The first work of the imperial prison

"Born but not raised, raised but not taught, if anything goes wrong, it is the fault of the child. It is the child's failure to live up to expectations, ignorance, poor aptitude, and not giving them face... They are parents, and they are right for you. You must not be disobedient or unfilial to those who are benevolent. No matter what they say or do, it is for your own good. You have to listen. Even if there are some 'mistakes' or 'excessive', you must understand and be tolerant. Because——'There are no parents who are not in the world'."

"Why?"

"Why can't this kind of person die!"

Tang Feihan put down his hand covering his face, his eyes were full of hatred, he seemed to have suppressed it for too long, too long, he never spoke to anyone, he didn't have much fun, even a little difficult: "I thought, I'm the only one like this, It’s just that my life is bad, that’s not it... For example, the new neighbor Mu An. His face is always clean, his clothes don’t even have a wrinkle, and the hairpin on his hair is sapphire. Very particular about the purse, he seems to have everything he wants, and he doesn’t need anything, he is well kept in the backyard, like the most delicate little boy in the world, but he can’t talk to others, can’t play with others, the sky outside is so big, He can't fly out, the door of the house is open every day, and he can't go out."

"He can only be in that small room every day, doing what the adults have arranged for him, different studies, different homework. If he can't finish it, the elders will punish him when he comes back. After finishing, there is no reward, because it must be that there is not enough homework left, and it will be doubled tomorrow. The delicate young master is not a human being, but a tool, used by the elders to show off, a tool for comparison, and all his functions are to be a good father. In everything that comes down, no problems, no grievances, no demands are allowed, and when necessary, push it in front of others, behave well, and let others praise his father "a tiger father has no dogs", all are taught by adults good."

"He also grew up alone. My life is very hard. At least I am free. I can grow savagely and indulge in places where others can't see. He can't do whatever he wants, because his father's authority suppresses him. He didn't even dare to rebel and complain, just like a small tree planted in a garden, being disciplined and pruned, not allowed to grow too fast, too crooked, and must maintain a perfect shape...it doesn't Dare to stretch out the body facing the sun, dare not stretch out the branches and leaves to catch the rain in the sky, and dare not even pierce the roots too deep, because this will make it grow faster and be pruned more frequently, it will never know The taste of growing freely..."

"Isn't it pitiful?"

Tang Feihan's expression was a little distorted: "His father, the county king, seems to be a high-ranking and respected man, but his son is at home every day, no matter whether he hopes or hates, he doesn't even see anyone. With tricks of punishment, such a person can actually be someone else's father, why doesn't he die!"

The room was suddenly quiet, and the accusation with strong emotions made everyone present feel a little overwhelmed and didn't know how to deal with it.

Ye Baiting reminded: "Your friend is afraid."

Tang Feihan was stunned for a moment, only to realize that the distance between him and Mu An was further away, he seemed to have stepped back a few steps, and looked at him full of confusion.

"Why... are you afraid of me?" Tang Feihan stared at Mu An, his voice suddenly raised, with unspeakable anger, "Have you forgotten how you got here when you were young! After so many years of grievances, he treated you so Years of ignorance and oppression, have you forgotten! A small lotus platform bought you off? He only did this one thing, and just spent a little money, can it offset everything in the past! You are no longer Hate him, you hate me?"

Mu An pursed his lips tightly, his face paled, and he took another small step back.

Tang Feihan couldn't believe it: "You actually blame me...I killed him for you, this person who treated you badly, and you dare to blame me!"

"He doesn't hate you, he's afraid of you."

Ye Baiting's voice was particularly clear in the room, like a mountain spring flowing down at night, bright and clear, clean and flawless: "A lotus platform may not be able to dispel all the regrets of the past, but a murderer, a murderer with blood on his hands, unexpectedly It's my friend, why don't you let him be afraid?"

Tang Feihan was stunned for a moment, then slowly pursed his lips.

Ye Baiting: "Now, you still don't want to explain?"

