General Manager, can we stop?

I have heard that life is a series of pits. I have always believed in this statement. It is because I have fallen into the pits so many times that I can't count them or remember them.And the most and deepest one is often the word "straight man". Every time I fall into the pit of "straight man", I always fall without hesitation, and I often fall to the point where my body is covered in bruises and even riddled with holes.

Fortunately, no matter how painful it is, it will heal slowly, and it is not so deep-rooted.

Later, when I was most emotionally vulnerable, I managed to climb out of one pit and fell into another pit...it was really deep, and it hurt so much.

That pit was the last pit in my life.

The first time I met him was in the subway somewhere, the process was very ordinary, there was no so-called vigor and romance like love at first sight, but this person was the one I fell the hardest. One pit buried me forever.

I, Alum, 1.7 meters five, grew up in the south, with my height and figure, I can be regarded as a clothes hanger.I always remember that time, this man hugged me coldly and said helplessly, "Alum is cold and poisonous, but I was poisoned by this ice-cold person. Tell me, am I looking for death?"

In fact, at that time, I really wanted to tell him that although alum is poisonous, it can detoxify and save others, and although it is cold in nature, it only hurts himself.It's just that I didn't say anything at the time, I just let my powerful arms hold me tightly and remained silent until the end.

This name was given by my father who is a chemistry professor. At that time, he was giving a lecture on "Pharmacology and Crystallization", and this name often appeared. When my mother asked him to name me, he didn't even think about it, so he said it was Alum.I've never held a grudge against the name.

Some resentment is that when others proudly say that I am a pure man, I dare not pat my chest without blushing and panting and say that I am also a pure man, and 24K gold is not as pure as I am.

Because others are pure men, but I am pure zero.

I can't tell when I realized that I was different from others. I vaguely remember that when I saw a boy's body, I would blush and get hot. When I saw the boy's body I liked, I would fantasize about it, and then it was just... ...well, you know.Later, when I slowly realized that it was actually more comfortable to be on the back, I completely understood that I was not only an out-and-out gay guy, but also a pure zero.

For this matter, I wailed for a while, the handsome guy who is obviously a good-looking talent, personable, everyone loves flowers, turned out to be - pure zero!

Mother, how did you give birth to me?

Later, I made a few boyfriends, but they were not long, young, and they were all afraid of taking responsibility.

I was 20 years old at the time, two years away from graduating from college. I was young and energetic. I made a good boyfriend and thought it was true love. I came out to my family openly, and was severely beaten by my father, who has always been gentle, steady and refined. After a beating, the old lady was so angry that she couldn't recover, and was sent to the hospital.At that time, I was so scared that I was completely dumbfounded, and I broke up with my boyfriend on the spot trembling. There is no way, is my family more important than my boyfriend?

My old lady was saved, but I didn't dare to go home after that.

After graduating from university, I moved to this city alone, and it wasn't too far away from home. I was reluctant to go too far, and it was only a two-hour drive, but I probably didn't have the guts to go home again, and I didn't have the brain to go back.

Here, too, for three years.

Recently I was unemployed at home. I used to work well in that small company and was looking forward to a promotion, but the company just disappeared.According to gossip, our boss took a beauty to Macau, and later owed 3000 million and went bankrupt.

So, I stayed at home for a few months, being an otaku, and I didn't go out until I was starving to death.

I have been idle for the past few months, and I have thought too much. There are some things that I should understand, but I still can't understand.

I ran out of ammunition and food, and I was finally ready to go out today, but my phone rang. I saw that he was the only friend who could be called a brother. Although I didn't like to be disturbed, I still had to answer it no matter how reluctant I was.Otherwise, that person might come to my house directly, and it would be difficult to deal with it.

"...It's me." I said something into the phone.

The other party's name is Yang Qi, he is from the Northeast, and he is the only straight man who knows my sexuality but has never had a relationship with me and is still by my side.I'm just a bit cheap, and I especially like the vigor of straight men.

As long as you know such a man, you can't help but get close to him. Either you are scared away by me, or you have sex with me unscrupulously. Some even point to my nose and curse at me as a pervert after eating up.

Even so, I still fell into the pit of straight men tirelessly, and I never escaped.

Only Yan Qi was not tempted by me, nor scared away by me.He is very straightforward and handsome, I just fell in love with his appearance at the beginning, but who knows that this kid will not be tempted by me once, and I don't know why he became friends later.Yang Qi came to the south to study since he was a child, and we have known each other since university. We are in the same college but have different departments and different levels, so he is still my senior.On the day I came out, he was the one who took me in when I escaped from the hospital after being frightened, so he knew everything about me.

