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When Su Lesheng opened his eyes again, it took him a long time to distinguish the blindingly white ceiling in front of him.It took a while for his dull sense of smell to perceive the strong smell of disinfectant. He turned his head and looked in a trance. Under his body was the same white sheet. There was a needle on the back of his right hand, and the medicine was flowing continuously along the needle hole. From the vial into his veins.

"woke up?"

Su Gui's hoarse voice brought back a little bit of Su Lesheng's sanity.He followed the sound and found that her whole face was blue, only her eyes were red, and the tears kept coming out as soon as she spoke, and she couldn't even wipe them off.

"Are you thirsty? Do you feel uncomfortable?"

While sucking her nose, she rolled up the hospital bed for Su Lesheng, and fed him a little warm water.

The smell was so strange, Su Lesheng frowned.

"If it doesn't taste good, you have to drink it down. This is glucose. Can't you replenish some energy after sleeping for two days?" Su Gui forced Su Lesheng to down a large glass of glucose water, and asked again, "Is it uncomfortable? Do you want it?" Sleep a little longer?"

Su Lesheng shook his head.

"That's good." Su Gui nodded with a sob, and suddenly patted the quilt next to Su Lesheng again, "You dead boy!"

She stood up with red eyes, and glared at Su Lesheng condescendingly, reminding him of the appearance when she snatched him away from his uncle's house in his childhood.

"Why didn't you tell me about such a big thing! You ran to die by yourself, thinking you were acting in a movie? You treat yourself as Pan Dongzi or Zhang Ga, a soldier. How can I explain to your mother if something happens! Are you You don’t want me to live, do you?”

"What's the matter, is something wrong with the patient?"

It happened that a nurse was examining other patients in the ward, and when he heard the noise, he opened the curtain on Su Lesheng's side and peeped in to have a look.

"It's okay, I'm educating the children."

Su Gui's temper tantrum was suddenly interrupted, and his face was a little uneasy.Patting his chest, he sat back beside Su Lesheng's bed, and poured himself some quick-acting heart-rescuing pills.

"Are you... uncomfortable again?" Su Lesheng couldn't help feeling guilty when he saw his aunt like this. He lowered his head and looked at the bed sheet under him, "I was wrong."

His sentences became fragmented because he hadn't spoken for too long, but his voice was very pleasant and clear.Su Gui froze for a moment before realizing it, and looked at his nephew in disbelief: "Lesheng you, can you speak?"

"……Um."

The moment he saw Liang Song fall into the sea on the pier, Su Lesheng somehow regained the ability to speak.But let him choose, he would rather not learn to speak again for the rest of his life.

He only wants Liang Song to be well.

"This is really... your mother and your grandparents have finally manifested their spirits for so many years." Su Gui was immersed in the mixed emotions of surprise, and she didn't even have time to wipe away her tears. Naturally, she didn't notice Su Lesheng's abnormality, "Lesheng, good boy , can you call me aunt?"

"Auntie."

"Hey!"

Su Gui responded happily, then lay on Su Lesheng's shoulder and cried for a long time before recovering.

"Look at me, I'm so worthless."

She wiped her cheeks reddened by tears, called the nurse to pull out the emptied vial needle for Su Lesheng, and carefully helped him go to the bathroom. When she came back, she checked her phone, and it was almost twelve noon. Clicked.

"Are you hungry? Sister Liu from Kaisha County will deliver porridge in a while, please wait a little longer."

While talking, she helped Su Lesheng tuck the corner of the quilt that had slipped off his shoulders.

"Aunt Liu also...know?"

"It's not just that she knows." Su Gui smiled, "Your friend Jiang Hao and his parents have been here several times. There is also a young man who should also be your classmate. Who owes the expression on his face every time he comes?" He has the same money, so I just checked in the corridor and you didn’t go in. I only found out the surname was Yin after I asked.” Su Gui counted the people who came to see Su Lesheng these days with his fingers, “Oh, yes, the whole family surnamed Zheng has been arrested. Get up, except for the youngest daughter of their family. The country is still investigating this matter, and the higher authorities said it was to protect the privacy of the whistleblower and did not say who actually filmed the live broadcast, otherwise you will not be quiet for two days."

