The selfish gene

I never thought that such a bad meme would happen to me.

The civet cat is replaced by the prince, and I am still that civet cat.

But just like a character with smooth sailing cannot become the protagonist, and notes without ups and downs cannot compose a golden song handed down from generation to generation, if God thinks that this can defeat me, then...he underestimates me too much.

"This is... the money for the past few months." Yan Shanhua carefully put a cowhide envelope with obvious creases on the coffee table, and took two steps back, rubbing the seam of his trousers with his rough and dark palms, with a pair of hands that did not know what to do. I don’t even know how to stand when I order something.

Dealing with hangovers, hunger, and people I don't want to see in the morning makes me feel bad.Glancing at the envelope left on the coffee table, I frowned in disgust.

"you can go now."

She looked at me hesitantly, hesitating, hesitating, her eyes were full of care and nostalgia that made me sick, and she didn't move a bit.

"How are you recently?"

So hypocritical, so knowingly asking.Ever since I knew she was my biological mother, how could my life be any better?She asked me if I was okay, but she didn't really want to know how I was doing, she just wanted to get closer to me so that when I was needed, she could say her request more easily, that's all.

"Chenfeng has already started an internship... He said that he will return all the money to you in less than two years."

I sat on the sofa, crossed my arms and stared at her with my chin raised slightly. When I heard Ji Chenfeng's name, the corners of my eyes twitched uncontrollably.

"Are you pretending to be a loving mother and a filial son?" Without holding back, I blurted out.

Yan Shanhua paused, his face turned pale.

"I..." She muttered on her dry and chapped lips, but she couldn't refute anything.

Poor, haggard, and cowardly, it makes people angry just looking at it.But by chance, such a person gave birth to me, and is the provider of half of the genes in my biological body.

Such a person... is such a woman who didn't even graduate from junior high school, who completely changed the lives of Ji Chenfeng and me.Let me, a nanny's son, live a life of luxury and good food, and let Ji Chenfeng, a young master born with a golden spoon in his mouth, be reduced to a slum.

In fact, I should thank her, without her, I would not be where I am now.But couldn't she keep this secret in her stomach for the rest of her life?That way maybe I would be more grateful to her.

Back then she was the one who exchanged Ji Chenfeng and me with her own hands, so why is she still setting up a persona of a kind and good mother?Ji Chenfeng may be deceived by her, but knowing all the truth, I only think she is contrived and hypocritical.

It's not doing me any good by prodding her too much, though.Although she promised me again and again that she would not reveal the secret to a third person, there is no guarantee that one day she will not lose her mind and go to confess everything to Sang Zhengbai and seek forgiveness.

With Sang Zhengbai's personality, even though I am his own son and he doesn't care about me, he doesn't have much kindness. Once he knows that I have no blood relationship with him, but is just a fake civet cat that only replaced his real son, I am afraid that he will kill me. Kill them all, and make me unable to stay in Hongshi any longer.

Thinking of this, I suppressed my temper and softened my tone: "As I said, you don't have to pay me back 30. This amount of money is nothing to me."

There was still a bit of embarrassment on Yan Shanhua's face that was pierced by me, he lowered his head and did not speak again.

She is not yet fifty, her hair is already gray, there are long lines around her eyes, and her skin is dry and dark yellow.Compared with the "mother" I once thought was beautiful in the portrait, she was old and ugly, and I couldn't feel any intimacy with her.

"Is there anything else?" I ordered to evict the guest again.

She shrank her neck and shook her head, then turned and walked towards the door step by step.

I didn't mean to get up, just sat on the sofa and watched her leave.

When she got to the door, she suddenly turned her head and said softly: "You don't look well, you should pay more attention to rest."

Ha, isn't it because of people like you that I live so tiredly?

I stared at her coldly and expressionlessly, until she couldn't take it anymore and looked away first, closed the door angrily and disappeared in front of me.

The room returned to silence, and I exhaled deeply from my heart. After sitting on the sofa for a while, I got up and walked to the bathroom. Halfway through, I took off my thick nightgown and walked into the shower room naked.