"Is it useful if you don't confess?" Tang Feihan's sarcastic voice burst out from between his teeth, "Didn't you already confirm that I am the murderer, why didn't you just arrest me?"

Ye Baiting looked at him: "You are not convinced."

"Why should I submit! I am not wrong! I am the sufferer and the victim. They are the ones who deserve to die, and they all deserve to die!"

Tang Feihan turned around sharply: "Didn't you say that you found the evidence, why didn't you arrest me? Oh, could it be that by now, they are all fraudulently confessing, expecting me to say everything myself, so that you can sit back and enjoy the benefits? I have seen it today Here it is, Beizhen Fusi used to handle cases in this way!"

Ye Baiting sighed slightly: "In the depths of the mountains in central Sichuan, there is a plant that often grows. The roots are inverted cone-shaped, the leaves are pentagonal, extremely pointed, as thin as paper, covered with soft hairs, and bloom in autumn. The sepals are blue and purple. All are poisonous, especially the leaves and roots, which are so toxic that they can even be ingested and absorbed through skin contact, or they can cause shortness of breath and severe heart pain when taken orally, and even a stick of incense can cause death—there is no antidote.”

"This thing is named Wutou."

"Lu Xingming died from this poison. The appearance of the explosion is only to divert attention and create a time gap. It doesn't take a lot of things like aconite to harm people. Tang Feihan, the aconite buried in the northwest corner of your courtyard wall Head, how do you explain?"

Tang Feihan pursed his lips tightly: "You all know where the Tang family is. I can't control the dirty things inside and out, and I can't control it. If other people want to use this thing, they have to deal with it if they don't run out. Naturally, choose one A convenient and unattended place, isn’t my place just right? Since Jin Yiwei has turned over my yard, why don’t you check the recent affairs of the Tang family by the way. Go outside and check the pharmacy to see if I have bought this thing before."

Poisons are different from ordinary medicines. The Jokhang Law clearly stipulates that even if you buy it back to kill mice, if you only have a little bit, it won’t kill you, and you have to register it. Whether you bought it or who bought it can all be checked.

He dared to say that, confident that others would not be able to find out, because he didn't buy it at all, he just knew too many other people's affairs secretly, and 'borrowed' some.

Ye Baiting didn't panic at all: "The workbench for making small balls, the size of the burnt protective gear and clothes, the location of the Liulishahuangyuan where the exchange was made, the contact with you before the accident happened to Prince Mu of Duke Mu...all these things, how can you do that?" explain?"

Tang Feihan squinted his eyes: "I can't explain it, there is no explanation, you are so confident, you must have enough evidence, why don't you tell me... Where did I make a mistake and let you find out?"

"fan."

Ye Baiting said: "The other day you said you lost your fan, and Mu An was the witness. You didn't lie, you did lose it. It's not a big deal at all. If you lose it, you lose it. You can change it later. No matter how poor you are, you will lose it." It is not difficult to lack this, but since then you have murderous intentions for Lu Xingming - this fan must be found."

"Why?" Tang Feihan looked darkly, "It's just a fan, what's so special about it?"

"The fan itself is not important, what is important is the jade pendant hanging underneath," Ye Baiting said, "Is it Lu Xingming who gave it to you?"

Tang Feihan didn't speak.

Ye Baiting: "The street was chaotic that day, and the people evacuated through Jinyiwei. They just left the scene quickly and didn't care about other things. Many people lost their things. When Jinyiwei was cleaning up after the incident, they specially picked up these things and made it a temporary lost item. Recruitment office. Because there are Jinyiwei guards to handle it, no one dares to come forward for petty gain, many things have been taken away, and there are many things that have not waited for their owners to come back."

"At first, we didn't pay much attention to this matter. Everything was handled according to the procedures. After we got directions, we came back to check the records, only to find that there was indeed such a fan, and it had already been taken away. The person who took it away left it on the roster. There is only one word in the name, 'Ming', the handwriting has been compared, and it matches yours."

