You are my sin uncrowned poem

It was still very early, the moon was still in the west, and the morning star had not yet been seen.Under the moonlight, Sam in robes held a candlestick and came outside the church alone.A child is going to be baptized today. As the chief deacon of the diocese, he must come to the church to prepare everything in advance.Crime seemed to have increased in the parish of late, and he could not help but be a little worried.

Sam is the youngest deacon since the founding of the Diocese of Nosy.At the age of 12, he was sent to the church by his father, who was a paladin, and after 7 years of study, at the age of 19, he became a deacon of the church.Although he was young, he was smart and steady. In the church, everyone from the bishop to the deacon like him trusted him, and the believers in the diocese respected this handsome young deacon very much.

While meditating on the Bible, the young chief deacon pushed open the door of the church and stepped into the magnificent building with a high ceiling.The deserted church was dark and silent, only the misty moonlight shining through the high skylight barely illuminated the murals on the buttresses of the church. The candle in Sam's hand illuminated the fine dust floating around his body. He walked slowly, walking through the seven days of God's creation of the world, walking through the Eden of Adam and Eve, and walking through the flood carrying doves and olive branches the ark.

Through the corridor, Sam came to the nave.What he didn't expect was that there was actually a person sitting bent over on the bench in the front row of the main hall.He turned his back to Sam, and in the faint light, Sam could only vaguely discern that the man had strange short hair and was wearing a cloak.

Perhaps hearing Sam's footsteps, the man immediately straightened his back and turned his head quickly.Then Sam saw the man stand up and turn around amidst a clatter of metal armor.

"Hey, Sammy."

"It's Sam!" The young deacon corrected without thinking, and then he realized, unresponsively, that it was Dean.

His brother, Grand Master of the Paladins, Dean Winchester.

Dean laughed at Sam's voice.But he still stood there, didn't move, just looked his brother up and down, and said with a bit of unwillingness: "I haven't seen you for two years, and you have grown taller again? What does the church feed you every day?"

Sam looked at his brother in silence for a moment, shook his head, and walked quickly across the pews to the crucifix at the front of the main hall, using the candle in his hand to light the candles in the other candlesticks.The image of Jesus was illuminated by several lit candles, and Dean turned to look at the face of the Son contorted in pain first, and then turned his gaze to Sam who was still busy.

It's been two years since I last saw Sam.At that time, the knights had just finished a battle, and Dean led the returning knights through the Diocese of Nosy, and with the permission of the bishop, they stayed here for a few days to recuperate, so that Dean had time to meet his long-lost brother Sam.

As children, Dean and Sam were close.After his mother died, his father donated all his property to the church, and he joined the church as a paladin.At that time, his father almost never came home, and Dean took good care of his younger brother by himself.Although Sam is a quiet boy, he sometimes plays and fights with his brother, and often falls asleep in a huddle because of exhaustion.

And his father is a strict father. Even though he donated all his property to the church, he still sticks to his aristocratic ways.He couldn't understand how his sons behaved unruly at home, and every time he went home, he would reprimand Dean as his elder brother.The elder brother never defended himself in front of his father, he would nod his head and admit that it was his fault, but Sam, as the younger brother, would always jump out and accuse his father of failing to fulfill his responsibilities as a parent, and he had no right to scold Dean.

Tensions grew between father and young son.Dad still doesn't come home very often, but every time he does, Sam fights with him.After his father left, Dean would tell Sam in a serious tone not to contradict his father, and Sam would never listen to his brother on this issue.

But they are still very close, the elder brother accepts his father's reprimand for his younger brother, and the younger brother contradicts his father for his elder brother.

When Dean was 16, his father sent Sam to church.

Sam didn't want to be separated from Dean, he stood behind his brother, thinking that this time his brother would be on his side too, but unexpectedly his brother patted him on the shoulder, telling him to listen to his father.

"I'll be there too," Dean told Sam.So the 12-year-old boy believed his brother's words and went to church with the two priests who came with his father.But then, Dean didn't go.

He joined the Holy Knight Order with his father.

When he saw Sam again later, Dean was already 20 years old. Sixteen-year-old Sam has grown a lot, almost surpassing his brother. Dean still calls him Sammy as affectionately as ever, and he always corrects him, telling his brother to call him Sam over and over again.The younger brother is not always sticking to his elder brother like before. Many times, he would rather stay alone by himself than to have his elder brother by his side.

