The Price of Rebirth [System]

Yuan Cheng never knew that a person's gentleness could hurt others like this.

Whether it is unintentionally or deliberately, and whether it is him or the lover who haunts his dreams.

Perhaps, they are no longer lovers, their current relationship is...no relationship at all.

He will be forced to hold an engagement ceremony tonight, but now the person he loves the most has left him. The cruel situation has already broken his heart and made it difficult to breathe.

Laughing a few times, Yuan Cheng shook the wine bottle in his hand, his originally quiet eyes were dimmed, not as calm and calm as before, and his clean and handsome cheeks were haggard in just one day. , messy beard, like a decadent homeless man.

There is no one to blame for all this, he deserves it, he is ignorant, he is...too cowardly.

Yuan Cheng lifted the wine bottle fiercely, and made a muffled sound when the stimulating wine was poured into his throat. He almost had no time to swallow, and the wine even flowed onto his clothes or the floor. Even though he was so sad, he never stopped. This is almost irrational behavior.

Until now, what is more sad than his heart?

They broke up, and he left, but it seemed that he quietly took away the starting point of his heartbeat.

Yuan Cheng never expected that he would be so obsessed with and love a man so deeply, so much that he couldn't extricate himself, so much that he couldn't breathe without him.

Yuan Cheng's laughter became weaker and weaker, and finally there were a few vague choking sounds.

I miss him so much, and love him so much, that even now I am unwilling to accept this ending relationship.

"Bang bang bang-"

"Yuan Cheng, what are you doing!! What do you want to do by hiding in there alone? Do you want to escape!"

Yuan Cheng turned a blind eye to Yuan's father's angry shouts and violent knocking on the door, as if all this had nothing to do with him. up to the ceiling.

"Bang bang bang-"

"Open the door for me! The invitations for tonight's ceremony have been sent out, and you can't escape!"

Yuan Cheng smiled sarcastically, and raised his eyes to look at the closed door, his eyes were gloomy and sad.

escape?Where can he escape to?Such pressing step by step has already made him suffocate so hard to breathe, although now he has already lost his motivation.

Before wanting to escape, it was because of that person's worry, because of that person's waiting, because he wanted to be with him, but now everything is like deceiving himself, he has no power to care about other things.

Yuan Cheng never thought that he and Wu Jing would break up, never thought about it.

But now it was like he had a sweet dream, which was broken to pieces by his father mercilessly, and it was difficult to put it together again.

There was continuous knocking on the door, accompanied by Yuan Hongtian cursing angrily, while Yuan Cheng was still leaning against the wall like a puppet, turning a blind eye.

"Quickly open the door, you villain, you are so depraved because of a woman, if it gets out, what face will our Yuan family face!?"

Face, face, are face and interests more important than anything else now? He doesn't even know whether the person he likes is a man or a woman, but now he is being forced to embark on a marriage that doesn't belong to him. This kind of man... ...is it really his father!

Yuan Cheng's eyes turned red with resentment, and he slammed the wine bottle in his hand towards the door. The round arc was accompanied by a "bang--", and the bottle was already in pieces when it fell to the ground.

The people outside the door were also startled by the sudden sound. After a while of silence, they knocked on the door more violently and gave an angry lecture with trills.

"Niezi, you naughty son, you have been raised for nothing for more than [-] years! Come out and see if I don't teach you a lesson!"

Hearing this cold and angry old voice who hated iron for not being steel, Yuan Cheng lowered his eyes and made his nose sour.

Even through a door, he could still imagine his father's wide-eyed look, just like... the sharp eyes that made him unable to help being weak since he was a child.

Since he was a child, he was not good at communication, he would give clumsy explanations for as many misunderstandings as possible, and was admonished by those sharp eyes time and time again, it has become a natural habit for Yuan Cheng now.

I don’t know when, he has stopped talking, maybe any explanation seems clumsy and self-deceiving, he has learned to treat others with silence at a young age, he is not as lively or naughty as ordinary children, he is just like a well-behaved And the quiet doll would just stay quietly in the corner, looking at everything ignorant with a pair of dazed and slightly timid eyes.

