God, let's fall in love

After the last class of the day, Xiao Xiang just walked out of the classroom and took a photo with the person who was walking towards him. Uh, isn't this the shy boy I met in the coffee shop last time?

The boy was stunned for a while and also recognized Xiao Xiang, and instantly burst into a big smile, his little face was still slightly flushed, "It's you, what a coincidence." Glancing at the classroom behind Xiao Xiang, "So you are also B Great student!"

Xiao wanted to nod, but he was quite surprised, the chef in that coffee shop was actually a student who was still in college?Speaking of it, it is really destined, and I have met twice in the near future.

The bell of the teaching building rang suddenly, interrupting what the boy was about to say, and after glancing at his watch, he waved his hand to Xiao anxiously, "Let's not chat, next time we meet, we must get to know each other better." The figure who left paused, took out the small yellow backpack on his back, found something and stuffed it in, "Here, it's for you. Hee hee, goodbye!"

The boy ran downstairs in a hurry, and Xiao Xiang was stunned by the series of movements so fast.He looked down at the thing in his hand, this is...a piece of cake?

The vacuum-sealed packaging is quite small and exquisite, and there is a funny smiley face pattern on the cupcake, but judging from the fact that there is no manufacturer, brand or production date on the packaging, it should be made by the boys themselves.

I can't laugh or cry.Obviously looking at a very shy boy, how can he act in such an enthusiastic style, the enthusiasm makes people a little... at a loss.

Xiao Xiang didn't like crowded places, so he chose a tree-shaded path to walk outside the school.On both sides of the extension path are tall and lush locust trees, which are in flowering season, and the small yellow and white flowers are elegant and fragrant.

Looking really good-looking, Xiao Xiang was taking out his mobile phone to take pictures and upload them to Weibo, when he suddenly heard faint voices in the quiet woods.

The location here is relatively remote, and the locust tree is gloomy, and there is a sudden sound, and Xiao Xiang can't help but feel his heart tremble.Taking a few steps forward tentatively, Xiao was embarrassed when he wanted to see the picture in front of him clearly.

The trees are concealed, maybe it's a coincidence of Xiao Xiang's position and angle, and the figure of the couple kissing affectionately was caught by him just in time.Uh... the little yellow backpack on the shorter one was so familiar that Xiao froze, feeling extremely embarrassed.

Unexpectedly, we met again...

What made Xiao Xiang feel a little more at ease was that the pair of lovers didn't seem to have discovered his existence yet.Xiao Xiang moved his feet slightly, and Xiao Xiang was planning to continue to leave quietly, but unexpectedly, the two happened to separate at this time.Xiao Xiang raised his eyes inadvertently, the tall man's face made Xiao Xiang pause in surprise.

This person... Although there is a little distance between the two compartments, his hairstyle and aura are clearly different from the one I saw in the coffee shop last time...

Seeing the intimate backs of the two leaving hand in hand, Xiao Xiang let out a sigh of relief and appeared from behind the big tree, shaking his head, feeling even more embarrassed than the person involved.

When I got home and turned on the computer, I received a notification to join the group as soon as I logged into Penguin.Xiao Xiang was stunned for a moment before remembering that he had promised Yoyo to sing the ED for a radio drama.

Open the "Qin Shang" crew group.

Fusu-Yanyanyan: Babies?Look at me!

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Damn!Don't pretend to be dead!Everyone who takes a breath, stand up for the young master!

The whole screen was full of Sanyan's frenzied swiping of text, Xiao wanted to slide the mouse to glance at the number of people online, and was a little surprised.

He also heard from the planner that "Qin Shang" is a large-scale historical drama, but he didn't expect that there are more than 40 CVs added to the crew of a radio drama.Even if he doesn't know much about catching circles, and he is even more unfamiliar with online distribution circles, Xiao Xiang still knows that the radio drama with so many CVs participating should be regarded as the largest number of people in history... right?

It's just... Since there are so many members in the group, and more than half of them are online, why doesn't anyone make a fuss but allow Sanyan to swipe the screen ferociously alone?