There was no heat in the bathroom, and the cold water fell on the skin, causing a tingling pain that could not be ignored, but soon, when the body got used to the temperature, everything began to become numb.

If only I could become so numb about Yan Shanhua's matter.

The fingernails grabbed his shoulders, leaving shocking bloodstains, and his forehead was pressed against the cold tiles, but he couldn't extinguish the resentment in his heart.

Such humble, shabby blood actually flowed in my body.too disgusting.

How can I be the son of that kind of person, there must be something wrong...

I want to think this way, but deep down I know very well that there is no mistake, I am the son of that woman.

After she found me three years ago, I secretly took her hair for a paternity test. She and I are indeed indisputably mother-child.On Sang Zhengbai's side, I also did a paternity test with faint expectations. The report was torn to pieces by me a few minutes after I opened it, and rushed into the sewer.

After taking a shower, my body became paler from the cold. I stood in front of the large mirror, with water dripping on my forehead, and stared gloomily at my ugly face in the mirror. No matter how I looked at it, I felt that the eyebrows and eyes were somewhat similar to the woman just now.

"Crash!"

He angrily overturned all the bottles and cans on the sink, and slammed the hair dryer at the mirror that reflected everything.Broken glass scattered all over the floor, and one accidentally splashed out and scratched my ankle.I was panting heavily and had no time to think about it.

There was the sound of the electronic lock being unlocked at the door, so you don't need to think about who is coming at this time.

I kicked away the mess and walked out, only to see Tang Bian struggling to close the door with his foot, carrying a large and small bag of takeaway.

"Ah!" He looked up and saw me standing in front of him with nothing on, so frightened that I almost dropped the things in my hand.

"I'll dry you off right away." He put the takeaway on the dining table and rushed into the bathroom in a hurry.

Tang Bi'an is two years younger than me, he is my father... the son of Sang Zhengbai's personal secretary.Because he is too stupid, can't read well, and is not good at dealing with people, he can only be sent to me to be a pony.My mother serves Sang Zhengbai, and my son serves me.

Xu Shi was shocked by the hurricane-like scene in the bathroom, he came out after a while, holding a huge bath towel in his hand, and wrapped me from head to toe.

"I'm bleeding." I grabbed the towel and stood still, refusing to move even a step.

He froze for a moment, looked at me from beginning to end, and finally found the small hole in my ankle.

The blood flowed down the wet water in a thin streak, and soaked into the white cotton slippers.He brought the medicine kit, knelt down in front of me, and treated my wound with a cotton swab.

Eyelids drooping, staring at the hair on the top of his head, Tang Bi'an's attitude of absolute loyalty pleased me somewhat.After he put on the Band-Aid, I threw off the slippers, stepped on the floor with bare feet, and asked him to clean up the bathroom and the slippers.

The takeaway boxes cover a large table, all of which are my favorite dishes.Xiao Tang is not smart, but he works hard and is a good dog.

I ate very slowly, took a bite to play with my phone for a while, during which Tang Bian cleaned up the bathroom, washed the slippers, and started to feed the turtle for me.

In the living room, there is a rainforest tank that only occupies half of the wall. The size is 3mX1mX2m. It has rockery, flowing water, and moss. It will spray water mist from the top every once in a while. I spent a lot of money to build it five years ago.This kind of landscaping is not for the beauty of the home, but for raising turtles.

The turtle is not technically my pet, it was left by an ex-girlfriend of mine.She is a foreign model in my aunt's company, and she is going back to China after work, so she left the tortoise to me.Along with it, there is also a letter of fierce abuse.

In any case, I have taken good care of it these past few years, or Tang Bi'an has taken good care of it, and it is already a circle older than before.

"Master, it seems that the little turtle hasn't eaten for several days." Tang Bian opened the door of the rainforest tank, probed in and observed for a while, a little worried.

"Is it finally going to die?" I swiped my phone, looked up and looked over there, and said indifferently.

"Do you want to take it to see a doctor?" Tang Bi'an walked to the sofa and began to arrange the messed up pillows, "But I don't know if those who watch cats and dogs can see turtles, or I can ask where I buy aquatic products. What about the boss?"

