Lofty future

The life of the crew is getting more and more compact, and the whole day goes by without paying attention to the scene, rehearsal and shooting.

I gradually learned some acting skills, mastered the relationship between actors and the camera, and performed more and more calmly.

Especially when he enters the play quickly, every time he imagines himself as Gu Bai, many words and deeds seem to need no thinking at all.

Chen Zuoda, who played with me the most, quickly let go of his doubts and turned into a lovely, amiable and good senior who is willing to teach others. He likes to teach me acting by hand.

Originally planning to train me personally, Chi Xue had nothing to do, and often stood aside with a sullen expression.

"Axue, Chengzi is a genius. You have found a treasure, sign it quickly!" During the waiting time, Chen Zuoda tested Chi Xue holding a thermos, "Otherwise, I'll snatch it."

Chi Xue was flipping through the storyboard script in her hand, and she glanced at me out of the corner of her eye when she heard this, and said with a bad attitude: "It's disrespectful to be old and steal someone from the younger generation!"

Chen Zuoda laughed out loud when he heard this, his eyes lingered back and forth between Chi Xue and me for a moment, and said meaningfully: "Everyone has a love for talents, everyone depends on their own abilities! Isn't it, Orange?"

As he said that, he took out an orange from the pocket of the hospital gown in the play and stuffed it into my hand.

One day his wife came to visit the class and brought several boxes of fresh fruit. After that, he would bring me an orange every day, and he also changed my address.My kindness is hard to turn down, and I often accept it respectfully.

He wandered into the house and called for someone to cover him with a quilt.

He had to lie on the bed throughout today's scene, covered with a thick quilt.It stands to reason that I should have covered him with the quilt.But he didn't ask me to go to the rehearsal together, so I was a little unsure whether to follow up.

"Xiang Cheng, I'm thirsty." While hesitating, Chi Xue bumped me with her elbow.

Here we go again—these days, whenever Chen Zuoda expresses a few words of kindness to me, he will act as if the vinegar tank is leaking.

Standing in the camera is obviously very advanced in acting, but for me, it becomes the level of Song Weiran's idol drama.

"Take it." I stuffed the orange to him, I didn't want to push and pull, I immediately decided to rehearse with Chen Zuoda.

"Ah Cheng, don't go." Before I could take a step, the pencil in Chi Xue's hand blocked my arm.

A thin pen barrel made him look like a sword in a martial arts movie.

It reminds me of how he used to make martial arts films.Those body movements were all practiced for a long time, neat and sassy, ​​and his gestures made people believe that he was a young hero.

And the current Guanshan has another taste.In front of people, he is high-spirited, refined and polite, but in the back, he is depressed and almost gloomy, and at the same time, he is so fragile that he wins sympathy.

Among the entire crew, I was called an acting genius.But even so, I also deeply understand that it is very difficult to incarnate into another person.

He claims to have average talent, and to be able to hone it to what he is now must have done unimaginable exercises.

And the part I can guess is that he hollowed out his heart countless times, gave up the position of his soul, and forced another person to live in his body.

I don't know if that is a hardship for him, at least in my current experience, it is really uncomfortable.If you extend yourself to others, I think he suffered.

"What do you think of Mr. Chen's proposal just now?" He looked at me and asked.

"What proposal?" I pretended to be at a loss.

He was a little helpless, and stood in front of me: "After I finish filming this movie, I will be independent from the original company. Acting is not the most comfortable thing for me, and I want to gradually move behind the scenes."

"Oh, then your fans will be very sad."

"When the time comes, I need someone."

"I told you, it's only this one time." Without giving him any chance, I put on a straight face and refused decisively.

He was only probing, and when he saw this, he softened, glanced into the room, and asked with a smile: "If others want to make up your mind, you have to be so determined."

"Then you don't have to worry about it."

"Don't be so dead, you can't tell if you want me to worry about it in the future, don't forget that I'm still chasing you-can't you see it? Don't say that, I admit that I don't chase you very closely, it's mine Wrong. It happens that there are few arrangements today, why don't we make an appointment tonight?"

"..."

There are a lot of plays, a set of lines, and I don't know where he got the confidence. I think this kind of trick is useful to me.

I glanced at him contemptuously, and I taunted him: "You'd better take less skinny idol dramas, because if you act too much, you will lose your IQ."

"That's why you don't understand. Idol dramas have been popular for so long and have their own secret essence. You will feel its charm."

Pooh.

There are really not many arrangements for this day, because the scene between Chen Zuoda and me is quite exhausting, and both parties need to greatly mobilize their emotions and emotions.

There were quarrels, crying, and outbursts, and I had to struggle with my conscience and resentment. I almost strangled him, my lover and life mentor, to death, and finally rushed him to the hospital with Guan Shan.

When Gu Bai was still a teenager, he met Guan Shan's father, and it was this older man who took him through the most unstable and difficult days in his life.

He sheltered him, redeemed him, and became his most important spiritual pillar.