Ye Baiting looked at Tang Feihan: "When did you come back to get the fan? Before you decided to kill Lu Xingming?"

Tang Feihan didn't answer directly: "Even if I take away the fan, so what? It's my fan, I can't get it back? I don't want to put my name on it, I just avoid suspicion, I don't want to attract attention. Yes, the son of the proprietress who sells shochu next door is named Xiao Ming, I just heard it by ear and wrote a random word, is this also evidence?"

Ye Baiting: "The evidence is not the fan itself, but the green silk sash decorated by the jade pendant. Lu Xingming is a playboy, loves to play and spend money. How can something be ordinary? The jade pendant itself is very special. The same is true for the hanging silk sash, which is made of 36 strands of silk, which is hand-colored by experts in the industry.

"This fan followed you twice. The first time was on the street before. After you created chaos and left with the crowd, you saw an old man who left his grandson behind and ran away. The child was wrapped in the crowd. The farther you came, the crying became weaker and weaker. You couldn't see it, and threw the last small ball at him; the second time, after you decided to kill Lu Xingming, you took it to the lost and found. I found the fan and took it with me to Lu Xingming's house, because it is a souvenir between you two."

"There is no need to quibble and deny. On the two deceased, near the explosion wounds, there is still a green silk sash on your fan. There will be no one else but you. This fan was not long ago, and the commander was also there. Found it in your room."

Tang Feihan pursed his lips tightly, looking at Ye Baiting with anger.

Ye Baiting did not evade, and looked up to meet him: "You are reluctant to part with this fan, this jade pendant, you are missing Lu Xingming, he and Mu An are your best friends in the world, the most cherished existence, you don't want to Lost, right? But you have fallen into a maze, your bad karma has been created, you lost Lu Xingming—this time, do you want to lose another one?"

His gaze was clearly guided, and Tang Feihan immediately saw Mu An.

Mu An's eyes were wet, his face was pale, his throat was tight, he couldn't say a word, he even took a few steps back, his face was full of disbelief, confusion, and helplessness, as if he had suffered some huge blow, I can't accept it.

He grew up under his father's authority, and he was able to grow into the easy-going and friendly temperament he is today. His psychological endurance is actually good. Tang Feihan rarely saw him really care about anything, very angry, and lost his elegance. The expression, so to speak, is almost never seen.

"……sorry."

Tang Feihan could bear everyone's doubts and the glaring eyes of the whole world, but he couldn't bear the disappointment expressed by his friend's hot eyes: "But it's not because of killing your father, I don't think so. I'm sorry about this matter, I just regret that in the future..."

I can't be with you anymore.

Horses and flying flowers in spring, sweet-scented osmanthus flowers in autumn nights, poetry and music in summer, and snow-covering plums in winter... The pleasant time that was so precious in the past, stolen with all my heart and mind, seems to never be there again.

At this moment, Tang Feihan really realized what he had lost.

"I'm sorry..." He covered his face with his right hand, liquid slipped from between his fingers, "Brother Ming... I was wrong."

The room was quiet for a long time, and Ye Baiting also waited for a long time. After giving the other party enough time, he slowly asked: "Jin Yiwei has checked all the clues related to the case. The complexity of the incident is definitely not something you can do alone. You also have a helper." ,Is it?"

Tang Feihan was startled.

Ye Baiting: "Up to now, whether others treat you well or badly, and what kind of thoughts they have, you should have the answer in your heart, but you still have to cling to delusional thoughts and hide them?"

Tang Feihan put his hands down, not as rebellious as before, lifted his robe and knelt down: "...Needless to say more about my past, you all know, there is nothing to say, since you came to the capital, you all know who Tang Jingfu is , Forced me every day, let me do this thing, that thing, he has a thousand ways to pinch me, threaten me, I promise well on my face, and do everything possible to get things done, no matter how hard it is, I will I don't want to go back to the past, but I don't want to, why, I really want to ask him, why!"

