White Mirror Evening

After getting over Xue Jue's incident, I didn't even dare to go to the restaurant as promised.

He didn't want to see Bai Jingyan's resentful expression at all.

The snow had already stopped, and the road was just muddy, not as white as I imagined.I looked back at Xue Jue's mansion, and sighed that I finally did the right thing according to my heart.

Regarding my repentance in the middle of the journey, Xue Jue, a smart man, naturally has a mouth that can speak well, so he used that mouth to slander me in private, nothing more than saying that it is not a gentleman's act to go back and forth, and teasing others at will will definitely cause harm retribution.

Crape words, over and over again, but these meanings

I just think his anxious look is like a clown, which is ridiculous.

So a smile appeared on my lips at the right time, and I looked at him: "I just deliberately teased you. Nose attack is not a good thing after all, I restrained my smile, "Even if I make you disappear now, do you have the strength to resist?"

Whoever he thought he was, if he could enter the Undead City, he would really think he was the master.

The rules are set by me, so I can change them. I wanted to help him at first, but now I have the right to go back on my word.After all, I am the lord of the Undead City, not him.

"He's just a coward with empty ambitions, but he can still find his way out of the sky?"

Can't do anything, only dare to pin his wish on a mysterious rumor, afraid of risks and failures, what can he accomplish.

After doing this, I feel inexplicably comfortable in my heart, which is also strange.

However, an insignificant person like Xue Jue was quickly forgotten by me. What I have to worry about now is the young man who has regained his memory——Bai Jingyan.

Unconsciously, his pace slowed down a bit, and when he saw the signboard of the restaurant, he even took a step back a little.

Xian Qing and Chu Jiang disappeared early, leaving Bai Jingyan sitting quietly in a corner.

When he saw me, he raised the corners of his lips and called softly: "Jingwan, come and have a drink with me."

I didn't find a trace of resentment from the corners of his eyes and brows, but not being able to find it doesn't mean it didn't exist. Anyone who is treated like that will also have resentment.

He helped me pour a jug of wine: "I've been waiting for you here for a long time, is Xue Jue's affairs going well?"

"Now that you've remembered everything, don't play tricks on me anymore. I know the reason why you turned into Xue Dai's face, and why you treat me well these days." I tried my best to make a cold gesture, "Isn't it just for this day Well, you want to take revenge on me, now I'm at your disposal, if you can relieve your grievances, forget about my sin."

After struggling for so long, when I really faced him, the words I spoke were still sharp and piercing.

I can never learn to be honest, I can't learn to be gentle and meek.

He lowered his head at a loss, but heard his gentle and normal voice: "Jingwan, maybe you misunderstood, I never thought of revenge on you, the reason I asked Xue Jue was just to tell you something, Xue Jue It is the reincarnation of Xue Dai. You used to like him the most, so I think it is necessary for me to tell you his identity."

"How did you know?" It was in such a tone as soon as he opened his mouth.

"I wandered the world for thousands of years until I saw him reincarnated, so I entrusted Xianqing to return the king's fan, and then I was reincarnated." He smiled bitterly, "I am very clear about Xue Dai's matter."

Why should he pay attention to Xue Dai.

Unexpectedly, after hearing the news, I was not at all excited as I imagined.

Xue Jue is the reincarnation of Xue Dai, so what can this matter explain.Because Xue Dai had entanglements with me thousands of years ago, he came to Undead City and begged me to fulfill his wish. I didn't want to help him, and then, what can I explain.

No matter how many entanglements there were in the previous life, that person is just a passerby to me.

As if he could guess what I was thinking, Bai Jingyan took a sip of his wine and said, "The reason why I pay attention to him is that I don't want him to approach you again, because it's not worth it for Xue to represent him."

During the fire thousands of years ago, he also said this sentence.

That person Xue Dai is really not worth it.

I always feel that Bai Jingyan's performance is too different from what I imagined, such eyes, such words, how can he pretend, besides, Bai Jingyan has no need to pretend at all.

