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Ruan Jie felt Lu Youfeng's body trembling uncontrollably.

She seemed to smell a few traces of blood and rain, and her body trembled inexplicably.

Lu Youfeng came to the front of the car with a miserable smile on his face, his gaze was a bit fierce and resentful.

Just like the love each other these years, isn't it good?

Between us, the delicate balance that survived so easily will be broken again?Do you want to uncover the scars and do it all over again?

In his father's majestic gaze, there was a moment of trance, and Lu Youfeng was also fearless and meaningless.

His slightly fluttering lips are always ready to pour out the rain of swords, lights and swords.

Sun Wen moved, she begged and pulled Lu Zhong to stop, "If you have something to go home, can you go home and talk about it?"

Lu Youfeng looked at that livid face coldly.

He was thinking about what people live for?for myself?Or parents?Tired, he was really tired.If he hadn't used Ruan Jie as an excuse for the past two years, he might have been unable to bear it.

But, even so, he on the phone was exhausted.I really don't know how long I can last.

Ruan Jie stood beside Lu Youfeng.She felt that the aura between the two men was so oppressive that she was about to be crushed.She couldn't understand it at all, she didn't understand how it was just a few words of Wang Kai that caused such a turbulent scene.

The faces of all of them now are even more terrifying than experiencing the throwing of corpses.

"That... huh! Mama Lu," she could only pick up something that looked easy to talk to, patted herself on the head and said, "Look, I forgot, my parents even said they would greet you at night." Washing the dust!" Hanging with a sudden epiphany.

The atmosphere was too eerie, and she had to break it.

"Okay, okay, we must go." She hurriedly squeezed Lu Zhong secretly, "I was talking about this with your father Lu on the plane, saying that I would like to ask you to have dinner together at some time. Your parents really wanted to go with us."

"Oh, that's right. This is where we are going." Lu Zhong's face softened a little, and he smiled again: "Xiao Jie, let's go home first. Let's see what gift your mother Lu brought you came back."

"That's right! Thank you Mama Lu first." Ruan Jie smiled slightly, and finally found a normal rhythm, then looked up at Lu Youning, "Sister Ningning, then you drive, we will follow."

"Okay." Lu Youning nodded.With twinkling eyes, she was trying to squeeze out an almost unnatural smile.

Mess up, mess up, all mess up.

From the corners of her warped and trembling mouth upwards, the tremors seemed to come from the fear of the deep pool.Dark and boundless.

Ruan Jie hurriedly dragged Lu Youfeng back to the car.She felt that she was also driven crazy by this strangeness, and he seemed to be blowing away with the wind.

Lu Youfeng closed his eyes, and in a daze he saw the boy from that rainy night that year again.From the beginning to the end, he owed the boy a word.Maybe it was too late?

I think he is crazy in love, love to the extreme.Otherwise, how could he make such a crazy move.

From then on, a small brilliant spark blossomed in Lu Youfeng's youthful heart, and this flower had a destination, and it was for Li Bing's destination.It turned out that he felt the same way about Li Bing.

Love but don't know, love but can't, love to hold Ruan Jie's face to miss his shadow.After going around and around, she still returned to him, and continued to mend a heart that cannot be loved.

Really tired.

That night, he was facing the window, separated by the gap of the heavy curtains, and the raised patterns of embroidery on it made him scratch at every thread, and after every thread, he was bitten into pits by his nails.He hid in that dark corner, watching quietly.

That summer night, there were no cicadas or insects, and he accompanied him to watch the rain fall all night.The drizzling sound kept echoing in his ears.

The next day, his parents did not allow him to go to school.A week later, his transfer procedures were completed.

The absurd and sloppy did not start, but came to an abrupt end.

Every night after that, he would think of the boy under the window.Clear stature, weakened shoulders.He has a mouthful of white and regular teeth, a clean smile, and a soft luster under the wet eyelashes.

Throughout the first year of high school, he lived under the close surveillance of his parents. They closed the door behind their backs to him and whispered, and they kept silent when facing him.With a suspicious and probing look, he quietly circled around him.

