implication [end times]

[The 29th letter from Hem to Ran Yu] (excerpt)

Recently, I have found it difficult to grasp the degree of some things.There are so many trivial things to consider when dealing with people, and most of the frustration in my life comes from this.I remember when I first entered school, I was still very young, and I couldn’t remember whether it was five or six years old. The instructor assigned tasks in groups and asked us to play games. The winning party was rewarded.I really wanted the reward, and I got it, I just forgot what I was doing, it's been so long.I just remember the other kids standing away from me, including my "teammates," looking scared and accusing me of going overboard or something.The vocabulary of a five- or six-year-old child is sky-high.I don't think it's wrong, because that's the most direct way to solve the problem.Also, even though I knew I wasn't doing it right and couldn't show it to anyone, people couldn't really understand each other, and that's something I already knew back then.

Later, I tried to imitate some of my peers who are often praised and loved, they are gentle and polite, not impatient.The imitation may have achieved some results, and I have become much better, at least on the surface, but I don't know if I am still myself after incorporating many other people's behavioral characteristics.Later, over the years, I gradually realized and admitted my despicableness, emotionality, excessive desire for control and sense of territory. These things cannot be concealed no matter how much I imitate others. They are like fish hiding in a shallow pond. I thought I was hiding deep, but the people by the pool could easily see them.

I seem to be getting more and more used to writing letters as confessions, which is wonderful.Every time I receive and send a letter like this, it seems to rearrange my chaotic self into order and even prosperity.After writing so much, I looked back and realized that this letter was a bit abstract. The idea of ​​chaos and order was said by an old man. He talked about it all day long. I suspected that I was brainwashed, so I wrote like this.

For some very complicated reasons, I know an old man who talks a lot about philosophy.He didn't know me at first, and when he saw me sometimes appearing nearby, he regarded me as an idle passerby, and forced me to discuss philosophy.I don't understand these things. He likes Zhuangzi and Laozi first, and Plato and Aristotle second.He said that the human soul is divided into many parts, and only an orderly soul can achieve happiness and harmony, and prosperity is the ultimate pursuit.Maybe you will meet that old man when you enter the city, he is on the third ring road.Although he sometimes has a bad temper and sometimes looks like a different person, he is indeed a learned man, and he can even be called the top wise man in the main city.If you have a chance, you can chat with him more, he will probably like you very much.

Your friend who's trying to be uncluttered: hum

Ding Taitai and Xu Peier's wedding was kept simple, they just cooked a few extra tables for colleagues to have a dinner together.Those who come to the wedding can't be idle, one counts as one, and they all have to do some work to help.

Although the special operations team was established independently, it was stationed in the city defense military area, in a relatively remote location, close to a forest, and there was an open space nearby for training.This newly designated city defense military area is around the huge buffer zone outside the high wall of the checkpoint, which is convenient for soldiers to deal with the enemy's situation at any time.With the lessons learned from the second outbreak of sea ghosts in the Sanhuan Mental Hospital, people dare not relax their vigilance this time, and have established a relatively complete daily guard and emergency response mechanism.During the recent period, there has been no movement outside the high wall, and the air defense force has been fully deployed. The head of the Ecology and Environment Department who had failed his duty before was dismissed. The new jammer is ready, and there are no suspicious flying creatures in the sky above the main city.

Zhan Yiye, He Rongsheng and others went to help in the kitchen.Li Shuxiu, a person who has never been in the kitchen, was in charge of styling the bride and groom. He used a bunch of fancy things to make the two of them fragrant and shiny. They were indeed much prettier than usual. Xiang An and Brother Ta were in charge of moving the tables and chairs. I was dumbfounded.Considering that Ran Yu had just been released, he was assigned some light work, spreading the tablecloth and arranging the tableware, which was not interesting, but he was able to walk around more or less, so he had a good time doing it.

This meal was borrowed from a small cafeteria of the action team. Since the main city lost its extensive crop planting land and various processing factories since the fall of the Third Ring Road, the supplies needed for life have gradually become scarce. Potatoes and cabbage have become the main force on people's tables. However, it is also difficult to eat a meal of meat in the canteen of the city defense army.For this wedding, many ingredients were specially approved by the superiors.In addition to the family members of colleagues who came to eat, the kitchen assistants also included some ordinary residents of the Second Ring Road who had been helping in the cafeteria. They were cooking and chatting in twos and threes at this time.