Is that true? The kindness and warmth in the eyes, the care and consideration in the actions are all true?

How could there be such a person in the world.

I stared at him blankly until my nose gradually became sore and my eyes were clouded with mist.

Rebuke, revenge, why all I see is the kindness and warmth in his eyes.

This must be his revenge, he just wants me to regret from his tender treatment, guilt, this is just another slightly milder way of revenge.

How could he be without resentment.

Even thinking about it like this, the mist accumulated in the eye sockets gradually turned into substance, with a cold temperature, slid across the cheeks, and dripped into the unfinished wine glass.

He gently wiped away the remaining traces on his cheeks with his fingertips, his vision became clear, and I saw his frowning.

As if comforting a lonely and helpless child, he said, "Jingwan, don't cry."

Clumsy tongue.

I closed my eyes: "That's not tears, you read it wrong."

Hearing this, Bai Jingyan was not angry, but laughed softly, and when the laughter stopped, he said: "If it is impossible to say that there is no resentment, the pain of the sword piercing the chest is always accompanied by these years of dreams. Looking at me, but I will always think of you sitting on the swing. I will never forget the lonely expression of a little child who wants to cry but stubbornly bears it."

"Actually, to be honest, it's more of reluctance." He raised his eyes, "It's clear that I met you first, and my feelings for you are not as shallow as those of Xue Dai. Why can't you always see it? All good intentions and concerns were ignored."

Why can't I see it, probably because I still refuse to believe in the kindness of others.

My childhood experience made it difficult for me to trust anyone. Bai Jingyan only played the role of an indifferent and strict elder brother in my world. With the established impression and my later experience, I still couldn't really trust him.

"Even so, Jing Wan, I still can't let go of you. You didn't do anything wrong. You should have lived more comfortably, instead of staying in the undead city like this. These can't let go and unwillingness make me reincarnate Xue Dai's appearance. I think, if you become like him, you will not be repelled, and you will let go of your guard and live with me, maybe I have the ability to make you happy."

"If you are happy, I will be happy with you."

There were too many unexpected things, I didn't know what to say, I was afraid that when I opened my mouth, I would speak blunt and cold words, so I just watched him silently.

I thought I was facing an elaborate revenge, but he told me this.

I thought no one in the world really cared about me, but he told me this.

It turns out that all these years, after all, I just missed it stupidly.

Looking back now, I can still retain his thoughtfulness and kindness.

"You, would you like to be my companion?" I thought over and over in my heart, after deliberation, finally I just choked out this sentence.

I opened my mouth and met his eyes: "It's fine if you don't want to, I won't force others." During the long silence, I was in a trance for a while, and the cold words blurted out again, "Forcible feelings, I Not unusual either."

"I would like to be by your side forever."

As soon as I finished speaking, I heard his answer.

Those are gentle and firm words, he promised me, and he will not go back on his word.

Rarely took the initiative to hold his hand, cold and warm tightly pressed together.Perhaps the previous millennium was just wasted, unable to penetrate the heart, unable to understand the truth, muddling around, living for others, living for hatred, and giving heartily for those who are not worth it.However, at this moment, I have finally found someone who is truly worthy of my open heart to accept, even though I have missed him for thousands of years.

After the cold winter comes warm spring and summer. Old things have no value of nostalgia. Why not let go of the gloomy past and concentrate on living the future.

I looked at Bai Jingyan, eyes bent into crescents: "Then, I hope we can accompany each other and never leave each other."

The author has something to say: the main text is finished, and there will be two episodes tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, and those that are not clearly explained in the main text will be explained clearly in the episode.

It's a new year, so happy

happy new year~

☆, extra one

Bai Jingyan's teenage years were not very happy, he originally enjoyed the doting of his parents and the respect of the palace people, he was a child who was held in the palm of his hand and pampered carefully.However, since the death of his mother and concubine, the love that should have been given to him has been assigned to another child.

