Reborn Rongruo

When I was 14 years old, I met him in the examination room of the Beijing City and Countryside Examination.At first I was attracted to him completely because of his appearance.I grew up in the palace since I was a child, and I have seen hundreds if not thousands of beauties, but there has never been anyone like him who just stood quietly and was so beautiful.

He stood at the entrance of the examination room and waited for the examiner to search him.I stood in the line not far behind him, and watched him being interrogated by the examiner in a daze. It wasn't until the examiner unscrupulously stretched out his hands on him that I realized that there was a gust of wind in my heart for no reason. generally jealous.Yes, I'm jealous that the examiner can touch him so close.

I secretly remembered the dormitory he entered, and planned to block people after the exam.The desire to get close to him, get to know him, and get to know him lingered in my mind, so that I didn't even have the heart to answer the paper. After finishing the paper hastily, I handed in the paper early and went to the examination room.

The hard work paid off, and I finally waited for him at the entrance of the examination room.The three days of living in a dormitory made him look tired.He gently rubbed between his brows with two fingers, and I took the opportunity to walk over quickly.

I don't know what's wrong with me, when I could have greeted more politely, I chose the worst one.Relying on being the emperor's companion to read since I was a child, I put on an air of superiority as always, and firmly insisted that he was a woman disguised as a man and sneaked into the examination room!

He was startled at first, but when I took off his hat, he threw his fist at me unceremoniously.

His fists are not very powerful, but he is not as weak and bullying as he looks.In order to have more opportunities to touch him, I naturally moved hands with him without giving in.

In the end, I was beaten black and blue by him, and his clothes were torn to pieces by me.

There were a lot of onlookers fighting this time, but no one dared to intervene to persuade the government. It was at that time that I found out that he was Nalan Chengde, the eldest son of Mingzhu's family.A handsome man who is not as tall as me but three years older than me.

My father and mother are not in Beijing, and the emperor finally resolved this matter for me.Those hidden thoughts in my heart can't be explained to outsiders, so when the emperor asked me why I fought, I just said that I couldn't understand that person's sissy style.Then, the emperor thought for a moment and said that he would take me to Mingzhu's mansion to make amends.

I couldn't understand why the emperor, who is always busy with everything, would be interested in such a trivial matter, but seeing that he took me to visit Mingzhu Mansion in a micro-clothes with great interest, I had no choice but to silently obey his arrangement.

After arriving at Nalan's mansion, Mingzhu greeted him in panic, followed by the silent Nalan Chengde.Originally, I guessed that since the emperor came forward for me, that person would give me some kind of face, but I didn't expect that when the emperor ordered me to make an apology to him, he would just glance at me indifferently, and would not even say a word of forgiveness.

Mingzhu was a little anxious and smoothed things over for him.The emperor stared at him intently with interest.He seemed to disapprove of the emperor's behavior. I even saw him slightly frown, as if he was very dissatisfied with the emperor's unscrupulous gaze.

After all, the emperor didn't hold on to this matter, he only said that he learned a lot after hearing about him, and wanted to test his knowledge, so he asked him to write a poem in seven steps on the theme of Mid-Autumn Festival.I thought it was because the emperor was dissatisfied with his attitude just now, and wanted to rub his spirits by testing his knowledge.Unexpectedly, without blinking his eyes, he composed a song "Pipa Fairy" without blinking: Bihai year after year, for whom will the ice wheel be filled?A piece of autumn fragrance was blown, and it was as clear as snow.In sorrow, I look forward to a good day and a good night, knowing that it will become a sad pharynx.Only the shadow is now, and it is worthy of being right, the bright moon of the old days.

Playing hide-and-seek in the flower path once provoked Xiao Xiaojing and Wuye.Remember the light Wan small fan, and several times of cool and hot.Stopping is filled with all kinds of feelings, and there is always nothing to say about parting.Once Ziyu was ruthless, Ye Han blew it apart.

After he finished reading, the emperor's expression was gloomy, his eyes were lowered, and I fell into deep thought.For a while, the hall was extremely quiet, and a needle could be heard falling.

Not long after, it was Mingzhu who broke the silence.He reprimanded Nalan Chengde, saying that he was ignorant and that the emperor wanted to listen to poems, but he made such hurtful words, so he asked him to make another one.

The emperor said it was all right, and said that the poem he wrote had a profound artistic conception, it was so beautiful, it was really a masterpiece.At the moment, he was asked to silently give the gift.

So, we went to his study.The emperor didn't embarrass him anymore, but really discussed knowledge with him.He also said that I would come to him for advice in the future so as to improve my talent and learning.

I responded with my mouth, and my heart was noncommittal.It's just that the emperor is just saying casually, how can he have time to take care of such small things when he has so many things to do.

But what happened unexpectedly, after that, the emperor would send me to Mingzhu's mansion every few days, sometimes to give him a few volumes of ancient books, sometimes those calligraphy and painting antiques, and sometimes to ask me to ask him for a few poems do.

