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【The 32nd letter from Hem to Ran Yu】(not sent)

To Ran Yu:

This should be the last letter I write to you.I received your letter last week. The city entrance examination is about to begin. I believe that with your ability, you will be able to pass the examination and enter the city.If this letter is mailed on time, you may receive it before you enter the city.However, after thinking about it, I decided not to send it.If we meet in the future, maybe I will hand this letter to you.Maybe we'll never meet.I can't tell which possibility I'm more looking forward to.

Spoken language is different from written language. I can express my heart to you in the letter, but when I think of meeting, I still feel very scared. I don’t know if you feel the same way.

I seldom mentioned my parents to you before because I didn't know how to write them.I lived with my mother since I was a child, and I have rarely seen her since I can remember.When I was four or five years old, she bribed my father's staff and secretly took me to see her.My men told me that my mother was crazy, so she had chains on her feet to prevent her from hurting herself or others.Every time we met, we were accompanied by someone, separated by a long distance, and my mother was always very cold to me.

The only time she showed any unusual enthusiasm for me was when she cheated the escort.She smiled at me, let me get close to her, into her arms, and then grabbed my neck with her bony hands.That was the first time in my life that I experienced the feeling of near death.It didn't take long for his father to arrive. He first threw the body of the bribed man into the house, and then stabbed his mother with the bloody sword in his hand.That was also the first time I heard human screams at such a close distance, and I was quickly taken away by his men.

Later I found out that my father was a rapist and my mother was originally the daughter of the famous scientist Professor Yuan Qiong.Not only that, but she is strong and agile, brave and resourceful. She has made many meritorious deeds at a young age, with medals on her shoulders, and her future is limitless.My father thought her genes were good enough, and he was satisfied that he chose her to bear his offspring.He used his authority to make her lose her military rank, lock her into a house, and force her to give birth to me.

It is said that during the production process, she seized the rare opportunity to commit suicide, but failed.In the next five or six years, she was forced to conceive three more times, and each time she would find a way to abort, and eventually lost her fertility.It is said that she tried to kill me that day. My father pierced her body with an epee, but skillfully avoided the internal organs. She died thirteen hours later.

I learned this from my father’s subordinates chatting secretly. Later, those subordinates disappeared. I knew that they were killed by my father. There was a new wave of people around me to take care of me and raise me.They thought I didn't remember anything, and they made up many lies about my strict father and loving mother, saying that my parents were a perfect match, that my mother died of illness not long ago, and my father was very sad.Actually, I remember everything, I just don't talk about it.

When we first communicated, I told you that it’s good to call me Hum Hem. Hum Hum is my nickname given to me by my mother. At first glance, it sounds like a kind and lovely nickname.Later I learned that the name she gave me at first was not "hum", but "hate", and she hoped that I would grow up in hatred.I understand my mother and grandfather's hatred and dislike for me because I feel the same way about my own birth.After my mother died, no one dared to call me by my nickname.Now that I think about it, I might have decided to use that name out of some kind of cheap atonement.

My father doesn't really deserve to be called father, but out of habit and his request, I must.He loves cold weapons. When I was young, other people might teach games and sports, but he taught me how to torture to extract confessions.I was terrified at first and he told me it was just a tool for repairing things that didn't work.He often said to me, "Everyone else is a tool, and I am the one who uses the tool. I hope you are like me, because you are my continuation."

When I was a teenager, maybe because of the rebellious adolescence, I couldn't bear it anymore.I told my father myself that my wish was to kill him.Instead of getting angry, he smiled and said he would wait for me.This is the story about me and my parents.

I need to admit that some of the good stories I told you in my letter before are false.I have never gone to fly a kite with my parents, I am not a sincere and kind person, I am not a person who can make people happy, I never have hope in life.

I don't know if you are still willing to be friends with me after you know these not-so-good truths.I've been loath to tell you my real name because I have a bad reputation in town, and I do.I don't dare to expect to be forgiven by you, nor do I dare to imagine that you can agree with me.I don't know if I qualify, but in this letter you probably won't see, I still want to selfishly give myself a name that makes me happy.

Your best friend: Lou Yue

After walking out of the ward, Lou Yue asked An An to inform the communication room of the inspection team, and asked the team members to check if there were any survivors at the post office station closest to the main city, and asked if they could provide a vehicle to pick them up.

Immediately afterwards, he contacted Albert and Old Wei, asked them to meet in the military conference room next to the checkpoint, and asked them their views on the current large-scale sleepwalking crowd.

Albert held back his anger and said that the manpower he and Director Wei sent to maintain stability was stopped by Commander Feng.The Military Management Department is the central department of the main city, and its authority is higher than that of the City Defense Army and the Security Bureau. Minister Feng's title is Commander-in-Chief, which is higher than the Army Commander Albert.

"Old Feng only shows courteousness to the city lord every day, and never takes the initiative to take matters into his own hands. It seems that this is what the city lord means." Director Wei was also annoyed by the current situation, and even forgot to use a decent official accent, talking more and more Yue Shicheng said, "I'm really not sure now, whether the city lord wants to defend the main city or destroy it."

Albert is not as reserved as Old Wei. He has always lived in the army and relied on military merits to speak. The recent disasters have all worn away the layer of bureaucracy on his surface.The countless dissatisfaction and short-sighted irritability in recent months have been superimposed, and he is angry from the heart, regardless of his anger: "From the riots to the appearance of sea ghosts, and then to the fall of the second and third rings, the city lord has been silent Buxiang didn’t say anything, he didn’t use the people from the Military Control Department to support us, he didn’t show up to boost morale, and now he’s letting Lao Feng interfere in the management of public security. Does he want to break the pot and let everyone die together?”

