why are you pretending to be B

Obviously, he had already made up his mind not to let himself think about Liang Song, but after getting off the rooftop, Zhang Xue's words played repeatedly in his mind like rewinding.At the same time, there seemed to be two voices tugging in his heart.

A voice said, Liang Song likes you, otherwise why would he hide Zhang Xue's love letter to you, and still say those ambiguous words in Shaxian snacks?

Another voice immediately retorted fiercely, saying that since he likes you, why did he hurt you like that?

Is it possible that you like it at the beginning, but then you don't like it?Su Lesheng refuted those two voices with little confidence, and just after he finished speaking, he felt that this speculation was extremely far-fetched.Instead of thinking this way, it's better to say that Liang Song's actions that misunderstood him were from the very beginning...

Pure mischief.

Just like when Su Lesheng lived in his uncle's house, the children in that area looked down on him along with his uncle's family.Once a few older children came to play with their uncle's grandson, Wen Jie. For some reason, their attention suddenly shifted from the four-wheel drive to Su Lesheng who was hiding in the corner.

"Lesheng, this is for you to eat." The boy from the neighbor's second aunt's family smiled and waved to Su Lesheng, and picked up the pie on the dinner table.

Su Lesheng didn't move, but his stomach growled honestly.

"Look at you, why are you so careful?" The fourth cousin next to him chimed in, "Eat, we won't harm you."

No matter how cautious Su Lesheng was, he was still just a child after all.In the end, he couldn't help but took the cake. Before he could take a bite, other people's fists and feet fell on his head.

"Shameless wild child, stealing things!"

"Your mother is a gangster, do you want to be a gangster when you grow up?"

The continuous beatings and abuse trapped Su Lesheng like a barbed net.He can't feel pain, but he feels a kind of torture that is much deeper than pain.Since then, Su Lesheng has understood that, just as some people raise animals and abuse them for fun, many people also treat their own kind in the same way.

This understanding was once unforgettable, but maybe Liang Song was too kind to him, during this period of time, he almost forgot about it, forgot that he actually didn't understand Liang Song at all.Having been together for such a long time, he still doesn't know how Liang Song got mixed up with those gang members, what kind of interests are involved between them, let alone how Zheng Qiyue knew Liang Song, and...

At the beginning of the acquaintance in the dark alley at night, the hostility flashed in Liang Song's eyes when he faced Yin Jiashu; the stern expression when he defeated Jia Yaoxiong, and the extremely obedient appearance when he faced himself, Which one is real?

Chaotic thoughts flooded Su Lesheng like a flood.Until he was walking home after class, he still had no clue.In a trance, Su Lesheng always felt as if someone was following him all the way, but when he looked back, the people under the twilight and the streetlights were all hurrying, who had the time to look at him more?

Maybe it's because too many things have happened recently that he's in trouble.Su Lesheng shook his head to clear his mind, and walked towards home.

Suddenly, a mass of orange broke into his sight.

Su Lesheng's heart twitched without warning.He ran forward chaotically, and saw Xiaoju lying motionless under the tube.

It seemed that he had sensed that Su Lesheng was coming.It struggled to open its swollen eyes, but only the bloodshot whites were exposed.The hair on its body has been greasy a lot during this time, but now it is covered with black blood scabs and mud.A few flies surrounded it, fluttering their wings excitedly.

Suddenly, Su Lesheng's thoughts stopped, and the noisy air around him seemed to disappear.His knees gave way, and he knelt heavily in front of the dying cat.

It was only when Su Lesheng poked his fingers towards Xiaoju's dry nose that he realized that he was trembling.

"I'm on the way. It's not like there will be some kind of traffic jam at this point someday. It's not like you don't know."

The last ray of sunlight lingers outside the indigo sky.Yin Jiashu sat on the back seat of the called express car, half-closed the windows on both sides, and looked at the traffic jam that stretched to the end of his sight: "If you don't believe me, I'll show you a video, even the bicycle lanes are blocked gone."

"It makes me feel like I don't trust you, what kind of video are you playing?" Zhou Mu cursed with a smile on the other end of the phone, "I'll give you another half an hour, everyone is waiting for you hungry, we won't leave unless you come ah."

"No, that green-haired bastard is so hungry that he could eat up the table."

Yin Jiashu also laughed.As he spoke, he glanced aimlessly out of the window and saw a familiar figure on the bicycle lane.

