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"Okay, I'll hold you." Xin Xinran's hand went around the back of Ke Momian's head, gently stroking her soft long hair, Ke Momian's body trembled slightly, and calmed down under her gentle movements.

Xin Xinran raised her head and placed her chin on the top of Ke Momian's head. Every breath was filled with the pleasant scent of shampoo in Ke Momian's hair.Xin Xinran rubbed her chin, but heard her let out a long sigh.

"Ke Momian." Xin Xinran maintained his posture and called her softly.

Too many things happened today, Xin Xinran originally thought it would be a very happy thing to attend this ball with Ke Momian, and since when did Ke Momian warm up to herself.But after Bai Luwan's questioning, and the inexplicable first meeting between Fang Qingyu and Ke Momian... Her thoughts became a mess, and her mood was indescribable.

"Hmm." Ke Momian's voice was too low to hear, as if saying one more word would waste a lot of her energy.

"What's wrong with you?" There were too many questions in Xin Xinran's brain, she wanted to ask but she didn't dare to ask, not because she was afraid of Ke Momian's anger, but because she was afraid that the answer she got would make it difficult for her to face.

"It's nothing..." Ke Momian raised her face, raised her gaze, and silently stared at Xin Xinran's face.

The moonlight outside the window was thick, and the hazy moonlight shot in through the gap between the curtains, just falling on Xin Xinran's side face, her eyes had an indescribable brilliance under the moonlight.Xin Xinran followed Ke Momian in silence, her eyes kept touching hers, as if trying to understand what she was thinking at this moment.

In her eyes, there is an inestimable persistence in her.Ke Momian reached out to touch her eyelids, Xin Xinran closed her eyes reflexively, and let the other party's fingertips carefully brush her thick eyelashes.

"What do you want to ask me?"

Xin Xinran was taken aback by Ke Momian's unexpected question, what did she want to ask?What she wants to know most is the relationship between Fang Qingyu and Ke Momian.

Xin Xinran opened her eyes, and Ke Momian's expression showed that she was in a state of wandering. She couldn't figure out what Ke Momian was thinking. Xin Xinran shook her head: "If you don't want to say it, I won't ask."

It was silence again, a suffocating and disorienting silence.

Xin Xinran hugged Ke Momian tightly, and took a deep breath, so that her senses would be filled with traces of Ke Momian, her smell, her temperature... Only when she experiences it with such concentration can she not be concerned about those unknown problems. Feel too scared.

After an unknown amount of time, Ke Momian asked Xin Xinran uncertainly, "Are you... 22 years old this year?"

Xin Xinran was already on the verge of dream and reality, and immediately woke up when she heard Ke Momian's voice: "Is it three years younger than you?"

"When I was 22 years old, I got stomach cancer."

"I know."

Xin Xinran didn't understand why Ke Momian suddenly mentioned this matter, but based on her understanding of this matter, that year was Ke Momian's nightmare.Now that Ke Momian took the initiative to mention it to herself, it was like tearing open a scar on her body that hadn't healed.

"My mother... died because of cancer. I knew how terrible cancer is. At that time, I thought I would die in a short time..."

Fang Qingyu said that she was too self-righteous, but Ke Momian later found out that she was right.I used to think that I could leave everything behind and take Fang Qingyu away, I thought I could keep her by my side for the rest of my life, including the last... I thought that the illness could call her to see me for the last time.

Ke Momian's tone was always calm, but Xin Xinran couldn't bear to listen any longer.

"Ke Momian, don't think about it, aren't you fine now?" Seeing that Ke Momian was silent, she said again, "You are such a good person, God will not be so cruel to you."

"You still believe in heaven?" Ke Momian sneered, and her voice dropped, "Xin Xinran, I'm not a good person, really not."

"I think you are good, you are a good person." Xin Xinran said naturally.

"In the second year after my mother passed away, my dad sent me to the United States to go to school. At that time, I was just 14 years old. I started smoking and drinking too much." Thinking about it now, it's naive. Torturing my body doesn't necessarily make me feel better. How many.

It is reasonable for a person to be contaminated with these things in a foreign country. Xin Xinran wanted to comfort Ke Momian, but Ke Momian continued.

"And then later, I got addicted to drugs."

"Drug taking?" Xin Xinran was obviously surprised.

"It's not what I want to touch. Someone wants to frame me..." Ke Momian didn't elaborate, with a self-deprecating tone, "But I'm addicted. In order to get rid of that person and frame me again, I went back to City Y."

"How old were you at that time?" Xin Xinran felt that after living all these years, he didn't have as much experience as Ke Momian at that time.

"18 years old." Ke Momian paused for a long time, as if hesitating whether he should tell Xin Xinran what happened next.

"and after?"

"Later..." Ke Momian left Xin Xinran's embrace and lay on her back, holding her forehead with one hand.

"You met someone?" Xin Xinran guessed, she was eager to hear about Ke Momian's past, the past that she had never participated in.

"A very good person, I dare not go home, she saved me, took care of me, and helped me detoxify..." Ke Momian looked at the ceiling, it was almost dark in the darkness, which made her memory clearer.

