Brother President, open the door for me

The two embraced in the rain, absorbing each other's warmth.

The school gate was about to close, but Lu Xiangnan still didn't let go.

Jiang Zhu also likes to hug Lu Xiangnan very much, because his arms are always real and give people a sense of security.

Jiang Zhu patted him on the back lightly, "Okay, okay, Uncle Security is still watching, don't be ashamed."

"No shame."

"The school gate is closed, why don't you go in?"

"elder brother."

Lu Xiangnan rested his chin on his shoulder, and Jiang Zhu could hear every breath very clearly.

"Well, I'm here."

Every time Jiang Zhu said "I'm here", Lu Xiangnan's eyes began to sore.

It has been 18 years, who would say "I am here" to him when he is in need, sad, or hurt?

As far as Jiang Zhu is concerned, he has no identity other than the neighbor next door, but Jiang Zhu is willing to tell him.

The best brother in the whole world.

Seeing him tightly hugging him without letting go or making a sound, Jiang Zhu touched the back of his head again, "What's wrong?"

"sorry."

These three words contain too much.

There is no need to explain, only these three words are enough.

Jiang Zhu was stunned for a moment, and said: "It's okay, ah. Don't overthink it, my brother wants to see you well, so you must take care of yourself, and don't do stupid things that hurt yourself. There will be another time , It’s useless for you to say sorry, brother will never forgive you.”

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

"With North and North, don't forget South and South."

So he was still fighting for favor with that cat?

Jiang Zhu grinned again, "Hey, what am I supposed to do. Just put your heart in your belly, brother will always put you first, okay?"

"keep your word."

"That must be true, can I still lie to you? Hurry up, puppy, oh, I'm so tired. Go, go, study hard."

Lu Xiangnan took a step and turned back three times, gradually disappearing into the darkness.

After thousands of urgings, he finally sent this ancestor to school.

Why is going back to school the same as being sent to the train station?It's not that we can't meet each other anymore, why are we so clingy with him?

Jiang Zhu held an umbrella and walked home along Beiwu Street.

At this point, there are almost no people on the street, and the raindrops have become a little lighter.

Because of the appearance of Lu Xiangnan, his original mood of walking was disturbed.

During the few days when he hadn’t seen Lu Xiangnan, Jiang Zhucai had just calmed down a bit, but when he looked up, he was standing across the road with earphones and an umbrella staring at him, and his heart was aroused by a small stone. waves.

He found himself as if... really liked him.

Not only the appearance that just grows in his own aesthetic point, but also his cuteness, his dependence, and all his every move, all the time provoking people.

If only he was 28 instead of eighteen.Jiang Zhu thought.

No, Liang Xiaonian said that he himself said that he is not gay, so what if he is 28?The straight love will only become unlucky...

Can't like him.

Can not be found by him.

Don't want to be hated by him.

Don't want to be disgusted by him.

It's really... so difficult.

**

The midterm exam is just around the corner, and senior high school students are starting an intensive review period.For Lu Xiangnan, every homework is very difficult.

The knowledge in the textbook was messy, and he couldn't point out the main points by himself. Looking at Liang Xiaonian's notes, the words were as ugly as a dog crawling, and he felt that there was no effect at all.There are all kinds of reference books on the market, and he can't find one that suits his situation.

In the physical education class, Lu Xiangnan didn't participate due to a leg injury, so he happened to sit under the shade of a tree with his textbooks and review every minute.

Shao Jie from the basketball team was sweating from playing basketball, and was about to go to the side to drink some water. He happened to see Lu Xiangnan, so he sat next to him, "Hey, Lu Xiangnan, you finally came to school, I almost thought you dead."

Lu Xiangnan ignored him.

"Damn it, what are you holding here? A physics book? Am I reading it right? Are you actually reviewing?"

Shao Jie reached out to grab his book as if he had discovered some new continent, but he accidentally touched his hand and was thrown away by him.

"Fuck! It hurts to death! Why don't you just take a look, as for this?"

"Do not touch me."

Shao Jie covered his hands in pain and complained: "What the hell, your eyes are like a wild wolf, as if you are about to eat people. It's boring. Hey, let me tell you, if you have good legs, you can sneak into the team Training, I just kindly remind you."

"Thanks."

"You still read the textbook for review. I will borrow other people's notes to read what can be seen from it."

It's not that he doesn't want to borrow, but the people who can borrow are simply unreliable, and he doesn't know the others well, so he can't hold back.

Shao Jie continued: "Oh, this notebook is really a good thing. I heard that every year Chenghai's senior high school notes are handed over to the school for collection. If you want me to say, it should be used to benefit mankind. What value is there other than ashes? Really."

"Where did you hear that?"

