I like you as my student

Chapter 10 I want to get married

After sending Jun Yinmo away at noon, Cheng Xiaoming lay on the bed and took a nap, thinking that he would pretend to be pitiful at the dinner table just to make Jun Yinmo come to eat at home often... This behavior is shameless.

Holding the quilt tightly, he didn't know how to explain his behavior at noon. That kid Jun Yinmo was really good, caring and loving, but why did he look a little silly?

Thinking of when he was still young, because the person he liked was too good, he felt that he would never get it for the rest of his life, so he often said to his friends: If he makes money in the future, he will raise a silly little boy, so that he only has me in his heart. Only love me alone.

Unexpectedly, today, he finally wants to keep this child by his side, silly, it really meets his standards.

The point is, he doesn't reject having physical contact with him, even when the two of them are together, he feels very happy.

Just like this, just like this, don't expect extravagantly.

Jun Yinmo returned to the dormitory as if fleeing, and blamed Peng Can for why he didn't bring him back last night. Peng Can said, "You're so drunk, the senior said you lived there before, it's very convenient, so I just brought him back to the dormitory." You left it behind. What? Is there something wrong?" Seeing that Jun Yinmo's expression was a little off, Peng Can asked.

Could it be that the senior has some special habit and gave Jun Yinmo this or that?

Thinking of going to Cheng Xiaoming's place to eat often in the future, facing him alone, and spending so much time alone, I don't know how embarrassing it will be, Jun Yinmo said: "The senior said that I should go to eat often in the future, um, when the time comes you Come with me." Alas, the senior didn't say not to bring family members.

Peng Can was happy when he heard that he could often eat home-cooked meals, and hugged Jun Yinmo and kissed him vigorously on the face, so disgusted that Jun Yinmo quickly pushed him away.

This weekend, Cheng Xiaoming really called to invite Jun Yinmo to dinner. When he saw Jun Yinmo bring Peng Can, the corners of his mouth twitched, but he didn't say anything.

It's just that while cooking, Cheng Xiaoming was thinking, Jun Yinmo must know his sexual orientation, did he think that Cheng Xiaoming liked him by doing this?

I like Jun Yinmo.Do you really like it?It's just that I thank him for coming to take care of me when I have a cold, and this student has a good character, so he just wants to treat him better.

Cheng Xiaoming marinated the meat that had been cut up for a while to make braised pork with soy sauce and salt, and put it aside.

What's the matter with my joy of washing my hands and making soup?Well, it must be because the family has not had guests for a long time, and he is still such a young boy.Cheng Xiaoming comforted himself and continued to chop vegetables.

During the meal, Jun Yinmo looked sleepy, only Peng Can ate very happily, always praised Cheng Xiaoming's cooking skills, and said that any girl who married him in the future would be happy.

"I don't want a girl to marry me. I want to marry someone who is as good at cooking as I am." Cheng Xiaoming said with a smile, and saw Jun Yinmo look up at him strangely because of this sentence, and continued to lower his head to eat.He turned his head and asked Peng Can, who was also a little surprised, and asked, "Is it strange that I want to get married?"

"..."

After being silent for a while, Peng Can felt embarrassed, and continued: "No, many girls now live alone, and they really need boys to marry them."

Cheng Xiaoming laughed and didn't answer. Of course he didn't want to be married by a girl.It's just that Peng Can doesn't necessarily need to understand this sentence. Jun Yinmo's eyes must have understood, otherwise he wouldn't look at him like that.

In fact, he doesn't care, since he knew that he likes men, he has gone through too much struggle.

Sometimes, he completely denies himself, denies everything he owns, and suspects that this is a joke made by God.When he subconsciously sees the world with the heart of a heterosexual, it is also difficult for him to understand why he likes men.

He questioned why so many people like women, but he is the only one who likes men by accident?

He checked a lot of information and consulted a lot of people, but no one gave him an answer.Some people say they are born with it, some say it was bent by someone, some say it has nothing to do with their gender when they fall in love suddenly... But Cheng Xiaoming never knows which type he is.

At that time, he was depressed, autistic, socially phobic, afraid of having physical contact with anyone, afraid of being known by others that he likes to look at men...

The person I like is straight, and the person I like always treats him like a younger brother, his best friend, or even a relative, but it is not love.

He was desperate, but he came out.

Now he accepts himself calmly, just like he accepts the reality that Han Luo is going to get married.

"By the way, Xiaomo said last time that he would rehearse the program at the welcome party. It's already the end of October, so it should be soon?" Cheng Xiaoming asked Jun Yinmo, changing the subject.

"Well, the clinical medical school is next Thursday night." Jun Yinmo replied.

In fact, Cheng Xiaoming knew when it was, he just received an invitation from his freshman counselor a few days ago to put on a show.He is a popular figure on campus, and it has become a routine thing for the past few years to be invited to give a show to each new year's welcome party, so he is not surprised.

Immediately agreed, the program reported was the piano solo "Dream Wedding".