"How good is it?" Xin Xinran asked lightly, a little unconvinced in her heart, that person would treat Ke Momian better than herself

"It's so good that I can't help falling in love with her." Ke Momian said hesitantly, "It's not particularly good, her character is a bit cowardly... so I feel tired several times, as if I was fighting for it myself, and I couldn't see her sure."

Under the calm tone, Xin Xinran couldn't hear Ke Momian's views on this past incident. She always felt that Ke Momian was a little abnormally calm, or was she deliberately hiding her feelings?

"Then you still like her?" Xin Xinran didn't quite understand.

"Emotions are not something that you can let go of if you don't like it."

Xin Xinran turned over and lay flat next to Ke Momian. She thought about what Ke Momian said, so Ke Momian still can't let go of that woman?

"You may not understand the relationship between two people who are in a desperate situation, relying on each other and loving each other. Even if this relationship is unrealistic in the eyes of others, they want to maintain it carefully and treat it carefully. "Though those days were difficult, there seemed to be hope in my heart.

"I don't understand," Xin Xinran propped his head up, and looked sideways at Ke Momian, "You said you were in love, but what happened afterwards? Where did she go?"

Ke Momian pondered for a long time, Xin Xinran realized that her words seemed to make the other person sad, but she just didn't want Ke Momian to mention that person again.Wrapping around Ke Momian's waist with guilt in her heart, she remained motionless and did not speak.

"I'm sorry." Xin Xinran apologized.

Ke Momian shook her head, she didn't care about it: "You're right, she left. Just when we settled down and thought we could live a simple life like this, she left."

"Why are you leaving?"

"I didn't understand at first, but then I understood." If it was just like this, would the result be different now?

Xin Xinran was speechless, in this case, how could Ke Momian live in such a lonely life?

"So I'm not going to be decadent anymore, and I plan to live a good life. I want to wait for her to come back. After waiting so many times, what are you afraid of after waiting a little longer?" Ke Momian told others about her state of mind at that time for the first time. The first time I found myself talking about it, there would be a hint of a smile. She was looking forward to the future.

"But I seemed to have abused myself too much before..." Ke Momian lay on her side, curled up into a ball, like a baby in a mother's womb, lonely and helpless, "Bad habits have accumulated, and my body will fail all of a sudden. May never wait for her again."

It's as if God made a joke for you, and the confidence that was finally built up was destroyed again and fell apart.

"Ke Momian..." Xin Xinran gently kissed her forehead, the tip of her nose, and her lips. Ke Momian didn't hide or greet her, her eyes were dull.

Xin Xinran didn't want to hear her continue, but Ke Momian couldn't help but want to tell the truth so that she could clearly understand the truth.

"The doctor said...if I don't have the operation or the operation fails, I still have three years." Ke Momian covered Xin Xinran's mouth with her hand, and looked at her face to face, "It sounds like a long time, but who knows if it will last?" Can't wait for her?"

Xin Xinran opened a pair of big eyes, looked at Ke Momian and blinked twice, Ke Momian's hands were so cold, listening to her words, Xin Xinran's heart also felt a little cold.

She really loved that woman.

"I want to see her. If I really leave, it may be the last time I see her before I die." Ke Momian was caught in the vortex of the past, indifferent to Xin Xinran's reaction.

"But she didn't... I asked someone to bring her back. She said that she was very busy. She had a lot of subjects to do in school. How could she have time to come back and see me?"

Is it so painful that you can no longer express any emotions?Xin Xinran has never experienced such a feeling, but she looked into Ke Momian's eyes indifferently, as if she was telling a story that had nothing to do with herself.

"She also said, since she said she didn't have to see you again, why should she see you again?" Ke Momian said to Xin Xinran, and then smiled slightly. She didn't understand why Fang Qingyu took her angry words seriously. .

Since it was true, how could he come to see her again today?Didn't she say why goodbye?

Xin Xinran blinked her eyes twice again, Ke Momian felt a burst of heat in her palm, she moved her hand away in some surprise, clenched it tightly, and her fingertips touched the liquid in the palm of her hand.Looking at Xin Xinran again, more tears welled up from the corners of her eyes.

"Why are you crying?" Ke Momian smiled and wiped.

Xin Xinran turned her head away to prevent her from touching her: "Ke Momian, that person is Fang Qingyu, right?"

Ke Momian lowered his hand and nodded.

Xin Xin looked at her with tears in her eyes: "Do you still like her?"

Ke Momian pursed her lips, thought for a while, and finally sighed: "I don't know."

"Then will you still be with her?" Xin Xinran asked again.

"No." This time, Ke Momian said with certainty that her relationship with Fang Qingyu was a foregone conclusion on the day Fang Qingyu refused to come back.

"Ke Momian," Xin Xinran wiped away tears and thought for a long time, "Do you like me?"

Ke Momian frowned, with a focused expression again, and an uncertain tone: "I don't know."

"Then do you want to be with me?" Xin Xinran looked into Ke Momian's eyes expectantly.

Ke Momian bit her lower lip and shook her head slightly.

Xin Xinran was a little frustrated, she stopped looking at her, and when she turned her head, a string of tears fell down.

"I'm not very clear..." Ke Momian hugged Xin Xinran from behind, "Give me some time."

Xin Xinran covered Ke Momian's hand on her waist: "Okay, I'll wait for you."

Time always gives the best answer.

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