Xiao wanted to look at the chat screen, but hesitated.Should he respond?

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Is there... anyone... is there?Do you dare to show your head and let Bengong take a look?Tired or not...

ed-Xiaoshou: Mommy Yan?

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Aww! !Xiaoshou baby!

Orchid: Shocked!It actually blows up Xiaoshou!Hey, Xiao Shouzun is a soft-hearted little Shou Shou.

Director-Yellow Dregs: Welcome □□Silly Mom to join this group!sprinkle flowers~

ed-Xiaoshou: Uh.You are all online.

Hu Hai-Tu Tu: Hehe, we are not here, Xiaoshou is dazzled by you (waving)

Planning-Yuyo: Run away!Don't be caught by the palace lord!escape!Run away with Xiaoshou!

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Damn!When Ben Gong is blind?

ed-Xiaoshou: You guys, what's the matter?

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Don't pay attention to those ignorant beasts, come Xiaoshou, I will fly you with Xuanku.

Director-Yellow Lost Dregs: I beg the palace lord to let go of the simple Xiaoshou, he is still a child.

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: Kick it away!Xiao Shou came to play backgammon with Ben Gong.

Plan-Yuyou: (tears streaming down the face) Beg Yan silly mother, please don't abuse Xiaoshou!

Late stage-6699: Putting wax on Xiaoshou.

ed-Xiaoshou: Uh, actually I am pretty good at backgammon.

Director-Yellow Drops: What a stupid child~~ My heart hurts.

Planning-Yuyou: Xiao Xiaoshou doesn't care about the palace master, the palace master's backgammon skills are so outrageous!

ed-Xiaoshou: Ah, so powerful.

Planning - Yoyo: Khan!It's scum!Especially unparalleled scum!

Late stage-6699: stroking Xiaoshou.You never know what a person who puts backgammon in a chrysanthemum shape is thinking, let alone guess how many grass mud horses are galloping in the heart of the opponent player who doesn't know how to kill in five games~~

...

Xiao Xiang smiled lightly, propped his chin and looked at the people sparing no effort to complain and Sanyan jumping up and down in the chat screen, it was really lively.

Not participating anymore, Xiao wanted to shrink the chat box and open a video.

This is a small micro-movie, telling a story about secret love.The actors are very young and the plot is old-fashioned, but Xiao Xiang still spent half an hour watching him.The only difference in this ordinary and unremarkable movie is probably that the protagonists of the movie are two men.

The plot is entangled, but the ending is happy after all.The boy who had a crush on mustered up the courage to confess his love and was happy to get what he loved.Xiao Xiang is very envious of that brave young man, too many people in love are cowardly and cautious.Confession is a romantic word, and it is even more admirable to boldly pursue love.

Xiao wanted to hum lightly along with the ending song, happy for the boy in the movie.He once had a crush on someone, but he didn't have the courage to take action to confess.It can't be said that he is afraid or has some scruples, emotionally, he is a passive person.

At the end of the warm and pleasant ending song, Xiao Xiang was fascinated by the sweet smile of the boy frozen on the screen.If one day, there is such a person who treats each other sincerely, then Xiao Xiang, do you dare to take the initiative once?

...

The screen went dark with a swish, interrupting Xiao Xiang's daze, and when he opened the crew group again, he happened to see someone mentioning him.

Zhao Yu-Tan Yuan: Xiao Shou also joined the group?

Late stage-6699: Tsk tsk tsk, what's going on.I would like to ask you, Tan Yuan's silly mother, who never hears anything out of the window, and specifically asked Xiao Shou what kind of trouble he was in the group.

Fusu-Yan Yanyan: (pick nose) Xiaoyuanyuan, you have to be a magic horse to my Xiaoshou~

Hu Ji: Master Tanyuan, you are an attack and attack, don't be so concerned about other people's suffering and suffering, they really know how to make up brains and make up brains!

Li Si: Hahaha, the rotten girls are really busy, don't they get wrinkles if they are crazy?