She said the last two sentences in a low voice.While instructing Su Lesheng to break his legs next time he dared to do such a dangerous thing, he couldn't help but snort his soft black hair: "I'm proud of you, really."

"Auntie."

Su Lesheng's nose couldn't help but start to feel sore.He turned his head to look at the small black cloth bag crumpled by himself on the bedside table.Probably because my aunt didn't dare to touch it casually when she was in a coma. The thing had dried out and had a layer of salt on it: "He, isn't it..."

"Him? Who are you talking about?" Su Gui didn't react for a moment.

"Liang Song." The feeling of saying these two words from the mouth is very strange, like an olive weighing a thousand catties on the base of the tongue, and like a weight of lead falling on the heart, cold and bitter.

He had been hesitant to ask this question just now, deluding himself that as long as he didn't ask, he wouldn't hear bad news.But on second thought, what's the point?

Sooner or later, he will know, not to mention that he has already guessed all kinds of things in his heart.

"He..." My aunt paused, carefully observing Su Lesheng's expression, "The funeral was done yesterday. The police didn't find the body, so they set up a clothes grave."

"Oh."

Su Lesheng responded quietly, and when he turned his head and buried his face in the pillow, hot tears poured out without warning.

Liang Song is dead.

This is not the first time that Su Lesheng faced death, but it was the first time he felt such an unforgettable and endless pain.He looked at his hands, they hugged the firm and warm body so vividly not long ago, but now the owner of the body has slept forever on the cold seabed.

Even Su Lesheng's own existence became so unreal.If it wasn't because he couldn't let go of his aunt, for a moment he even felt that it would be fine if he and Liang Song became two lifeless corpses on the bottom of the sea.

While his aunt was away, he opened the cloth bag Liang Song left for him, and inside it was the silver pendant that the other party had shown him.

There is another soft thing in the bag.Su Lesheng took it out and realized that it was a hair tie that was about to lose its elasticity.The fluff on the cat's head was a little dry from the sea water, and it was looking at him blankly at this moment.

It was the hair tie Liang Song once gave him.There are memories of them going out to buy vegetables at night together; in the living room of their hometown, they were a little embarrassed and overwhelmed by the enthusiasm of their aunt, and they secretly looked at each other and smiled.It's just that after mustering up the courage to confirm that Liang Song's intention failed, he left this thing in his hometown.

When did Liang Song take it with him behind his back?Su Lesheng looked at the ugly cat and smiled, tears came down again.The first thing he did after he was discharged from the hospital was to put those two things away together with the watch Su Lan left for him and put them under the pillow.But Good Fortune just seemed to be joking with him, since then Liang Song hardly appeared in his dreams.

He truly experienced the unthinkable pain that Liang Song once described to himself.

The trial of Zheng Fei's case was not an easy task because of the huge number of issues involved.The government's bonus to Su Lesheng came down very quickly, a total of hundreds of thousands.He didn't need to go to school during the day and work at night, so he simply took his aunt to live with him in the city.He went to the research institute again because he was afraid that the medicine that Zheng Fei injected into his glands would make the disorder worse.

"In your current situation, it is recommended not to take conservative treatment."

After the simple examination, the doctor looked at Su Lesheng's physical examination report worriedly: "Your glands will not be able to bear it any longer. There are two current treatment options. One, as I told you before, is to find the right one. Alpha marks you for life, but..."

Like most people, she didn't know exactly what Su Lesheng had experienced during this time, but she also heard the news of Liang Song's death, so she paused and said, "My condolences."

"I'm fine." Su Lesheng turned his face away from her.

"Let's put this method aside for now. There is another treatment method, which is a new technology that has just been researched recently: extract a sufficient amount of highly matching Alpha pheromones at one time, and make them into injections through technical means, and divide them into injections. It will be injected into the gland once to achieve a life-long marking effect, but it will not affect your real mate selection in the future. At present, we have an injection for you personally, and you can start the first treatment at any time if you want.”

"But where did this medicine come from?" Su Lesheng always felt a little dazed during this time, and it took a little effort to digest the meaning of the doctor's words.

"This... I think you will understand after reading this."

The doctor opened the drawer and took out an ordinary kraft paper envelope: "This letter has been with me for almost a month. If you didn't take the initiative to come today, I would have gone to your house to find you."

