Rebirth Delay

From the day Shi Yan woke up, he realized that his world was like a battlefield, every minute and every second was like trampling over, and golden drums were beating.He woke up many nights, tossed and turned, and looked at Xu Ze's face until dawn.

He could feel the restlessness in his bones, as if he would return to the overwhelming fire in his previous life when he closed his eyes, and he would see Xu Ze collapsed in front of his eyes again, and he would lose all the stability and peace he had now. happiness.

Sometimes, he will have persistent tinnitus.Only the sound of burning wood and cloth was heard, covering everything else.Or the siren sound, getting farther and farther away, like a car driving farther and farther away.

This kind of tinnitus would usually stop abruptly when he saw Xu Ze's smiling face.It was replaced by Xu Ze's clear and immature laughter, and the blurred vision became bright and clear.

Shi Yan never believed that what happened in his previous life would cast a shadow on him.

But the truth is, he almost lost Xu Ze again, which made him finally recognize himself.Compared with his previous life, he is better at interpersonal relationships, understands the warmth and coldness of people better, and is more suitable for group life. He can laugh, talk, and joke, but the premise of all this is that Xu Ze will not leave him, and Xu Ze will be fine.

Otherwise, he is likely to throw away all the things he has learned so hard, leaving only manic bloodthirsty instincts, and returning to those days when revenge was the only motivation for living.

The night of the second day of the Lunar New Year seemed particularly long.

When Shi Yan got under the quilt, Xu Ze's hands and feet were still cold despite the hot water bottle.Shi Yan fished out his calf and feet, clamped them between his legs, stretched out his hand, and gently embraced Xu Ze with an extremely gentle and careful gesture.

Xu Ze's forehead touched his chest.

In the dark room, there is no light at all.Xu Ze's hand gently stroked Shi Yan's heart, and since Shi Yan just roared, he has been repeating this movement, slowly and tenderly.

They were so quiet that not even the sound of breathing could be heard.

Shi Yan's eyes were as substantial as he traced the outline of Xu Ze in the darkness.The one snuggling in his arms was only Xu Ze, who was just seven years old, but Xu Ze's movements always reminded him of those vivid nights. The smell of green grass with earthy smell seems to be nothing, light and faint.

That night, the wind carried the whispers and whispers, Xu Ze called his name in his ear, over and over again.

"Brother?" Xu Ze suddenly said.

Time delay did not respond, as if speaking at this moment would break the tranquility.

Xu Ze touched his eyes and felt his eyelids move, so he continued, "Brother, don't be afraid. I will definitely stay at home from now on and won't go out to play. Brother can teach me how to draw. Tell me stories, my brother is enough."

Time delay was silent.If Xu Ze had said that a day ago, he might have been very happy.But now Xu Ze was obviously frightened by his reaction, such an answer because he choked and gave up eating would only make Shi Yan feel guilty for his impulsive outburst.

"Brother," Xu Ze's voice rang in Shi Yan's ear, "Actually, I don't want to go out to play, but I'm afraid you'll worry."

Shi Yan was startled, and couldn't help asking, "Why?"

Xu Ze touched Shi Yan's earlobe with his fingers, and kneaded it repeatedly, "Last time Sun Hongyan took me to his classmate's house to play, and the adults there said I was an orphan with no father to raise or mother to teach. Brother, this is not a good word right?"

Shi Yan felt a sudden pain in his heart.

He always told himself that it didn't matter whether he had parents or not.Because he has enough ability to support himself and Xu Ze.But after all, he is already 14 years old, while Xu Ze is only seven years old.Although the loss of his mother and younger brother in the previous life did not make him very sad, didn't he still remember it all his life?

Thinking about it this way, it seemed that he had never thought about what kind of psychological trauma these all-pervasive gossip would cause Xu Ze to integrate into the lives of ordinary people.

Could it be that since the wound in his heart is scarred, can he take it for granted that Xu Ze's wound is no longer painful?

"So," Xu Ze seemed to smile, "I'm afraid that my brother will worry about me staying at home all the time, and I'm also afraid that my brother will always be with me, and one day he will bother me and don't want me anymore."

He judged Delay's thoughts like a child.

Because of the experience of being discarded, he is cautious and cautious.

"Xiaojie is not very bad." Xu Ze moved up, his hands and feet wrapped around Shi Yan's body, "He thought it was fun, but he didn't know that the ice in the middle was very thin...he was so heavy. Hong Fei walked over It’s okay, the ice broke when he went up.”

"Brother, I'm scared too."

Hot tears slid down Shi Yan's face to his neck.

Hearing Xu Ze's rapid panting and feeling the child trembling in his arms, Shi Yan suddenly understood that when many children were standing by and watching, Xu Ze chose to go to the ice to save Zhou without hesitation. Jay's reason.

