broken

Leaning in Su Jin's arms, her eye circles were dark and swollen, she was so tired that she couldn't open her eyes, but she would wake up from the light sleep with crying and discomfort, again and again, over and over again.

Su Jin patted Shen Qiuhe's back, stroked her shoulders, looked at her eyes that were red and swollen from crying for a long time, and her face that was devoid of energy, what kind of pain she had been these few days was reflected on this face .

Su Jin felt sorry for Shen Qiuhe like this, but when he held a woman in his arms, Su Jin had an indescribable feeling.

She gritted her teeth, closed her eyes quietly, and felt the slightly trembling woman in her arms.

Is this the pain of losing a loved one?

Is this the pain of losing a mother?

Shen Qiuhe, it hurts, doesn't it?

—

The next morning, as soon as Su Jin woke up, she heard the rustling sound of Shen Qiuhe packing things, she rubbed her eyes and sat up.

Shen Qiuhe: "Are you awake? Sorry, I made you sleep because of the noise."

"No." Su Jin looked at Shen Qiuhe's still swollen eyes, feeling a little distressed.

Shen Qiuhe put down the things in his hands, came over and sat by the bed.

"Xiao Jin, I may have to stay with my dad during this time."

"En." Su Jin nodded and said calmly, "Do you need me to help you?"

"No, my dad doesn't know about our relationship. I'm afraid it's not very suitable for you to go there."

As soon as he finished speaking, Shen Qiuhe saw the girl lower her eyes.

Thinking that she was disappointed because of the inappropriate relationship she said, Shen Qiuhe hurriedly explained: "Xiao Jin, don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't want to tell my family about the two of us, but it's too sudden now, and it's a blow to my dad. It's also very big, he's in a bad state, I don't want you to face it, I can handle it for the time being, if I can't handle it, I will let you help me, okay?"

Su Jin lifted the quilt, knelt on the bed, and stretched out his arms to hug Shen Qiuhe who was beside the bed.The girl was condescending, and rubbed the swollen corners of Shen Qiuhe's eyes with her fingers.

"Fool, I'm not that ignorant. Go get busy and pay attention to eating on time. Now that the weather is getting warmer, pay attention to your body."

Shen Qiuhe raised his hand and held the girl's hand touching his face, feeling a little bit of comfort from her.

"Clean up quickly, I'll cook you something." Su Jin said.

After eating, Shen Qiuhe put the packed travel bag by the entrance.

Su Jin wiped his hands clean, watched Shen Qiuhe put on his shoes, and walked slowly to her side.

"Shen Qiuhe." The girl called out, put her arms around the woman's waist, and snuggled half of her body into her arms.

The girl raised her head and looked at the woman meaningfully: "As long as you need it, I'm here."

"En." Shen Qiuhe nodded.

Just when Shen Qiuhe was about to let go of the girl to carry her bag, the girl in her arms hugged her even tighter, as if locked in her arms.

At the same time, the girl stood on tiptoe, lightly pecked the corners of Shen Qiuhe's lips twice, and then kissed Shen Qiuhe deeply.

This kiss was very domineering, Shen Qiuhe was a little confused, she knew that Su Jin was not a person without measure, and she also knew that Su Jin should understand that this kiss was not appropriate at this time.

But in the face of the girl's enthusiasm, the heart-warming words the girl said, and the girl's understanding of her, this girl who is ten years younger than her is already the firmest support in her heart, and the future she can pin all her hopes on.

Shen Qiuhe gently accepted the girl's ferocity and responded to her.

During the fierce kiss, she once again thought of the mother who had just passed away, and the lover in her arms, and felt an inexplicable pain in her heart.

—

After Shen Qiuhe left, Su Jin called and asked the manager for a leave of absence, and the process went smoothly.

After hanging up the phone, she shuffled back to the balcony, sat where Shen Qiuhe sat yesterday, and looked at the distant sea.

Today's sky is the same as yesterday, gloomy, the city seems to be covered by a big gray hood, the sun cannot penetrate the dark clouds, and all you can see is haze.

The phone that the girl put aside suddenly vibrated, she looked away and opened the message on the screen.

Sister Pigeon: [I'll pick you up in the past, I'll be there in half an hour]

The girl pursed her lips and looked indifferently.

She paused for a moment before replying with "yes", then turned off the phone and continued to turn her head, looking at the world without light outside.

In Villa No. 5, Mu Yunge returned to the living room after answering a call from an advertiser.

Su Jin had been sitting quietly on the sofa for the whole afternoon. The girl's face was expressionless, and that slightly cold and beautiful face made people feel a little intimidated.But looking carefully at the girl's dark eyes, the bottomless thoughts hidden in them felt pity for this girl.

Mu Yunge took two bowls of freshly boiled white fungus, jujube and lotus seed porridge from his assistant, and handed them to the girl.