After he came out to work, we still kept in touch intermittently, and he said he was worried about me.After I graduated, he was actually the one who allowed me to come to this city.He is very concerned about me, always worried about my well-being, calling me if there is nothing to do, to see if I am alive.If he didn't know that he was straight, if he didn't know that he had nothing but brotherly affection for me, we would be no different from that couple. thing.

But I have never felt guilty about it.

Hearing me talking, it was very noisy over there, but I could hear him yelling loudly: "Don't go anywhere, come to my place, I'll introduce you to a job!"

"..." How did he know that I was going out?I muttered in my heart, and couldn't help but turn around to see, there wouldn't be a monitor.

"Did you hear that?" The other side didn't hear my voice, and shouted again.

I hurriedly replied: "I heard it, I heard it. Where are you and why are you so noisy?"

"I'm at the construction site. I'll be back to the company in a while. You wait for me at the gate of my company."

"...Oh, good." I was still a little dazed, but when I finished answering, there was a busy voice, so decisive that it made people gnash their teeth.

I wobbled to the subway station not too far from home to take a ride. It was past the rush hour, and the subway was not crowded at all, and it could even be said that there were very few people.Unlike those young people who have their heads down and play with their mobile phones as soon as they get in the car, I have the phone in my pocket but hardly use it. I occasionally look around when I am bored. For those who are busy playing with their mobile phones, I am indeed the most idle one.

Looking back, I just heard the person sitting next to me feed me a few times in a cold voice, the voice was full of impatience.I looked over and saw a man in a suit and leather shoes. His facial features were a little too handsome, and he gave off the cold and mature charm of a successful person.The hand holding the mobile phone is very slender and fair, and the bones are so clear that there is a sense of beauty that is more or less.There was an impatient expression on the pretty face, as if he didn't quite understand why the other party was silent.

I'm not a person who meddles in other people's business, but this time there was something wrong, I moved over and said in a low voice: "Sometimes there will be no signal in the subway, I suggest you call after you get out of the subway."

After I finished speaking, I was also embarrassed. No one knows this kind of common sense. What am I doing so much?See a handsome guy and can't help but strike up a conversation?

I was annoyed, but saw that the other party was taken aback for a moment, then he answered the phone, nodded to me, but didn't say anything.

I moved back to the original position without any trace, and at the same time I despised myself infinitely in my heart, and at the same time, I had a good impression of this man's self-cultivation and calmness.

When I arrived at the destination station, there was a tall figure beside me when I went out. I raised my eyes with some doubts, and saw that it was the man just now. He had no expression on his stern face, but he spit out four words: "Thank you just now."

Before I could reply, the man got on the escalator and strode up, as if he was in a hurry.

Blinking, admiring such an elite worker, but at the same time commenting a little immorally in his heart, such a busy person must not have a long life.

Shaking his head, he got the original glimpse of Jinghong out of his mind.

I leisurely came to the downstairs of the company where Yang Qi works. It is a big company that is incomparable to the small company with only a few people that I was in before.Yang Qi has done well here, and he has climbed from a rookie to the position of deputy manager in just a few years. If he continues to do this, he will be promoted to regional manager soon.

Although this office building has only seven or eight floors, being able to gain a foothold in the most prosperous commercial center of the city, where an inch of land is like gold, is enough to show that its strength is extraordinary. I heard that their company alone has covered several floors. , It really is an extraordinary big company.

When he was sighing there, someone pulled his back collar. Looking sideways, he really was Yang Qi. It didn't matter if he was tall and handsome, but his hands were still so strong.

"...Don't look down on people because you are tall." I gave him a white look, and then slapped his hands off, "Speak well, don't move your hands as soon as you come up." Pretending to tidy up your suit, this is human It's not good for people to see the door where people come and go.

Yang Qi had a hearty smile on the face of the quasi-northeast man, and he looked happy, "You boy, if I don't tell you to come out, are you going to suffocate at home?" At the end, he looked me up and down fiercely, See if I don't have missing pieces or bones.

I replied a little calmly: "Didn't I say that I started looking for a job these days, and you called before you left the house. How could you be suffocated at home." I also made a call last week.

I know this guy likes me very much. He seems to be restless every day he doesn't see me in a comfortable life. He insists on me working hard, finding a suitable partner with peace of mind, and settling down.In the past, every time we met, he always told me not to mess around, but every time I tossed and broke up, he was always sadder than me, as if he was the one who was dumped.Every time I see it, I am angry and funny, but I am secretly having fun alone, smugly feeling that I have a good place in this person's heart.