But now, Lin An wants to be with Qi Tang forever, he wants to tell Qi Tang everything about himself.

As if this could trap the people around him.

Hearing this, Qi Tang's expression was very calm, his eyes drifted far away, and he seemed to be in a good mood: "Yeah."

Lin An intertwined his fingers, and the two walked slowly.

"My family, apart from what I told you before, there is another secret that I didn't tell."

His voice is slow and comfortable:

"People in the Lin family carry the hereditary mental illness gene, which is inherited from generation to generation. So my father will have the disease, it is inevitable. It's just that when he was young, he met someone who was not good, and that homosexual gave him too much stimulation. Sickness. That's why I took charge of the company at a young age."

Qi Tang listened quietly, expressionless.

But Lin An knew that he was listening, and that was enough, which made him feel at ease.

"This indicates that if I marry and have children normally, my child may also be a mental patient."

"Fortunately, I'm gay, which means I probably won't have children in my life."

Hearing this, Qi Tang's eyes moved.

Lin An went on to say: "But the managers of the family business don't know this secret of the Lin family, so they just blindly urge me to get married and force me together with my stepmother."

"My stepmother is because she wants to see me guarding a child who is destined to go crazy and suffer all her life. Others are because they heard that I am gay and are afraid that if I have no children, the company will fall into Lin Sheng's hands in the future. Lin Sheng is an idiot. , this is not what they want to see."

Halfway through the story, the road has come to an end. Looking at the railing in front of him, Qi Tang lowered his eyes:

"It's late, let's go back."

Lin An nodded, and walked back holding Qi Tang's hand.

Don't worry, there will be plenty of time in the future, he will slowly tell the children about him, so that Qi Tang will gradually open up to him.

Lin An knew it would be a long process, but he was willing to wait.

Waiting for Qi Tang to accept him wholeheartedly again.

The days returned to calm again, and Lin An's uneasiness and fear dissipated a little.

They still go to the studio together every morning, take a walk together in the evening, and cook a dinner that they both love.

Life has been turned into a fixed formula, but Lin An is satisfied.

But just as he was taking a breath, he found again that Qi Tang was putting something into the suitcase at the door.

Lin An clenched his fists, this time he didn't ask anything, he just smoked several cigarettes in the room.

The feeling of suffocation, uneasiness, and fear all came back.

But he has no choice.

Later, he started to get up early every day to check the box first.

Then Lin An noticed a pattern: Qi Tang would put a few items into the box every day, once it was full...

He didn't dare to think about what would happen to Qi Tang once the box was full.

Is it disappearing again?

Or disappear from now on...

The great panic and uneasiness weighed on his heart, making him breathless.

Lin An could only keep his mind high at all times. Once he heard something in the middle of the night, he would immediately wake up and check the box at the door.

During the few days when the box was about to be filled, Lin An slept on the sofa in the living room.

He was afraid that the children would leave secretly.

He was so afraid.

If Qi Tang disappears quietly again, he will go crazy, he will really go crazy.

It was still a very sunny morning, and Qi Tang gently pushed open the bedroom door, seeing Lin An's tired sleeping face on the sofa, he lightly washed up.

Then I put on my shoes, pulled the suitcase and left.

There are still relatively few people on the street, so he can walk slowly and watch the city gradually come to life.

The phone vibrated, and Qi Tang took it out to look. It was a country homestay he had booked before reminding him to check in today.

He politely replied to the message there, then pulled out the phone card and threw it into his pocket.

The weather is fine today, but not hot.

Qi Tang dragged the suitcase and boarded a taxi.

He looked at the scenery outside the window with no expression on his face.

Before leaving, Lin An suddenly remembered how he was sleeping soundly on the sofa, full of uneasiness and vigilance.

He knew he had succeeded.

To defeat a person, the first step is to destroy his sense of security.

When they were together before, Lin An often went on business trips and disconnected whenever he was on a business trip.

Even as long as Lin An leaves their common small home, no matter how much Qi Tang misses him or sends messages, Lin An will not respond, and only chat with him in his free time after get off work.

Qi Tang's sense of security was destroyed by Lin An at that time.

He's just tit for tat now.

In fact, during the few days when Qi Tang disappeared, he didn't even leave this city.

He just chose a rural place with better scenery, sketched from life, and then skillfully blocked all the paths that Lin Anneng could trace to him.

When he went back last time, seeing Lin An on the verge of collapse, Qi Tang realized that he was actually very calm.

He doesn't love Lin An anymore.

At least he didn't feel that he was in love.

So when he was doing these things, seeing Lin An's sad appearance, he didn't even soften his heart.

Soon the car stopped, and Qi Tang dragged the suitcase into the hotel.

I heard that the owner of this manor is very rich, he will only come here occasionally for a vacation, and the rest of the time the house will be rented out to provide a resting place for travelers.

Most importantly, the rent is very cheap.

So Qi Tang lived here last time and this time, if he can come in the future, he will still live here.

Life in the country is very easy, every day Qi Tang will carry the drawing board and go to different places to sketch.

Occasionally, I will turn off my mobile phone and take some beautiful scenery.

He felt more at ease than ever before.

Counting the days, three days passed, Qi Tang greeted the management of the manor, and then left again dragging the suitcase.

Back home, Qi Tang pushed open the door, and after seeing the situation inside, he slowly frowned.

The house was destroyed in a mess, as if it had experienced a major catastrophe.

The refrigerator fell carelessly on the ground, the eggs in it were broken all over the floor, the kitchen was almost smashed, all the murals on the wall were torn off, cut into pieces and lay on the ground, but the two pieces painted by Qi Tang himself The painting still hangs there intact.

Qi Tang sighed, put the suitcase away, and was about to see where Lin An was, when a figure suddenly rushed out.

Familiar smell, familiar body temperature, holding him tightly.

It's like melting into his blood.

Lin An didn't move, didn't move for a long time, even Qi Tang didn't move either.

He could feel that the person in his arms was on the verge of collapse.

Lin An is a bit crazy in his bones, if he is stimulated and driven crazy at this time, it will be of no benefit to anyone if he dies.

After an unknown amount of time, Qi Tang could feel that Lin An's emotions were gradually calming down.

It's just that the whole person is trembling slightly.

As if terrified.

Qi Tang hesitated for a while, he didn't know what kind of psychology he was in, he slowly raised his hand, and gently stroked Lin An's soft hair.

Lin An visibly froze.

He slowly raised his head to look at Qi Tang, his eyes were full of scarlet.

Lin An at this moment is like a string that is fully stretched and is about to break, as if he is about to go crazy in the next moment.

After watching for a while, Lin An suddenly grabbed Qi Tang by the collar and kissed her directly.

A very sharp kiss, with a bit of punishment, but full of affection for fear of hurting someone.

He held it like a treasure, and desperately sought it out like he was extremely thirsty.

Qi Tang was stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, he pushed Lin An away abruptly.

His handsome brows were tightly furrowed, his kissed red lips were slightly pursed, and he uttered a sentence in a very calm voice:

"Come on, I don't like it."

Lin An clenched his fists, as if trying to hold back.

Those fox eyes looked at him without blinking, like a confrontation.

Qi Tang lowered his eyes, the emotions in his eyes were hidden from view.

After a while, Lin An's fist loosened, and he moved up again as if losing strength.

Leaning in Qi Tang's arms, he gently lifted Qi Tang's chin with his fingertips.

The voice is hoarse and soft, revealing despair and powerlessness, and there is a hint of pleading:

"Don't do that, I'm going crazy."

The author has something to say:

QAQ I feel like I’m not in good shape today, come back tomorrow

Be strong (grab it and shake it)

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