"Thank you." Su Jin raised his head and thanked him.

She finished her food calmly, and then put the dishes on the coffee table.

Mu Yunge ate very slowly. She licked the sweet soup in the spoon with her lips, and looked up at the girl's expression silently.

Since meeting this little girl three years ago, Mu Yunge has been slowly getting to know this puzzling girl. After so many years, she has probably been able to understand the complexity of Su Jin's hidden emotions. mood.

"If you don't want to do it, then stop. But if you still want to do that, then now..." Mu Yunge looked at Su Jin and said word by word, "It's definitely the best time."

Mu Yunge put down the dishes in her hand, she could clearly see too many emotions in Su Jin's seemingly calm eyes - hesitation, contradiction, reluctance, resentment, melancholy, all kinds of emotions came together, making the girl There was an indescribable pain in his expression at this time.

The reason for these emotions may not even be noticed by the girl herself.

"Xiao Jin, don't force yourself too much, just forget it..."

"No!" Su Jin said firmly, "Sister, after all these years, this day is what I want!"

38. Chapter 38

After burning the first seven for his mother, Shen Qiuhe accompanied his father back to Huaicheng Villa.

The small yards of other people's homes have been cleaned and tidy after the past few days, and the seeds planted are waiting for the warmer weather to break through the soil and germinate.Perhaps because of the loss of the mistress, the courtyard of the Shen family was even more dilapidated and desolate than before.

Shen Guojun took off his coat and put his hand on the hanger.On the other side of the hanger is a scarf that Xing Huijuan often wears in winter, because the weather has not completely warmed up, and the hostess has not washed the winter clothes thoroughly and put them in the cabinet.

The man glanced at the scarf, shook his head dejectedly, and walked into the house.

Shen Qiuhe picked up the thermos bottle on the coffee table, poured a cup of hot water for his father, handed it to the man who came out of the room after changing clothes, and sat down on the sofa with him.

Shen Guojun usually takes good care of himself. Although he will retire next year, he always looks like a man in his early fifties, full of vigor.But after this week, the whole person lost his soul and suddenly aged several years.

Facing his father, Shen Qiuhe also didn't know how to comfort him. When he was at a loss what to do, there was a knock on the door.

"Maybe Aunt Zhang, who I invited to cook, is here. I'll open the door." Shen Qiuhe immediately stood up.

After eating at noon, Shen Guojun did not take a nap as usual, but sat on the sofa and chased people away.

"Qiuhe, it's time for you to go back to work." Shen Guojun looked at his daughter and said.

"Dad, I want to spend more time with you. After all, it happened so suddenly."

"I'm fine, you've got to go back to work and I've got to live with it."

Shen Qiuhe looked at his father and sighed.

She knew that what her father said was true, no matter how sad she was, her mother was gone and could not be brought back to life, and her company could only give her father a short-term relief. She could not accompany her all the time, nor could she replace her mother.

Looking at Shen Guojun's stubborn eyes, Shen Qiuhe still agreed to his father.

"Then I will stay with you for another day. I will go to work tomorrow, but Dad, I will come back to live at night during this time."

Shen Guojun nodded, stood up slowly, went back to the bedroom and closed the door.

The next day, Shen Qiuhe returned to school, attending classes and grading papers for students. Everything seemed to be back on track, but it was different—she became a motherless person.

In the past few days, friends have come one by one, but facing them, Shen Qiuhe didn't know what to say.

Mother left too suddenly. Although Xing Huijuan had always had a bad heart, she never thought that such a thing would happen at such a young age.

Shen Qiuhe didn't know how Su Jin felt when he lost his parents, but the girl said that it should be when she was very young and she didn't remember anything, but then, could Su Jin accept all this calmly?

Thinking of this, Shen Qiuhe began to miss Su Jin.

Although the two separated just yesterday, I am afraid that there will not be many opportunities to meet each other in the near future.

Shen Qiuhe misses Su Jin's hug, her eyes, her kiss, and her whole body very much.

These days, although Shen Qiuhe has no appetite at all, she has no energy in her body, and she doesn't even have the energy to respond to every message from Su Jin, but as long as she reads those words, she will know that there is someone who cares about her all the time, and she will She felt warm, and this kind of support made her feel inexplicably at ease.

In the evening, Shen Qiuhe went to the Radio and Television Center to broadcast a program.

Because of her mother, she had delayed two episodes of "Health Expert". Now that she was back to work, Shen Qiuhe naturally resumed the show.

During the recording process, although Shen Qiuhe looked tired, she still upheld professionalism, maintained a polite smile, and cooperated with the special guests of this issue to complete the program well.

After the show, before Shen Qiuhe went backstage, she felt a strange atmosphere. Some workers who were usually familiar with her