It has been planned for a long time [entertainment circle]

The first time He Ran met Bai Fenglin was when he was 15 years old.

He had just finished dealing with his father's funeral that day, and brought back his father's urn from the funeral home.

His father was drunk and rode a battery car and collided with a truck, and died on the spot. The public security bureau notified him to claim it.

To be honest, He Ran wasn't sad at all, and even had a faint sense of relief that he had finally made it through.

After all, since I can remember, I have never experienced fatherly love. I have suffered a lot from fists and belts. I have experienced short-term maternal love, but the time is too short. He Ran, who is 15 years old, has long forgotten that it was what a feeling.

Even He Ran's memory of what his mother looks like has been blurred.

Just remember that women should be very gentle.

The woman will hold his hand, teach him to write his name, and then tell him softly, like a burning flame, full of vitality and vitality.

His mother's expectations for him are probably all in the name.

Unfortunately, He Ran's character is far from her expectations.His temperament is not sunny at all, but gloomy and unlovable.

Sometimes He Ran would also think, as a rare college student in that era, his mother was really unlucky, she didn't know people well, and met his father who drank and gambled, asked for money when he opened and shut his mouth, and was also fond of hands Hitting his wife and son.

But how should I put it, his mother was a little luckier than him, and she stayed away from the scum early on.

How old was he? He Ran couldn't remember clearly, but he only remembered that the weather was probably fine that day. When he came home from school, the house was unusually quiet.

Xiao He Ran called twice, and searched the entire small courtyard, but found no one.

In this family, it is normal for Dad not to see anyone for several days, but it is rare not to see Mom.

Xiao He Ran comforted himself thinking that his mother might have gone out to buy groceries or went somewhere, and she should be back in a while, he would go to do his homework first, and when his mother came back, he would be very happy to see that he had finished his homework.

So Xiao He Ran ran back to the house with two short legs, sat at the table and quietly wrote his homework.

There is not much homework, Xiao He Ran finished writing in a while, threw the pen, ran outside like a gust of wind, stood in front of the gate and looked around, the alley was very narrow, only sporadic people came and went, and there was no mother among them.

Xiao Heran thought, it's because I have too little homework, and it hasn't been too long. Maybe my mother met someone and chatted a little more.

Clenching her fists tightly, Xiao He Ran thought, it must be like this.

He ran back to the house again, sat down at the table, with the homework book spread out in front of him, and read it again.

After that, he watched it several times one after another, and one time in the middle, he couldn't wait any longer and ran out of the big red iron gate.It was very hot that day, Xiao He Ran was covered in sweat not long after running along the alley.

Sweat fell into his eyes and slid into his mouth.

He remembered the taste, very salty and very salty.

It was too hot and too tired, so Xiao He Ran walked back slowly along the original road, turning around every three steps.

He didn't go back to the house, but just sat on the threshold, holding his chin in his hands, and waited and waited. Later, it was already dark, and Xiao He Ran still didn't find the person he wanted to wait for.

When he returned to the house, the room without the lights was very dark, with only a little moonlight coming in from outside.

Xiao Heran was very hungry. He only ate a bowl of what his mother made at noon. He usually likes to eat small wontons, but it seems that he can only eat small wontons during the Chinese New Year. By now, his stomach has long been hungry. called.

Suddenly there was a "click", the sound of something hitting the table, which woke up Xiao He Ran.

Then the teardrops fell down like they couldn't stop, patter clatter.

Xiao He Ran wiped it with the back of his hand, but no matter how hard he rubbed it, it seemed that he couldn't clean it. Instead, it fell more and more fiercely. In the end, Xiao He Ran simply ignored it and let his face be covered with tears.

In the end, he was probably tired from crying, Xiao He Ran closed his eyes, lay on his arms and thought in a daze, he had to wash his face, otherwise his mother would feel distressed seeing his crying face.

So Xiao He Ran washed his face carefully with cold water in the yard.

He didn't know if he had washed it clean, and he was afraid that his mother would see that he was crying, so he ran to find a mirror.

In my impression, my mother didn't use the mirror very often, because she didn't use much makeup and often had bruises on her face, so it was very difficult for him to find the mirror.

But finally found it.

Xiao He Ran didn't know what it was in a box. There were mirrors, various red ones with fragrance, and something like a small brush.

Xiao He Ran didn't bother to see what he looked like in the mirror, because not only did he find the mirror, but also a folded piece of paper, under which were several red sheets of Mao Zedong.

Xiao Heran opened it curiously, it was mother's handwriting.

Xiao He Ran didn't know many words, and in just a few sentences, he only knew a few sporadic words, so it was very difficult to read, and he didn't know what it meant.

At that time, Xiao He Ran didn't know what the small box was, and he didn't know what the piece of paper meant.

Subconsciously, he doesn't want that piece of paper, he wants his mother.

However, her mother didn't come back all night, and Xiao He Ran held the paper tightly in her hand and waited for half the night. Finally, she couldn't bear it anymore and fell asleep.

The next day I went to school hungry, and then I came home full of expectations, but I didn't see my mother.

The days are repeated like this, from leaving home in the morning looking forward to seeing my mother when I return home at night, and then coming back at night looking at the dark room full of disappointment.

