Spring time

The morning sun shines into the house through the glass of the balcony, making the room bright.The bed was covered with pale golden light, and I was almost woken up by the heat. When I lifted the quilt, I found that there was nothing beside me. When I almost thought that I was having an unrealistic dream, I caught a glimpse of a light yellow sticky note next to the bed cabinet. I hurriedly bent over to pick it up, but after carefully reading it, I almost raised my head with a smirk, staring at the furnishings in the bedroom.

The room is extremely quiet, and you can clearly hear the ticking sound of the clock on the wooden table. Under the sunlight, the lush potted sunflowers in the corner have shiny green leaves. Everything here Everything is so normal and familiar, but I feel that something is different, maybe my mood has changed, all the haze has been pushed away, and I suddenly become enlightened. It adds to the warmth of the room and makes it more angry.

I got up, stretched my arms lazily and walked into the washroom. There was already toothpaste squeezed for me by An Xin on the washstand.I looked at me in the mirror with a mouth full of foam, with a bright smile that I had never seen on my face, a smirk and a daze, just like when a dream came true, I felt dazed by the luck that fell from the sky, and my hands and feet were not moving. Knowing where to swing, I was startled like a fool.I can imagine that before An Xin left in the morning, she knelt on the head of the bed and looked at me sleeping soundly with a smile, while holding a pen and writing a whole paper of yellow sticky notes for me.

On the bright yellow sticky note are a few neat lines of small characters and some funny smiling faces, which read:

Of course, I wanted to wake you up, but you slapped my hand off impatiently, murmured and shrank into a ball under the quilt, unwilling to come out.You are so cute and cute, like a little pig, how could I have the heart to wake you up again, so I had to ask the company for leave for you.Well, sleep until you wake up naturally.Remember to eat something after waking up. I made some bento and put it on the kitchen counter. When I got up, put it in the microwave to heat it up. I went to work first, remember to miss me.

Although An Xin asked for leave for me, I went out and drove to the company.It was already ten o'clock in the morning when I arrived at the office, and I was absent-mindedly sorting out and revising the handed-in manuscripts, replaying in my mind all the reassuring smiles, every word, and the fantastic and wonderful night last night.It's just that the closer it is to twelve o'clock, the more anxious and anticipating I become.I couldn't read a single word of the manuscript on the table, and looked up at the ticking wall clock on the wall almost every few seconds, watching the minute and hour hands slowly gather and overlap at twelve o'clock.

I am waiting, waiting for the regular phone call that I feel at ease every day during my lunch break, and I am looking forward to the new changes on the phone today, which will surprise me.

But twelve o'clock passed, one o'clock passed, until it was almost two o'clock, and the lunch break was about to end. The mobile phone that I switched on and off on the table never rang, so that I thought my mobile phone was out of order.Those originally hopeful hearts also became a little disappointed. I couldn't help but think that An Xin must be entangled in something, so I'll call it.

Just as I was about to dial the familiar mobile phone number, the phone suddenly rang loudly. I checked it hastily, only to find that it was a call from the company's front desk, and I answered it disappointedly.The staff at the front desk told me that there was a package that I needed to sign for in person, and let me go downstairs to pick it up now.I can't help but wonder, I didn't order anything, and no one sent it to me.I went downstairs inexplicably.

At the front desk, I saw the so-called package, which was actually a gift box decorated with exquisite wrapping paper and ribbons, which was very conspicuous.

The sweaty postman told me it was fragile and told me to handle it with care and not squeeze it.I signed my name and picked it up carefully. Xiao Li at the front desk put his hand on my shoulder with a smirk on his face and asked me if I caught Gao Fushuai. He was so considerate and didn't let us know.

I gave her a whining look and said a few words, turned around and went upstairs.

I slowly and carefully tore off the packaging on the gift box, opened the paper cover, and found that there was still a layer of translucent gauze wrapped inside, and a kraft paper envelope lay on top of the gauze paper. I lifted the layer of gauze, Only to find that there are 11 bouquets of lilies neatly arranged in a layer, and there are some small drops of water on the tender white petals, which are fresh and attractive, and the fragrance is overflowing.