"Look slowly, I'm going out to talk to my colleagues."

She got up and patted Su Lesheng on the shoulder, closed the door and left.

The room suddenly became quiet, except for the faint chirping of birds and the sound of the air conditioner outside the window.Needless to say, Su Lesheng also guessed who left this letter for him, before he could open it, his breathing was already messed up.

Lesheng:

When I wrote this letter, I thought about it for a long time. I originally wanted to call you "brother", but after thinking about it, I decided not to do so. I'm afraid you haven't forgiven me yet.And if I can survive, I plan to chase you again. Our days are still long, so I don't care about these words.

I know you have always wanted to hear me tell you the truth of the matter, but the time just didn't come before, which caused you to suffer a lot of grievances and hardships for no reason. I'm sorry, really.

My real name is not Liang Song.I was an abandoned baby since I was a child, and I was raised by my adoptive mother and sister, who named me Song Qingheng.The Omega killed in the "Roman Empire" ten years ago was my sister Song Qingxu.Ever since I learned of her death when I was ten years old, there was only one thing left in my life, and that was to avenge her.In the first year of being admitted to the police academy, I learned that I had the opportunity to go to Nancheng to do undercover investigations related to "Pink Sakura", so I decided to drop out and come here.

Now that I am not afraid to tell you the truth, the reason I approached you in the first place was because I thought your mother was one of the murderers of my sister.But later I discovered that your mother was just an innocent victim in the huge black industry chain of the Zheng family.I originally wanted to leave you at that time, but I didn't expect that I fell in love with you.

Since I met you, I have lied to you and lied to you about many things, but this sentence is absolutely true.

Su Lesheng, I love you.

"Why did you say it now..."

The tears that filled the eyes from the first word were finally unbearable and fell down.Su Lesheng wiped it with the back of his hand in a panic, but the warm liquid flowed more and more disobediently.Looking up at the ceiling, he took a deep breath, forced himself to calm down, and continued to read the words written by Liang Song after cutting himself up with a knife.

It is precisely because I love you that I can't watch you fall into a dangerous vortex, so I started to lie to you again.From saying "I only treat you as an older brother" to you in my hometown to the injection you found in my bag, everything is an illusion created by me for you to see.I thought that making you hate me would make you take the initiative to stay away from those dangerous things, but I didn't expect you to be too smart and brave to jump into the fire pit again and again without hesitation.

I know, you must say that I am selfish.I admit, I know I'm terribly selfish, but I really can't watch you die.Losing someone you love hurts so much, it really does.

I'm sorry, Lesheng.

This is what I think, if we can survive the catastrophe, I will tell you the above words myself, and then you can beat me and scold me as you like.But if I'm not so lucky...

Promise me to live well.When you remember, go to my grave to see me. It would be better if you can forget me.

One more thing: every time you had an illness before, I was the one who treated you.I admit, part of this is because the doctor said our pheromones are a good match, and part of it is my possessiveness for you.Don't blame me, I'm going crazy with jealousy when I think of other Alphas getting close to you.

Sorry to drag it out.The day your attending doctor told me that there is now a new way to treat your disorder, I immediately agreed to cooperate with her to extract my pheromones to be used as your medicine.Of course, if you don't want to, you can also choose other Alphas that match you...

"Bastard! Liang Song, you are a fucking bastard!"

Su Lesheng couldn't stand it anymore.For the first time in his life, he swears a bad word, and wants to tear up the letter paper full of bastard words, but he can't bear it anymore after taking a small bite.He frantically smoothed the paper, feeling that it was his own heart that was torn apart.

"You also know that you are selfish, and that it hurts to lose someone you love, but why don't you care if I hurt or not?"

"You are always like this. If you want me to hate you, I will hate you. If you want me to forget you, I will forget you. Who do you think you are?"

"You still say you love me, and the way you love me is to stab a knife in my heart? Then I would rather you never loved me..."

This is the first time in half a month that Su Lesheng confides his heart so unscrupulously.He cried for a long time in the empty office, and only said one word when he went out to see the doctor.

"I am willing to accept injection therapy."

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Guess whether the icy sea water in Nancheng can drown Wuli Xiaoliang to death;)