...

Xiao Xiang put his hands on the keyboard and wanted to say hello to Tan Yuan, but the chat screen frantically swiped up just after he typed two words, and the direction of the topic seemed to be getting more and more crooked.After hesitating for a moment, Xiao Xiang decided to choose silence.There are only two consequences for taking a sudden turn. One is to be ignored in the garbled code, and the other is to be molested by everyone. Choosing one of the two is not as safe as diving.

Just thinking about it, Penguin suddenly prompts a friend request.

It's Tanyuan again.

After confirming the addition, Xiao Xiang waited for a while at Tan Yuan's chat screen. The other party didn't seem to have the idea of ​​chatting with him after sending him a friend request. I don't know if he should take the initiative to say hello at this moment.In the crew group, Tan Yuan still occasionally made a statement saying that this person was by the computer, Xiao Xiang tilted his head to think about it, and decided to ignore it.

After watching another movie and yawning, Xiao Xiang moved his stiff shoulders and stood up to turn off the phone. The penguin icon that hadn't exited just before the screen went dark jumped up, and the laptop was turned off by the time Xiao Xiang realized it.

That profile picture was a little strange, but Xiao Xiang vaguely remembered it was...Tan Yuan.

After washing up, he lay on the bed, leaning on the pillow on his side for a long while, then Xiao Xiang got up helplessly, and reached out to fetch the mobile phone from the bedside table.

It could have been ignored, Xiao thought he couldn't figure out why he had to log in to Penguin again.Maybe it was the unread message that made him pay more attention. Maybe, maybe, why did Tan Yuan send him a message so late.

Tan Yuan: Children, don't pay attention to what those people in the group say.

Xiao|Xiang: God?

Tan Yuan: The kids haven't slept yet?

Xiao|Xiang: ...En.

Tan Yuan: Go to sleep.

Xiao|Xiang: Oh.

Tan Yuan: Touch your head, good night.

Xiao Xiang stared at Tan Yuan's chat box, speechless for a while, and suddenly felt that he was too stupid to get up and post messages on the Internet even after he was asleep.Seriously reflect on such an abnormal behavior of myself tonight, and finally put the quilt on top of my head to sleep.

Because I am not familiar with it, I am polite, and because I am polite, I am polite and thoughtful.So getting along with half-baked people is the most troublesome, and I feel embarrassed to be willful occasionally.

**

The afternoon sun was warm, and Xiao wanted to take out the last bowl of instant noodles from the refrigerator and add water, then sit on the sofa and wait patiently.I haven't eaten a ration since I got up early, and my weak stomach has long protested.Suddenly the phone rang, Xiao wanted to take a look at the incoming call, it was Meng Qidi.

"Dick?"

"Brother hasn't been online for a few days, when did you get so familiar with that Tan Yuan gangster?"

Xiao Xiang was taken aback by Meng Qidi's straightforward questioning, and said a little funnyly, "Brother, what are you talking about, we don't know each other well."

Meng Qidi on the other side of the phone frowned, "What's the matter with that guy talking so ambiguously on Weibo? And Xiaoxiang, why did you join the Tanyuan crew to sing ED?"

These two things should have nothing to do with each other, right?Xiao thought about it for a while and explained honestly: "It was Yoyo, she brought me into the film crew, and the Weibo incident was also because someone blackmailed me and asked Tanyuan for help. What's wrong?"

"Hey, I was shocked! I happened to see you and Tanyuan's cp building when I checked the net. I was still wondering when did you meet the three-dimensional person." Meng Qidi breathed out, paused and said: "Don't blame me Brother just made a fuss, who knows if the other side of the network is a chicken or a monkey, you are not allowed to face-to-face with others casually, do you understand?"

"En." Xiao Xiang's eyes were filled with warmth, Meng Qidi's carefree personality was the most protective of him, his tone was not very gentle but he was still concerned about him.