I carefully opened the envelope and couldn't wait to pull out the contents inside, which were three pieces of pale pink letter paper.I turned to the last page and looked at the bottom right corner of the letter.

At the end of the letter, the writer is at ease.

Then:

Of course, you should be very surprised when you receive this box, yes, I don’t know why I use such a hypocritical way to express my feelings for you.In fact, after you came back from Yunnan, I have a lot of things to say to you, about my sorry to you before; about my finally admitted feelings for you, but even if I have thousands of words, I I don't even know how to speak.Enduring my emotions towards you every day, the hesitation to speak almost drove me crazy.Until last night, I couldn't help showing my heart to you. Your panic and tears of joy made me regret why I couldn't express my feelings for you earlier, so that we don't have to be suspicious of each other Wasted so much time.I also hate myself for being indecisive and dull, for missing almost 3 years with you in vain.

You must really want to know when I fell in love with you, but even I don't know when my feelings for you began to deteriorate.Over the years, time has subtly changed your position in my heart, from the interdependence among friends to the feeling that I just want to be alone with you every day. I didn’t notice these subtle changes at the beginning, but I didn’t realize them The accumulation of a little becomes a lot, and finally the flood becomes a disaster, which is out of control.

I have been unwilling to admit it, I am afraid of this feeling, but I can't stop rejecting the good you give me, I can only comfort myself, my emotional world is a failure in Sen, and I also hope that when I am hurt, someone can Be by my side all the time and share some pain for me.And your appearance is so timely, like a sweet rain dew appearing at the most appropriate time to moisten the dry fields that are about to dry up and wither.So I have peace of mind to absorb the happiness and pampering you bring me.But my insatiable greed and excessive demands will sooner or later drain you dry.Because my stupid idea and ridiculous way have already hurt you deeply unconsciously, so you left, so suddenly.

The more than two years you were away may have been God's punishment for me, allowing me to see my feelings for you clearly in the torment of loneliness and coldness. I know I was wrong, and the mistake was so ridiculous. Drive away the only you who understand me in this world, because there will be no second you in the world.

I was thinking, if you come back, I will definitely keep you and treat you with all my heart.

Until you came back to find me, we resumed the relationship of good friends 2 years ago, I think I am lucky, because at least you didn't really leave, you still don't want me, you came back.

I can't imagine how I spent those two years of blank days. I ate alone, went to work alone, and was in a daze alone. I woke up in the early morning and found myself lying in an empty room. The cold darkness almost swallowed me. That feeling of helplessness, I don't want to think about it for the second time.

Perhaps it is because of the loss that I can experience the joy of regaining it. I cherish the time I spend with you.How warm and beautiful it is, I am addicted to it and don't want to let it go.

Maybe you don't even know it, but every time I go out to eat with you, you always arrive early, and then sit quietly in your seat and wait for me.Whether the restaurant is crowded or crowded, I can spot you almost at a glance.Because you always look at the entrance of the stairs seriously, the moment you see you, you occupy all my expressions.

I just like you like this. Although you are always reticent, you will always bring me endless touches and surprises inadvertently. The gentle and persistent you sometimes hide a little lack of self-confidence and lack of courage. But gently will not abandon the voice in his heart.In your unique way, you illuminate my life regardless of the rewards, and those mediocre lives become beautiful because of you.

I used to listen to midnight radio alone in the wee hours of the morning, and I still remember an unknown DJ saying this in a hoarse tone:

What exactly is true love? I have always felt that its form must not be staying with each other, but no matter how many days have passed; no matter how many stories I have experienced; how many cities I have traveled alone; Good or bad, but when we come home from work alone through the streets; when we wake up in the morning and no one makes milk for us; In the busy streets we think of him, not anyone else but him.

Until the end of the show, the tears in the corners of my eyes still flowed down, and the pillow was soaked. I knew that I had completely fallen, because for more than two years, I always thought of you inadvertently when I was alone. , think of your kindness to me.