It was Su Lesheng who he had been avoiding all this time.

The little mute pedaled a bicycle of unknown hands on the same blocked bicycle path, and his dirty school uniform was covered with sweat.

He didn't know what was in the front basket of the car, and he looked down every two seconds, like an old lady carrying her grandson to the street.

"...Yin Jiashu, Yin Jiashu?"

The voice of Zhou Mu's voice seemed to suddenly become very indistinct.She yelled a few times in a row before Yin Jiashu came back to his senses: "Here you are, caller?"

"If you don't talk anymore, I really want to call your soul." Zhou Mu was also a little angry, "I just asked about you..."

"Let's talk later."

Yin Jiashu hung up the phone hastily, not knowing what he was thinking, pointing at Su Lesheng's back: "Master, catch up."

"Chase?" The master turned his head and looked at Yin Jiashu as if looking at something, "My thing is a car, not an airplane. You want me to cover the heads of so many people in front of them?"

"Hold."

Yin Jiashu couldn't help cursing, opened the car door and jumped into the traffic jam.

"Hey, where are you going?" The driver was so anxious that he almost honked his horn.

"Wait, I'll be back to find you later!" Yin Jiashu hurriedly dropped these words and chased after Su Lesheng.

"Su Lesheng! Su Lesheng!"

The unnaturalness of facing Su Lesheng for so long before seemed to disappear in this instant.Yin Jiashu ran up to Su Lesheng and grabbed his handlebar, and finally saw clearly that there was a dying cat wrapped in a towel in the front basket of his car.

"Are you going to the pet hospital?" Yin Jiashu was taken aback for a moment, and he didn't know why he kept his voice very soft.

Su Lesheng ignored him, and carefully took the bike away from his hand, and rode on the relatively spacious sidewalk.

"Wait, I'll accompany you."

Yin Jiashu turned his head to look at the shared bicycle by the sidewalk, and took out his phone to scan the code: "There is a pet hospital two streets away. My dad's friend opened it. I..."

【unnecessary. 】Su Lesheng could almost feel that Xiaoju's life was leaking from the hole in the front basket of the bicycle every minute and every second, but he had to stand here with Yin Jiashu to waste time.

"Are you rich?"

Yin Jiashu blurted out, only to realize that he seemed to have said the wrong thing in the next second: "Then what, no, I mean..."

Su Lesheng ignored his apology, turned the front of the car and rode forward silently.

"This cat was most likely beaten. Its ribs and one back were fractured, its internal organs were ruptured in several places, and there were obvious bleeding in the eyes and mouth."

More than 20 minutes later, at the pet hospital across two streets, the doctor stood beside Xiaoju's examination bed, looked at Xiaoju's X-ray and said, "We suggest..."

"What do you suggest? Just say whether it can be cured?" Yin Jiashu was anxious.

"Suggest surgery, we will do our best." The doctor glanced at Yin Jiashu, then turned to look into Su Lesheng's eyes, "But you have to understand, this situation..."

【I see. 】

Su Lesheng was so anxious just now that he felt like he was about to catch fire, but now he has calmed down.He took a deep breath in the air full of the smell of disinfectant and the smell of cats and dogs, squatted down and touched Xiaoju's bloody head.

Its stomach rose and fell rapidly, and it could be seen that it was struggling to breathe.

Su Lesheng silently made a promise.

If Xiaoju persisted, he would take it home and never let it wander outside again.

So you must be patient, the days will get better and better in the future, he promises.

"Doctor Guo, the operating room is ready."

The doctor's assistant came over and knocked on the door of the examination room, interrupting Su Lesheng's thoughts.

"I took it there, you wait on the chairs outside for a while."

The doctor carefully picked up Xiaoju and walked into the operating room. The "in operation" sign at the door lit up, which made people feel a little nervous for no reason.

Su Lesheng rubbed his swollen eyebrows, then sat down weakly on the chair at the door of the examination room, and buried his face in his bloody and muddy palms.

Yin Jiashu silently walked to Su Lesheng's side, looking down at his protruding and thin shoulder blades.

He had never seen Su Lesheng like this.

In Yin Jiashu's memory, Su Lesheng will always be strong.Even if he was beaten all over in the deep alley, he could still raise his chin and stubbornly look at the person who hurt him with amber eyes, but now...

Did he become like this because of that cat?or because...

"Then what, is this cat raised by you?"

