God, let's fall in love

The festive neon lights decorated on both sides of the street flickered, Xiao Xiang stood in front of the large glass window and looked at the street.There were footsteps behind him, and his gaze shifted slightly, and he turned to look at the man behind him through the reflection on the glass.

The other party stood very close, and Xiao Xiang seemed to be able to feel the warm breath blowing over his head, as if it could burn the air in the next second and ignite the stagnation in the room.Panicked, she subconsciously raised her hand to caress the pendant around her neck, and held it tightly.

Meng Tanqiu put his hands in his pockets in a casual posture, instead of looking at Xiao Xiang, he looked out of the window with a concentrated expression, his eyes flickered, and he said calmly with memories for a long time: "I remember that when I went abroad that year, it was also on Christmas Day. "

The sky did not know when it started to snow, and large flakes of snowflakes fell and whitened the festive streets.Looking at the overlapping figures of the two on the glass window, Xiao Xiang felt an inexplicably old illusion.

I don't know how long he stood like this. After the man finished saying that, the man remained silent even if he didn't speak, and stalemate quietly.Xiao had no choice but to turn around and raise his head slightly, and asked a little helplessly: "And then?"

The corner of his mouth curled up in satisfaction, and Meng Tanqiu answered with a smile: "Then I was stopped by a crying brat, who found out my things from somewhere, hugged me tightly and didn't let go, and my voice became hoarse from crying. Said to me over and over again, 'Qiuqiu don't go!' over and over---"

Looking at Xiao Xiang, he deliberately paused while the other party was slightly stunned, and opened his thin lips lightly and slowly uttered a few words.

"...I like you."

thump -- thump -- thump --

The big clock in the square rang at zero o'clock, and the whispered words of liking were mixed in the sound of the bell, and it was not covered up but clearer.It landed heavily on the tip of my heart as if nailed into the eardrum, shaking waves of unsettled aftertaste.

Xiao wanted to take a step back, and his whole back was pressed against the glass window.

Of course, the words when I was young are not counted, but they are like the foreshadowing of the first chapter of a book.

"That little guy took one of my things back then." The distance between the two was restrained and respectful. Meng Tanqiu took another step forward while Xiao Xiang was avoiding his sight, stretched out his hand to lift the pendant on Xiao Xiang's neck, and slowly Said: "The lotus and red jade my grandma left me, the left phoenix and the right phoenix were originally a pair of mandarin duck pendants." The long and slender fingers lightly pinched the pendant, and the red jade that was originally one was separated from the middle in a pattern of heaven and earth. .

Xiao Xiang shuddered all over, feeling the slight itchiness from that finger touching his neck.He was even more astonished when Meng Tanqiu said that he had always worn this pendant next to his body. When he was 15 years old, his mother only said it belonged to him when he gave it to him. Unexpectedly, there was a past that he did not know.

Mandarin duck falling...

Its implication is self-evident.

Meng Tanqiu just took away the half of Weifeng's jade, held down Xiao Xiangyu's movement of tearing off the pendant, looked at him and said meaningfully: "This thing is yours in the first place, since you have worn it for so long, you should keep wearing it Let's go." Glancing at the half jade in his hand, he said with a smile, "I've already got what belongs to me."

Subconsciously touching the neck, the round jade pendant suddenly had a few corners that pierced the hand, leaving deep marks across the palm of the hand.The cold eyebrows and eyes were no longer calm, "Cousin..."

Meng Tanqiu saw his panic in his eyes, looked directly into the young man's eyes and said with a sigh: "There is no blood relationship between us, Xiao Xiang, I hope you call me by my name."

Xiao wanted to retreat, but there was no way to retreat. He was almost defeated by the opponent's gentle and domineering aura.His lips murmured and moved, and finally he just looked at the other party with prayers.

Meng Tanqiu's eyes darkened, he accepted the rejection but couldn't tolerate evasion.Suddenly he stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around the other party's neck, and in the panic of the young man, he slowly approached until his nose and breath blended together, and his lips and teeth intertwined.

