You are my sin uncrowned poem

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Dean left the castle with the first blade.He's riding an Impala, and he's wearing the amulet Sam gave him, hiding that weird little human head under his collar.

Father's war horse, younger brother's amulet.

He didn't go to the Paladins, because they wouldn't accept him at this time either.The lonely ranger is free and romantic, and the bards are still keen to write him into their poems, but no one mentions his status as a paladin anymore.He also no longer uses the majestic giant sword. The strange first blade always makes people feel creepy, but the demons are afraid of it.

And Sam remained at his castle, with the servants keeping everything in order.He spends most of his time in the study room reading, and every half a month, he will add a few boxes of books to the study room. These are all bought by his servants at high prices. He is still thinking about solving the difficult "death" Question", there is not much time, but fortunately, it is not very urgent.

Every ten days he would take the white lion out to inspect the fief, and the commoners gradually stopped hiding away as they did at the beginning when they saw him.They already knew him well enough to know that he would do nothing to hurt them.The white lion is arrogant, but without the permission of its owner, it dare not devour human souls.

Sam seems to be the young deacon who kissed the forehead of the believers every time he was baptized, strictly obeying the precepts, with peaceful eyes and a kind face-only when he refused those who secretly came to the castle with tribute and wanted to trade with him, he Only then did he show a somewhat stiff and cold expression.Not only humans, but demons are also afraid of him showing such an expression, which makes him look terrifying and cruel.

Souls were still a big temptation for him, but he wasn't going to let himself have any other than Dean's.

Every time he finished a book, his body would be swept away by a deep sense of fatigue and powerlessness.

Desperately looking for an answer, but every time the result is fruitless.

Fate cannot be changed.

Sam missed Dean.

The more urgently he seeks the answer and the more panicked he is, the stronger this yearning becomes. Dean had been away for half a year, and his father's helmet was still in their room, along with his clothes and his sword, but the smell of him had gone, and it made Sam feel awful.

It's like a rehearsal for decades to come.

But he took some comfort in the fact that for half a year he had resonated with Dean's soul.He didn't tell Dean that his soul still ached when Dean picked up the first blade.This is like the instinct of the devil. For the devil, the first blade is a dangerous thing, and pain is a signal.But the pain reassures Sam, knowing that he still has a connection with Dean, and that his soul and power can still help Dean get rid of the knife and the blood mark on him.

He traded a short period of pain for Dean's long "alive".If it is calculated according to the standard of the transaction, he will not suffer a loss. Dean is his brother, his only relative, and the only person in this world who can be so close to him, so he is willing to do anything for Dean, and he is willing to be any "thing" for Dean.

It's just that the longing will not be lessened by this little comfort.

He used to be a believer who strictly abided by the rules and regulations. Even though he was initially attracted by Dean, he still held back and carefully suppressed himself.But after he actually marked Dean, those suppressed, long-dormant desires could no longer be subdued.

Eat marrow to know the taste.

So whether it's waking or dreaming, morning and night, rain or shine...everything in the world can be a trigger, making him search his memory for the scent of Dean and the bitterness wafting from his soul.This may be the only thing he really has.

Servants brought him wine and meat, and the smell of the food reminded him of the Black Mist.

It made him see himself clearly.

Desire and sin are intertwined.

But at this time, Sam could only think of Dean in every part of the castle in vain, but he didn't know that the mutation had begun to gradually unfold in his brother's body.

The last time Dean had seen the Paladins was a month ago.They always meet on the battlefield, facing the same demons.At first, some people would call him Grand Master, but Bobby would always correct him severely. Dean knew he meant nothing else, and when he looked at Bobby a few times, he found that Bobby was also looking at him with worried eyes.

Dean felt a little relieved by that strange look.Just like a son who made mistakes and avoided seeing his father, the father scolded angrily, but still couldn't help caring about this son who often caused trouble.

Dean had the same respect for Bobby as he had for his father.

He always wants to make himself better, because he is worried that he will disappoint Bobby who recommended him in the first place.

Unlike his father, Bobby was unforgiving in his mouth, but he was surprisingly tolerant of him.He has learned a lot from Bobby, and he has gained a lot, and he is grateful to Bobby.

So when he fell, he was too scared to face Bobby.

Fortunately, although Bobby did not agree or accept him and Sam, he was still grateful for the concern he showed from time to time.

During that battle, Bobby was the only one who noticed Dean's abnormality. Dean still carried the first blade that Cain had given him. The demons feared it, and the knights attacked methodically. They knew that Dean was the only one who could kill the Hellknight, and everyone desperately tried to cover him.

Dean was no longer a paladin, but still a warrior.

Amidst the smell of blood and sulfur, he inserted the knife into the Hell Knight's throat, the red light exploded, and he suddenly felt that his injured left leg was as heavy as lead.However, this is not the only place where he is uncomfortable. There are many wounds on his body, bleeding and burning pain.

Dean felt himself hit with a dizziness.

This weird feeling has been happening over the past few months.

The day before he left the castle, he had vaguely sensed that something was wrong - his body was mutating.

The symptoms of tingling and fever continued to appear in his body. What surprised him most was that when he woke up in the woods one morning, he found that his legs were actually wet.He jumped up in disbelief, the thirst in his throat and a touch of panic made him drink up the water he had just filled the day before in one gulp.

The mutation gave him a bad feeling.

But apart from the changes in the body, nothing else has changed.He gave himself an answer in his heart, but when he verified it, he found that the answer didn't seem to be completely correct.

--His body is slowly changing from Alpha to Omega.

But he wouldn't be attracted to the smell of other Alphas, and when he... was in his worst physical condition, the symptoms reminded him of the Omegas in heat he had seen in the past, but he didn't attract other Alphas because of it.Others seem to be unable to perceive his changes from the smell, and the tall ranger riding a black horse is still a powerful Alpha, and only he knows all the changes, and this change has not changed any of his appearance.

Only Bobby noticed a slight difference in Dean.But he didn't base his judgment on sensory perception, not on what he perceived as Dean's changing things, but on experience.

He just didn't think Dean was right.

After that battle, because of Dean's injuries, he was kept in the Order. Bobby asked him insincerely, and he was just playing dumb.His symptoms were not too obvious, not as strong as the real Omega, even if he didn't admit it, Bobby couldn't just pull down his pants to check - what's more, Bobby never thought about such an incredible possibility.

In half a year, Dean killed two hellknights and one demon lord.

"Why didn't Sam follow?" Bobby still couldn't help asking that time, he was also injured, and like Dean, he had bandages everywhere to stop the bleeding.

He didn't hate Sam, he just hated demons.

An injured Dean glanced at Bobby, who had a chunk of skin wiped off his forehead, and smiled.

"He came over here, what about the demons on the fief? Bobby, Sam is my younger brother, his father's son, and the fief belongs to the Winchester family. It is impossible for Sam to let the demons run amok there." He said, slightly in Bobby There was a pause in the astonished eyes, and then he sighed softly, "If it wasn't for the devil's blood, he would still be his deacon, baptizing believers, and distributing bread and wine to believers at mass."

Dean saw Bobby's lips move, as if about to say something, and he waited quietly for a while, but Bobby fell silent instead.

"If it wasn't for me."

Dean added, and then slowly closed his eyes at Bobby's suddenly startled gaze.

TBC