At the stage of juvenile joint growth, the experience and knowledge of the elders were completely crushing, coupled with conscious or unconscious guidance, he became his tailor-made "partner" for himself.

For many years, Gu Bai thought that this man loved him.Until he fell ill, the lives of the two became precarious and fragmented.

In the desperate situation that is getting closer and closer to death, the man gradually sheds his disguise, indulges all desires and emotions, and expresses all anger and regret.

The boy back then finally had to admit that his best years were actually imprisoned and used by the other party's selfishness.

However, ten years have passed, and time cannot be repeated. The sadness and hatred brought about by awakening can only be mixed in the already fragmented life. Every moment in front of me is too sad.

When the man mentioned his ex-wife with nostalgia, praised his adult son with pride and guilt, and lamented his yearning for the first half of his life, Gu Bai couldn't stand it anymore.

"Old Guan, do you want the fallen leaves to return to their roots? Or, I will strangle you right now, burn you, and let your son take you back to your wife and bury you?"

I held a hot towel in my hand and said with a smile while wiping his arm.

I don't know if he heard it clearly, his cloudy eyes slowly turned to me, the expression on his haggard face was blurred, and it took him a long time to spit out a few words: "What are you talking about?"

"I said," I leaned closer to him, my smile deepened, and my eyes fell on the tip of his nose.I used to like his nose the most, because it was straight and straight, and it rubbed against my face when kissing, and it was so ambiguous that it poked people to death, "Now let your soul return to your hometown, lest you get divorced again and don't want to marry me , the soul has nowhere to go after death."

This time, he heard every word clearly.And, realize I'm not joking.

I am a little thing he raised, whether it is good or evil, good or crazy, he can see through it with a little concentration.It's a pity that since he fell ill, he has been busy mourning the spring and autumn and remembering the past, so he hasn't cared about me for too long.

In a blink of an eye, the towel in my hand was wrapped around his neck, and half of him was pressed against him, making him unable to move, and he could only let the towel tighten to breathe.

Watching him struggle with whimpers and broken yells, waving his hands in the air, and kicking his legs constantly, I laughed even wider.

"Old Guan, do I look good? When you first met me, I often laughed like this. You said I looked like a beautiful boy in a fairy tale. Do you remember?"

"Ah woo woo... um... Bai, Bai..."

"Uncle Guan, you have hurt my heart so much these days, how can you think about going back there? Since you have raised me, you should take good care of me for the rest of your life, and you have to be tied to me when you die, right? ? How could you think of leaving me behind?"

"..." His complexion was already pale, his lips were bloodless, and his eyes protruded.

Death crawled up the corners of his eyes and brows.

But I was not happy, I only felt a burst of pain, my heart was tightened by something, and the pain was so painful that I was about to suffocate.

Tears fell from the sore eye sockets, and he could only breathe with his mouth open, crying and questioning him.

"Why? Why! Guan Shan agreed, why are you still unwilling to marry me! Why do you refuse to admit me after you raised me? How can I be shameless? How can I not compare to the wife you abandoned? You...you Don't even think about leaving, you have no right to leave!"

"Gu Bai!"

Suddenly, a voice entered my ears, and then someone hugged me from behind and dragged me away.

I was so weak from crying a long time ago that I couldn't help but let go of my hands.It was like loosening a life-saving straw, and the whole person fell into the dark deep water since then.

I didn't care who that person was, I buried myself in the other person's arms and wept bitterly.He seemed to scold me, but I couldn't hear it at all, and my whole body was trembling and venting.

After a while, a hand landed on my shoulder, caressing it hesitantly, and then opened my stiff embrace slightly.

I smell Chi Xue.

It's not Guan Shan——At this moment, I fell out of Gu Bai's world, my soul returned to its place, and the only person I could smell in my breath was Chi Xue.I smell the perfume he wore the day we reunited.

At that time, I seemed very uncomfortable and disgusted, but at the moment it made me feel at ease, and I wanted to indulge something—in a claustrophobic corner that no one knew, to release the depression and emotions that belonged to Xiang Cheng.

"Don't cry, Gu Bai, it's okay, it's okay." Chi Xue gently comforted me, and the hand moved from my arm to my back, and the movement became smoother.

I don't know what is on his face, I just know that now is the safest moment for me when I hide my head and see no one.In the name of being in the show, I can go crazy whatever I want.

After maintaining this position for quite a while, Chi Xue slowly bowed her head and approached me, hugging me by the neck.

"It's okay, no one will blame you." He pressed against my ear and comforted me with a breathy voice, "Ah Cheng, be good."

"..." I didn't know how to react.

At this moment, the executive director shouted: "Crack!"

Immediately, my body went limp, and I couldn't tell whether to relax or lift up, and I staggered to stand up.Chi Xue held me down.

Then, he clasped my shoulders tightly with both arms, fixed them completely in his arms, and called out again softly: "Ah Cheng."

I don't need him to say the following, I know that he wants to hug Xiang Cheng again.It turned out that both of us played other people's games.

The author says:

More tomorrow night.