The selfish gene

If I'm not happy, neither should anyone else.Regardless of whether it hurts the enemy one thousand or eight hundred, even if all you have to do is just bite off a piece of the opponent's flesh, the pain and scars caused by this piece of flesh are enough to fill my heart with joy.

"There's also Gu Ying. The two of us are not together at all, we're just kidding you. Whether I'm your son or not, I won't marry her. The engagement is fake, and the son is also fake..." I asked with a smile Sang Zhengbai, "Dad, I thought everything was under control, but it turned out to be completely wrong. Is this kind of uncomfortable feeling?"

Sang Zhengbai's face was livid, and he stood up while supporting the table: "Sang Nian!"

"If you gave snacks to your son back then, how could you not know that you were replaced by a nanny? You kept saying that it was mother's wish to become a big company, but was that really her wish?"

There was the sound of porcelain colliding next to my ear, as if someone put down the teacup hastily.

"Sang Nian, stop talking..."

"That's just your wish, don't be moved!" Ji Chenfeng's voice overlapped with mine, I ignored him, and vented my suppressed emotions for many years, "If she knows that you lost The son she bought with her life, even if you make the company number one in the world, she won't forgive you..."

"Get out, get out!" Sang Zhengbai yelled, picked up the metal pen holder on the table and threw it at me.

I didn't hide, just tilted my head, the pens in the pen container were scattered on the ground, and the hard protruding horns hit the end of my eyes.The pain made me subconsciously cover my eyes, and within a few seconds, I felt a slippery touch from my palm, and the bright red liquid dripped slowly, and spots of blood bloomed on the collar of the white shirt.

"Brother-in-law!"

"Mr. Sang!"

Both Xu Xi and Ji Chenfeng rushed over, one towards me and the other towards Sang Zhengbai.

Xu Xi took off his valuable shawl and wanted to press me to stop the bleeding, but I blocked it.

"This is the second time you hit me, come on, hit me again, just kill me." I put down my hand and let the blood drip down, my attitude did not restrain myself because of this blow.

Sang Zhengbai really wanted to smash it, but Ji Chenfeng pressed down the paperweight in his hand, turned his head and glared at me, and shouted: "Enough, get out!"

My body froze for a moment, Sang Zhengbai's pen holder didn't scare me, but Ji Chenfeng's roar made me flinch uncontrollably.But when he came back to his senses, he found that he had such a sad emotion, and his annoyance towards Ji Chenfeng, the instigator, surpassed anyone else at this moment.

Think I'm talking too much now?Who the hell couldn't get off me like a male dog in heat?

It is obvious that the breathing rate has been accelerated, but the oxygen supply seems to be cut off, and not much is sent to the brain.Blurred mottlings appeared in front of my eyes, I held onto my forehead and swayed unsteadily, but was supported by Xu Xi who exclaimed in surprise.

"Everyone calm down first, Sang Nian, let's go to the hospital to treat the wound first, okay?" Xu Xi coaxed me, dragging me out the door.

I was already dizzy, but when I was pulled by her, I could only walk along with her strength.

For a short distance, I kept looking at Ji Chenfeng, and he also looked at me.He didn't take his eyes off me until I was dragged out of the office, and I was still looking at him.The office door closed slowly, he turned his head and said something to Sang Zhengbai, the distance was too far for me to hear clearly.After a while, the wooden door was completely closed, and I couldn't see him anymore, and I still didn't look back.

"Let's go, I'll take you to the hospital." Xu Xi put his shawl over my head to shield me from the probing eyes of others.

Half of the field of vision turned into black cashmere fabric. I pinched the corner of the shawl and pressed it against my bleeding wound, and thanked her in a low voice.

"No need, I'll go by myself." Not wanting to stay in this place for a second, I politely declined her offer and walked quickly to the elevator entrance.

"Xiao Nian!"

Just in time for an empty elevator to go down, I stepped into the car and quickly pressed the door close button.

Xu Xi didn't chase in, she stopped outside the elevator, her eyes were red, she hesitated to speak, and called me again in a complicated manner.

"Xiao Nian..."

It happened so suddenly, she still thinks of me as "Sang Nian" and Xu Wanyi's child before she has time to think about it.But when she calms down and replays the whole thing, she will have no problem explaining how despicable and shameless a person I am.

Instead of facing her disgust afterwards, it is better to say goodbye here.

I lowered my eyes and let the elevator door close a little bit, but I still didn't respond to her.

One person went to the hospital. After seeing the wound on the corner of the eye, the doctor said that he needed four stitches.

"You're so risky, you almost hit your eye." The middle-aged doctor terrified me while sewing stitches for me, and said, "There's nothing wrong with a flesh injury, it's troublesome if you hit your eye."

"It's best to be stoned to death." I said.

The doctor glanced at me and asked, "Did your girlfriend hit you?"

"No. My girlfriend's dad hit me."

"Why, don't you agree to be together?"

Twitching the corners of my mouth, I said, "Maybe I think I've spoiled his sweetheart."

The doctor shook his head lightly, and said, "Hey, children and grandchildren have their own blessings. Why do parents join in the fun? Young man, you are so handsome and young. You are a high-quality potential stock. If you look down on you, it means they have no vision. Don't be discouraged." Ha." After finishing speaking, he cut off the stitches and signaled that I could go.

The first time Sang Zhengbai hit me was three years ago.

Because of smashing Shi Hao's wine bottle and seriously injuring me, I was sent to the police station together with Zheng Jieyuan.Sang Zhengbai dealt with this matter overnight, and finally fished me out the next morning. From the moment he saw me, his face drooped, and he didn't say a word to me.

Arriving home like this, I followed him into the door, and before I could react, he suddenly turned around and slapped me hard on the face.

