broken

What are you wearing?What are you afraid of?And when she was indifferent to everything, how did she look at the world?

When she stood in front of her mother that year and told her that she was her child, could the mother understand how close this relationship with the same blood flowing in its veins was?

During the more than 20 years of mother's illness, did the mother remember for a moment that she still had a daughter?

Su Jin stroked the woman's hand. Bai Ping's hand was not rough like her aunt Bai Qian's who worked so often, but her forearm, the back of her hand, and even her palm left many scars.

Those were the scars left by her injuring herself when she was agitated in those years, and these scars were particularly conspicuous on her fair arms.

Many years have passed, but none of the scars have healed. Some may have gradually faded, but they have become wider and uglier due to growth.

Time is never a cure for everything.

—

When Su Jin left the hospital in the afternoon, Lin Xi, who was hiding by the flower bed outside the door and pretending to be playing with soil, pushed off the hat of his sweater and stood up slowly.

"Binhai...four courtyards..."

Lin Qi scratched his head, looked up at the hospital plaque, and muttered to himself.

This is the second time she has come here with Su Jin. Thinking of her classmate Liu Peng working in the information center of this hospital, Lin Qi stretched her numb legs and walked into the hospital office building.

When he walked out of Binhai Fourth Courtyard, Lin Xi was in a daze.

Her classmate Liu Peng did help her inquire about Su Jin's visit situation. Liu Peng said that the patient Su Jin came to visit was Bai Ping, who lived in a general ward, but what shocked her the most was that Liu Peng also told her that this patient, It's Su Jin's mother!

Lin Qi followed the crowd down the elevator in a daze, swiped his card into the subway station, and stood in the waiting area.

There were more and more people waiting for the train around, and the subway station announcement system began to broadcast because there was a train coming in, but Lin Xi's mind was blank.

Su Jin's mother is still alive?

This Su Jin never told herself, what she always said was that her parents were long gone, and she was fostered at her aunt's house since she was a child.

Lin Qi thought again that Su Jin's aunt seems to be named Bai, so from this point of view, the woman Su Jin visited should be Su Jin's relative.

But is it really her mother?

If it was really her mother, did Su Jin tell a lie?But why did she lie to herself?

If the things about her mother were not true, how much of what Su Jin said would be true?

The subway drove into the station at a high speed, the hydraulic door opened with a creak, and the people in the car walked out sparsely.

"Can't you get on the bus? Don't stand in the way if you don't get on the bus!"

A man behind pushed forward rudely, bumping his shoulder so that Lin Xi almost stumbled.

But even though she was hit, Lin Xi still didn't move. She let the people who got on and off the bus squeeze and push her, and her mind, which was blank just now, became a mess.

Until the subway door beeped a few times, and after three red lights, the door of the carriage was closed, and the protective door was also closed.People on the subway looked out of the car indifferently, or looked down at their mobile phones. Only Lin Xi stood alone on the platform.

The track creaked, the carriages accelerated one after another, and then became blurred, but Lin Xi's shadow was clearly reflected on the glass in front of him again.

She took out her mobile phone and called Liu Peng again.

"Well, it's me, please help me find out when this Bai Ping lived in the fourth courtyard... Yes, and also, when did Su Jin visit her, is there a record? Trouble You... Please, please... One last time, really the last time, I will definitely treat you to a big meal after I finish it... Definitely, please!"

—

After entrusting the matter to Liu Peng, Lin Xi was still in a state of confusion. She couldn't figure out whether everything seemed true or not.

On one side is Su Jin who was enthusiastic and unrestrained when they were together, and on the other side is Su Jin who was ruthless and hurtful when they broke up.

In the front is Su Jin whose parents passed away when he was young, and in the back is Su Jin whose mother lives in a psychiatric hospital and falls in love with other women.

What is real?

Lin Qi urged Liu Peng for several days in a row, calling every day to ask about the result, but Liu Peng couldn't bear it anymore, and within a week he brought the result to Lin Qi.

When Lin Qi received the news from Liu Peng, Lin Xi had just finished the meeting with the team leader. Several people in the same group had already returned to their seats, put on headphones and started writing code. Lin Xi flipped through the computer bag and took out the cigarette case from the inside pocket. , went out.

Sitting on the empty open-air platform, Lin Xi smoked a cigarette first. She didn't put out the cigarette butt until her heart, which had been beating non-stop before, slowly calmed down, turned on the phone, and opened Liu Peng's conversation frame.