A soft kiss, with a clean breath, and a soft touch.

Xiao Xiang froze suddenly, stretched out his hand to push him away but was easily clamped and pressed to his side by the other party, the touch on his lips was no longer a simple probing, his strength was unabashedly domineering and powerful.

There is no extra oxygen available in the chest cavity, the whole figure is like a fish on a wooden board, Xiao wants to shake his head and struggle.The always gentle man refused to let him go, pinching Xiao Xiang's chin to prevent him from dodging.

You obviously like it, why don't you want to admit it?

Since you want to be a coward, then let me take the initiative to break this damned ambiguous relationship!

The air became thinner and thinner, and Xiao Xiang's mind gradually became dizzy and went blank.All that poured into the nasal cavity was the man's breath, and there was a barely smellable smell of disinfectant.

Disinfectant...

There seemed to be a cloud of fog covering the sight in front of him, and he couldn't tell where he was even in the daytime, but Xiao Xiang was sure that this was a hospital.

White, a piece of white.

White walls, white chandeliers overhead, white hospital beds, white... cloth.

Whoever's face is covered, he will sleep forever.

There was a sudden noise in the ears, restless.Who is crying bitterly, and who is dissuading and comforting?

'Snapped! '

A black figure rushed out suddenly and slapped hard on the almost numb pale face, a trace of blood spilled from the corner of the mouth that turned his head.

Hearing was deaf for a moment, Xiao wanted to stare at the angry man in front of him, at his mouth that kept opening and closing, at his face with undisguised hatred, at the palm that he raised his hand and wanted to hit again...

The picture began to distort, and the familiar chaotic scene gradually dissipated, leaving only the unchanging white.It represents holiness and nobility, but it is also so cold and ruthless.

The smell of the mild disinfectant water became stronger, and the entire lungs were infected during breathing. Even if you hold your breath, you can't get rid of the...disgusting smell!

Stretching out his hand suddenly to push the man away, Xiao Xiang also slammed into the glass behind him fiercely, panting heavily, but he couldn't exhaust the smell of disinfectant water from his nose and chest, his stomach constricted, and he waved the man away. He came over to help his arm, staggered into the bathroom and retched.

Meng Tanqiu withdrew his hand with an ugly expression, and walked over after a while.The face of the young man sliding along the wall was pale, his brows and eyes were full of pain, especially the eyes looking at him, all kinds of emotions were complicated and entangled, collapsing in circles, and the last thing was not melting but freezing into ice.

Xiao wanted to cover his mouth to suppress the feeling of nausea, raised his eyes and said to Meng Tanqiu, "Sorry, can I be alone for a while?"

The relationship between the two who had just eased up was back to the past, even worse than before.Meng Tanqiu sensitively caught Xiao Xiang's deliberation, took a deep look at him, turned around and left the room after a word of advice.

There is a Christmas tree in the hotel lobby with brisk music circulating, and the surrounding area is full of festive and joyful atmosphere.Meng Tanqiu paused, then walked into the car with a sullen face.

With deep eyes, he hammered the steering wheel irritably.Meng Tanqiu has always been calm and gentle. He has never been so irritable in his nearly 30-year-old life as he is today!

Dodging, escaping rejection, pretending to be indifferent... But how did a young man in his early twenties learn such deep defense?What did you experience that you dare not even face your own sincerity?

The more you get in touch, the more you can't see through it, and the closer you get, the more distressed you become.

Defeated on that seemingly calm face, he can easily see through the fragility of the child, without being tortured by outsiders, he has already suppressed himself to the point where he is riddled with holes.

Meng Tanqiu propped his forehead on the steering wheel, wondering how the child is doing now, whether he is still sitting on the cold ground... Maybe it is right to give him a little more space.After all, every lonely little beast has the instinct to lick its wounds and heal itself.

Closing his eyes tiredly, Meng Tanqiu was worried that the child might have barbs on the tip of his tongue, which would tear the wound even more bloody.

City H, what happened...

City H...