"Actually, ahem, that Tanyuan seems to have a good reputation, Xiaoxiang, if you have a good impression of him, I will help you look up his information first?" Meng Qidi scratched his face, feeling that his style is a bit weird recently, faintly pleased The trend of the old bustard in the Red Courtyard is always thinking about giving away his small head card.

"Brother Di, how did you know that I have a crush on him?" Xiao Xiang chuckled, but there was no movement from the receiver for a while, probably Meng Qidi was choked by his rhetorical question.After thinking about it, Xiao Xiang added, "Brother Di, I don't want to fall in love yet."

"Why?" Meng Qidi frowned, and his tone was faintly persuasive and more disapproving.

Xiao Xiang looked at the stripes on the coffee table and was a little dazed, and said lightly: "It's nothing."

Holding his breath in his chest, Meng Qidi almost spat out a mouthful of blood.It's normal to be an honest bachelor in his early twenties, but Meng Qidi is angry because of the other party's attitude!What kind of trouble is that old-fashioned tone!

"You remember him?"

A word without thinking about it blurted out, Meng Qidi froze suddenly, then angrily kicked the wooden chair beside him, wishing he could slap himself twice!

Xiao Xiang also froze for a moment, then shook his head.It took a while to remember that the other party couldn't see his movements, and then said slowly: "No."

"Xiao Xiang, what happened before...let it go. It's not your fault, you don't need to punish yourself like this." Meng Qidi knew that he was at a loss for what he had said wrong, so he said a few words of comfort dryly before hanging up the phone.

The instant noodles soaked for too long have become soft, and bursts of fragrance irritate the empty stomach, but Xiao Xiang has no appetite at all.I got up and threw the noodles into the trash can, turned and opened the window, and the wind blew into the living room to take away the greasy smell of instant noodles in the house, and then I felt better.

One of the tulips on the balcony is just about to bloom, and the golden petals are more clear and elegant under the sun.Xiao Xiang gently stroked its small leaflets with his fingers, with infinite nostalgia and strong self-blame and regret on his fingertips.

Yellow tulips represent preciousness and apology.

The people around him always advise him to forget the past and to move forward, and he understands all the truths.But he has no way to retreat, and one step forward is an abyss.What else to do?

He has already let go of the person he likes, and there is no such hypocrisy as being unforgettable.Maybe that kind of secret love can be prevaricated by being young, just to let it go, but the mistake has already borne evil consequences.

It is enough to make him feel miserable for the rest of his life.

If time can go back and return to the root of that mistake, he will no longer be willful and stubborn.If liking someone of the same sex is an irreparable mistake, he must obediently be an obedient child.He doesn't want to live in deep self-blame anymore, the days of begging for forgiveness every day are really enough.

Sometimes I even envy those who weep bitterly holding the tombstone in the cemetery, at least they can still touch the temperature, even if it is a cold stone tablet.But he didn't even have that qualification.

He is not worthy.

The tulips that have been planted for a long time are about to bloom, so will the people in heaven forgive him a little bit?

He planted and cultivated the tulips he loved the most during his lifetime. Would you feel a little bit relieved and happy?

I never dared to ask, if he hadn't been obsessed with ghosts that day and hadn't stayed out all night, would you still pass away?

He is so bad and asshole, he even missed the last one, you, do you have any resentment?Will you be disappointed?

pat-

One or two intermittent drops of water dripped on the golden petals, which were crystal clear and reflected dazzling light.The branches and leaves trembled slightly, as if answering and comforting.

The tightly pursed lips couldn't stop the painful sobs that overflowed from his mouth. The pale young man slid and knelt on the ground, holding the pendant on his neck tightly with one hand and bursting into tears. A little bit of redemption.

The boy's curved back was trembling non-stop, as if a heavy weight was weighing on him, so fragile that he couldn't withstand a single blow.

sorry Sorry sorry...

The inaudible voice was shattered, wrapped in deep regret and crushed from the throat, every sentence was like a knife every time, piercing the soul and piercing the heart.

sorry...

Please forgive me, please, please, please don't forgive me...

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