"That person...appeared at this time. He said that he also had such a childhood. It was very hard to walk all the way. Sometimes he even thought, why does such a person live in the world? Why is no one taking care of him? If someday It’s okay if there was an accident... I drank a little too much at the time, and although I wouldn’t say everything when I was provoked by others, I didn’t drive them away, and we chatted for a while.”

"I met a few times like this, and I became acquainted with it. I was severely suppressed and bullied by my biological father again, and I drank too much alcohol at night. I met again by chance. We chatted a few more words, and the other party joked about the previous words—if this It will be fine if the kind of person has an accident someday. This time, I was silent for a moment and followed suit. A few days later, Tang Jingfu really had an accident and fell down after drinking and had a stroke. I poured the pot of wine for him myself .”

Ye Baiting tapped the table with his fingertips: "So Tang Jingfu's illness is not an accident."

Tang Feihan lowered his eyes: "I convinced myself that this was an accident, and everything that happened was indeed an accident. There was nothing unusual at the scene, and I also checked the wine, and it was all right, but later, when we met, this person asked me, 'Is it okay? Happy', I realized that this was not an accident, but something done for me."

"I can't deny that I was very happy during that time. Tang Jingfu no longer weighed on me like a big mountain. On the contrary, I had laid the foundation before, and it was much easier to socialize in the circle. Even because of his accident, many The resources were tilted into my hands, and I felt unprecedented satisfaction and joy in my heart. All of these were brought to me by this person, and I couldn’t help but respond. Afterwards, I met more and more and communicated more and more.”

"Some things seem to be really impossible to start. Once the dark side of my heart is released, other things seem to be acceptable. I just refreshed for a few days after Tang Jing's comeback. There are still many difficult things ahead. The capital circle is not It’s so messy, I was still looked down upon by many people in the past, the resentment and hostility hidden in my heart were not completely released at that moment, and there were a lot of backlogs that could not be resolved, so this person suggested that I can play some small games, that prank Kind of, not hurting people, just playing, just venting..."

So there are things like making small balls, throwing them in the street, and creating chaos.

Ye Baiting asked: "Is this person finding all the things?"

Tang Feihan: "Yes."

Ye Baiting: "The production location was also provided by this person?"

"Yes." Tang Feihan said calmly, "But I made the small balls. I am very good at making these small things. I also choose where to throw them. I want more freedom and more complicated ways to play. Yes. Some risks, but the other party did not stop it."

"We often drink together. This person can always find good wine, which makes people remember. Slowly, small gatherings become a habit. Every time things end, this person will ask me how I feel, whether I am happy or not. He was not released, and then told me that we are all suffering people, just making some harmless jokes, it is not a big deal, and we are not breaking the law."

"I don't know if it's the praise and encouragement, or my heart is drifting, I started to like this feeling, as if standing on a high ground, can control everyone, I started to be dissatisfied, especially when those damned people are in the way, I am very dissatisfied, Why do they want to live and bully others..."

Ye Baiting: "So you killed Duke Mu."

Tang Feihan paused for a long time this time before slowly opening his mouth: "On that day, Mu An was fined again. He will be crowned next year, will marry a wife, and support the family. King Mu County actually wrote a word because of him. He was fined to kneel in the small ancestral hall and not allowed to eat dinner... He never thought that Mu An is not a child anymore, and he has to face. I didn't want him to die, I just wanted to teach him a lesson, so that the injury was a little bit worse , let him remember, but he died..."

"...You are right. I am good friends with Mu An and Lu Xingming. I can easily know about Mu Jun Wang Li's affairs. I know their general plan, route, and what they want to do. Thinking of giving Mu An a gift, and worrying about his health, what did I do? I despise this hypocrisy, and deliberately guided and reminded him. He got out of the car halfway and walked towards the direction I needed... Li Shi is even more outrageous , Knowing that my husband has a concubine son outside, I thought of using Lu Xingming. I wanted to please this nephew, unify the record, and fight against Lu Yisheng. I told her that Lu Xingming liked the things from that jade shop the most, and she really changed her direction immediately. , ready to buy..."

