Lofty future

The rain has been falling, the water from the shower has been flowing, and the whole world is wet.

There are three shots facing me, one above, one at the door, and one outside for a distant view.I was completely naked, and the only thing that seemed to cover me was water.

Taking a bath is a very common thing. Normally, I just need to take advantage of my body and add some emotions to my movements, so it won't be too ugly.

Before I undressed and started filming, I took a special look at myself in the mirror.

Maybe it's because Gu Bai is living in my body, the expression on that face looks more fragile than usual.Especially the eyes.

When I was a child, I told Meifang that I had the eyes of a small animal. I didn’t understand it, but now I understand it a little bit.

When it was Xiang Cheng's eyes, it was just like any mediocre man on the street, except for its better shape, nothing else.

When it becomes Gu Bai's eyes, it becomes complicated and changeable.When he is calm, he is clear and innocent, when he is wronged, his resentment and anger are straightforward, and when he smiles, his crescent moon is curved and sweet, which is only like a child.

Gu Bai was kept in captivity by himself prematurely, and his psychology was placed in the stage of being cared for and sheltered for a long time, so he failed to grow up properly.Subconsciously, I used some of my childhood states to express him.

It's been doing well for so long.

But today, I couldn't concentrate and couldn't enter his world.The person staring at me outside, I can't take it as Guan Shan.

He is Chi Xue, he is watching me, spying on me, attacking me.

I feel like a light is on my back, and my heart is full of strong anxiety and resistance.

The water was pouring on my head, and when I closed my eyes, I could see those happy images of my youth, my lonely time of resentment and depression, and the moments when only I knew about him and secretly paid attention to him.

"Take a break—" After an unknown period of time, the executive director paused the shooting.

I breathed a sigh of relief, covered my face with my hands and rubbed it, then stroked my wet hair, turned off the shower, and reached for a bath towel, but found nothing.

I opened my eyes suddenly, and the soft woolen cloth was draped over my shoulders from behind.

"Quickly dry off and wrap up, don't catch a cold." It was Chi Xue.

"Yeah." I didn't look back, and pulled the towel tighter.

He backed out and left, and I dried off in the bathroom and got dressed.When we went out, the rain had already lightened, and it didn't seem like it would last long.

This scene may be scrapped, and we have to find time to reshoot.This is more or less my problem, and I feel quite uncomfortable.

I found a hair dryer, and I hid in Gu Bai's room to dry my hair.After a while, Chi Xue came in, didn't say anything, just sat on Guan Shan's father's bed facing me.

After I finished blowing, he handed over a cup of warm milk tea: "Drink something sweet, you don't look good."

"I don't drink milk tea."

"Sent by a fan visiting class."

In other words, he didn't buy it.It seemed that I was sure that I didn't want to accept his things, so I refused the milk tea.have a bee in one's bonnet.

I didn't bother to explain to him, so I took the milk tea and put it beside me, and asked him, "Is this game going to work?"

"It's okay, everyone has bad scenes, you have time to find out how you feel, and then just find a rainy day to shoot." He seemed to take this as usual, without expressing anything special.

I couldn't see his performance at that time, I didn't know how he acted, and I couldn't speculate whether he couldn't get into the show again like me.Of course, there was no way to ask, so I could only keep silent, nodding to accept his kind comfort.

After a while, he said again: "I'm going to participate in two temporary events tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, so you'll take pictures with other people first, and the revised announcement arrangement will be sent to your WeChat."

It looks like a business.The atmosphere was inexplicably oppressive, and I felt a little unspeakable irritability, and I answered him casually with "um", but I was also a little muffled.

"Then that's it for today, go back to rest early, and I'm going to get ready to go." After that, he got up and walked towards the door. His steps were a little slow, but he never looked back.

The rain finally stopped, and the crew began to happily collect things.I was upstairs watching Chi Xue go out and walk outside the gate of this small building.

The structure of this house is similar to that of No. 16, Guxu Road. Standing on the balcony of the upstairs room, you can see the door and the street.

Chi Xue was surrounded by fans on the street, he cooperatively stopped to sign autographs and take pictures with them.

After a few minutes, the fans finally let him go, and the assistant arrived in the car, and he got into the car.

Just as I was about to turn around and leave the balcony, the window of that car was lowered halfway, and Chi Xue's eyes cast over from there.He waved to me, mouthing "bye".

For the next two days, filming continued as usual.I mostly played with Chen Zuoda. He became addicted to teaching, and whenever he was free, he would pull me to improve my professional level.

Lines, voices, shapes, performances, liberating nature... Whatever was taught in school, he wanted to stuff it into my head, and I completely lost my "off work" time.

I'm not too tired, but I think he's a bit wasteful. After all, I only promised Chi Xue to act once.But this time, my intuition and relatively natural reaction were enough to give him the effect he wanted, and no amount of learning would be of much use.

But I'm not good at dampening his interest. If he wants to teach me, I will learn. Anyway, I don't have too many skills.

It was already late at night when I returned to the hotel room after completing filming and study tasks every day. After taking a shower, I went to bed, silently read the script, and checked Weibo, and it was time to go to bed.

