Lofty future

As if waiting for a trial, I held my breath and secretly focused on listening to his reaction.But I couldn't hear anything, not even the sound of breathing in such a deep night.

This lasted a little long—or maybe it wasn’t that long actually, it’s just that I was nervous so the body felt the time was slow and long—he didn’t respond, and I began to fantasize about him falling asleep.

It would be a good thing if he really fell asleep, so I can pretend he didn't hear, and he doesn't have to respond.

But is he really asleep?

I stared out the window, my mind wandering, I felt lightened, running out of my body, dizzy.

Such a situation is not new today, in fact it is not uncommon.Tiredness, emptiness, tension, excitement... may all contribute to this experience.

I've never paid attention to it before though.I mean, I don't think it has any special significance, just as the body reacts in some extreme situations.

But today is different.

Today I will be cranky.

Please, give me a response.Any reaction is fine - does my shitty past make you sick?Make you worry?Have you subverted your impression of me?

You tell me!

"Okay!" Chi Xue said just when my nails were about to pierce the skin of my palm.

I was stunned.Completely different from what he had imagined, his tone didn't sound heavy at all.Even...it doesn't even seem to care, the ending has a subtle sense of brilliance.

What's up?

I subconsciously pressed the phone to my ear a little bit, thinking I had asked him, but then realized I hadn't.

However, as if he heard my heart, he replied with a smile: "I asked Song Weiran just now, she can cancel the plan to take the children to the playground tomorrow, and let Zeng Yuhan play games with them instead. Visit Xiaobai will take care of Zhan Yunpeng's affairs first. Don't worry, he is very reliable and measured. So, you will be fine these two days."

"..." I was a little confused for a while, I realized what he was talking about, but I couldn't organize the words to answer.

He waited for a while, but didn't hear a reply from here, so he said again: "Can you come and see me? I'm opening the ticket purchase page now, and I'll book the ticket if you say yes."

It was like a flood in my mind, crashing through some barrier.

"it is good."

Of all the sudden long-distance trips, this one was the most dreamlike.It was two o'clock in the morning when the phone hung up, and I wasn't sleepy at all. I turned on my phone repeatedly to look at the screenshots of the ticketing page sent by Chi Xue.

He is still human, and he didn't book early in the morning, but I still didn't get to sleep for long.

When I woke up in the morning and went out of the living room, Assistant Bai and Zeng Yuhan were there.

The former was going to take me to the airport, while the latter had a smug face of successfully entering the room, and he no longer regarded himself as a guest.

The worst part was that Jasmine shared half of her own milk with him!I have been her cheap uncle for three years, and I have never enjoyed such an honor!

And Song Weiran's gratifying smile and expression made my heart sour, and I couldn't move my feet.

When she heard me coming out, she turned her head and gave me a little attention. The smile on her face was still immersed in the harmonious scene in the living room, and she even looked at me with motherly eyes.

"Come and have breakfast, there's plenty of time to go out early." Obviously, she knew when and where I was going.

I didn't say a word, just sat down in silence.She was face to face with me, and glanced at the living room from time to time.

I have to admit that her current look of worry and expectation is more moving than in the past.

"Do you really think he can do it?" After a while, I couldn't help asking.

Hearing this, she raised her face and blinked as if she didn't understand: "What?"

"He is a good man, but he has to entrust his life..."

"What are you talking about?" Song Weiran interrupted me with a smile.The silence in my ears does not affect the presentation of her tone of voice in my mind, which is full of joy.

"What is the entrustment for life? He entrusted me with entrustment. Don't you think I'm not a person worthy of entrustment?"

"..." How can I answer this question?

Song Weiran turned her face to look at them quietly, then turned her head and looked at me.

"A Cheng, you misunderstood him. Not only you, but he also misunderstood himself. He doesn't like me, he likes a mother like me, do you understand?"

A word to awaken the dreamer.

Watching Zeng Yuhan and Jasmine playing together again, I suddenly had a new experience.

