Lofty future

When I was in Southeast Asia, a doctor who gave me many regular psychological consultations believed that I had a strong Oedipus complex, and that deep down I was a coward who would find my mother when I was indecisive.

I don't know if he was right, or if his words had an impact on my subconscious mind. Later, I really tended to dream of Xiang Meifang when I felt uneasy.

Originally, Wu Cong had already solved the entanglement of the nightmare for me, and I slept well by Chi Xue's side these days.

But suddenly, one morning, I was trapped in a state where my mind was awake but my body couldn't move. A force pinned me to the bed, and I could only vaguely see Chi Xue's figure walking around.

"Ah Cheng, are you still asleep?" He pushed me.

I wanted to respond to him, to tell him I was awake, but I couldn't.

He smiled softly: "Why did you sleep so deeply? Last night...you...don't get up to see me off...in a few days...you have to remember to give it to me..."

The air seemed to be crumpled by something, and his voice sounded vague and intermittent in it.

His hand seemed to rest on my forehead, light as a feather.He also kissed me.

I tried desperately to open my eyes, but the eyelids remained motionless, only a glimmer of light wrapped in a distorted figure swaying in my field of vision.

The figure walked away from the bed, walked towards the table, paused for a moment, then went in another direction.It's the door.The door was opened with a slight creaking sound.

"Bang." The door closed and the figure disappeared.

I was desperate and sad inside. I felt that I was very close to death. I really wanted to cry but I couldn't control my body.

At this time, a warm, air-like thing surrounds it, carrying a familiar and distant taste.

This smell easily awakens a certain scene deep in the memory, which has happened countless times.

Countless times, Xiang Meifang returned to No. 16 Guxu Road after work, opened the door of the living room, and while I was doing my homework, I would smell her unique, hospital smell along the direction of the wind.

"How was class today?" She put down her bag and asked while bending over to change her shoes.

"Very good!" I replied briskly.

"It's okay." Chi Xue, who had just arrived at home, had a somewhat perfunctory attitude.

But Xiang Meifang didn't care at all, and then asked what's for dinner tonight.I hurriedly got up to go to the kitchen to open the refrigerator, when a head popped in from outside the door.

It was Song Weiran from the next door. She stretched her neck and looked in, and said to Chi Xue and me, "My grandma is cooking, come quickly!"

Hula, the three of us decided to shamelessly follow Song Weiran to the next door for dinner.

I'm so happy, I opened my legs—no, how can I have such long legs?

Oh, that was me as a kid.

Only he can hold his younger brother with one hand and his mother with the other, and go out without any worries.

As for me, a person who is willing to roll in the mud and get dirty, I can only watch.

The emotion of envy filled the internal organs, overwhelming.It was warm at first, and then gradually became heavy, making my chest hurt and my breathing was blocked.

The dreams of my childhood were gone in this way, and I only had the cold and lonely door that Chi Xue had just closed in front of me.

By the way, I just remembered that today he is going to Pingcheng.No wonder I just blamed me for being too sleepy to send him off, I clearly agreed last night...

Idiot, what do you think of "obviously agree", wake up quickly!When I wake up, I can still catch up with him!

So I started battling eyelids again.

"Okay, don't be attached." After a long struggle, a voice sounded from somewhere in the room.

In the field of vision, the light is crooked like a broken spider web.

Walking back and forth in this twisted "net" alone, she not only has Xiang Meifang's voice, but also speaks like Xiang Meifang.

"Now that you have made a decision, don't think about what if, what if, maybe... well, don't be so stressed, relax and sleep for a while."

The smell of the hospital that I had just smelled in another time and space reappeared. It has magical powers to soothe my eagerness and fear, and relieve the heavy feeling that I can't breathe.

Slowly, I found the comfortable state of falling asleep normally, and even turned over.

"Mom, will he blame me?" I asked.