It was a simple and arrogant boy named Bai Jingwan.Every time that child sees him, he will use a soft and creepy voice to call third brother, and his eyes have the innocence and sincerity unique to children.

That would have been wonderful.

However, Bai Jingyan is still a child after all, and a child's jealousy makes him deliberately alienate that innocent sixth brother, until Bai Jingwan no longer follows him, and looks for another suitable childhood playmate in a fit of anger.

The young man called Xue Dai is a proton sent by another country. He is a few years older than them, and he will always have a gentle appearance.Bai Jingwan always likes to sit with that boy in the small pavilion in the middle of the lake, talking and playing.Bai Jingyan passed by occasionally, and if he casually glanced over there, he would see Bai Jingwan's expression of disdain.

Childish, childish, and unspeakably cute.

As he got older, Bai Jingyan gradually let go of his rejection of Bai Jingwan, after all, that child did nothing wrong.If you think about it carefully, it can only be his father who did the wrong thing, but it is a man's right to love the new and dislike the old. There are three thousand women in the king's palace, and there are many heirs.

Bai Jingyan changed nothing.

After knowing this, Bai Jingyan no longer expects his father to give him some love. In his free time, he always likes to look at Bai Jingwan in the dark, to see the child's undisguised sorrow, joy, anger, and those pair of eyes. Clear and agile jet-black eyes.

Bai Jingyan gradually fell in love with that child's smile and his clear-cut temperament, but every time he tried to get closer, he always pushed him away coldly.

When he was young, Bai Jingwan was far more self-willed, childish, and childish in holding grudges than later.

Bai Jingyan didn't care too much, after all, he had a bad attitude in the past, and it's understandable to be held grudges.What's more, Bai Jingwan is just a naive child, cold on the outside, but naive in his heart, as long as he continues to try to get close to him, he will be accepted one day.

However, Bai Jingyan did not wait for the day when Bai Jingwan opened his heart to him.

All good intentions and goodness were cut off in a chilling winter day before they sprouted.There was a banquet in the palace that day, Bai Jingwan caught cold from playing too much at night, so he rested in the palace.Bai Jingyan regretted not seeing that figure, and he couldn't help turning his eyes to the beautiful woman beside the king—Bai Jingwan's mother and concubine.

Similar facial contours, similar expressions and behaviors, except that the brows are tired and pale, like a patient who has been suffering from a long illness.

The beautiful and almost demon woman picked up the wine cup, revealing a slender wrist in her movements, but before she could drink the wine, silver scales appeared for no reason on her snow-like skin, fine and icy. shine.

Forearm, back of hand, cheek.

Bai Jingyan watched the woman who was lively and beautiful one moment, suddenly turned into a hideous monster the next moment.

The voices were sharp, the dishes were broken, and the cups were accidentally knocked over by the panicked people. The clear wine spilled on the ground, leaving a strange trace.

The snake-tailed monster opened its mouth, revealing its sharp fangs.

All she could make was a hoarse whine.

The aloof king showed a terrified expression, he stepped back a few steps, looked at the struggling woman on the ground, but opened his mouth wide open.

"Drag this monster out, drag it out!"

Years of whispering softly at midnight, pampering and loving, turned into fear, loathing and indifference in the end.

Bai Jingyan definitely looked at his father.

He already knew that this man had a cold temperament, and when he liked it, he wanted to praise him to the sky. Once he didn't like him, wouldn't he just abandon him ruthlessly?

The turmoil in the palace was calmed down, Bai Jingyan always recalled the woman begging to her father when she was struggling in pain, but no one pity her, the scenery when she was favored was just used to reflect the pity when she was frustrated.She was imprisoned in the palace by sorcerers and Taoists, and her son was also dragged from the worry-free high position and thrown into the cold, dark and dilapidated palace.

What happened after Bai Jingwan, how are you doing?