The eyes that opened suddenly flashed a little dangerous, Meng Tanqiu took out his mobile phone and dialed a phone number.Someone seems to have forgotten to tell him something important.

"You know about Xiaoxiang, tell me."

Meng Qidi was shocked, "Cousin?"

"All, now."

Meng Qidi froze for a moment, guessing what happened to Xiao Xiang, and when he heard his cousin's bad tone, he didn't dare to hesitate, and confessed honestly. "I miss him a little, I liked someone before..."

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Wu Han.A handsome, yet sinister and arrogant young man.Boys, that's right, they were all teenagers a few years ago.

The Xiao and Wu families are close, and the two teenagers who are about the same age naturally get closer than others, and when they get close to Xiao Xiang, some other thoughts arise.There is no obscene idea, just want to occupy.Just like children like to hold on to their favorite toys all the time.

Xiao Xiang is the youngest among a group of sons in H City, and he is naturally favored. No matter how arrogant and unreasonable he is, there are a group of famous brothers behind him. In City H, there are only things that Xiao wants or not, and there is nothing he can't get.

Everyone has always thought so, and even Xiao Xiang thought so too.

Until a tutor suddenly appeared beside Wu Han, until that jade-like young man occupied Wu Han's sight all the time...

Xiao Xiang woke up from his dream, but the second phase is still there.

He wasn't very sad, but he just imitated the plot in the movie and made himself heartbroken. At that time, he felt that he was very handsome and chic.I often throw myself into the bar, thinking that I am a special man, if I love, I will be vigorous, if I don't love, I will be drunk and broken.That is a domineering!

Sometimes when I think about it, I want to slap myself twice, it's embarrassing!But the fact is that before Xiao Xiang came to his senses, the reality had cruelly taught him a big lesson.

A row of empty wine bottles was piled up in front of Xiao Xiang in a bar full of lights and feasting, and he was still acting out the drama of his broken love.With his eyes blindfolded, he suddenly felt the tireless vibration of his cell phone in his pants pocket.

'buzzing---'

Noisy!Impatiently connected, Su Nian, who has always been calm, growled almost angrily, "Why did you answer the phone! I've been looking for you all day! You idiot! Your mother is in the hospital!"

It was a summer night, the wind was very cool and biting.

Xiao Xiang only felt a buzzing sound in his head, his head became more and more muddy after a hangover all day long, and the other party's explosive words blew him away.impossible!how can that be possible?

His mother has always been in good health, it's just...just that she has lost weight recently and her complexion has become worse. Isn't it just a cold?how come...

Panic, like a glass of water dropped on the ground, spread unstoppably.

Everything is still too late.

When Xiao Xiang, who smelled of alcohol and was in a mess, hurried to the hospital, all he saw was a stiff body covered by a white cloth.

At that moment, the sky and the earth began to turn violently, if it wasn't for Su Nian supporting him behind him, Xiao Xiang would almost collapse on the ground powerlessly.Unwilling to believe it, she struggled to lift the glaring white cloth, but was slapped hard by the man who rushed over suddenly.

'You killed your mother!where did you go last night!Where the hell were you when your mom got sick! '

'Why did you come here now!Your mother has been waiting for so long to see you for the last time, and she has not waited for you for so long!Why are you here now!Why are you still here! '

Xiao wanted to be suffocated by the sharp questioning, "Dad..."

'Do not call me!I don't have an unfilial son like you!You killed your mother, you killed my Xiaohui, why didn't you die! '

The roar of the man with bloodshot eyes and ferocious face was like a sledgehammer that crushed the crumbling young man. His pale tender face and empty eyes...

How long does it take to bloom?Withering is but a moment.That arrogant, laughing, willful young man just disappeared.Like a colorful ink painting that was maliciously smeared with black ink, it lost all its splendor.From then on, only black and white remained in his world.Dirty black.Icy white.

...

"Since you know these things, why didn't you tell me earlier?" Meng Tanqiu asked coldly with a sullen expression.