Xiang Meifang was standing by the window, she didn't know why the curtains were not drawn properly, the light seemed to grow on her body.I can't see her face clearly anyway, I only know that she is smiling.

"Yes."

"What should I do?"

"Didn't you blame him too? At that time, you didn't think about what he should do."

"That's it...that's even."

"It's even."

"mom……"

"Ok?"

"Do you regret adopting us?"

"What nonsense are you talking about, silly boy."

"Mother."

"Ah."

"Mom...Mom, don't go."

"I've been gone a long time."

"I don't care, don't go!"

She said with a smile: "The sun is drying your butt, get up quickly."

The figure by the window completely melted into the morning sun, and the voice became extremely distant.

"Wake up," she said.

I opened my eyes in response.

Chi Xue's house is too big, I feel empty in it alone, I can't even gather a dream.

I thought I had been fighting the nightmare for a long time, but in fact Chi Xue only left home for 10 minutes.He was going to meet Chu Wenjin, and the plane was scheduled for three hours later.

There was still time for me to go, but I had no strength, my whole body was numb, and there were noises in my ears.

I almost doubt that I will be deaf again.

After spending an unknown amount of time like this, I was finally able to lift my spirits up a bit.I took out my backpack, hurriedly packed some travel necessities, and then called Assistant Bai.

"Is it booked? What time is the plane?"

"After twelve o'clock, we will stagger with Teacher Chi."

Assistant Bai was resolute and determined. After agreeing to help me conceal my plan to return to Yangcheng from Chi Xue, he didn't hesitate at all, and arranged the itinerary for me very well.

The only hesitation was the explanation to Xiao Tailin.

"Mr. Xiao pays close attention to you. I was the person he sent to Mr. Chi in the early years. Logically, I shouldn't hide my work, and I can't hide it. So if he asks, I can only..."

"What do you think will happen to him?"

"If I failed to pick you up, it should be that he took someone directly to fetch you back to the house outside the city... You went there with the young master last time."

I find it funny, why one or two are like the underworld, thinking of the hidden criminals in the golden house.But I don't know the details of Xiao Tailin, so I dare not laugh at him like Chi Xue.

So I had to ask a few more questions: "What is he going to do to me?"

"The Zhan never mentioned you, but some of the people who were arrested two days ago knew about you, so they should have provided clues. Mr. Xiao has found some people and is working."

operate.What a powerful word.

"I see...Thank you, Xiaobai."

This was the first time I called him Xiaobai like others, and he was not used to it, so he gave a vague "hmm" in response.

After hanging up the phone, I took one last look at Chi Xue's house.

Before the plane took off, I sent messages to Duan Shangjin and Zeng Yuhan respectively.

For the former, I politely thanked him for the help that was still up for grabs, and expressed the hope that he would not tell Chi Xue prematurely about my departure from Beijing.

For the latter, I left a few words to open my heart, which is regarded as a confession.

After sending them all out, I stared at the dialog box with Chi Xue on the top, feeling pain again in my heart.It was like a gap was torn open in the heart, the sticky tendons were bloody, the pain was sharp and hot.

In any case, there is no way to just shut down like this.

WeChat cannot be sent, absolutely not.The best thing to do is to switch to Weibo and open a dialog with his trumpet.

After that night, his Weibo login was switched back to the large size.When he was not off the horse, he liked Changdeng Big Orange and Little Sun, so it was convenient to see me.

Now that he has recognized him, there is no need to wear that vest anymore, and he probably won't be on it in the short term.So, if I leave a message, can it be regarded as secretly leaving?

It was a fluke, but I couldn't resist it.

I'm already sorry for rejecting Chi Xue's hard work of "doing my best", but thinking of him being sad, sad and afraid, I feel so distressed that I want to shrink my head. How can I just leave without saying a word?

Whether it was an impulse or an excuse, I seized the opportunity of this idea occupying my mind, willing to be dominated by it, quickly typed a paragraph, then closed my eyes and pressed send.

Alright, let's just listen to fate.