At first he didn't want to talk to me at all, but after a long time, he would inevitably be able to say a few words.Later, once I went back to the palace on an errand for the emperor at night, I passed by a restaurant in Nancheng, and at the entrance of the restaurant, I happened to see him fighting with a group of Eight Banners children.He was outnumbered and saw danger, so I helped him out of the siege.

He drank alcohol that day, I wanted to send him back home, but I didn't expect him to be so drunk that he hugged me and cried loudly.I have no choice but to temporarily settle him in the inn.That night he dragged me and talked drunkenly.The most talked about is actually dissatisfaction with his appearance.

Only then did I understand a little bit how he was feeling.That's right, no one wants a man to be molested all day with a face prettier than a woman's.At this moment, I was really guilty, and comforted and coaxed him to finally fall asleep.

A few days later, he came to my house to thank me and invited me to some party of their poetry friends.Looking at his faint smile, I thought I didn't have the determination to refuse, so I readily accepted.

After I went there, I found out that his so-called poet friends include many great Confucianists today, such as Chen Weisong, the representative of the Yangxian School, and Zhu Yizun, the head of the Zhexi School.And he gets along with them comfortably, talks freely, and the look of high spirits on his brows is so bright that it is heart-warming.

I can't help but think, it's a pity that such a stunning and gorgeous person is buried by his beauty alone!But who can resist yearning for such a magnificent person? !

The entanglement between me and him seems to have started slowly from this poetry club.After that, although he didn't say it clearly, I just knew that he used me as a bosom friend.He treats me sincerely, and I will naturally not disappoint him.The contact between us became more and more frequent, sometimes I went to him, sometimes he came to me.When I was out on business, he would even wait at my house for the whole day.It seems that it is unbearable to miss each other after a day.

Sometimes I would tease him with such words, but he would always turn around and say, "Why don't Lixuan just follow me."After we finish speaking, we always look at each other and smile, with a tacit understanding.

The number of times I talked with great Confucian scholars about the past and the present has increased, and my own knowledge has also improved by leaps and bounds without knowing it.Once the emperor asked me why I had such an extraordinary conversation recently, and I announced the invitation of Chengde without thinking too much.But I never thought that after the emperor heard it, there was a full half stick of incense and he didn't speak.At the end, he patted me on the shoulder, and said in a casual way, 'It's good to be diligent'.

I couldn't guess the holy will, so I hurriedly responded.

During the scientific examination this year, because I had a fight with Chengde, my Ama sent a letter asking me to withdraw from the palace examination, lest someone in the court would grab my braid and make trouble.I think so, although the fight was nothing, it finally alarmed the government, presumably there will be no good ranking in the palace examination, so I followed Ama's wishes and did not participate in the palace examination.But I really didn't expect that Chengde would accompany me to abandon the palace examination. He pretended to be sick at home, which made Mingzhu very angry.

This palace examination is destined to be unsettled. For some reason, the emperor lost his temper after reading the many examination papers presented by the chief examiner.

A royal servant like me has no right to inquire about this kind of thing, and the emperor left the palace in disguise the day after he lost his temper, but he didn't ask me to accompany him.I became more and more afraid to act rashly.I happened to be free, so I wanted to find Chengde, but I only heard when I arrived at Mingzhu's mansion that he was accompanying a distinguished guest, so it was inconvenient to see me.

I was a little frustrated, thinking about who he was with, even I was left aside by him.Later, I found out that the person he accompanied that day turned out to be the emperor.

When he told me this, he had obvious guilt on his face, and he promised me to accompany me to Yuquan Mountain for an outing in the spring of next year.I couldn't tell what it was like in my heart. It seemed that some answer was about to surface, but I pressed it back hard.

With this kind of conjecture in my heart, I began to pay attention.Later, the emperor went out of the palace several times without taking me, so I asked people to inquire about the situation in Mingzhu's mansion, and all the reports said that there were distinguished guests visiting the mansion.

Things have come to this point, my heart sank little by little, but I also really feel sad for Chengde.Chengde's appearance is rare in the world, even as a confidant, I sometimes can't help but be confused by him, not to mention the emperor who is surrounded by talented people.

Does he really appreciate Chengde's talent and learning? !I sneered.That night I was very drunk, and after waking up, I gradually restrained myself from looking for Chengde.

When I retreated, I didn't know that Chengde was in trouble.He was taken into the palace by the emperor, as if he was asked to accompany the newly born elder brother Chengqing.Chengqing was born to Empress Hesheli, who died due to dystocia. At this time, Chengqing really needs someone to take care of her.However, the emperor changed Chengde's name to Baocheng on the second day after he recruited Chengde into the palace. The intention was so obvious that others might not know it, so how could I not understand it? !

I was already disheartened when I heard the news, but I didn't expect that a few days later, it would be reported that Chengde changed his name to Xingde and was sent out of the palace by the emperor.

I hurried to Mingzhu's mansion, and the moment I saw Chengde, I hugged him and couldn't stop crying.He was also a little excited, but he pretended to be calm and comforted me.At this moment, I didn't know what to say, I just looked at the person in front of me, thinking that I must do my best to protect him in this life.