They say that it is good to have more relatives when you get married, and it is the most precious thing to be around these days.

They also said that as the situation outside became tense, more people got married.This is precarious, and there must be a stable place in my heart, otherwise people will easily go crazy.

They also said, fortunately, we are all lucky, and our family members are fine, so what kind of child sees his mother being eaten by sea ghosts, how will the child live in the future.

When the sea ghost was mentioned, the conversation became heated. Some cursed, some were afraid, some complained that the City Defense Army and the Security Bureau did not discover the disaster early, some repeatedly mentioned the tragic experience of their friends and neighbors being killed, and then they all sighed together.Several people also expressed excitedly, isn't it just a group of things that are about the same size as people, so difficult to deal with?The City Defense Army and the Security Bureau spend so much money raising elite soldiers, they are all a bunch of paper soldiers!If I were to go to war, I'd chug them all with a machine gun.

Someone reminded that it is said that sea ghosts are not afraid of bullets.

The few people yelled in disbelief, even a living thing would be afraid of bullets!Have you ever been on a battlefield and seen a sea ghost?Don't be sensational here.

None of the people talking had ever seen sea ghosts with their own eyes, so the few who were going to charge into the group of sea ghosts with guns to show their masculinity had a good time—by virtue of their brave lips.

Zhan Yiye and He Rongsheng, the only two in this kitchen who had fought sea ghosts personally many times, were in charge of cooking the soup in the corner, busy without saying a word.

After finishing the pot, Zhan Yiye tasted it with a small spoon, smiled, and said, "My dad used to make three delicacies chicken soup, which was delicious. He said to add some sugar to make it fresher. But I seem to add too much , it's really hard to drink."

He Rongsheng also took a new spoon and tasted it, but it was really not good.

Zhan Yiye mixed the water, added salt again, covered the pot, and asked, "Do you think Ran Yu might have colluded with the sea ghost? He even saved me."

He Rongsheng said: "I don't think so. Ran Yu is on our side and won't help the sea ghost attack us. If so, why would the city lord let him out, and how could Lou Yue get so close to him."

"Too."

Although the people over there lowered their voices, laughter and laughter continued uninterrupted.

Zhan Yiye and He Rongsheng chatted one after another, and the pot finally boiled and bubbled, and the aroma was overflowing.Zhan Yiye turned off the fire, and after being bored for a while, sprinkled finely chopped green onions.The lid was still on to keep it warm.

"The meal is ready," Zhan Yiye said, "The kitchen is so hot, I'll go out to get some air first, and I'll be there in a while."

He Rongsheng looked at Zhan Yiye's eyes that might have been wet and red from the heat of the food, handed her a tissue, and said, "Okay, don't worry, the dinner is still early."

"Thank you."

When Yan Ai and Lou Yue arrived near the training ground of the action team, they saw Zhan Yiye coming out of the back kitchen of the cafeteria, huddled in a small corner behind the door, bowed his head and faced the wall, and seemed to be in a very depressed mood.

"Give her some space," Yan Ai glanced at her trembling shoulders, and said softly, "Shall we go to the side and continue?"

Lou Yue nodded.When they walked to the open space next to them, Yan Ai's eyes remained on the entrance of the cafeteria.

"Are you looking for Shi Xun?"

"Well, she's been doing research on the front line during this time, and she seems to have a good relationship with Team Ten. It is said that she will come."

"So you insisted on finding an excuse to go with me after the meeting, but in fact you just wanted to pretend to meet me by chance." Lou Yue raised his eyebrows and said, "May I ask, what is your current state?"

"It's a fact that the topic has not been discussed," Yan Ai said, "We haven't studied the newly released data of the Leitu system, and there has been new progress in the research on links. Which one do you think we will talk about first?"

"Let's talk about Shi Xun first."

"...Okay," Yan Ai confronted Lou Yue for a while, sighed resignedly, and smiled wryly, "She doesn't remember me at all now."

Then, Yan Ai looked at the sky where the sunset was just emerging not far away, and talked about the past.