"You still don't believe me, why should I lie to you?"

Lu Xiangnan paused, closed the book and stood up, then said lightly: "Thank you." Then he turned and left.

He is going to the fourth floor to find the head teacher.

"Boom boom boom-"

"Come in." The head teacher pushed his glasses, and after seeing the person walking to the desk, a look of surprise flashed across his face, "Lu Xiangnan?"

In his memory, Lu Xiangnan had never taken the initiative to come to the office to look for him, except for being invited to drink tea when he got into trouble.

But they are all in the third year of high school, and the future of a sports student is obviously not the focus of the teacher's attention.

What is he here for?Is the sun coming out in the west?

"teacher."

"Yo, how are your legs?"

"Not perfect, but able to walk."

"You have to pay attention to this. If something happens at this time to delay the final physical exam, it won't be worth it. I don't care if you listen to me or not. I have to explain this to you. Don't be informed. Don't know? You have to pay attention to training, don't use too much force."

"Thank you, teacher."

Even a problem student is still a part of the class, and he has a piece of his heart. As a class teacher, he should be reminded when he should.Of course, Xiangnan also understands this point.

"So what are you looking for me for?"

"Teacher, can you get the notes of the previous champions in the college entrance examination?"

"Huh?" The head teacher calmed down and thought about it carefully, and said, "Well... ah, that's right, the notes of those champions in the past were given to their head teachers at the time for their collection. But because the textbooks and syllabus have not changed for so many years , Their notes can still be referred to now. I remember that some students asked me for it before, so I took it for them to copy."

"Have you brought the top scorer in the college entrance examination?"

"Of course, I have been teaching for many years, and I have taught several champions in science." Mentoring this, the class teacher had to start to swell, "I am most impressed by the first few... the first few What? I forgot, anyway, the number one student in science back then was a boy. He was a child prodigy, really smart and handsome, and his name was Jiang Zhu. If you count it...should be working, right?"

Lu Xiangnan's eyebrows twitched.

What a coincidence that Jiang Zhu's head teacher back then was his head teacher?

After the head teacher was proud, his attention finally returned to Lu Xiangnan, "What's the matter, you want to copy?"

"Can you?"

"Of course you can, er... I don't know where you heard it from. Anyway, you can print it secretly. If all the students find out one by one, they will all print it. I think things like notes are still You should do it yourself, lest they all want to take shortcuts and be lazy. But you are in a special situation, you can take special care, take it to print, and return it to me before next Monday."

"Thank you, teacher."

"You, it's the first time I've heard you say thank you so many times, I'm quite flattered."

At the end of the self-study get out of class that night, when the students in the teaching building basically disappeared, Lu Xiangnan quietly followed the class teacher into the office to take notes.

The homeroom teacher packed it in a bag for him, and then helped him put it in the schoolbag, "The prodigy's notes, please return them to me intact when the time comes, and don't lose any of them."

"I will."

After ten o'clock in the evening, Lu Xiangnan rode his bicycle home and walked that road again. His mind was full of the image of Jiang Zhu holding an umbrella for the cat by the side of the road.

childish.

kid.

little man.

These labels slapped Lu Xiangnan on the face, making him very uncomfortable.

Obviously, Jiang Zhu didn't see him as a man at all.

Ji Wen told him that Jiang Zhu likes mature men.

So how far is he from maturity?Is he... really naive?

So he began to think carefully about the details of getting along with Jiang Zhu, and the many stupid things he did with his own thoughts.

...It seems that he is indeed very immature, and has brought some troubles to Jiang Zhu.

He doesn't like Ji Wen, but he can't ignore what Ji Wen said, and he must admit——

Now the road is going south, and Jiang Zhu can't give anything.

Also, he felt that he was not good enough for Jiang Zhu.

Jiang Zhu has been so outstanding since he was a child, and he is praised and praised by people all over his body.

But what about him?His grades are mediocre, and his source of income is the pitiful 800 yuan living expenses given by his mother besides Zidiao.

He is not good enough for Jiang Zhu.

But he just likes it.

He was not reconciled.

Could this also be a kind of immaturity?

... so annoying.

When Lu Xiangnan returned to the door of his house, he first looked into the cat's eye on the opposite door.

It was dark inside and the lights were off, so Jiang Zhu had probably fallen asleep.

Don't always trouble your brother.

Don't always trouble your brother, be more mature, and go south.

He told himself over and over again.

A person returned to his home, back to the long-lost desk, he took out the bag given to him by the head teacher with some excitement, and put the notes in the bag on the table one by one.

The style of these notebooks is very old-fashioned, and it is almost impossible to see them in stationery stores now. The pages that are opened are all yellowed, and the footers of the pages are fainted into dark brown.