So, I worked hard, thinking of gaining fame as soon as possible so that I could win a place in the imperial court.At least the emperor won't embarrass me too much if he wants to use me.But the facts don't seem to match what I thought.

In the year of Bingchen, the imperial court opened Enke again. Before the palace examination, the emperor went to Mingzhu Mansion in disguise.He was looking for Xingde, so naturally he wouldn't take me with him, so I didn't know their situation at that time very well. I only guessed a few words from Xingde later that Xingde didn't want to participate in this imperial examination, but the emperor used the country Dayi convinced him.And on the second day, he changed the prince's name to Yinfeng and restored Xingde's real name.

So in this palace examination, Chengde High School No. 7 in the second class, set the list in the world.According to the past practice, a talented person like Chengde is going to be an official in the Imperial Academy, but the emperor hand-picked him as an imperial guard. This kind of intention to get the moon first makes me both resentful and shuddering.

Cheng De seemed to have expected it, and accepted the appointment calmly.And as the imperial guard, although I am happy to be able to get along with Chengde day and night, I also feel that there will always be more scruples and inconveniences under the eyes of the emperor.

And it is true.Most of the time, the emperor will tell the two of us to run errands for him together, and it is often me who contributes a lot and who gets rewarded in the end, but Chengde.As time went by, Chengde felt more and more guilty towards me, and although I knew the emperor's intentions, I still couldn't speak.Every time the emperor rewards Chengde, he can't help but want to explain to me in private, and the irritability in my heart also increases with time, which makes him feel more uncomfortable in Chengde's eyes. As a result, it really became a little alienated.

I never knew how Chengde viewed our relationship in his heart, until I went back to Jiangning to marry a wife, and the emperor took Chengde to the south for a tour.That night, when Chengde secretly ran to the study to find me, and put a small white porcelain bottle in front of me, all my disguises for so many years fell apart at that moment.I could hardly bear to hold him in my arms until my fingernails pricked my palms to bleed, and then I restrained the devil in my heart with the barely remaining reason.

I kept telling myself, I can't do that, I can't do anything!Once I can't control it now, I will destroy Chengde, because the emperor will never let Chengde go!

So, we just read by candlelight until dawn.Unfortunately, even so, the emperor was still not satisfied.

When I returned to Beijing in the twelfth lunar month, I already had a beautiful wife by my side, but Chengde brought back the No.1 female branch in Jiangnan.

How ironic!

I know that I'm afraid I won't be able to get closer to Cheng De in this life, and any contact with me will only bring him more pain.

Ama presided over the wedding for me, and died of illness not long after.I am returning to the capital with the emperor this time to take over the position of Ama, who was conferred on Jiangning Weaving.I am very clear that this time may be my last visit to Beijing, and I will not be able to set foot in the capital again without the emperor's order.

The decree of the appointment came down quickly, as if the emperor no longer deliberately concealed his eagerness, what else can I do but smile wryly? !

The day before leaving Beijing, it started to rain heavily.I thought I would never have the chance to see Chengde again, but unexpectedly I still received his invitation.He said goodbye to me with a banquet at the Lushui Pavilion.

For so many years, I know the emperor's pressure on Cheng De openly and secretly, but I can only know it well.I have neither the position nor the guts to tell Emperor Cheng Kai's true intentions.For this last farewell banquet, the emperor will not embarrass him anymore.

I went to the appointment in the rain, looking at the dishes carefully prepared by Chengde, I felt bitter and couldn't eat.This made him think that it was difficult for me to force me, and he said, "Li Xuan, I have never thought that one day I will be your burden. Since the food is not to your taste, this glass of wine is mine." Make amends! '

Watching him drink it down with tears in his eyes, I couldn't stay any longer.What an asshole I am to let this person spend half my life on my back!I can't hurt him anymore!If you want to break it, break it completely!

I got up suddenly and ran frantically into the squall.Never see him again!No longer……

I didn't look back, so I don't know how long he chased me and how many times he fell!What a broken heart!

When I returned to Jiangning, I was busy with official duties, and rarely inquired about the affairs of the capital.I thought that with the emperor around, I would never let that person feel wronged, slowly forget about me, and he would always be relieved.

However, I never thought that one day I would hear the news about his death!My shock and disbelief at that moment is indescribable!I just felt that my heart finally cracked into pieces at that moment!

I inquired in many ways like crazy, and finally confirmed that the rumors were true, Cheng De really left!At that moment, tears flowed down silently and wet my entire cheek.

In the years that followed, whenever I thought of the person who stood alone and was already dazzling, tears would roll down silently.

Until the end of my life, there is still the song "Hua Tang Chun" written by him beside my pillow——

One generation, one pair,

Fighting to teach two places to ecstasy.

Lovesickness and not blind date,

Who is spring for?

Begging to the Blue Bridge,

It's hard to run when the medicine becomes a blue sea.

If you can visit and drink Oxford,

Relatively forgetful.