Children's overwhelming compassion is one aspect.Xu Ze always treats others with kindness as much as possible.If it weren't for his temperament, how could he be redeemed for the time delay.

On the other hand, I am afraid it is the fear of losing.

If a child has experienced rejection, it is unrealistic to say that he is still naive.When a child who has no power to protect himself loses all protection, he must strengthen himself to face the ups and downs that follow.

Xu Ze is precocious.

This time delay is very clear in my previous life.Every time Shi Yan wanted to ask Xu Ze to leave, Xu Ze would look at Shi Yan pitifully.This may be a subconscious self-protection, but it is more likely that his trust in time delay made him have to choose to rely on time delay.

But Xu Ze's precocity only happened in these human aspects.More things, because of the limitation of life experience, Xu Ze still maintains a simple understanding.

Such as time-delayed love.

Ordinary kids would think, "Brother is so nice!"

Xu Ze might think, "My brother is so kind! But will this kindness last forever?"

Xu Ze probably didn't want to break up his current life when he saved Zhou Jie.He understood what Zhou Jie meant to Sun Xiu, Tang Jing and Tang Anmin, so he couldn't let Zhou Jie die.

These are all guesses about the delay.

After all, they are not lovers who have been together for many years in the previous life, but brothers who have only been together for less than nine months.If the time delay wants them to go for a long time, there are still many things that need to be devoted to management.

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Zhou Jie had a high fever for three days in a row, lay down for two more days, and started jumping up and down again.

The child didn't know how to be afraid. He was skating and playing on the ice formed by accumulated water in the yard within two days after he was fished out of the ice hole. Wrestling seemed to be a common occurrence. Sun Xiu said it, so he knew it. Smiling with a ghostly mouth.

There are three words written on the forehead, brat!

The delay is also served.

Tang Jing waited for Zhou Jie to recover, knowing that her child was naughty and insisted on running on the ice to play. To save him, Xu Ze fell on the ice and almost threw himself into the ice cave. But the time of the rescue was Zhou Jie's savior. She personally led Zhou Jie to the backyard to thank Xu Ze and Shi Yan. Her attitude was much better than before.

It was only then that Shi Yan realized that Tang Jing was smiling, she was still quite good-looking, a bit like Sun Xiu.

Not only towards Shi Yan and Xu Ze, but also towards her father Tang Anmin, Tang Jing's attitude is much better.It's just not obvious, with a kind of reservation and awkwardness of a daughter's family, and it seems that she doesn't know how to reconcile.

The two of them were talking, and Sun Xiuqian was anxious to see whether they were compatible or not.

But Tang Jing was still in a hurry to go back to the county, probably Zhou Jie's father also knew about Zhou Jie's falling into the ice hole and was worried.

After staying for another three or two days, Tang Jing took Zhou Jie back.The station that Tang Anmin sent to.

Before leaving, Zhou Jie was still holding Xu Ze's hand, sticky and unwilling to leave. Tang Jing called out several times before he followed with his big schoolbag on his back.

The big schoolbag was empty when it arrived, and it was bulging when it left. Sun Xiu probably stuffed it with a lot of delicious food, and I don't know if the winter vacation homework that I specially brought has been moved.

In the past few days, many children have come to see Xu Ze and Zhou Jie.Xu Ze was the main one, because they were familiar with Xu Ze, and it was the first time they met Zhou Jie.

Sun Tong also came once.

Sun Tong was not there when the accident happened.Seeing Xu Ze at this moment, Sun Tong walked around him several times, seeing that there were no injuries anywhere, he grinned.When he smiled, his teeth were exposed, and Shi Yan realized that there were small teeth growing in the gap in front of him, which was a little less silly than before.

Sun Tong's aunt went back a few years ago, probably going door-to-door to collect New Year's money. When Sun Tong talked about this, the happiness on his face was inflated.

What Xu Ze must do every day now is to put a Band-Aid on the wound on Shi Yan's finger.The wound was deep and long, and an ordinary Yunnan Baiyao band-aid could not cover it, so Xu Ze tried his best to use two.

The bamboo dragonfly and the slingshot were half drawn, but Xu Ze refused to let him do it again.

When he is free, Shi Yan draws a chess board on the ground and teaches Shi Yan how to play backgammon.The game is simple and easy to understand, and the game starts to lose within a few game delays.This is a real loss, it's not that Shi Yan deliberately gave way to Xu Ze.

When Xu Ze won, his eyes were always bright, as if they were shining.There was a small smug smile on the corner of his mouth, like the first thaw of winter snow, exuding the warmth of spring.

There is a saying that what people have is always discovered by those who do not have it.

For Shi Yan, Xu Ze is the light that never goes out.He spent two lives, from the darkness he was in, to the direction of this light, step by step, although it was difficult, he never stopped approaching.