The only change is that he no longer cries.

Also, when the money left by his mother was getting less and less, when Xiao He Ran started to worry, one day, when he entered the yard, he saw that the lights in the house were on.

Xiao He Ran's eyes lit up in an instant, and he ran towards the house, his voice trembling with excitement, "Mom—"

Before he could run into the house, a bearded man came out from inside.

Xiao He Ran couldn't stop, and the expression on his face changed from joy to horror, and he rushed straight into the man's arms.

"Hey? If you don't beat you for a few days, you bastard, you'll go to the house to expose the tiles, right?"

As soon as the man mentioned Xiao He Ran, the smell of drunken wine rushed directly to Xiao He Ran's face.

He held his breath uncomfortably.The next moment the man's hand fell on his back.

"Like your mother who loses money, how dare you run away with my money?" The man was still cursing, but Xiao He Ran opened his eyes abruptly, "Mom..."

"Mom, what's your mother? Your mother doesn't want you anymore. She ran away with a wild man. Are you still a mother? You are a bitch."

Xiao He Ran listened in a daze, he didn't know what a loser was or what a wild man was, he only knew that his mother didn't want him anymore.

The slaps behind him continued to fall, and in the end, the cursing man was not even satisfied with slaps, and pulled out his belt.

Xiao He Ran passively protected his head.

He was in pain, very painful, and when he called out to his mother feebly, the belt on his body fell even harder.

"You don't have a mother anymore, what's your name?"

Xiao He Ran has been beaten for so long, but he didn't cry. Even these days, he couldn't see his mother when he came back every day. Every day from hope to disappointment, he didn't cry. Like a dike, it flowed all over his face.

Later, Xiao He Ran got older, he understood the piece of paper left by his mother, and gradually got used to his mother's departure, and his father's drunken punches from time to time, and gradually developed a body that can resist beatings .

When he was a teenager, He Ran had cropped hair that was about to show his scalp, because it was easy to take care of, and because he looked hard to be bullied. He was a tough guy on the street, and many parents in the class told their children not to talk to him. come and go.

He Ran didn't care, and was even happy to see the result.

He wished that no one would have anything to do with him. He was used to being alone and living alone.

If it wasn't for his dad's gambling, he owed a huge amount of debt, and people who want debts couldn't find his dad, blocked his school, and was so annoying, then his life would probably continue like this, and then one day, it would suddenly explode.

Those people came every day, and later alarmed the school leaders. If it weren't for him being in the third grade of junior high school and still in the stage of compulsory education, he would probably be expelled from school.

But in fact, it was not much better. The head teacher talked to him, and the grade teacher talked to him, saying that those people had affected the study of other students, and tactfully asked him to study at home and come back after the senior high school entrance examination.

He Ran still wanted to get his graduation certificate, so he could only agree.

He is waiting, waiting for the high school entrance examination, to get a good high school, to go to No. [-] Middle School or Experimental Middle School, to stay away from these people, to go to a good university in the future, to get rid of the quagmire completely, and to say goodbye to the past.

So during the period of studying at home, He Ran followed his father very much.

If he asks for money, he will never fight back. He even cooks for his father every day.

His father thought that his stick education was effective, but He Ran went out to work every day to earn money, and when he came back to study with a flashlight at night, he wished his father would die suddenly one day.

He Ran, who has never been favored by the heavens, suddenly seems to be favored by good luck.

In the summer after the high school entrance examination, when he was planning to save money to go to high school and stay away from his father, he suddenly received a message from the police station asking him to claim someone.

God knows, at that moment he burst out laughing.

After dealing with the funeral affairs, on the night when he was about to go home and say goodbye to this place, those creditors came to the door again.

His father died, and the gang found him.

He Ran saw that the situation was not right from a distance, so he ran away, but unfortunately, those people were well prepared, not to mention the number of people, and blocked his escape route.

When he was pinned to the ground and beaten up, He Ran thought he was finished.

What he thought was a fresh start turned out to be like a dream.

It was so short that He Ran didn't have time to recollect it, and it was coming to an end.

When he closed his eyes, He Ran couldn't think of anything.He remembered that he didn't know where he read it before, saying that when a person is about to die, he will meet the most important person or thing in his life.

Unfortunately, his mind was blank, nothing.

15 years of life is like a joke.

The fist whirring in the ear suddenly became weaker, and when it was replaced by screams one after another, He Ran opened his eyes in surprise.

Blood on his forehead blurred his eyes.

He Ran couldn't see who it was, he just stared at a black figure.

The groans/groans in the ear gradually faded away, and finally, He Ran stretched out a hand in the blood-colored world.

"Can you get up?"

He Ran blinked, he finally saw the man clearly.

Like with light.

He Ran was in pain all over his body, but he was smiling, trembling but firmly put his hand into that palm.

He saw his own blood staining that white palm.

The man frowned, and He Ran's heart tightened. He thought the man was concerned about getting his hands dirty.

As a result, the man whispered something, and with a force on his hand, he directly hugged He Ran who was covered in blood.

He Ran was startled, subconsciously put his arms around the man's neck.

"I'll take you to the hospital."

What the man said, He Ran didn't hear at all, he just looked at the man in a daze.

The bright moonlight entered his arms, and he embraced this life.