"What program on Xiaomo News? I'll watch it too." Cheng Xiaoming asked.

"Jay Chou's "Rainbow", solo." Jun Yinmo replied succinctly.

"Um, "Rainbow", a song I really like, Jay Chou's songs are quite difficult, you must be good at singing." Cheng Xiaoming continued to find topics, and Peng Can couldn't stand Jun Yinmo's frustration Seeing that, he interjected, "Xiao Mo sings very well, not only Jay Chou's songs, he can sing many songs, and his singing is even better than the original one."

"Really? Then Xiaomo will play a song on the spot? Let me hear if it's true." Cheng Xiaoming said happily as if he had discovered a new world.

"Ah?" Jun Yinmo finally looked up at Cheng Xiaoming helplessly, seeing those clean eyes with pure joy, he still didn't refuse after all.

Cheng Xiaoming looked expectantly at the person who looked up at him with deep eyes, looking forward to Jun Yinmo's performance: "Then sing Zhang Xinzhe's "From the Beginning to the Present"!"

"Good! Good!" Cheng Xiaoming clapped his hands. He has always liked the lyrics of this song, and being sung by Zhang Xinzhe always made him feel the same way.

"If this is the final ending..." The clear voice is completely different from Jun Yinmo's usual deliberately low voice, clean and transparent, making people unable to help falling.

While singing, Jun Yinmo kept staring at Cheng Xiaoming, his eyes were full of pain and despair.

The lyrics seemed tailor-made for him, the person he liked was right in front of him, but he didn't even have the chance to say it.The more he sang, the more sad he felt, and the more he felt that what he was singing was his own story.

And Cheng Xiaoming was also infected by the breath of the lyrics, the whole room was surprisingly quiet except for Jun Yinmo's voice.

Both Cheng Xiaoming and Peng Can stared at Jun Yinmo closely. When the song ended, both of them wiped their noses. Peng Can sighed, "You sang so well! It's so touching!" While roaring inwardly, Lovelorn people really can't be messed with, look at Jun Yinmo's little eyes, it's so cruel!

"That's right! Xiaomo's voice has surpassed that of Prince of Love Songs." Cheng Xiaoming also praised.

After so many years, Cheng Xiaoming has long stopped questioning whether he can still kiss the person he loves the most in his life.

Jun Yinmo smiled slightly, didn't say anything, but turned his attention to the table.The braised pork cooked by Cheng Xiaoming is sweet and full of oil, but he, who never eats fatty meat, finds it extremely delicious. He eats a lot when he is happy, and Cheng Xiaoming is also very happy watching him eat.

The atmosphere of this meal was different, Cheng Xiaoming blamed himself for exposing Jun Yinmo's scar, and forced him to chat with Peng Can in a wild manner.

Before leaving, he enthusiastically told them to come back next time, but Jun Yinmo just nodded lightly, with an expression that looked like he was out of the world.

This lovelorn is really too miserable.

"Senior, you must come to the welcome party. I'll save a seat for you." When Peng Can left, he kindly invited Cheng Xiaoming, and Cheng Xiaoming replied cheerfully, "Yes, yes, I will definitely come."

Jun Yinmo's mood when he went back was very strange, as if looking forward to it, but also as if afraid.Thinking of Cheng Xiaoming going to see his performance, he was both happy and sad.I am happy to be able to perform in front of the person I like, but I am afraid of not performing well and being laughed at by him.

Finally, Thursday's "New Year's Party" was ushered in amidst the lively publicity. When I got the program list, I saw that I was in the third place. Jun Yinmo nodded. This was already decided before, he I know what I know.

Looking back, huh?Cheng Xiaoming?How could there be Cheng Xiaoming's name?Read on with doubts.

Piano solo "Dream Wedding", School of Basic Medicine.

Jun Yinmo trembled with his fingers, unable to believe, could it really be that person?Or is it just the same name?

In this tense and expectant mood, Jun Yinmo successfully finished the performance. The song "Rainbow" is quite old, but there are quite a few people who know it. He played and sang by himself. He is handsome and has a good figure. He received waves of applause and cheers from below.

Jun Yinmo was very calm about such applause, subconsciously looking for Cheng Xiaoming in the audience.

That day Peng Can wanted to invite Cheng Xiaoming, and Cheng Xiaoming also agreed to come, but he didn't see Cheng Xiaoming until Jun Yinmo took the stage.He was very disappointed at that time, Cheng Xiaoming couldn't get through on the phone, he even expected Cheng Xiaoming to come, but he didn't get together with them.

Looking around, with the end of the last line of lyrics, he found Cheng Xiaoming in a white suit at the farthest side of the front row.

After the curtain call, he hurriedly left the backstage, took off his makeup casually, and walked towards his class.

The performance on the stage was still going on, but his eyes were always on Cheng Xiaoming. The man watched each performance intently, didn't play with his mobile phone, and didn't talk to the people around him. He looked alienated and noble.

Finally, he saw the man get up calmly and go backstage through the side door.

Is he really the one who performed?

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