I like you as my student

Chapter 15 I really lost my love this time

Jun Yinmo finally stopped talking, Cheng Xiaoming said, I don't love you.This sentence was enough to blow all his self-confidence.

Seeing that Cheng Xiaoming was fully awake, he didn't stay any longer, but left alone.In the cold winter, even in the south, the weather in January is enough to freeze to death in the early morning.

He was only wearing a windbreaker, and when the cold wind blew, Jun Yinmo felt that his whole body was about to freeze.Cheng Xiaoming's words, I don't love you, kept echoing in his mind.

I do not love you.I do not love you.I do not love you.

In the dead of night, in a foreign land, for the first time, he wanted to cry so much.

Last time, when he knew that Cheng Xiaoming had someone he loved, he was not so desperate. At that time, he felt that Cheng Xiaoming was not his own, and he had always been delusional.

But this time, the people Cheng Xiaoming loves are all married. He thought he had a chance, but he was rejected outright.The man's tone was as if he had never been in his heart.Thinking about it now, the days when Cheng Xiaoming chased him around were so pleasant and happy.

After that, when Cheng Xiaoming saw him, he was afraid that he would avoid him like a snake.

Jun Yinmo was sitting in the school square, it was already midnight, there were only a few students passing by, they walked together, talking to each other, with youthful smiles on their faces, their happiness was so enviable.

But Cheng Xiaoming only felt the cold, the cold that penetrated into the bone marrow.

At this moment, the phone rang, and he took out the phone to see that it was Cheng Xiaoming calling. Jun Yinmo stared at the phone for a long time, and finally answered it.

"Have you arrived at the dormitory?" Cheng Xiaoming's voice was still so clear and pleasant, and he couldn't hear any emotion, as if he hadn't rejected Jun Yinmo harshly just now.

"It's here." Jun Yinmo replied calmly, looking at the orange lights in the campus, there was no warmth at all, it was freezing cold.

"Then rest early, I wish you success in the exam." Cheng Xiaoming happily hung up the phone, drank another glass of water, and went to sleep.

That night, Jun Yinmo didn't go back to the dormitory, he sat outside all night, it was cold all night, when someone walked by him in the morning, he got up stiffly, went to the cafeteria to buy breakfast, ate it while walking, and went back to the dormitory to wash. Take a hot bath and sleep.

On the [-]nd and [-]rd of January, all the students were reviewing, and he was the only one who fell asleep with his head covered.

"Little Mo, the exam starts tomorrow, get up and read." Peng Can, who came back from self-study at [-]:[-] p.m. on the [-]rd, yelled when he saw Jun Yinmo was still sleeping.

"Ah, it's okay, I can't hang up, you let me sleep again, I'm so sleepy." Jun Yinmo snorted, rolled over and continued to sleep.

At first, Peng Can thought that Jun Yinmo was sleeping all night because Jun Yinmo went out to surf the Internet all night on the first night, but seeing that he slept all day on the third, he felt that it was very unusual. He dragged Jun Yinmo up desperately, and shouted : "Did you sleep without eating? If I hadn't asked, I wouldn't have known that you hadn't eaten from yesterday to today, and didn't you get up to take a sip of water?"

"Is there?" Jun Yinmo looked at the bewildered roommate in front of him drowsily, and asked suspiciously.

Sitting him on the chair, Peng Can poured a glass of water for Jun Yinmo, and asked, "Are you hungry? There is still fried rice in the cafeteria. I'll go down and buy you one?"

After Jun Yinmo drank a glass of water, he realized that his legs were weak after sleeping for two days, but he was indeed sleepy and tired.

Compared with his physical fatigue, his heart was even more tired, already numb with pain.

"Brother, I'm really broken in love this time, and he rejected me very clearly." With eyes closed, I thought of Cheng Xiaoming's usually smiling and kindly speaking face, the expression on his face when he rejected himself Still so calm, as if his confession did not bring any ripples to his life.

"Isn't it? Who do you like?" Peng Can asked in surprise.

Jun Yinmo looked at him in silence for a while, but finally didn't say who it was. He got up, washed his face, brushed his teeth, put on a coat casually, and said, "I'm going out to eat."

Peng Can was worried, so he went out with him. It was past seven o'clock, the school was brightly lit, students came and went, and there were young couples hugging each other... Jun Yinmo just walked silently, without taking a second look Girls have long legs, but occasionally when they see boys with thin waists and wearing white clothes, they will look twice more, and even startled.

His thin figure is everywhere in the school, but no one can touch his heart.

"Hey, senior, haven't you eaten yet?" Jun Yinmo lowered his head, and when he heard Peng Can greet someone, he subconsciously thought that this senior was Cheng Xiaoming, but when he raised his eyes, he found that it was really just a senior. .