It turned out that he didn't get close to Song Weiran by bribing Jasmine, but spent his childhood with Jasmine.

He regards Jasmine as his playmate, and Song Weiran as his most desirable, other people's mother.With the sculls of friendship, secretly enjoy the warmth of this mother.

Poor little thing, why am I abandoned and can't get their love, and you, Cheng Huan, are so miserable.

After breakfast, I simply packed some things, said goodbye to them, and then I set off.The journey was smooth, the plane was on time, and the flight took off soon after.

I didn't sleep well at night. The journey was nearly three hours, and I was asleep almost the whole time.

At first I didn’t have any dreams. I don’t know when I was half awake due to the turbulence of the airflow, I stepped into a fog that was both familiar and unfamiliar.Familiar, because I often dreamed about it before.Unfamiliar because I haven't been here for a long time.

When did it first appear?

It seems to be in Vietnam until the eighth month, after the first underground filming.

The time interval was too long, and I also deliberately forgot, so I couldn't remember what kind of shooting it was.Anyway, it's not random, forced intercourse between men and women, but a dangerous game that stimulates the eyes and the mind.

After I finished my work, I fell asleep in the dark for two days, and walked into the fog again and again in my dream.It has no entrance and no end, and I was terrified inside, desperately trying to escape.

After the same dream came a few times, it became a nightmare with ease, strangling me from the dream to the outside world.In the same way, I quickly regained the experience of dealing with this kind of thing and fought against it endlessly.

For more than half a year, it was always upgrading its methods of deceiving and suppressing me, and I kept cracking it and then ignoring it.The cycle goes back and forth, and each other refuses to give in, which is comparable to fighting to the death.

Then I stopped dreaming about it and thought I had won.

But now it easily wraps me back in confusion and fear.

My feet are on the ground, but it implies that I will step on the ground ahead, maybe a swamp or a cliff; if I don't stay where I am, it tells me that I will miss important things and regret it.

It has no shape, no orientation, no evidence of existence.I couldn't attack, couldn't break through, I just felt flustered and out of breath, as if a boulder was pressing on my chest.

The fear of death and the anxiety of regret are like some kind of bloodthirsty beast, extremely excited, violently and viciously tearing at my spirit, I can't breathe, I can't move... I seem to be losing.

Whoever comes to save me, I will lose.

I don't want to lose.

"Xiang Cheng! Xiang Cheng—"

Suddenly, I don't know where there was a burst of lively beating of gongs and drums. The clear and clear voice unique to young people pierced through the noise of gongs and drums and hit my eardrums.

I opened my eyes suddenly, the fog was gone, and there was a funeral in front of me.

You don't need to identify me to know that this is Xiang Meifang's funeral.Then I understood that I hadn't woken up yet.

And this funeral is more anxiety-provoking than the previous fog, and I don't want to be here.

late snow.

As I responded loudly to the call just now, I wondered where the voice was coming from.Not near the funeral—not in time or space.

I'm going to run hard.

High school physics has told us that, in theory, magical things will happen if you exceed the speed of light.I want to beat time and run to the time and space where that stupid little orphan is.

After running for an unknown amount of time, I was almost exhausted, and I no longer had the energy to think about where I was. My breathing was completely blocked, and the lack of oxygen seemed to be killing me.

...I lost consciousness.

At the same time, I literally opened my eyes.

The first feeling I recovered was cold, and then I found that I was covered in cold sweat, and my whole body seemed to be soaked in water.

The plane was landing, and I saw the clouds passing by in front of my eyes, and the air was swollen in my ears, which made me feel a little uncomfortable.

I didn't have any strength, didn't want to move, and my mind gave up all thoughts, so I just looked out the window.

A full 10 minutes passed, the plane came to a complete stop, and the seat belt was unbuttoned as if escaping from a catastrophe.

At this moment, there is only one thought in my mind.

I want to fall in love with Chi Xue, and from now on, I will give myself to him every waking minute - otherwise the nightmare will catch up with me, both in and out of the dream.