"You are the big brother, so you have to take on the responsibilities that a big brother should have."

An ordinary sentence, but it is like a mantra tightly entangled in my thoughts, penetrating through every breath of my life.

From accepting that sentence, he learned to be patient, he learned to take responsibility, he lost the right to act like a spoiled and self-willed brother to his parents, all because he is the eldest brother, the only elder brother among the children of the Yuan family.

Giving up the Yuan Group to his second brother was both expected and unexpected, but what really surprised him was his calm and erratic attitude.

When he agreed to land, he seemed to suddenly realize that his life seemed to be controlled by others, and he had no choice.

For Yuan Cheng, the profession of lawyer was the Achilles' heel at first.

He never thought that his father would arrange such a job for him, which made him more troublesome than managing the Yuan Group.

The articulate and eloquent skills required of him are not enough to meet the standards, but under the fierce eyes of his father, he is cowardly and dare not resist.

Forced choice, forced responsibility, forced learning and forced tolerance.

Scolding again and again for failure, practicing again and again, until his mouth and throat were sore, he didn't dare to take a breath until he won a game.

He is like a bird that is being driven forward without stopping or turning back. He can only fly non-stop until his wings are paralyzed, until he takes it for granted.

Yuan Cheng thought about it more than once, what would happen if the Yuan family lost his son, but the answer made him laugh silently.

Without Yuan Cheng, the Yuan family is still the same Yuan family. His status in the Yuan family is the eldest brother, but he is not an existence that cannot be lost.

I have never thought of rebelling against my father, and I have never been used to the impaired communication skills and clumsy explanations.

Until I met Wu Jing.

When they met for the first time, Yuan Cheng felt palpitations. He didn't know whether it was because of that smile or those intoxicating black eyes.

Unlike his father's sharp gaze, it is full of tenderness and warmth, as if you are the only one in that world.

With a shy and embarrassing smile, and a delicate and understanding mind, Yuan Cheng sinks step by step.

As he became more and more excited, he regarded Wu Jing as more and more important and cared more and more.

I want to hold him in my arms, I want him to rely on myself, I want to kiss the corners of his lips that always evoke.

The part of my heart that had long been numb became softer after he appeared, until finally it was hard to resist his appearance and smile.

Like him, like him.

The voice in his heart was ready to come out, and when he kissed those lips, almost his whole body trembled.

However, the shattering of this suddenly sweet dream caught him by surprise.

The first attempt to resist, the first time to suppress the fear of living in front of his father, he was full of the shadow of that person.

I want to be with him all the time, all the time, all the time.

I don't want to control my life anymore, that self who is cold on the surface and cowardly on the inside wants to be the master of this hard-won relationship for the first time.

Unexpectedly, his father's fury was ushered in, but he never expected that he would be under house arrest.

His father's methods have always been strong, and he can hardly find any chance to escape. Seeing that the time of engagement is getting closer, he is extremely anxious, and his thoughts become demons.

Until that woman appeared.

Bai Lingling's visit allowed him to find a perfect and flawless excuse. He seemed to be able to think of the way Wu Jing threw himself into his arms tightly and the two kissing wildly because of longing.

He would tell him that he wouldn't get engaged, even if he couldn't be the young master of the Yuan family, he would still be willing.

However, everything is because I think too naively, too ignorantly.

Yuan Cheng sneered at himself, kicked away the empty wine bottle at his feet, and fell to the ground as if unconscious, slowly closing his eyes, but everything that happened yesterday appeared again and again before his eyes.

"Xiao Jing, I have nothing to do with this woman...you believe me..."

He remembered that he explained it like this at the time, but the real meaning was only understood by himself.

It was obviously a misunderstanding that could be solved, but his clumsy explanation made that person even more dejected.

It doesn't matter, why doesn't it matter?

He doesn't love that woman at all, and all his acting is just for the freedom of house arrest these days, he doesn't care about his fiancée at all, he only cares about that person, that person who always pulls his thoughts and has a warm smile.

