The reborn strategist is not easy to be

He was born in the prosperous Huai'an Liu family.Fortunately, reborn in the direct line.Unfortunately, he was just a bastard born to a concubine.Still an unpopular concubine.

Mother is not in good health.She was originally a servant girl, but because the wife wanted to win over her father's heart, she pulled her mother up and brought her into the concubine's room.

When I was young, my mother often talked about what happened in her hometown when she was a child.The face is both melancholy and longing.He never heard his mother take the initiative to talk about his father.The occasional mention is just to let him listen to his father and not disobey his father.

In fact, until he was eight years old, he only met his father by chance during the Chinese New Year or in the yard, and saw his father a few times from afar.

Therefore, for a long time, he didn't know why his father didn't care about him, let alone whether his mother had any love for him.

But he still knew that he was different from the other young masters in the house.The eldest son and the third son are from the wife.During the family dinner, you can sit at the same table with your father and grandmother.

The grandmother would hug them, smile kindly, and call repeatedly, "My good grandson." The father, though stern, was obviously happy, and said, "You two boys, don't bother your grandmother."

As for him, he can only watch from the corner forever.Looking at my father, wife, grandmother and brother, the couple enjoyed themselves happily.People like him and his mother are actually no different from outsiders.

It is a little better than the servants standing next to them, that is, they can sit and eat instead of standing and watching people eat.

In fact, even the servants in Liu's family are more dignified and reserved than the servants outside.From the words of the servants, he also vaguely knew that the Liu family in Huai'an was a remarkable family.

It's just that this "magnificence" has never been reflected in him and his mother.The eldest son and the third son are loved by thousands of people, and their responsibility is beyond words.The second young master and fourth young lady from the most favored Aunt Sun, all of them are exquisite in brocade clothes.

He was the only one who had no choice but to rely on others.

In the days when he was often beaten, scolded and bullied by his so-called elder brother, besides studying hard, he didn't know what else he could do to distract himself.

When I was young, I was beaten and scolded, and I would cry to my mother.When I grew up, I found that crying to my mother was of no use other than making her sad, so I never mentioned it again.

Only when being hit, beg the other party not to hurt your face.In order not to be found by his mother that he was injured again.

grow up to seven years old.The master praised one of his poems for being excellent.For the first time, his father sent someone to call him to the study.He was full of joy, thinking that from then on, he would also have a father who loved him.

Unexpectedly, his father asked him to tell his master that the poem was written by the eldest son, and he was just a despicable plagiarist.

He doesn't want to listen.He refused.So for the first time, he was whipped by his father.

When the father was enforcing the family law indifferently, the mother came with messy hair, fell heavily to her knees, and prostrated herself on the ground, begging over and over again in a low voice.

In a blur of consciousness, he could only grit his teeth and say "follow father's order".

With such a incident, the Eldest Young Master disliked him even more.Although the mother belonged to the madam, because the mother never won the love and attention of the father, the madam also gave up on her.

Since his mother has become an abandoned child, as a little bastard, it is wrong for him to let the eldest son beat and scold him, even to fight back.In fact, even if he could fight back, he might not be able to move a single hair of the eldest son.

Different from his thin body when he was young, the eldest son has a strong body, tall and powerful.In the hands of the eldest son, he naturally had to grit his teeth and bear the pain.

One day, he was beaten by the eldest son and several other sons as usual.He tried not to let himself cry out in pain, but found that the beating ended very quickly.

When he still couldn't believe it, he saw a little boy not much older than himself.

His eyes are clear and handsome, and his face is righteous.It seems that what he did just now was not to beat off a few sons, but to eradicate violence and maintain peace in the world.

He has remembered him ever since.Unforgettable until death.

When he was eight years old, the eldest son was already 14 years old.Stubborn and arrogant by nature, even if he tried to make a good reputation for him, it would be in vain.

He also wrote a poem "Song of Snow", which is not as good as it used to be. He used it to put gold on the face of the eldest son. The scholar Fu, who is known as the first Confucian of Dajing, has already obtained that poem from his master. , and presented him to the imperial court.

He was both happy and apprehensive to be praised by Master Fu and His Majesty.He doesn't want to be in a place where he hasn't made any mistakes

case, subject to family law.I don't want to see my mother crying again.

Fortunately, fortunately, Master Fu wanted to accept him as a student and teach him in person.His father was worried about him, and finally he didn't dare to blatantly embarrass him anymore.It's also thanks to the eldest son that mud cannot support the wall, no matter how much he abandons his aura and gives it to the eldest son, there will be no real effect.