Dean knew that this was the price of cheating and leaving.He didn't expect Sam to understand either, because if one day Sam understood him, it would be when Sam knew the truth. Dean didn't want Sam to know that, he sometimes wished that Sam would always be the boy who came after him, that he wished that Sam would grow up slower and slower, that he wished that Sam would never know certain truths about himself.

Sam still doesn't know why his father had to send him to church, or why Dean helped his father lie to him.He knew that it might be overkill to define Dean's behavior as "betrayal", he...he actually didn't care about other people's deception, but Dean's seemingly serious and promised lie made the young man secretly resent for a long time.He has studied in the church for 7 years, from an apprentice to a deacon, from a bishop to a believer, and no one dislikes him. He thinks that he should also forget about being deceived-but this knot has slowly grown in his heart sick.

So he doesn't understand why Dean, who cheated on him, can always call him Sammy as if that never happened, and call him a brother affectionately - just like he can't see his brother's obvious resistance and indifference Same.

"Are you preparing for the move-in ceremony of the Holy Knight Order after dawn?" Dean watched Sam busy for a while, then sat back on the bench and asked aloud.

Hearing this, Sam stopped his busy hands, raised his head and frowned and said, "What did you say? Move in? Don't be kidding, this is not the Holy See, the Pope is not here." He paused, hesitated for a while before saying , "Did you come all the way here just to play this joke on me?"

Dean froze for a moment at Sam's words.The Pope has indeed issued an edict ordering the Holy Knights to move out of the Holy See, and he is sure that the bishop here must also receive the order to accept the Holy Knights. His knights will arrive here at dawn.And he, the Grand Leader of the Knights, sneaked here by himself at night, leaving all his entourage behind.

Although since the two separated at the age of 16, their relationship has quickly cooled because of Sam's estrangement and the 4-year seal battle.

After that long, bloody battle, Dean always took every opportunity to come and see his brother.It was right around the time of his father's death, and Dean was depressed for a long time.Although he is young, he is a tough fighter who is trusted by his comrades.His comrades-in-arms, everyone remembers how this young man walked away from the battlefield with his father's body on his back, and how he cremated his father while reciting the Bible alone.The grand master at the time was very sympathetic to the young man, so he turned a blind eye to him and let him go. Whenever they passed the parish, he would always specifically allow Dean to meet his brother.But after the previous Grand Master had died in battle and Dean had been elected Grand Master, he could barely get away from the things of the Order.

As an older brother, Dean always felt a little guilty towards Sam, not only because he had lied to Sam, but also because he couldn't be by Sam's side to protect him.

Dean will never forget his father's last words--those words were told by his father a long time ago. A soldier never knows when and where he will die, so he always reminds Dean to let his words be deeply imprinted in Dao son's heart.Sam wasn't around when his father died, so he couldn't see his father's tragic death and his brother crying when he burned his father's body.And Dean didn't intend to tell Sam those words - as early as when his father told Dean his decision to send Sam into the church, Dean completely sided with his father.

Sam might blame his father and him for it, but he always thought his father was right.

God bless Sam.

Dean thought, looking up at Jesus on the podium again.Unlike the Virgin Mary who was enshrined together in the church, the crucified Jesus was skinny, with a painful expression on his face, and his body was twisted because his palm was nailed to the cross by wooden stakes-he was about to die, but he would be resurrected three days later .

Believers believe in miracles.

Sam is God's servant, and he will be sheltered.

Dean was convinced of that.

But Sam's cold and distant attitude made him a little sad.

"I don't know why your bishop didn't pass on such a big event, but the move of the Paladins is indeed an edict from the Pope." Dean stared at Sam wearing a white robe in the candlelight, rubbed the tip of his nose and gave a wry smile , took out a roll of parchment from his arms, "The edict signed by the Pope, I believe your bishop will have an identical copy."

Listening to Dean's words, Sam frowned and retracted his hands, lost in thought.It is a very important event for the knights to move in. The church usually holds grand ceremonies, and these ceremonies are usually performed by their deacon.But as the chief deacon of the entire diocese, he didn't even know about the move of the Knights...

Sam wondered if the bishop had other plans.

"Maybe the bishop has left this matter to the other deacons... maybe even he personally arranged these, I really don't know, sorry." After thinking about it, Sam honestly apologized to Dean.

But his apology didn't make Dean any happier.The elder knight carefully took the Pope's edict back into his arms, reached out and picked up the helmet beside him, and stood up: "It seems that you are still not very happy about my arrival this time. But Sammy, at least this way, we We can be together again."

But for Dean, it's a good thing.

With his brother.

Protect his only family.

Sam frowned when he heard that.

TBC