These things weighed on his heart, making him toss and turn, making it difficult to sleep.

That day was Bai Jingwan's birthday, at the age of 12.

After struggling in the middle of the night, Bai Jingyan finally stood up and carried a Qiansha lantern.

Taking advantage of the azure reflection and the cold moonlight, he saw a small swing stand in a small courtyard, and a lonely boy was sitting on the small swing stand. stand up.One half arc, another half arc, the sound of creaking in the night fell on my ears, the young man half hung his head, stubborn, wanted to cry but refused to cry.

No one cares, no one visits.

Bai Jingyan wanted to pull him into his arms and pat him on the back lightly.

However, the reality is always unwilling to go as one wishes. Before he stepped forward, the young man had already raised his head, and a cold arc was drawn on the corner of his lips. It was a colder smile than the moonlight. He called: " Third brother."

Full of vigilance.

The youth under the moonlight has long lost the innocence and pride of the past, and all that remains is resentment, unwillingness and indifference.

Like fine snow, gathered in one place, condensed into ice for thousands of years, never warm again.

Bai Jingyan always sees a boy like that, sitting on a swing, swinging leisurely in his dreams.

In the following days, they lived independently of each other. Bai Jingyan would occasionally stand silently outside that courtyard, watching Bai Jingwan talking and laughing with the young man named Xue Dai in the courtyard.

He just watched quietly and didn't intervene.

During the occasional observation that day, I saw Bai Jingwan lying alone in the snow, with fine silver scales on his face and hands, his eyes closed tightly, as if he was asleep.

As for Xue Dai, why didn't he stay by his side.All the questions were swallowed temporarily, Bai Jingyan carried him back to the room, looked after him carefully, and when he was about to wake up, he quietly left as if he had come.

Time flies by, and in the blink of an eye, Bai Jingwan has grown to 17 years old, with cool and beautiful eyebrows, pale and cold cheeks, white clothes and black hair against the background, very much like his temperament with the same clear love and hate.

Perhaps Bai Jingyan was ill. Over the years, he came to the courtyard more and more frequently, but he never dared to take a step towards the threshold. He was already trapped and could not get out.

When drunk, in sleep, there is only that person's beautiful smile on his lips, and the sadness between his brows when he looks back and turns around.

Bai Jingwan and Xue Dai were originally able to get along peacefully, but unfortunately that year, Bai Jingwan's mother and concubine were finally tortured to death, and the young man who was unable to resist was framed in front of his father by the palace servants.

That meeting was the result of Bai Jingyan's painstaking arrangements. Bai Jingwan's mother died. The cruel and cold-blooded king originally wanted to end the boy's life by the way, but Bai Jingyan tried his best to persuade him.

He said that although Bai Jingwan was a different species, he was still the heir of his father, and it was hard for the world to tolerate his father killing his son.

He just wanted to keep the boy's smile and everything that was vivid and beautiful about him.

Bai Jingyan never expected that it would end like that. The always indifferent king lay down in a pool of blood, his wide-open eyes fixedly staring upwards, in a gesture of reluctance to die.

He thought, why things have become so difficult, why Bai Jingwan did something irreversible.

How can he help him?

The monarch passed away, the new emperor ascended the throne, and Bai Jingyan finally fought his way to the highest position.He released the white mirror from the dungeon and placed it in the palace next to him.

Bai Jingyan never thought that Bai Jingwan would have such terrifying power, but in a flash, the magnificent palace was completely destroyed, and in the end it was Xue Dai who comforted him and made him calm down.

The obsession and hatred in Bai Jingwan's heart are too deep, if he does not imprison his power, he can only be allowed to do destructive acts.

Xue Dai took the initiative to feed the soup mixed with rare herbs to Bai Jingwan to drink.

At that time, Xue Dai was a bargaining face: "If I coax him to drink it, you must promise to protect me."

"I coax him to drink it, can you give me a high official and generous salary?"