"Before she died, we had a quarrel. I had a very important impromptu meeting that day, and the meeting lasted from evening to late at night. I didn't go to the restaurant she had booked to eat together. We had been together for a long time at that time, and both of us I am very busy, and it is common to miss an appointment. After the end, I was very tired, and my academic results were pointed out as major flaws. I felt very sad and just wanted to go home and rest. She came to pick me up and insisted on taking me to that restaurant , the environment there is very good but it is far away, and it takes nearly an hour and a half to drive. I didn't want to go, and said a few harsh words. She usually has a good temper and is good at coaxing people, but she didn't say anything that day, and turned her head away. Gone. When I got home, I remembered that it was her birthday. I sent her a lot of messages, but she didn't reply to me. I was also angry and didn't continue to contact her. The next morning I learned of her accidental death. News. She has a pair of proposal rings in her bag."

The moment Yan Ai recognized Shi Xun, Shi Xun's condition had already started to deteriorate.The little girl named Shanqun spent significantly longer time occupying her body. She gradually learned a lot of professional knowledge that Shi Xun only knew, but she was indeed not Shi Xun.Sometimes she would suddenly mutter nervously: "Do you believe that viruses are conscious?" "Do we count as viruses, do those sea ghosts count as viruses?" "They're approaching, I'm going to disappear." But soon , she will become a normal person again, offering excellent insights on the subject.

Lou Yue was silent for a while, and asked: "The things you checked with my authority some time ago were about her case back then?"

"Yes, I have never believed that she died by accident, and so did Professor Yuan. Their causes of death are too similar. And I asked for some suspicious details..."

Ran Yu's voice suddenly sounded from not far away: "You guys are here, aren't you coming in for dinner?"

Yan Ai frowned slightly. Although she had a good impression of Ran Yu and was approachable in daily life, she was an out-and-out workaholic just like Lou Yue, and it would be a bit awkward to be interrupted when discussing serious issues. Unhappy, even Shi Xun back then did not dare to disturb her work and discussions.She thought that Lou Yue was more or less the same, but Lou Yue's attention was all on Ran Yu's sleeve.

"Why did you get dusty? Who told you to do heavy work?" Lou Yue stepped forward, patted Ran Yu's sleeves, and tidied them up again.

"Oh no, I accidentally rubbed against the wall." Ran Yu said, "Come in quickly, the snacks are limited, and they will be gone if they are late."

As he spoke, he took out a bag of small biscuits from his pocket and stuffed it into Lou Yue's trouser pocket quite naturally.

Yan Ai, who had been ignored the whole time, coughed lightly as if he couldn't stand it, walked around the two of them and walked towards the entrance of the cafeteria.

A burst of explosions suddenly came from a high altitude not far away, followed by a scalp-numbing electrical current.

"They're restless again." Yan Ai said.

"Yes, it's always like this." Ran Yu said.

Yan Ai seemed to be interested in such unnutritious questions and answers.For reasons well known to everyone, she knew that there would be no definite answer to the question: "What do those sea ghosts think?"

"Oh, I don't know what it thinks."

After some conversations that amounted to nothing, the cafeteria soon arrived. Ran Yu arranged for them to sit down, poured hot water, took some snacks, and went to work.Before leaving, Lou Yue patted Ran Yu's shoulder and said, "Don't worry, it's fine."

Ran Yu's tense expression just now relaxed a little, he nodded and walked away.

Yan Ai quietly breathed a sigh of relief: "It's tiring to talk like this, and you have to think too much. But Ran Yu should be even more tired. He not only needs to control his mouth, but also his thoughts. This is what I want to discuss with you today , but we came here temporarily, I have compiled materials here, if you are interested, you can take a look first."

With that said, Yan Ai opened the briefcase and handed a stack of documents to Lou Yue.

Lou Yue took the document and suddenly asked, "Have you noticed that there are some grammatical problems in Ran Yu's words just now?"

Yan Ai thought for a while: "My Chinese is not very good, but did he use the wrong pronoun? It should be 'they' instead of 'it'. Although spoken English doesn't matter so much, but his situation is special, so he really can't be careless. "

Lou Yue nodded, looking down at the document seriously.

Yan Ai picked up the hot water cup, glanced at Lou Yue, then at Ran Yu who was helping his teammates clean up the tableware, and murmured: "If I could be gentler at that time..." She took a sip of hot water. The words were drowned in the rising white mist.