When I opened the message bar this day, I found a private message from an old friend—Big Orange and Little Sun.

She hasn't messaged me privately in a while, and hasn't commented on my photography updates lately.Maybe it's because I'm used to it. I was somewhat disappointed when she disappeared, but I was pleasantly surprised when I saw the private message.

Open the chat box and see a few pictures.

Surprisingly, the picture was taken of me on the set!

I have seen many photos of this type. Every star that Song Weiran likes has this kind of photo, and it is usually taken by fans.There may be more popular stars every day, called Bantu or something.

"A Lonely Happy Event" is strictly controlled, very few fans can come to take live photos, and those who can be taken are basically approved by Chi Xue.And this old friend of mine secretly took a picture of me with a camera!

Look carefully, these pictures have been carefully edited, and the style of editing is very similar to mine.Strive for texture and authenticity.What I like the most is not to rub the skin randomly.

Before the picture, there is a paragraph of text.

"I took a lot of photos, and these photos were carefully selected. I don't know if you want to be seen as an artist, so I didn't dare to post them. I just show them to you. I hope you like them."

Vanity, human nature, human nature.The moment I saw these photos, I undoubtedly also had a vague hope that they would be seen by more people and receive praise and compliments.

But intellectually, I don't want to.

This old friend is really a friend.She knows me and understands me.

After accepting these pictures, I replied with a sincere thank you, feeling more comfortable and proud than usual.After turning off the lights, my mind was still so excited that I couldn't fall asleep, and I didn't know what time it was until I felt drowsy.

When the first thunder hit my ears, I was still half dreaming, my mind was still active, like ants crawling past.Thinking about getting up early to work, I didn't want to be dragged out of sleep by this disturbance, so I closed my eyes even tighter and tried to fall asleep.

At this time, I felt a heavy object pressing down on me, and the elastic force of the bed acted on me, making me even more uneasy.

I don't want to wake up, but I'm already half awake, very irritable and helpless.

I turned over and hugged the quilt, and there seemed to be a chuckle behind me.Something flashed through my mind immediately, but I couldn't catch it.

Until the waist was hugged by something, the familiar breath penetrated into the nostrils.I trembled all over, and immediately woke up.

"Chi Xue?" I heard my voice hoarse and surprised.

"Hmm..." He sounded as if his eyes were closed, and he was more sleepy than me, but his arms hugged him even tighter.

I made up my mind and resisted not overthrowing him: "Let go of me and go back to your room. How did you get in?"

"Ask the front desk for a room card...how can you be so stupid, this is common sense." As he spoke, he moved closer to my neck, and his warm breath fell on my skin.

"Boom—" There was another thunder outside.

He just hugged me like that, resting his chin on my shoulder, staring straight out of the window.After a while, I don't know whether it was exhaustion or emotion, and I sighed lightly.

"It's going to rain again, the rainy season in Yangcheng is here."

I felt awkward all over, and struggled: "Let go of me first, and go back to your own room."

"Xiang Cheng, are you joking?"

"……what?"

"Say you're stupid." He said with a smile, and pressed one leg on me, entangled in posture, and the strength was not light.

I was a little hard to move for a while, and I only heard him say: "I climbed into your bed in the middle of the night, and you want to blow me away with one word? Are you too naive, or do you think too much of my character?"

"Chi Xue!"

"I'm here."

"Don't go too far."

"Don't go, I'm not too much." As he said, he bowed and separated some distance, the strength in his legs also eased, and his forehead rested on the back of my neck, as if muttering to himself, "Xiang Cheng, I miss you so much .”

Like a loose fish, I quickly slipped out of his grasp, pushed him away and sat up.

Pushed by me, he lay flat on his back and looked up.In the dim light, there seemed to be water in his eyes.

Did he really cry?Or lie to me?This little bastard has more eyes than a hornet's nest now, I really...

"Why don't you leave?" After a long confrontation, he asked sadly.

I don't know why I didn't leave.There are also sofas and tatami mats in the room, so I can lie down anywhere.But I didn't want to leave that much, I didn't want to leave him that much.

Speechless, and too lazy to confront him.I moved to the other side and fell asleep again.

Seeing this, he regained his energy immediately, and raised half of his body with one hand to face me: "Ah Cheng, Ah Cheng, are you relenting?"

"..."

"Tell me, did you let me stay, or did you let me stay? Then I really stayed... Hey, no, if someone chases you like this, if you don't resist, let them stay gone?"

"...Don't fucking talk, I'm sleepy!"

"..." There was a thin "oh" on the other side, and then fell silent.

I closed my eyes and ignored him.

There was thunder and lightning outside, and the wind and rain were coming suddenly. When no one was talking, the atmosphere was a bit like a drama.

For some reason, I gradually became more at ease.Whether it is late at night or wind and rain, it seems to be lighter, farther away, and blurred.On the contrary, the people around are clear, familiar and warm.

When he hugged him again, I didn't even have the strength and urge to push him away again, my eyelids were heavy, and I just fell asleep steadily like this.