He kind of wanted to laugh, to laugh out loud.Every time at this time, his heart is running with presumptuous arrogance.

He remembered the taste that remained on the corner of his lips.

In the empty classroom, he was pressed against the cold wall, the man leaned over, his magnified handsome face was refreshing.

The heart was tied and locked, and was ruthlessly bound by the steel of the parents one after another.Until that day, a small pink love letter from a girl in the same class in the schoolbag was discovered by the parents first.

Only then did Lu Youfeng slowly end the unbearable strangeness.

It's the beginning of love, and as an enlightened parent, I can understand this feeling.Encourage him to interact appropriately with girls his age.As a person who has experienced it, the father is guiding and correcting his son's mentality, and he is kind and powerful.

Students must focus on their studies, and must not have any extraordinary behavior.The feelings of youth are buried in the bottom of my heart, and it is beautiful when I think about it later.

On the way back, Lu Youning breathed quietly the treacherous situation in this stagnant space, although it was already suffocating and driving people crazy.It was like a block of curdled and smelly cheese, sticky and thick, and like a pot of mud that could not be stirred for ten thousand years.

That year, she vaguely knew something.

Strictly control the time to go home, communicate with the class teacher once a week, and visit the school regularly.The elder brother was regarded as a monster and was guarded by his parents.During those long days with no end in sight, even she didn't dare to breathe hard at home, for fear that if her breath became heavy, the unknown string in the house would suddenly collapse.

It's funny—her parents wanted to match her lover and her brother together, but they didn't know that there was a bigger surprise gift package waiting for them to unwrap.

I don't know if it exploded with a bang, or the string broke with a snap?

"What's going on with your brother and that man?"

"Who?"

"Don't pretend to be stupid! Are you still helping him?" Lu Zhong squinted his eyes, "This scoundrel! Xiaojie is such a good kid...Sick, see if I don't beat him to death! You bastard!"

Lu Youning glanced at her father through the small hanging rearview mirror.

She had a sense of sadness that spread feebly and swept over her heart.She wanted to explain what Ruan Jie had taught her earlier, but at this moment she didn't want to utter any words of excuse.

Whether you say it or not, it's not the same.Dressed in a cloak of lies, I can't help but tear it apart.

"This bastard, he did this shameful thing to me when I was in high school. It's good now, I haven't watched him do these dirty things to me again these years! Why doesn't he know shame? Does he still have shame! Don't you look at it? Your brother, are you still helping him cover it up?"

His eyes were like eagles, and his voice became louder and faster.His daughter's silence made him suddenly annoyed.He thinks she should be sincere and sincere, not so calm and indifferent.Obviously you did something wrong, didn't you?

"Okay! Okay! From today on, both of you stay at home, and you are not allowed to go anywhere!" Clamping a pair of hunting eyes tightly.

"Are you crazy? The child is closed at home every day and doesn't want to work? Why are you crazy?"

"I keep it!"

Lu Youning suddenly felt that her parents' voices were far away, and she felt that she was in another world overlooking their conversation, and that expression, she clearly knew every slight change.

What they said had nothing to do with her.All drifting outside the ears.

Is it going to rain today?It was gloomy and the wind was blowing.

The wind swirled the confetti around, turned and turned, and turned on the front glass of the car.It seemed limp and weak, but it was actually a blow.

"Dad, do you remember? When I was in high school, my brother transferred to another school," Lu Youning finally said, but the voice was unfamiliar to her, "He doesn't like to talk, he is so skinny and scary, he used to smile at me so much Answer all questions. That year—that year when it rained, he couldn't sleep all night. I knew he couldn't sleep, because his eyes were bloodshot the next day, and then there was hideousness. "

She narrated calmly, "I don't know why it's hideous...I saw him sitting in front of the window with a knife, no matter how I called him, he didn't answer me, brother, he—"

She stared faintly at the carriageway, and the erratic melody said, "I'm almost going crazy, you're going crazy, do you know?"

All these years, she never forgot that Lu Youfeng was sitting in front of the window with a small but extremely sharp wallpaper knife in his hand, dazed, no matter how she called, he never answered.Until she cried out in fear.