Lu Xiangnan turned on the lamp to the brightest, took a random book, and flipped through the pages.

Jiang Zhu's handwriting is really the most beautiful handwriting he has ever seen, both neat and self-contained.

Every line of formula and every paragraph of explanation is clear, concise, and easy to understand, and its quality is no less than any other tutorial book out there.

Looking at Jiang Zhu's handwriting, Lu Xiangnan seemed to see a young man who was sitting at his desk studying and taking notes ten years ago.

It was as if he was talking to Jiang Zhu across the air.

It's a wonderful feeling.

What does Jiang Zhu look like?

He put the notebook in his hand back to its original place, but his eyes were attracted by a small sky blue notebook.

This notebook is so small, what is it used for?Could it be some formula?

Lu Xiangnan opened it curiously to have a look.

There are four neat words written on the cover: life notes.

So... is this a diary?

Maybe it was mixed in the notes, and I didn't pay attention and gave it to the school?

Lu Xiangnan carefully opened it as if he had discovered a peerless treasure.

[Monday, the weather is fine]

Exactly one year before the college entrance examination, I finally won the first prize in the national mathematics competition, I am happy.Try to get the first prize in physics!

[Tuesday, cloudy weather]

Hanhan is always not motivated, and it is almost time for the city's second-mode exam, but he still goes to Internet cafes every day, it's really embarrassing.

[Wednesday, rainy weather]

I went to the provincial competition today and left a good impression on the judges and teachers. I hope I can get the gold medal.

[Thursday, the weather is fine]

I got the 60-point score reduction qualification for University A, but I can't relax at all in the college entrance examination!

[Friday, cloudy weather]

The study committee member confessed to me, I can only refuse on the grounds of the college entrance examination, I hope she can understand me.

【Saturday, rainy weather】

Today, Huazi and Chen Feng officially broke up with me, because they discovered the secret of my homosexuality.

I don't understand, can't I be friends with guys because I'm gay?It's been a year of friendship...

Now I only have Hanhan left.

uncomfortable.

[Sunday, cloudy weather]

Is homosexuality really disgusting?

Am I disgusting?

I just like boys, am I wrong?

Am I unworthy of friends?

They still laugh at me behind my back and despise me.

I do not understand.

uncomfortable.Crying face

Lu Xiangnan touched the little crying face he drew, and continued to look behind.

[Monday, the weather is fine]

Forget it, I still have Hanhan to accompany me.

Take the exam well and ignore them.

[Tuesday, cloudy weather]

Today I took my cousin Changchang to the playground, and he also brought a little boy.

This little boy doesn't seem to talk much, and he doesn't smile much, but he is so cute.The eyes are big, and the eyelashes are very long, like a doll.

I asked him if he wanted to go to the park with us and he just shook his head, but his eyes told me he wanted to, so I just picked him up and said I would take him, and then he seemed to finally smile?Haha, it's so cute.

Lu Xiangnan froze there.

He didn't expect that he would appear in Jiang Zhu's diary.

So he read the diary for that day from beginning to end, word for word, for fear of missing any word.

(according to Jiang Zhu's diary content)

The little boy really looks better the more he looks at him, how much better he looks when he grows up.

I took the little boy and Changchang to play on the big boat. Changchang was quite courageous, but the little boy couldn’t do it. He hugged me and cried the whole time. I laughed unkindly haha.

There was a performance in the park at night, and I let the little boy sit on my shoulder so he could see the performance.

He was laughing over my head the whole time, which was nice.

He smiles so nicely.

I like to see him laugh.

Lu Xiangnan's eyes couldn't help becoming sore.

Keep looking down.

The little boy walked very slowly, and there were a lot of people. I was afraid that he would get lost, so I had to hold his little hand carefully.

His hand was so cold, I put it in my pocket and covered it, and it finally got warmer.

After watching the performance, we went to take a photo with the teddy bear. The little boy opened his arms and asked me to hug him, haha, so cute.

Why does such a cute little boy have no friends?

The little boy left, and I realized that I hadn't asked his name yet.

Hey, forget it, maybe he doesn't necessarily remember me as a big brother.

I guess I won't see you again...

I actually recorded so much in my diary today...it's time to go to bed, there's still class tomorrow.

go to bed.

On another page turned over, there was an old photo sandwiched between them.

Jiang Zhu in the middle of the photo lifted him up and held him in his arms, and Liang Xiaonian standing beside him was laughing while hugging a brown teddy bear.

Lu Xiangnan pinched the yellowed photo, and gently stroked Jiang Zhu's face with his fingertips, "I've never forgotten you, brother."

A tear fell from the corner of his eye and wet the photo.

This empty room, because of this small old photo, has gradually warmed up.