You are my sin uncrowned poem

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Only then did Sam remember his purpose in coming out to find Dean.

His eyes sank, he moved his eyes from Dean's scarred body to the blazing fire, and said, "An office in the monastery was stolen." He concealed the specific location and time, just wanting to observe Dean's reaction .

Dean was calm, just raising his eyebrows.

"What's missing?"

"It's not clear yet."

"It's not me, Sam," Dean said, reaching out to pat Sam on the shoulder. Sam turned his head, his brother already had a half-joking smile on his face, "You really can't hide things on your face. Are you doubting Me? Because I knocked you out last night?"

"Dean!" Sam shrank his neck in embarrassment, but then stared at his brother seriously, "Where did you go last night?"

"I said, this is not to be revealed to anyone." Dean sighed, and the hand that was still on Sam's shoulder squeezed him reassuringly, "But I swear, I didn't say anything from last night. Steal anything from anywhere." He wasn't lying, he didn't find the key, so he couldn't steal it; he used some of Walt's paints, but he returned them later, so it can only be regarded as borrowing; as for the map, it was Tuo. Printed, let alone "stolen".

A struggling and hesitant expression slowly appeared on Sam's face.He thought he should trust Dean, not to mention that Dean had sworn, so he shouldn't doubt Dean.But Dean's behavior last night was indeed very suspicious. If there is something to do, why can't he do it during the day, but sneak out alone at night?

"Then did you see any suspicious-looking people last night?"

"Only you." Dean said, shaking his head and laughing to himself.He got up slightly and went to touch his clothes, which were almost dry, looked up at the starry sky, estimated the time, pulled down his pants, and waved at Sam to signal him to turn around.

Sam helplessly rolled his eyes to Dean's surprise, turned his back to Dean slowly, and then heard the rustling of clothes behind him.

"Where did you go last night? Really can't tell me?"

Facing his brother's pursuit, Dean sighed softly.After putting on his trousers, he took the robe and pulled it off his head, and said slowly, "I can't tell you, the secret is the secret." He pulled up the hem of the robe, and tied the belt around his waist tightly.

Sam was silent for a moment behind him.

"Then...can you tell me why you didn't come to the monastery but joined the Holy Knight Order with your father?"

Even Sam himself didn't intend to ask this question in the first place.He endured it for more than ten years, and felt that he should not care about the answer.Even if it becomes a disease in my heart, I am the only one who suffers, but if I ask about it, I may still be asking for trouble.

But when he heard Dean say the word "secret," he felt a sudden fire inside him, burning his chest with pain.There were no gaps between him and Dean, no secrets, everything was shared with each other.

They used to be as close as one person.

Dean, who was bending over to pick up the cloak and put it on, hesitated when he heard Sam's question.He turned to look at Sam, where his brother was still sitting, his back to him, his soft curls covering the nape of his neck, as cute as a baby bird's feathers in the firelight.

Dean suddenly lost his voice behind him, and Sam tensed up.He couldn't help turning his head, and Dean, who was almost fully dressed, was bending over to get the cloak, and he quickly pulled it from the fire and grabbed it in his hands.

Dean just watched Sam clutching his cloak in his hands, and simply picked up Sam's cloak that had slipped to the ground and threw it over.

"That's a secret too."

Dean said, pulling on his boots at last.

Sam's eyes widened suddenly.He called Dean's name aloud and scrambled to his feet, his chest heaving with excitement.

"I have a right to know that! You promised me! You should at least give me an explanation, a word! I've waited so long and you haven't said a single damn thing! Now you're telling me it's a secret, Huh? Fuck your secret!" Sam couldn't control his emotions anymore, as if he wanted to empty out all the resentment, dissatisfaction and confusion of the past ten years, and smash them all on Dean's face.He even felt that he was an idiot for worrying about Dean just now, and he felt that the helplessness and bitterness in Dean's eyes every time he looked at him was also fake, they were probably not the brothers they were more than ten years ago .

"Calm down, does the church allow their deacon to say 'damn' and 'fuck you' like rude expletives?" Dean moved up to Sam, trying to take his cloak from him. Sam first clenched the fabric tightly in his hand, and after tugging with Dean for a while, he let go unwillingly, and threw it on Dean.

The half-dried cloak fell on Dean's face. Dean closed his eyes hard, pulled it off, and turned to put it on the saddle.

Sam ignored Dean, grabbed his cloak and stepped on the stones, turned and walked into the woods.

Dean led the horse, picked up a burning stick from the fire, and quickened his pace to follow.

The woods are very quiet at night, and the lively little animals during the day also return to their caves to rest because of the nightfall.Only the night birds staying on the branches will occasionally make two low-pitched calls because of the sound of the brothers' feet.

Dean had been worried about Sam.

Dean had just turned 14 when his father told those secrets about Sam.It was because he had heard the name of the devil, but he didn't know what it was.But his father said that it was something that could hurt Sam, and the boy frowned and asked his father how he could protect Sam from the demon.

"God's servants will be purified and blessed by God." The father told the boy.The young man stared out the window thoughtfully. Since his father was so convinced, he should obey his father's arrangement.

Dean thought his father would send Sam to church right away, and he was depressed for days.But Sam is his dearest brother, and he will do everything possible to keep Sam from all harm.But because of the delay in the war, my father invited two priests to take Sam away two years later.

Dean would never forget that Sam had been hiding in his room the day he left, babbling a lot to him. Sam has always been a quiet boy who loves to read and is smart, Dean's pride.That day Sam's abnormality made Dean very sad. He knew that his brother was going to leave him, and he also knew that it was because of his coaxing that his brother was willing to leave.

But in any case, he will not regret what he did.

Sam went to church and entered a monastery to study.He is so good that he will definitely be a member of the church after 7 years.

And Dean himself, following his father, became a paladin.

Only warriors have seen real demons, and only warriors know how to slay demons. Dean has experienced the battle of the seal, and the Holy Knights sealed the third knight of the apocalypse-the plague knight.When the fourth knight of the apocalypse is sealed, the father of demons, Lucifer, will be completely imprisoned under the land, and the demons will completely disappear from the world.

He is a warrior of the gods, obeying the will of the gods to seal the demons.

He is Sam's warrior, and he became God's warrior in order to save Sam.

But Dean didn't expect that his tattoos would still affect Sam.

Unlike other demon-possessed humans, Sam was never demon-possessed.He is -- has demon blood in his body.When he was just 6 months old, the devil came to his room quietly.

The devil's blood had been quiet inside Sam, but his father had worried about it for years.Until later, Sam was taken away by the priests, and there were many sacred objects in the church, and they would also suppress the devil's blood in Sam's body.

Sam himself knew nothing about it.

Dean wouldn't let him know either.

Still clinging to his body with the damp cloth, Dean tugged uncomfortably at the collar of his robe.He led his steed and followed Sam step by step, looking at his back, and for a moment couldn't understand why the boy who had to stand on a chair to reach the tip of his nose suddenly became so tall.

Just as he was thinking, Dean suddenly heard another set of footsteps in the forest that didn't belong to their brothers.He slowed down, just about to call Sam's attention to the surrounding movement, suddenly a black figure sprang out from the nearby woods, grabbed Sam's shoulder, and the tip of his nose slid up against his neck until it touched his soft jaw.

TBC