Chaotic thoughts tangled up in Yin Jiashu's mind.He sat down beside Su Lesheng, and said without words: "I didn't even know you still had a cat. Really, if you can afford to eat yourself, you will keep a cat?"

Su Lesheng didn't respond.Only the barking of cats and dogs echoed in the small pet hospital.

"How can a good cat be beaten up like this for no reason? You go back and check carefully... Forget it, you probably don't have surveillance in that crappy place where you live, or think about whether you have offended anyone recently?"

"By the way, why isn't Liang here at this time? He's also really interesting. He usually sticks to you like a dog's skin plaster, but now he doesn't come when you really need him. He's really a man."

"I heard that there is a new girl who has been pestering you all day today, just to find out where Liang Song is, and you have exchanged WeChat with her? Hey, Su Lesheng, aren't you usually tough with me? When you met with that guy, you lost your temper? This guy is riding on your head, do you know that..."

Yin Jiashu's words stopped abruptly.

Because Su Lesheng stood up unbearably and gave him a sideways glance, the bloodshot eyes from exhaustion and anger could be clearly seen in those amber eyes.

Yin Jiashu looked up at Su Lesheng, thinking for a moment that he was going to punch him.

But Su Lesheng didn't do anything.

He turned silently and walked out of the pet hospital, hiding himself in the night and under the shade of street trees.

Yin Jiashu subconsciously wanted to chase him out, but he stopped when he saw Su Lesheng's shadow reflected on the ground.

Because he found that Su Lesheng's shadow was trembling slightly, as if... crying.

How did things become like this?He obviously wanted to comfort Su Lesheng.Yin Jiashu scolded Shengcao irritably, and when he sat down dejectedly, he heard the phone ring.

"Where did you go?"

Zhou Mu asked with a bit of annoyance on the other end of the phone: "Everyone is waiting for you, the green hair has already started to chew on the table."

"Eat as much as you like."

It wasn't until Yin Jiashu finished speaking that he realized that his tone was too aggressive: "I have something to do temporarily, so I won't go there."

"what happened to you?"

Zhou Mu's tone suddenly became anxious, and Yin Jiashu could even imagine her frowning on the phone: "Is there something wrong at home, do you need me..."

"fine."

Yin Jiashu suddenly felt guilty again.He hung up the phone in a hurry, opened the class WeChat group to find Liang Song's profile picture, and sent him a series of messages in the friend application.

Zoro: Don't get me wrong, I didn't want to add you as a friend.

Zoro: I just wanted to ask where the fuck are you?How sad is he this day? Do you think you can turn a blind eye if you are not at school?

Zoro: I'm really wondering, what did the little mute see in you?

The moment Yin Jiashu uttered the last sentence, he was in a daze.

Did he really think so?

He doesn't want Su Lesheng to be with Liang Song, so who does he want Su Lesheng to be with?

There was no need to think about this question at all, Yin Jiashu had the answer in his mind the moment it popped up.

In fact, it's quite ironic when you think about it. He had been hiding from Su Lesheng for so long before, but in the end he had to face this reality honestly.

He sighed, opened the dialog box with Zhou Mu, and said "I have something to tell you" after hesitating for a long time before sending it out.

With a "ding", the light at the door of the operating room went dark.The doctor opened the door and came out, taking off his mask wearily.

【How's it going? 】

Su Le ran in from the outside like flying.He forgot that the doctor couldn't understand sign language, and looked over the other's shoulder into the operating room.

"We tried our best, but..."

The doctor said sorry, and quietly blocked Su Lesheng's sight: "The assistant is doing the final cleaning for it, and you can go in and say goodbye to it when you're done."

It was as if someone had knocked hard on Su Lesheng's ear.His mind suddenly went blank, and he could only hear the "buzzing" sound of blood rushing through the eardrum.

The doctor's white coat in front of him and the bright white everywhere made him return to the rainy day when he heard the news of Su Lan's death.A deep sense of powerlessness welled up in his heart, almost drowning him.

He used to think that he could protect his mother when he grew up, but his mother couldn't wait for him to grow up.

Now that he has grown up, he can't even protect a cat.

It was very late at night, and the street lamps and moonlight dimly illuminated the lonely street.When walking home with the cold and stiff Xiaoju in his arms, Su Lesheng didn't realize that there was always a figure following behind him.

Liang Song held a can of cat food in his hand, which was supposed to be for Xiaoju, but now he could never eat it.

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