The Price of Rebirth [System]

In Zhouzhuang Dream Butterfly, I don’t know if I dreamed that I became a butterfly, or that the butterfly became myself.

Dreams and reality overlap and overlap, and you feel in a trance. In the end, when you open your eyes, you feel that everything is just a farce that lasted eight years.

Zhang Chongji looked at the man sitting beside the bed twisting the towel for him, the corners of his eyes were moist, but he couldn't cry. He wanted to hug the man in front of him, but his fingers trembled and he dared not move.

Zhang Chongji couldn't remember when he started to get sick, maybe it was just an association caused by a nightmare that led to all these consequences.

After waking up from the dream, everything was unraveled, but he felt that his willfulness left an indelible mark on that man for many years.

Hallucinations, hypnosis, recurring memory fragments... All these make Zhang Chongji feel ridiculous but realistic, and more of a steady peace of mind.

There is no hatred, no pretense, the person he loves most wakes him up from the nightmare and gives him all the emotions, this is perhaps what he should be most grateful for, he doesn't have to face the emotional torture in the dream, he can do what he wants choose.

In fact, there is no main god in the world at all, and the so-called main god is just a kind old man who is proficient in hypnotism.

Zhang Chongji vaguely remembered that in the hospital in the dream, his face had appeared beside the bed, and he was probably half asleep and half awake from the hypnosis at that time.

After waking up, he understood the truth of the whole matter, all the mysteries were solved, and the basis of all fantasies came from his most subconscious memory.

From the beginning when he wanted to avenge his parents and accepted the rebirth mission, he fell into the vortex created by himself. The so-called enemy does not exist at all, so how can there be revenge.

The so-called guarding Fu Jun... In fact, he just wanted to guard the memories of the past.

As for Fu Jun, he was the former self, naive, ignorant, foolish but with a bit of a hooligan air, with a powerful father who always made troubles everywhere, constantly attracting the attention of his parents, unwilling to bring his father with him. The title of parents and live a lifetime...

I miss the stubborn and ignorant boy who didn't understand all the ways of the world. He regretted not protecting his parents but wanted to go back to the carefree moment. That's why he conceived such an absurd task under the induction of hypnosis.

Maybe the gradual disappearance of him in the past will make him very painful now, just like the sudden disappearance of Fu Jun in a dream, taking away not only the childhood things in the past, but also the happiest time with his parents in memory Time, but maybe it was because he already had the courage to bid farewell to the self he thought he remembered, which naturally caused the disappearance of that boy. After all, all of this was his dream, wasn't it?

In the end, he was able to commit suicide successfully without cutting his wrists. At that time, Zhang Chongji understood that in his own dream, his fantasy could do anything.

He couldn't imagine how regretful he would be if he really used the Yuan brothers to realize the terrible and non-existent dream of rebirth and revenge.

Fortunately, everything stopped, everything was stopped by his own subconscious mind.

If it is said that Fu Jun is his past self, then Yuan Jun... I am afraid that he is an existence tending to his current self.

From the beginning to the end, he was the only one who felt Yuan Jun's weird, dark side, and the explanation for all this was because it was his own refracting surface.

Familiar gentle and shy, similar personality and smile, but with the same psychological barrier.

Zhang Chongji remembered the series of questions that Yuan Jun asked him with a knife in the white closed space at the end. Now that he thinks about it, he might just be questioning himself in his own subconscious.

In fact, Zhang Chongji hated himself subconsciously after knowing that he was sick. Sometimes his mind would clear up, and he could clearly see Yuan Chengke's distressed eyes looking at him but did not dare to approach him. of myself.

And the task of guiding hypnosis is actually just what he wants to achieve most in his heart, the revenge that he can't bear the blow of his parents' death, the undetectable love for Yuan Chengke, and the desire to truly forgive himself and learn to love himself, now it seems , If he didn't subconsciously want to achieve it, then how could hypnosis alone make him think of such a task, after all, all of this was his illusion.

Yuan, Cheng, Ke——Yuan Chengke, why couldn't he remember it stupidly at that time.

Yuan Cheng's profession is a lawyer, just because his professional profession is a lawyer, Yuan Cheng's heir, and Yuan Yuan's celebrity status are all conjectures based on Yuan Chengke, and even the characters of the three brothers are derived from Yuan Chengke's. What splits out from him, the silent tenderness, the occasional domineering, and even his fondness for secretly mocking power, all these are his well-founded subconscious.