I am glad that you are back and back to me. I want to express my heart to you, but I am afraid that all my assumptions will be different from the reality in the end; I am afraid that these are just my wishful thinking; I am afraid that after the window paper is pierced The embarrassing ending, I am afraid that we will not be able to be friends because of this.But I don't believe that you don't have any feelings for me, so I can only procrastinate and tell myself that when the time is right, I will tell the secret in my heart.

Until that day, I made an appointment to go shopping with my colleagues, and saw you intimate with a strange man in the square, which made me feel sore and couldn't help calling your mobile phone, but you told me that I was in Wuzhen now, and I At that time, there was a feeling of being cheated, so I held back the anger in my heart, pretended to be calm, and hung up the phone.That night, I got very drunk in the bar, my heart was full of bitterness, but finally I figured it out, this is your life, how can I interfere, you are also a woman, and you also hope to have a happy life Family, and I can't even satisfy you with these simplest and most basic requirements, what right do I have to blame you, but even so, why do you lie to me.

I don’t know why, but I wanted to go home. I walked downstairs to your house, looking at the dark and closed window sill on the 12th floor. At that time, I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted to wait for you to come back and give me a explain.

But just when you were in a hurry to prevent me from misunderstanding and telling the truth, the sincerity and flattery in your eyes made me feel that we are really stupid.They obviously like each other but dare not take any further steps forward. They are just uselessly trying to guess each other's feelings secretly, and there are more misunderstandings that should not have happened for no reason.

But even so, I should also be grateful for Ping's appearance, because his erroneous hits led us to the red line, and I had the courage to take this step and truly own you.

Of course, it’s okay, it’s okay that you didn’t come into my world one minute earlier and one second later, because I only know how precious you are because of missing and losing.I used to be sad for a long time for Nalan Rongruo's sentence "Life is just like the first time you see it", but in fact, there are too many people in this world, and they miss people who can't be missed in this life every day.

As for me, I was lucky enough to meet the only you in this world.

I write a thousand words eloquently, just to let you understand my heart and accept me with an open heart.In the days to come, I hope that I can hold your hand and walk through the remaining distance together.In the old age with graying hair, we can still wait by each other's side, hand in hand, reminisce about the long stream of water, the trivial and ordinary past, look at each other and smile, no matter how time goes by, the world is impermanent, the faces of each other in memory will not grow old, You are still the 29-year-old you, and I am still the 32-year-old me.

I came across the flower by chance in a flower shop on the way to work today. I liked it very much, so I bought it.Actually, I planned to buy roses, but I thought that you would prefer the freshness and purity of lilies to the hotness and unrestrainedness of roses, so I replaced more than 11 roses with 11 lilies——May I hold my hand and be with you for the rest of my life The son grows old together.

Finally, I just want to tell you what I have been unable to say to you:

Jane, I love you.

2013. 8, 29

Relief

I read the entire content of this letter carefully, and there were a few smudged wet marks on the thin paper, and the beautiful small characters became somewhat blurred.I hurriedly raised my head, trying to stop the tears that were about to overflow my eyes, then turned my head out of the window and covered my mouth tightly with my hands, trying not to let my sobs burst out.I admit that I was overwhelmed by the emotion mixed between those lines.

I never thought that in my lifetime, I could receive a love letter.I was just moved, but I couldn't help laughing out loud.

But don't worry, you are really hypocritical.

The author has something to say: The new article "Mo Dongyang" is still in the works. This is the copy I drafted. If you have any comments or suggestions, you can mention them.

Copywriter (version [-] of the heroine): In order to escape marriage, she traveled all the way to the north, just because the capital was the only capital she knew.In order to survive, she stole other people's identities, even names, and entered the palace as a little-known little maid, just to make ends meet.After that, she had regarded the imperial palace as her grave, until she met her in the backyard of the deep palace, everything changed.For her sake, she placed a shocking bet, and her plot was carried out quietly, but she didn't know that what she was about to face was the choice between life and death.