"Snapped!"

This slap used all his strength, and it made my ears buzz and even my alveolar bone ached.

"You are so fucking embarrassing to me." Pointing his index finger at me, he cursed angrily, "How did I, Sang Zhengbai, give birth to such a son as you? Are you worthy of your mother? Who gave everything you have now? Yes Your mother sacrificed her life! The only expectation I have for you in this life is to help me grow Zhengyi together, but what do you look like now? Huh? Sang Nian, you really let me down!"

What am I like?

I studied hard, tried my best to please him, and worked hard to prepare for taking over Zhengyi. I have never made a mistake for so many years.And now, all my previous hard work was in vain just by beating a bastard who couldn't talk?

I was right and he was never proud of me.Now that I did something wrong, he was disappointed.

"I'm sorry, Dad."

But because I already knew my background at that time and knew that I was just a lowly "civet cat", I didn't dare to confide in my heart and confront him head-on.

I admit my mistake, admit to all his allegations, and promise not to do it again next time.After that, the process of "seeing a psychiatrist" and "changing a psychiatrist" began.

I don't think I really have a psychological problem, maybe I have a little insomnia and anxiety, but it is far from the level where I need to see a psychiatrist, so I always don't cooperate.

Zhou Jiyu should be the most active psychiatrist I see.But in the end, not only did this guy not help me quit smoking and drinking, he even didn't help me keep Ji Chenfeng...

The wound suddenly started to hurt in the middle of the night. I woke up from my sleep and fumbled for the whiskey bottle and painkillers on the coffee table.

I took out a capsule and swallowed it with the wine, and I lay back on the sofa, looking at the dim ceiling, but couldn't fall asleep smoothly.

Had a lot of messy dreams.Dreaming of Sang Zhengbai, dreaming of that night at the police station three years ago, and dreaming of... Yan Shanhua.

I dreamed that she was holding my hand and walking up the long stairs. When I was about to get home, she took out the candy in the bag and gave it to me, saying that it was given by the young master of the employer's house.

"Young master heard that you love candy, so I specially asked me to bring it to you. This is imported candy. You should remember to thank him next time you see him, you know?"

"He must have given me the candy he didn't want to eat." I snorted coldly, not intending to reach out.

"If you say that, I won't give it to you. I'll eat it myself." She was about to stuff the candy back into her bag, but I quickly snatched it away.

"If you give it to me, it's mine." I quickly peeled off the candy wrapper, stuffed the crystal clear fruit candy into my mouth, and the sweet taste permeated in an instant.I squinted my eyes, took Yan Shanhua's hand again, and hummed happily.

"Xiao Nian actually likes the young master too, right?"

"I don't like it!"

"But the young master likes you very much."

The little hand held the bigger hand, and because he was in a very good mood, he couldn't help shaking back and forth.

"Then he likes it, who cares."

Yan Shanhua laughed helplessly: "You..." She seemed to have a lot to say, but she didn't know where to start.

I looked at her, but she was facing the setting sun, no matter how wide I opened my eyes, I couldn't see her face clearly in the shadows.

The dream came to an abrupt end here.I don't know what she's trying to say to me, and even... haven't walked that flight of stairs with her.

I thought I would be indifferent to Yan Shanhua's death.To die is to die, no different from the death of a stranger.

I'm wrong.

She is dead, there is no one in this world who is connected with my blood; she is dead, there is no one in this world... who can love me.

With my arms resting on my forehead, I murmured to the darkness: "Ji Chenfeng would not be so kind to give me sweets. He became a young master, how could he remember me?"

The wound that was no longer painful suddenly raised a sharp pain, and the warm liquid slid down the cheek.

I got up confused.

The wound is open?

Without turning on the light, I walked into the bathroom in the dark.When I pressed the switch next to the mirror and the incandescent light above my head turned on, what I saw was not a horrific face bleeding from the wound, but... a face full of pain, embarrassment, frustration, and tears.

I was stunned for a few seconds before I was sure that the person in the mirror was really me.

Unbelievably, he touched his cheek and felt a wet hand.

not blood.It's tears.

I cried.Damn... I actually cried?For whom, Yan Shanhua and Ji Chenfeng?Fuck them, I won't shed a single tear for them even if I bleed dry.

I stared at myself in the mirror, the whites of my eyes were bloodshot, the corners of my eyes were swollen, and a faint red line appeared from the lower eye socket.Just with my eyes open like this, tears kept overflowing like a river that lost its dam.

The whole thing looked miserable to the extreme, and pitiful to the extreme.

How can I show such an expression?How can I show such an expression of being completely defeated, so weak that I can only hide in a corner and lick my wound alone? ?

Hastily grabbing the towel beside me, I rudely wiped off all the suspicious water stains on my face, completely ignoring the wound on the corner of my eye.

Staring at the mirror, I couldn't help backing up: "Get out of my head! Get out!!"

Throwing the towel heavily at the mirror, I stormed into the bedroom angrily, took out the few sleeping pills left, and poured them all into the palm of my hand.

It was the dream's fault.

I firmly believe that my weakness and my gaffe all stem from that unrealistic dream.And as long as you sleep deeply enough to lose consciousness, you won't dream about those ridiculous things again.

Back in the living room, I put all the pills in my mouth and swallowed them with the wine in the bottle.

I wasn't sad, and I didn't cry.It was just an extension of the dream, my illusion.

Just get a good night's sleep and wake up.Thinking of this, I lay down on the sofa. Not long after, I felt drowsy suddenly, my eyelids gradually drooped, and I slowly closed my eyes.

Tears are the most useless.It can be neither my weapon nor my shield.I don't need it.