In fact, he fell in love with him a long time ago.

Many of the memories of getting along with the Yuan brothers in the dream come from getting along with Yuan Chengke. He was fantasizing about contacting him, even fantasizing being with him, irresistible, subconscious feelings.

"Do you often push me to the park in the hospital to bask in the sun?"

Zhang Chongji let him wipe his face gently, squinted his eyes and asked, and saw the slightly startled eyes of the other party without any surprise.

"how do you know?"

Zhang Chongji just smiled, stretched out his arms to hug his body, and shook his head.

"My guess."

In fact, he woke up during the process of being hypnotized, but the reality of his previous side at that time was the real dream, and the first time he woke up was because Yuan Jun and Yuan Yuan were chatting under the tree The scene in front of him seemed familiar. Now that I think about it, it probably stimulated my deep memory. This is how he and Yuan Chengke met for the first time.

Yuan Yuan represents Yuan Chengke, and Yuan Yuan is himself.

Everything was solved under the explanation of hypnosis and fantasy, Zhang Zhongji hugged the man in front of him tightly, closed his eyes and whispered.

"Don't leave me, even if I get sick again, even if I..."

Zhang Chongji didn't go on, just because the other party kissed his lips.

"Fool..." After the soft kiss, he sighed softly, rubbed his lips lightly with his fingertips, and said in a hoarse voice with a little helplessness, "I've waited for you for so long...I won't let go."

Zhang Chongji doesn't know what will happen to them in the future, but he feels that he is so happy that he is about to die now.

With red eyes, he grabbed his arm and bit it down hard. The other party didn't struggle or resist, but just gently stroked his hair with one hand, and the steady and real breathing by his ears made his nose sore that he wanted to cry. speak up.

"Yuan Chengke, I bit you like this in my dream." He choked up and said, his eyes were red like a rabbit, "Just avoid you in the dream."

Yuan Chengke just looked at him tenderly, the corners of his lips curled up slightly, with a slight smile.

"...You also said that that person is me..."

If it were me, how could I have the heart to reject you, even in my dream, I would not be stingy in giving you more affection, just because you are you, my unique you.

Zhang Chongji didn't know what he was talking about, he spoke incoherently but refused to stop, and later he even talked a lot about Yuan Chengke in the dream, but the man holding him just patted his back and echoed softly.

"Yuan Chengke, you are actually an illegitimate child..."

Yuan Chengke gave a low laugh, and twisted his nose: "Ah, that's right."

"Yuan Chengke, I dreamed that you had a fiancee named Bai Lingling..."

"Fool, that's just a dog of mine."

"Yuan Chengke, I, I made love to you in my dream..." And more than once.

There was a pause in the slap on the back, and after a while, Zhang Chongji heard the man say "En—" in a low voice, and did not speak again.

Zhang Chongji reflexively wanted to raise his head to see his expression, but his eyes were covered by the opponent's palm.

"Chengke?"

"I really didn't expect that I would eat my own vinegar..."

His voice was a little annoyed, but Zhang Zhongji couldn't help laughing out loud.

Zhang Chongji lowered his head and hugged him tightly, and then whispered after a pause.

"It's great that I didn't lose you..."

Yuan Chengke just hugged him tightly, and sighed a little in his magnetic voice: "You never lost me."

"Yuan Chengke, as you wish," Zhang Chongji held back the inexplicable soreness in his nose, grabbed the front of his shirt tightly, and said hoarsely, "I'm in love with you."

What responded to him was the rare silence of a man, and when Zhang Chong could not help but raise his head, the other party sighed softly and said quietly.

"This sentence... I finally waited for it..."

All the hardships come, eight years of waiting, the answer I want, this is nothing more than that.

"Respect yourself, I plan to withdraw from the circle, let's... get married."

Zhang Chongji hugged his waist, buried his face in his chest, and muffled after a while.

"it is good."

The birds chirping outside the window continued, crisp and melodious, and the few rays of sunlight outside the window refracted on the faces of the two through the glass window, making the smiles at the corners of their lips a little warm and bright.

A silent sigh sounded, with deep satisfaction and tenderness.

"Chongji, I love you, I love you very much, almost to the bottom of my heart."

The final confession, the promise of a lifetime, the embrace of the two people is extraordinarily warm and happy under the sunlight.

Even if you miss it, even if you wait, even though the two fall in love through dreams and reality, you must believe that their road is still far, far away, and they will be very happy, very happy.