As for Cheng Xiaoming, who tormented Jun Yinmo so much, he is very happy now. The school classes are over, and the rest is the exam. Although the invigilation needs to be done by him as a teacher, there is only one subject of physiology. With a few graduate students, it can be done in two hours. Life is really wonderful.

There was no exam that day, and he was too idle. After dinner, he had a heated chat with his friends on the Internet.

In the circle, most people went there under the banner of dating. He hated it when he first entered, and then quit. He lost his good friends, but he made a friend with a rotten girl.

The girl's name was Xia Sang, and her online name was Sang Tian, ​​but Cheng Xiaoming called her Tian Tian.

Tian Tian: What is uncle doing recently?

Qiu Hongye: Eating, sleeping, and abusing students.

Tiantian: Uncle is good or bad, Tiantian used to be a student, why didn’t he meet such a humorous teacher like Uncle?

Qiu Hongye: Then do you want to come to our school and be my student again?

Tian Tian: ...

Qiu Hongye: Recently, a student confessed to me, saying that I love you, I love you as a person, and it has nothing to do with your identity, it is so ridiculous.

Tian Tian: Male or female?Did the uncle agree?

Qiu Hongye: Male.

Knowing Tiantian's mentality of being a rotten girl, Cheng Xiaoming went offline after answering the man's question. It's very cool to keep people's appetites like this!

As a result, after a while, the phone rang, and it turned out that it was Tiantian, who must have asked about that matter, Cheng Xiaoming smiled clearly, and answered the phone.

"Uncle, tell me quickly, did you agree?" The girl's brisk voice rang in his ears, Cheng Xiaoming laughed heartily, and said in a beating voice: "Guess."

"Agreed, oh, I have the cutest teacher-student relationship, uncle, right? Oh, there will be more love in the next year..."

Cheng Xiaoming suddenly regretted it at this moment, shouldn't he tell Tiantian about it?A woman's curiosity is very strong, and a woman's imagination is also very rich, but he has already learned about the madness of a rotten woman towards gay men, but he still wants to provoke... It's really self-inflicted!

"No." Cheng Xiaoming replied flatly, denying all Tiantian's fantasies.

"No?" The other side raised the volume, and then shouted excitedly: "Uncle, why didn't you agree? You have to know that although you are handsome, a person like you It's hard to meet someone who likes you..."

Tiantian easily told the cruel truth, but Cheng Xiaoming just laughed, bitterly.

In the past, he felt that he didn't want anyone except Han Luo, but now?Han Luo is married, and it will never be his, so what's the point of his insistence?

Some people said that they felt that he was waiting for someone.

He was waiting for Han Luo before, but now, who is he waiting for?

no one.

Cheng Xiaoming never felt that his life was so lonely.

"Tiantian, do you have someone you like?" After a long silence, Cheng Xiaoming suddenly asked this question, and now he suddenly didn't know what it was like to like someone.

"Yes, what's the matter?" Tiantian replied, Cheng Xiaoming's tone suddenly became serious, without the slightest smile, which made her feel depressed.

"Then, what does it feel like to like someone?" Cheng Xiaoming asked earnestly like a studious student.

"Uh, liking someone means that you will think of him in everything you do, want to do things with him, and plan for the future with him..." Tiantian suddenly felt sad, and she described her understanding of liking, She has read so many tanmei novels, and she hopes that Cheng Xiaoming in reality can be as happy as in the novels, but the reality is that the person Cheng Xiaoming likes is married, and he is alone now.

"I like it, it's good." After listening, Cheng Xiaoming exclaimed in a joyful, innocent, innocent voice.

This voice is heartbreaking to hear, what a pure person this is!He lives seriously, works hard, and has kindness to everyone, but he can't get the ones he loves because he's a man.

"Uncle, let's have a try with your students, you are thirty, you should work hard for your own happiness!" These were Tiantian's last words, filled with sadness and expectation, Cheng Xiaoming waited for the other side to hang up the phone, watching the time It's already ten o'clock, and you can go to bed after playing for a while.

He went to the study for a while and read Tiantian's words in his mind, let's try it with your students!

try?How can it be?He Cheng Xiaoming has survived for so many years, emotionally, he has never had the attitude of giving it a try.

He is generally peaceful in his behavior and actions, and some even have no opinions, but in his opinion, black is black and white is white, and there is no middle ground.

It's like, the feelings he thinks are, love and not love, there is nothing to try, and he doesn't say that he doesn't love, he can live with it, and he can just roll on the bed...

In the matter of feelings, he is paranoid and can't tolerate any sand.

He has spent more than ten years for Han Luo, and he will never waste more than ten years for another person. He only wants a love that lasts a lifetime.

However, the current Cheng Xiaoming is a poor ghost who doesn't even have someone he likes. He also wants the feeling of liking someone, and he also wants to pay for someone and love someone.

Life is really lonely like blood.

The author has something to say: Scholars just don’t know what it feels like to like someone, and they have asked many friends this question...the answers are different...