On the contrary, some people became more and more suspicious, thinking that the eldest son was not only stubborn, but also a hypocrite.

He was born weak.He had never been raised well since he was a child, and he was always bullied and tired. Therefore, even after Fu Dashi accepted him as a disciple, his situation was better than before, but he was still often sick and lingering.

My mother also passed away this year.He was completely an orphan.To him, his father and brothers are by no means his relatives.He couldn't be more clear that in their hearts, he was just a person who didn't deserve dignity and Huai'an Liu's status.

When he begged to die several times because of his mother's death, it was Lou Huanzhi who rescued him and accompanied him, cheering him up.From then on, he regarded him as a life-saving straw and the only warmth.

Until, he realized that his feelings for Lou Huanzhi were unusual.

Even if they sit facing each other and talk about everything, he still longs for a little more intimacy, a little more intimacy.Occasionally, when I was fascinated by watching him, I couldn't help but reach up, wanting to touch him.

At this time he was only three years old.Lou Huanzhi often appears in dreams.Also often, there are some unknown scenes, and the bedding needs to be washed after waking up.

He felt his own embarrassment.He dared not reveal anything to let Lou Huanzhi know.Every day, every day, try your best to suppress it.Because I care too much, I dare not take a little risk.Even if it is extremely uncomfortable, we must endure it to the end.

He originally thought that no matter what in this life, he would never stay away from Lou Huanzhi.But he had thoughts that he shouldn't have, so he had to avoid them again and again, lest Lou Huanzhi would notice.

It is also thanks to the asylum of Master Fu and Lou Huanzhi.In those few years, he had a smooth life.He also received more and more attention from His Majesty, which made it easy for him to ask himself to go north to resist the Mongolians.

In this way, he resolutely left Kyoto, where he had lived for more than ten years.When he first arrived at the border, he fell ill.Firstly, the journey was bumpy and tortuous, and secondly, he was overly worried.Because of this, the whole army despised him.He said that he was overconfident and arrogant.

So there was another period of downturn.Perhaps no matter how famous he is, he cannot be truly powerful.After all, she couldn't help but write to Lou Huanzhi, and took Lou Huanzhi's reply as motivation to continue living.

For nearly five years after that, he mostly stayed at the border.It is rare to return to Beijing.It wasn't until he went south with Lou Huanzhi that he realized that there was someone else beside Lou Huanzhi.

He originally thought that Lou Huanzhi would not like men.In the future, I will definitely marry a gentle and virtuous woman, who will raise her eyebrows in every case, and the couple will love each other deeply.

But he was wrong.Lou Huanzhi never fell in love with him, not because he didn't like men, but because he simply didn't like him.

He originally thought that the most desperate moment in life was when his mother passed away.

But he was wrong.When her mother passed away, at least Lou Huanzhi was by her side.He stayed so long that even Lou Huanzhi wasn't his, he really had nothing and was alone.

He complained, he hated.He was jealous that he could get Lou Huanzhi's Yungui.He didn't understand how Yun Gui was better than him, and why he could get Lou Huanzhi that he couldn't ask for.

He struggled and worked hard.The last thing to wait is that the oil is exhausted, the lamp is dry, and the life span is almost exhausted.

The two of Lou Huanzhi persuaded him to give up and let him feel relieved.How can he let go easily, so that they can be happy and at ease without worrying about themselves?

He began to wonder if his own existence was wrong from the very beginning.He shouldn't have come into this world at all.Obviously he was the one who suffered so much, but in the end he became a roadblock to other people's love.

No.Maybe he is not so important, and he is not a roadblock.At best, he is just a cup of dust.If you step on him on the road, your shoes will be dirty, but if you sweep them away with a broom, he will cease to exist.

Before dying, what was unexpected was that Jingneng and Yungui coexisted peacefully.Even if I looked at him, my heart was full of bitterness, but it was not the same as before, and I didn't want to take another look.

I'm afraid that every time he looks at it, he can't help but make some crazy moves.If he did, probably Lou Huanzhi would never protect him again, and would only hate him.

The two of Lou Huanzhi took him to the seaside.

He closed his eyes and lay on the reef.An unprecedented peace of mind.It seems that everything is irrelevant, and it seems that he can ride the wind and go.

There is a lot of disturbance in the world, and it will have nothing to do with him from now on.He has tasted all the hardships of life.The sweetness of life is beyond his reach.It would be nice if everything vanished into nothingness.

No more suffering, no more staggering forward.

An abrupt end to life is eternal peace.He suddenly felt happy.