Liu Peng: [The first visit record of that girl was on April 2017, 4, two people came here]

Liu Peng: [Later, there were often records of her registration]

Liu Peng: [Sometimes it's just one person, sometimes there's another family member, I think the name is very scribbled]

Liu Peng: [Photo.jpg]

Liu Peng: [Do you see what word this is, Bai Qian? 】

Liu Peng: [This is all we can find, is it enough?]

Liu Peng: [Don't forget my big meal! 】

Liu Peng did not find out when Bai Ping lived in Binhai Fourth Hospital, but on April 2017, 4, Lin Qi will never forget this day!

A week before this day, Lin Xi had just accompanied Su Jin to celebrate her 18th birthday. That birthday was so wonderful that Lin Xi would remember it for the rest of her life.

The birthday was the 1100th day that Lin Qi and Su Jin had been together. On that day, the two of them climbed to the top of the Meteorological Mountain, where they looked at the sea and most of the city.

The two put their legs outside the stone wall of the roof of the tower, swinging back and forth, leaning together, watching the setting sun that was about to set on the sea in the distance.

Su Jin didn't care about the eyes of passers-by behind her, she raised her head from Lin Xi's arms, kissed Lin Xi's chin lightly, and said to her:

"If I used to live day by day, now I have more yearning for life because of you, and I have found the meaning of living."

And that night, in the house left by Lin Xi's parents, on the small bed in the attic with a skylight, under the starry sky, the two young girls possessed each other again and again, leaving the two of them in love for three years, supporting each other Walking through the traces of those youthful years.

A week after her birthday, that is, on April 2017, 4, Lin Xi remembered that Su Jin came back very late, and when she came back, the food was already cold.

When Su Jin returned home, her eyes were gloomy and empty, she didn't say anything, and ignored Lin Xi.Lin Xi asked her where she had been, she didn't say anything, asked her if something happened to her, she still didn't say anything.

From that night on, Su Jin changed completely. She began to quarrel with Lin Qi constantly. Every little thing would make her very irritable, or she would simply be cold and violent, ignoring Lin Qi for several days in a row.

The three-year relationship was quickly torn apart, until the two broke up completely, Su Jin said those sharp words in front of Lin Xi, completely destroying all the emotions.

The cigarette in his hand had burned to the root, Lin Xi coughed a few times, and threw the cigarette butt away.

She put the phone aside, closed her eyes, and raised her head to the sky, with the drizzle falling on her face.

Seeing this day again now, Lin Xi seemed to understand a little bit.

So, it was the day that Su Jin followed Bai Qian, her aunt, to the Binhai Fourth Hospital to meet her mother Bai Ping for the first time, and that day, perhaps the first time in her life, she knew that her mother was still alive.

At the age of 18, Su Jin, who has just grown up, is suddenly told that his mother is still alive but living in a mental hospital at such a beautiful age. What kind of shock is this?

Lin Xi couldn't help but recall Su Jin's appearance that night after he came back, such a lively and lovely girl, as if her soul had been taken away, like a walking corpse.

Perhaps that day, when Su Jin saw his mother, he also understood the reason why her mother became like this?

Then why did Su Jin's mother become like this?

The drizzle turned to drizzle, getting bigger and bigger.

Lin Xi stood up, leaning her hand on the railing of the roof, looking at the dark clouds in the sky, and at the city shrouded in haze in the rain.

34. Chapter 34

Sitting in the car, Shen Qiuhe raised his eyes to see the time on the display screen when he got out of the car. At 5:40, Su Jin had already left work for 10 minutes, so he should be coming out soon.

Shen Qiuhe didn't have a TV program tonight, and her mother Xing Huijuan's physical condition has improved a lot recently, so except for going back to see the old couple on weekends, she will basically live with Su Jin in the apartment next to the school on weekdays.

Shen Qiuhe thought about the food he was going to make at night, and after a while, the girl who had been missing for a day came into Shen Qiuhe's sight. The woman smiled slightly, and put her hand on the door lock.

But soon, she saw Su Jin frowning again, looking behind him from time to time, as if he was talking to the person behind him, and following Su Jin was a man wearing a jacket, carrying a computer bag, and wearing a ponytail. girl with ponytail.

Facing Su Jin's cold face, the girl had no expression on her face, but she followed behind all the time.

"Little Ember~~"

Shen Qiuhe opened the car door and waved to Su Jin who walked into the parking lot. Su Jin saw Shen Qiuhe's car and people, trotted a few steps quickly, and came to the woman.

"Shen Qiuhe...