He sneered and looked at Lu Yisheng: "Don't think that others are generous because they are generous. No one in the world is completely selfless. It's just that the situation is forced and the interests are tied. There is no way not to be generous."

Lu Yisheng: ...

Tang Feihan looked at Ye Baiting: "Everything is exactly as you said, including the arrangement of the last street event outside Beizhen Fusi, which was indeed requested by the other party, and I did exchange it for money, I need money. "

Ye Baiting: "So are you aware now that others are using you and manipulating you?"

Tang Feihan's fingertips tensed.

Ye Baiting: "When something happened to Tang Jing, I didn't let you intervene. The reason is that although you have been resentful for many years, you are still pure in your heart, and you have never hurt anyone. If you make a rash proposal, you will definitely not agree, so you will solve it directly for you, and guide you to taste this. This kind of feeling, and then use small, harmless 'pranks' as a guide, and use words to magnify the dark side of your heart, making you feel that this should happen naturally, you are not wrong, and finally guide you Hurt people, even kill people - step by step, pushing you to the point of nowhere, and in the end, you even convince yourself that you have no choice but to force others to do it, it is their fault, you can only do this, In order to protect yourself, you even extend your extravagant knife to your friends, because if your friends don’t die, you will die.”

Tang Feihan clenched his fingers tightly, his throat trembling slightly.

"I don't quite agree with the saying 'there are no parents who are not right'. Parents are also human beings. As human beings, they will have shortcomings and make mistakes. Everyone in the world is different. The burden from the original family, you have your own suffering. , others have other people's difficulties, you may not understand others, and others may think that you are not blessed when you are in the blessing, but it is these different experiences that make us all kinds of people. Unfortunately, everyone is unique.”

Ye Baiting thought for a while, and said: "I don't think I should say what I said today, but I still want to persuade you, don't be too paranoid and push all your difficulties in life on to others. If you are only in your teens and you are angry Pain, confusion, and [-] complaints, I understand very well, and I will try to help you, but you have reached the crown and are a mature adult, shouldn't you be responsible for your own life?"

"Parents are also ordinary people. Maybe they encountered different difficulties when they were children and became bad adults, which led to your bad childhood and your past situation. You don't need to forgive or reconcile, but you need 'Dissolution', you need to find a way to continue living with peace of mind. It is okay to repay those sufferings, and it is okay to retaliate, as long as you have a clear conscience. Others criticize and criticize. Without your suffering, you don't have to take these words seriously. Why did you choose to trap yourself?"

"If you are always longing for other people's approval and waiting for others to praise you, your child will never grow up. If you don't recognize yourself, expect yourself, and cherish yourself, how can others see the light in you? The abundance of life has never grown up. It starts with self-construction, Tang Feihan, you could have been stronger, you should have been stronger, you said that Mu An is like a pruned sapling, not free, but his heart is very broad, his spirit is very rich, and his world is very Daddy, you seem to be very free, but you locked yourself in the small house that suffocated you back then."

Ye Baiting has handled too many cases and seen similar things too many times. Family of origin is always an unavoidable issue. It has too much influence and often determines a person's life.

But every time he sees similar things, he still feels very regretful. Where we are born and what kind of environment around us are beyond our control, is there any other place where we can try to work hard?

Complaining and anger can't solve the problem, and the help of others is limited. When we build our own growth concept, can we add something to ourselves to make ourselves more tenacious and brave to go on?

Growth is a process of constantly doubting, constantly thinking, constantly breaking yourself, and then reshaping. Gritting your teeth and carrying it over, you will know how good and dazzling you are, and the road ahead will be accompanied by blazing sun and flowers in full bloom.

If you can't get over it, it's a setback that you can't overcome in your life, it's a setback, it's a bump, it's a never-ending complaint.

We can't choose our childhood life, but I hope that you can hold your future life in your own hands, overcome obstacles and shine brightly.

Each of us should love ourselves well.