"I'll coax him to drink it. Can you give me a beautiful wife?"

Where did he put Bai Jingwan? Is it just a tool for him to gain benefits?

Then the trust that Bai Jingwan had given him all these years was nothing.

Bai Jingyan agreed to Xue Dai, and when he visited the next day, all he was greeted was Bai Jingwan's indifferent expression, and he was stingy with giving even a sarcasm.

Xue Dai is not worthy of him, and his love for Xue Dai has always been wrongly paid.

Bai Jingwan would never believe these words, he only believed in the world in his heart, where there was only a lonely young man sitting on a swing, wandering around by himself.

Bai Jingyan thought that his biggest mistake was to kill that obtrusive Xue Dai.It doesn't matter if it's an eyesore, there are thousands of ways to get rid of him, but Bai Jingyan chose the most stupid one.

In front of Bai Jingwan's eyes, he stabbed the sword point into Xue Dai's chest vigorously.

The clean white clothes were stained with blood, which slowly spread and dripped to the ground.

So Bai Jingwan began to really hate him.

Day after day, year after year, he wiped the sharp blade countless times, just to kill his enemy one day.

Living for others, living for hatred, is simply too tiring.

Finally, when that day came, maybe the two of them were looking forward to it like this, the pain from the sharp object piercing the flesh made Bai Jingyan's eyes blurred, and what he could vaguely see was the scorching flames, in front of his eyes and behind him, they were all in one piece.

In the smoke and fire, Bai Jingwan slowly withdrew the long sword from his chest, thick blood dripped from the blade.

His eyes are confused.

"Jingwan, it's really meaningless for you to live like this."

With the last of his strength, he said these words, and the white-clothed figure in front of him turned around and slowly disappeared into the smoke and fire in his sight.

Did he hear that?

Bai Jingyan finally closed his eyes.

This life is irreversible, I hope that in the next life, I can give you warmth and support.

The author has something to say:

☆, episode [-]

During this period of time, I had a fairly comfortable life.

Bai Jingyan is a restless guy in essence, walking back and forth in the huge lifeless palace every day, either pruning the branches and leaves of the plum trees outside when his hands are itchy, or working hard to study delicious meals. Tired.

It's not like me, who always nests next to the charcoal fire, takes a nap with a hand stove, and is in a daze.

One of my few hobbies is probably enjoying the snow, eating and sleeping, and occasionally reading some messy scripts when I am in a hurry. A few days ago, I happened to find a few quite erotic ones, and immediately threw them away.Bai Jingyan kept those scriptures like treasures, and he didn't know where he was secretly watching them.

I was too lazy to care about these trivial things, and stretched out boringly. The result of being too warm and comfortable all over my body was that I unconsciously showed a silvery snake tail, and the tip of the tail swayed to and fro quite comfortably.

Just when Bai Jingyan came back from pruning plum branches, seeing me like this, he smiled and said, "Lazy snake."

I didn't comment, the tip of the tail climbed onto his wrist, and pulled him to the side not very gently.

Squeezing his chin, I said, "If you have nothing to do, tell me a few stories. Those stories are so boring, I almost fell asleep watching them."

"There is a monk in the mountain who likes to recite scriptures. One day he went to fetch water, and it happened that..." Bai Jingyan was not a very eloquent person, and he was silent for a long time, telling an old story.

I rested my head on his shoulder and stared intently at his serious profile.

Do your best in everything you do, try to make the story perfect and beautiful when telling a story, pay attention to the shape of the plum tree when pruning the plum branches, and frown to bring out the deliciousness when cooking.

If you like someone, you will work tirelessly to accompany them.

very nice.

After he finished telling the story, he still maintained the original posture, letting me lean on his shoulders. After a long time, Fang boldly put his arms around my waist: "Jingwan, how about the story I told?"

"It's barely audible." I picked up a strand of hair from the side of his ear, and brushed the fluffy ends across his cheek deliberately, "You can help me make a painting."