You might as well ask the boss how to stew it.

Putting down the chopsticks, I took out a tissue and wiped my mouth, ignored his intentions, got up and walked to the bedroom.When passing by the coffee table, his footsteps paused slightly, he bent down and grabbed the cowhide envelope on top.

After changing clothes from the bedroom, Tang Bian also cleaned up the leftovers on the table.He drove me to Dr. Chen's private clinic.Because I had an appointment early in the morning, the front desk directly ushered me into a quiet consulting room.

While waiting, I took out a flat black e-cigarette from the inside pocket of my suit and fiddled with it idly.

Two minutes before the appointed time, a psychiatrist in a white coat came in from the outside and sat behind the desk, where she belonged.

With a little preparation, she starts to get into character as soon as the time comes.

"The treatment plan we mentioned last time, have you tried it when you go back?"

I stared at a small stain on the carpet, imagining the cause of it, flipping the electronic cigarette with my fingers regularly.

"Try to read some biographies or novels, which will help calm your emotions and improve your cognitive ability. Have you recorded the score sheet we mentioned last time?"

"I noticed that you switched to e-cigarettes, and according to your regimen, you should have been unable to use them in the last week."

I stopped what I was doing and looked up at him.

The middle-aged woman wearing glasses looked at me gently, her hands crossed, and they were naturally placed on the table.

After experiencing countless failed psychotherapy, this Dr. Chen is another "authoritative" psychologist whom Sang Zhengbai found for me.

Quitting smoking was the first step this expert took to show his abilities on me.

I stared at her and said slowly: "The treatment I do has always been to correct and overcome. In fact, I have been thinking, why can't it be simpler?"

"simpler?"

From just now, I have been thinking about how to change my current situation.

Three years ago, Yan Shanhua came to ask me to borrow 30 yuan in order to treat Ji Chenfeng's illness. Although I said that she didn't need to pay it back, she still insisted on paying it back every two or three months, with a few thousand yuan each time. wait.

I uniformly locked all the envelopes in the safe in the bedroom, firmly, as if locking the secret that will never be seen between me and them.But it is just a safe after all, accidents will always happen, I don't know if someone other than me will open it one day.

I can't go on like this anymore, I can't let Yan Shanhua and Ji Chenfeng restrain me like this for the rest of my life.Will Yan Shanhua stop at 30?Will Ji Chenfeng remain unaware like now?

Not afraid of ten thousand, just in case.I have to figure out a way, I have to turn passive into active.

"Isn't it better to just clear and eradicate all the things I hate?"

Dr. Chen was slightly stunned, and asked following my words: "You can indeed destroy things, but what if it is a living thing? What if it is a person?"

I lay down on the sofa with a soft back, bit the e-cigarette holder, and spit out a mouthful of white mist with a strong mint flavor, vaguely covering her and me, making our expressions unclear.

What about people?

I curled my lips and smiled, but didn't answer her stupid question.

After finishing the formalistic treatment, I walked out of the consultation room and asked Tang Bian, who had been waiting outside, for the car keys, and asked him to take a taxi by himself.

"I hate her, fire her." I said to Tang Bi'an.

Why do I have to overcome a certain problem, as long as I get rid of the person who caused the problem?This is the easiest and most effective way to deal with it.

Half an hour later, I parked the car in front of a three-story pet hospital.The door of the pet hospital is very bright blue, it may be related to Saturday, there are quite a lot of people coming in and out.

There was smoke on Tang Bian's car, the real smoke, I lit it with a lighter, and it stopped just before the entrance, and I still didn't smoke it in the end.

I hate the process of getting over it, I hate having to work hard to solve a problem, but if dealing with the "problem" has taken a lot of my energy, I hate quitting halfway.

His left hand stretched out the car window, and a long lit cigarette hung between his fingers.I stared at the busy pet hospital not far away, and my eyes moved back and forth with the tall figure behind the glass door.

Not to mention other things, Ji Chenfeng's eyes are quite pretty.The double eyelids are of just the right width, the corners of the eyes are neither too blunt nor too sharp, and the high eyebrows connect with the same high nose bridge, making the eye sockets deep, so that even if he wears a mask, he still won't be misunderstood. handsome.