It was a rainy night, a rainy night in autumn, rain all night, beating violently on the windows.

It seemed that Lu Youfeng's soul had also been slapped to the other shore.

"Ahem..." Lu Youfeng coughed violently with trembling shoulders, and then he said with a bitter face, "I said, how do you usually smoke this thing?"

"Why," Ruan Jie couldn't help laughing, "You can't relieve your boredom by smoking like others. Are you still in the rebellious period?"

Lu Youfeng didn't answer the words, his face was a little unnatural.After a while he suddenly asked Ruan Jie.

"Do you miss Lin Lan?"

Ruan Jiewan didn't expect that this question would be asked, and it was in such a situation.For a while, she just pursed her lips and said nothing, and after a long time of deliberation, she replied speciously, "It's in the past, it's in the past."

He took another puff of cigarette tentatively, and slowly said: "You know Xiaojie, a boy in the same class kissed me in the first year of high school. He soaked me in the rain all night, and I was also in the window I watched it with him all night. Later, I transferred to another school." After a slight pause, as if organizing my words, "Sometimes when I look at Li Bing, I think of him! Heh, I still remember it's mint flavor, he likes it Green Arrow can't stop eating. Loves to smile at me."

He silently indulged in the past, "I don't have any extracurricular activities, class reunions, holiday camps, nothing at all. Every time I open a book, I have to read it silently. I don't like boys."

Ruan Jie looked at Lu Youfeng with mixed feelings, she didn't know that he still carried such a past.

"It was also from then on that I knew that I liked Li Bing's complex emotions." The smoke in my mouth seemed to flow smoothly, and a curl of mist rose, "Li Bing left, and I overlapped you into another He..." Shaking his head, "I'm so stupid, you are you and he is him, but you are really alike."

He lowered his eyes and talked about the past years, and the turbulent eyes were full of mirrors.

"Well, eyes. And the way you laugh. But I will still, I will think of that boy at a certain moment. I don't know what is between us, but I know I can't forget him." He turned his head to think for a while.

"Maybe because it's the best and the worst." Grinning sadly.

He turned his head and stared at Ruan Jie's profile, "It's impossible for me and Li Bing. You know, it's never been possible, everything is my unrealistic dream, it's never been possible. So, you and Xiao Ning All right."

There was a little relief in his eyes, mixed with envy, "With me here, you will be fine. Don't be afraid." He seemed to be comforting Ruan Jie, and also seemed to be comforting himself, murmuring in a daze Repeat, "Don't be afraid."

Both brother and sister are man-eating monsters and scourges in the eyes of their parents.It's going to be crazy, too, them.Yes, everyone is crazy.

They are in love, what about him?His one is like a dream bubble.

Yeah.

Someone is always responsible.

He has only passed half of his life, and he can slowly adapt to the rest.

It is enough to leave happiness to them, and it is enough to live up to the word "brother".

It rained on the weekend, I heard that you were two roads away from my school for self-study that night.The whole school spread the word, and there was an uproar for a month.

There is a distance of 450 nine meters.I know you're here for me, only I know.

You are so stupid, what did you come to me for?I still remember your warmth deeply to this day, and I have never been angry with you.I wanted to go with you and tell you I didn't mind.

On that icy road that was cracked like a knife, my heart was also torn and stumbled.This distance, which is neither long nor short, is silent and frightening, and it seems that it will never end.

I miss you back, I miss you back.

Rainy weekend.Now, can you still hear my apology?

I imagined the beginning of a story, but let you bear the end.I have kept the secret of the 450-nine-meter distance for many years.Would you be happy if I said that I have complied with your original request now?

You who were born in the rainy day and left in the rainy day, started with the life bestowed by your parents, and ended in a hurry for me.

Life is like a dream, reducing attachment and resentment.I will keep you in my heart, weekend rain.

Ok?

Rest in the great peace of nature!

This exhausted heart,

Struck by karma and delusion, helpless,

As in the unrelenting rage of a stormy sea,

In the boundless sea of ​​samsara.

The author has something to say: Well, the stalk of Lu's parents has come out.The end is a poem by Khenpo Nyoshul.