"What?" He didn't seem to hear clearly.

Although I don't want to repeat what I said, I still rarely say it again: "I said, I want you to help me make a painting. I have a bad temper, and you must always be tired of my bad service in your heart. How about Make a painting and draw out the me in your heart."

I looked at him and added a sentence: "You are not allowed to paint ugly."

He was stunned for a moment, and finally agreed.

Spread the paper and grind the ink, and draw carefully.

I sat up, with a faint and elegant fragrance of ink lingering in my nose.Bai Jingyan looked at me from time to time, and then continued to paint.Holding my chin, I looked at his familiar focused expression and felt warm in my heart.

When he finished painting and showed the rice paper for me to see, I looked at the young man who was very similar to me, bent the corners of my lips, and said critically: "The eyes are not as big as mine, and the face is not like mine."

With his puzzled expression, I took back the silver-white snake tail and replaced it with human legs.Walking to his side, I took out a blank sheet of paper: "Sit over here, and I'll draw one for you too."

He sat down obediently, putting on a gentle smile.

I looked at his brows and eyes, and finally drew a picture.

It's a pity that the imagination is always perfect, and when I actually put it into practice, what I draw is just a funny little man with thin lines, with eyes that don't look like eyes, and a nose that doesn't look like a nose.

"But it's finished. In fact, I always thought you were good at drawing." Bai Jingyan leaned over, "Tell me to see if you look like it."

How could he see such a shameful thing!

However, before I could destroy the embarrassing thing, he had already snatched it before me. After being stunned for a moment, he suddenly burst out laughing: "Jingwan, are you sure this is not a line with a big circle on it? How many more dots should be placed inside the big circle?"

Damn guy!

All kinds of thoughts in his mind flew wildly, but his face still maintained an indifferent appearance.I took the paper back and said with a straight face, "I originally wanted to draw like this. You don't know what a truly beautiful painting is."

"I don't understand, yes, I don't understand..."

The guy in front of him was holding his stomach and almost burst out laughing.

What's so funny, it's not my fault that I'm not good at it.

I was in a hurry, threw the failed product on the ground, and began to shake off his embarrassment: "Don't think I don't know how you picked up those messy scripts I used to read, and secretly huddled in the corner to read."

As if someone had punctured something shady, his cheeks flushed a thin layer of red: "You, how do you know?"

Seeing his embarrassment, I raised the corners of my lips happily: "That day you hid in the corner of the side hall and called me by my name."

The blush on his face deepened.

I approached him: "Are you yearning for those messy things?"

Bai Jingyan opened his mouth and nodded honestly after all.

"Then let's try the above thing."

Facing his surprised and inexplicable gaze, I took his hand and brought him to the side of the couch, and pushed him down on top of it.I lay on top of him, my ears were a little hot: "I've never been exposed to these before, I might be unfamiliar, bear with me."

He looked at me with gentle eyes.

I kissed him on the lips and clumsily tossed and turned, but fortunately he responded enthusiastically without embarrassing me.I don't know who was the first to probe deeply, the tip of my tongue was entangled, and he licked my lips, the heat all over my body began to rise.

His breath brushed against my cheek, crisp and numb.

The lower body has already begun to feel restless.

The cold wind at night poured in through the slightly opened windows, but the heat from the body could not be dissipated, but instead boiled into a scorching fire.Too much pleasure has made my mind confused, and the things in front of me seem to be unclear. The moment I buried the scalding part into his body, I just felt unbearable.

So the subsequent movements can only be controlled by instinct, and when they finally climbed to the top, they lost all their strength at once.The two of them pressed together to calm down and pant, I rubbed against his neck, and smiled contentedly.

This kind of thing is not boring, if you want to pass the time in the future, you can throw away those boring scriptures, drag Bai Jingyan to the bed and let me do whatever I want.

Think about it and look forward to it.

The author has something to say: Will it be too spoof and too sweet, drawing or something