The phoenix fell into the chicken coop, and it was still a phoenix.Even if the young master grew up in a slum, he is still a noble son in trouble.

It's a pity that Yan Shanhua made him a cripple.

His gaze fell to the other's left ear.Ji Chenfeng's hair is very short, the kind that ordinary people cannot easily try.I don't know if he shaved his hair like this to make it fit more firmly, or if he deliberately wanted to expose the instruments on his ears.The black cochlear implant attached to the scalp with wires on the left ear can be seen at a glance. With his white coat, it exaggerates a cool sense of technology for no reason.

Without this thing, would he be deaf and deaf?

Yan Shanhua found me back then, told me all the truth, and asked me to borrow 30 yuan. 30, for me it was just a few boxes of cigars, but for her it was an astronomical sum.And the reason why she asked for the money so urgently was to give Ji Chenfeng a cochlear implant.

I still remember that day she stood in front of me in her washed white clothes and called out my name tremblingly with a disturbed expression.

"Sang Nian..."

I was slightly drunk at the nightclub, and for a moment I thought she was some housekeeper in the apartment building.

"Huh?" Holding my clothes on, I stopped to listen to what she had to say.

"You, hello... My surname is Yan, my name is Yan Shanhua, kind-hearted Shan, luxurious Hua. You may not remember me anymore, I am... I was the nanny who took care of you. When you were just born, You’ve drank my milk. You still have a mole on your buttocks, and you really like being hugged by others, and you won’t sleep unless you’re hugged…”

Her accented, unfocused way of speaking quickly bored me, and I had to interrupt her to ask her what she wanted from me.

She carefully observed her surroundings, like the kind of criminal who sells contraband in an alley, for fear that someone in plainclothes would suddenly appear and arrest her.

She asked to find a quiet place to talk with me in detail, claiming that she had something very important to tell me.

I ignored her and directly opened the door of the downstairs apartment with my fingerprints, not wanting to listen to her nonsense anymore.I've seen a lot of people like this, who say "important things", but want me to invest in their unrealistic junk projects, or have some relationship with me that I can't get close to.

I drank her milk?So what?Just imagining that picture is enough to turn people off.

"Wait, I really have something important to do!" She grabbed my arm and tried to prevent me from entering the door.

I was staggered and took a few steps backwards. It may be because of the alcohol, my feet were a little floating, and my body almost lost my balance and fell down.

"Let go!" I stood firm, turned around and ordered her with a warning.

She kept apologizing to me, but she still didn't let go.

"Sang Nian, Xiao Nian..." She called out a nickname that shouldn't be called by her, firmly grasped my arm, and spit out ridiculous words, "I know it's hard for you to believe it, but you are my son , you were born by me, and I am your mother..."

A gust of wind blows away the long-accumulated soot from the cigarette butts, rolling over the back of my hand with the lingering ashes, which makes me frown instantly and wake up from the memories.

The familiar sound of a motorcycle came from behind, and I cursed inwardly. In a few seconds, the traffic policeman stopped the motorcycle in front of my car, got off and walked towards me.

"No parking here."

I turned around and took out the driver's license from the armrest box, and handed it to the other party skillfully.

"I know."

The traffic policeman looked at me and angrily took the documents from my hand.

After opening the form and asking me to sign it, he handed me back the driver's license and warned in a bad tone: "Drive away immediately, or I'll call a tow truck."

Twitching the corners of my mouth, I casually threw the documents into the box, and finally looked in the direction of the pet hospital.

Ji Chenfeng was unaware of the peeping from a distance, took the notepad handed to him by the nurse, seemed not to hear what the other party said, leaned slightly, and brought his face closer to the other party.

The little nurse blushed, suddenly remembered something, and hurried to the side where the other person was wearing the cochlear implant.

Withdrawing my hand hanging out of the window, I stubbed out the cigarette butt, and under the watchful eyes of the traffic police, I deliberately made a loud roar, stepped on the accelerator and drove away.