However, the kiss that Wu Jing saw was just brushed against the lips without even touching the corners of his mouth, even if it was only slightly brushed against the corner of the mouth, it was only by imagining her as him that he could barely do it.

His own playfulness, the stiff sense of joy that he desperately suppressed his disgust...all were taken seriously by him who saw everything, no matter how he explained it, he still regarded these as superfluous denials and cover-ups.

Just like the sentence "it doesn't matter" was regarded as a denial by that person after the kiss, Yuan Cheng clenched his fist, exposing his veins unbearably, at this moment he really hated himself, hated his momentary ignorance, hated himself This damn interpretation barrier, hating myself for being so damn cowardly.

If at that time he resolutely chose to take the opportunity to escape when her eyes were closed, wouldn't things be like this?

How could he have the heart to watch the person who wanted to hold him on the tip of his heart and shed tears, Yuan Cheng felt as if his heart had been pierced thousands of times by needles, no matter how much he used alcohol to paralyze his nerves, it would not help.

In the end, it turned out that he pushed the man away because of his clumsy explanation and ignorance.

Now he also resents why he is the young master of the Yuan family and why he must be forced to accept this forced marriage contract.

If he wasn't the young master of the Yuan family, would things be different?

"Xiaojing..."

Slowly stroking the bruise on his arm with his fingers, Yuan Cheng lowered his eyes, and the buried seed in his heart broke through the ground.

When he raised his eyes again, he could still see a bit of unwillingness and resentment amidst the decadence and pain, he pursed his lips, and Yuan Cheng quietly clenched his fists.

He still remembered that it was Yuan Ke who took Wu Jing away that day.

The author has something to say: In fact, Yuan Cheng is the most distressing character in my writing besides self-importance. Unlike other brothers in Yuan's family, although Yuan Cheng is the eldest brother, half of his life is controlled by his father.

But does he love his father? The answer is a matter of course, but at the same time, there is also a faint resentment in his heart. The frequent misunderstandings caused by his parents due to clumsy explanations since childhood have caused him harm that even he does not know. Communication barriers are not created overnight, but gradually accumulate from childhood to adulthood.The indifferent personality shown on the surface is just like what Wu's father said, it is a kind of shortcoming to cover up his inadequacy.

He loves his family business and loves any relatives of the Yuan family. The silent tenderness and care may be the most distressing part of him, and this is also the place where Zhongji will move his heart.

The appearance of Wu Jing made him learn to resist, and it also made the complaints in his heart erupt in those years. Yuan Cheng resisted but was still a little afraid in his heart because of his father's pressing so closely. After all, for more than 20 years Under Yuan's father's sharp and strict education and admonition, it is impossible to suddenly become a person who loves everything and is invincible.

That's why I wrote down the kiss between Yuan Cheng and Bai Lingling that was not considered a kiss. The reason why I kissed was because of the fear of Yuan's father and the faint cowardice that remained in my heart, and this also showed that Yuan Cheng was very love oneself deeply.

For the sake of self-respect, forbearance, for the sake of self-regression, it can be seen simply because Zhang Zhongji can give up the status of the Yuan family's young master.

He's not Yuan Ke. If it was Yuan Ke's temperament, he might slap him in the face and speak venomously at Bai Lingling, but he is Yuan Cheng, and he doesn't have the pampering and domineering methods of Yuan's father. Don't forget that he has always been passive in the past. choose.

The Yuan Cheng I wrote is not a man who is instantly invincible because of love. Maybe he was a little cowardly or indecisive at the beginning, but he will gradually become stronger in the future.

For the little angel who thinks that Yuan Cheng doesn't love himself or that he denies something after the kiss, I'm a little sad QAQ, so I'm here to dissect the big brother in my heart for everyone, maybe it's because I didn't write well>u<hope We have a lot of suggestions.

Every character in the novel is my baby, and of course I hope everyone loves them (the villains don’t need to love them haha), well, that’s it!

(Wow, that's a lot to write...)