"Cousin, I'm so wronged!" Meng Qidi said with a bitter face, "I was not around that year. I thought Xiao Xiang couldn't let Wu Han go, so I didn't tell you. I also heard the truth from Su Nian a few days ago. Said, haven't I found the right time to report to you yet!"

Meng Tan Qiuen said, and asked again: "The relationship between their father and son has not eased in the past few years?"

"It's more than that, I'm afraid it's worse than my cousin imagined." Meng Qidi sighed, hesitated for a while before saying: "Dad Xiao's heart knot has never been solved, he resents Xiaoxiang in his heart, and..."

After hanging up the phone, Meng Tanqiu leaned back in his chair and looked out of the dark car.

'Besides, Xiao's father has never let Xiao Xiang go to the cemetery to worship his mother, let alone visit, Xiao Xiang hasn't been back to City H for two years. '

Has even the chance of repentance been denied?

It felt like a boulder had been blocked in his chest, oppressive and dull, and also tinged with pain.He feels sorry for Xiao Xiang, sympathizes with his experience, and even more pity the crime and punishment he has borne.

Unable to stay in the car anymore, Meng Tanqiu returned to the hotel room without hesitation. There was no shadow of the young man in the room. Meng Tanqiu's heart shuddered, and his eyes suddenly swept to the bathroom.

The icy water column slid down the top of the head and back, and after soaking in the cold water for too long, the sensation became numb, and he didn't feel cold or pain.

This is what Meng Tanqiu saw when he opened the bathroom curtain. The pale-faced man huddled under the shower, shivering but clenched his teeth and persisted. It was a real self-abuse!

He rushed over to pull him up, quickly tore off his drenched coat, wrapped him in a big bath towel, and hugged him to the bed without waiting for anyone to resist.

Xiao wanted to stare at the man's gloomy face for a while before he seemed to react, and turned his head slightly to look out the window.No resistance, no struggle, be quiet.His expression was flat, like a doll without emotions, but Meng Tanqiu knew that this person's sadness could come out from his bones and fill the whole room.

Just when Meng Tanqiu thought he didn't want to talk, Xiao Xiangwubo's eyes flashed with emotion, and he suddenly said softly: "Mom's favorite tulip is blooming."

"En?" Meng Tanqiu was stunned for a moment, then asked softly, "Is there someone I want to raise, why haven't I seen it?"

Xiao Xiang lowered his eyes, rubbed his face carefully against the pillow, and said casually: "I threw it away when I moved."

"why?"

"Because...it's blooming."

He used to pray and look forward to the flowers blooming every day, always thinking that it was a sign that his mother forgave him.But when his wish came true, the blooming petals were like a huge irony, mocking his innocence and his wishful thinking!

Why beg for forgiveness?A man like him is unforgivable.

Meng Tanqiu stretched out his hands to comfort him, "I don't blame you."

"I'm a murderer." The young man's voice was hoarse, suppressing deep self-blame.

There was dense pain in his chest, Meng Tanqiu closed his eyes, but said firmly in a warm voice, "You are not."

Xiao wanted to purse the corners of his mouth, showing a cruel, fragmented and bleak smile, "I am!"

If he hadn't gone to the bar to get drunk that day, maybe, mom wouldn't have died.If he had obediently obeyed his father and stayed with his mother at home, perhaps, it would be a different scene now.

Unfortunately, no if.

Just because of that ridiculous and naive lovelorn, he made a big mistake that would make him die of pain!

Youth is young, but who will pay for his willful youth?

Meng Tanqiu couldn't bear to see his sad look, so he stretched out his hands to cover those eyes full of thousands of regrets.The eyelashes under the palm trembled slightly, so light and fragile, unable to keep the big teardrop overflowing from the eye socket.

Sighing with complicated emotions, Meng Tanqiu withdrew his hand, turned on the bed and hugged her tightly in his arms, veins appeared on his arms due to the strength.Only in this way, only in this way can he barely empathize with the young man in his arms.

In the end, how to soothe your broken soul?

Xiao Xiang, what should I do with you who make people feel distressed like this?

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