Lou Yue saw their demeanor and language in his eyes, knowing that they were not supporters of the city lord, so he told them the news he had recently received.

After listening to this, Albert and Old Wei's faces became uglier than the other.

"Fuck him, he really wants us to die together." Albert cursed in a low voice.

Old Wei tremblingly said: "Captain Lou, this is not a joke."

Lou Yue: "Director Wei thinks I like to joke about the lives of the whole city?"

Old Wei: "Aren't we finished with external and internal troubles? What shall we do next... Captain Lou, tell us this, do you already have an idea?"

"It doesn't count as having an idea. We can only take one step at a time." Lou Yue said, "I can't do it alone. I need you to help me and stand by my side. We need to get rid of all the people or monsters that endanger the safety of the main city." .”

The small conference room was silent for a few seconds.The other two people who have lived in the officialdom for a long time can certainly hear that this is not a simple information sharing. Captain Lou is inviting them to rebel together, and may even kill the city lord.

Albert: "It's about this time. It's a matter of life and death. Captain Lou, no matter what you order, I will definitely do it."

Old Wei also nodded repeatedly.

"Okay, then we have a happy cooperation." Lou Yue said, "First of all, I need to borrow your manpower to replace the problematic sprinklers and disinfect them well. Secondly, send people who have not been successfully controlled to observe secretly. The military and police personnel for infection control should register. Tonight is the first large-scale experiment of the city lord, and he does not yet have the ability to control everyone. At present, he and Li Jing don't know that we already know what they are doing. It's our only advantage to be in the dark, and we can't startle the enemy. In addition, Yan Ai still has some preparations to be done and conjectures that need to be confirmed."

"clear."

Albert and Old Wei continued to discuss the details of the investigation and defense, while Lou Yue received a message from the team members, saying that a post office station outside the city had responded.

The station of the post office that responded was about [-] kilometers away from the main city. The station manager claimed to be Lao Wang, and said that Ran Yu had worked there, and he knew Ran Yu’s address. Smoke, there should be people living in it.Stationmaster Wang said that the exit of the secret road is near the main city, and Ran Yu’s house is between the post office and the main city. Going to the exit of the secret road first and then turning back will run hundreds of kilometers, which is dangerous and not worth it.

The communication outside the city was up and down. The colleagues in the communication room communicated with Lao Wang a few times, and finally figured out what the other party wanted.

Stationmaster Wang said that this post office site has become a small distribution center since the outbreak of the sea ghost tide, attracting many surrounding retail investors.There used to be hundreds of people there, but due to the shortage of supplies, many people who went out to ask for help and forage never returned, and now there are only twelve people left.At that time, they didn't or didn't dare to realize that the people in the city were too busy to take care of themselves, so how could they think of saving them.

At present, they have no food and water, and they will die if they stay any longer, so they decided to give it a try and expressed their willingness to go to Ran Yu's house to rescue people and send them to the city, on the condition that the surviving 12 people will enter the city together.Lou Yue agreed.

"There are only a dozen of you, can you do it?" Lou Yue asked.

"If you can't do it, you have to do it. Whether you can live or not is just a matter of trembling," Lao Wang said frankly, "Even though we are small, these are all elites who can live outside the city for so long, and they are lucky. We have done this kind of mission before, and it is the safest way to finish the mission, and I am most afraid of those who drive back and forth to pick up reinforcements and then turn back, it is easy to expose their whereabouts."

"it is good."

Lou Yue decided to go to the commercial building on Wisteria Road after finishing other urgent matters at hand.He knew that what Lao Wang said was indeed the most appropriate choice at the moment, but he couldn't go out of the city to save people by himself, which always made him feel uneasy.There are too many unknowns and dangers on the road, and every mistake may bring the worst result.

The sleepwalking crowd in the first ring is like a monster that cannot adapt to its huge body, twisting its limbs composed of countless individuals, tirelessly and painlessly bumping and beating against the things that hinder their progress.The crowd gradually gathered near the middle section of Wisteria Road, and Lao Feng sent people to cordon off the outside, preventing others from entering and people inside from coming out.

Inside the four-square cordon, the crowd huddled together like a trapped beast, ramming wantonly in the arena.

A small wooden attic was first crashed, and the wooden boards and bricks smashed to the ground.The crowd, like children just learning to use their hands, picked up planks and bricks and continued to beat other buildings and shops.Before long, the flimsy little shop was in ruins.

At this time, Lou Yue had just arrived at the commercial building on Wisteria Road. This building was outside the cordon, but not far from the crowd.He silently watched the hopeless and chaotic crowd through the iron gate of the fence, remembered the layers of lies about the Leitu system, remembered the contempt of human beings at the beginning of the sea ghost and the fear of extinction now, thought of the unknown future, thought of himself The folding ax in the briefcase.

After waiting for an unknown amount of time, the Milky Way in the night sky was already clearly visible.There was a sudden commotion outside the fence gate, the crowd broke through the cordon, and they rushed forward like a torrent after receiving some orders.

At this time, the door leading to the basement behind Lou Yue was opened.

The first one to come out was a very energetic old man. He muttered: "So this is the building in the city, it's really big...Hey, you are the captain, right? You mean what you say? We won't leave Already."

Lou Yue nodded: "Yes, don't worry, I have applied for resettlement qualifications for you."

He looked behind the old man while talking, and when he saw Ran Yu, his heart suddenly fell back into his stomach.

Ran Yu also looked at him quietly, without saying a word.

There were not more than a dozen people in this group, and with Ran Yu included, there were only eight left.They were all wounded to some extent, their faces were tired and painful, and they knew without thinking that they must have gone through countless difficulties and obstacles.

Lou Yue said: "Turn left on the second basement floor and there is a supermarket and a bathroom. I have made an agreement with the store manager. You can go and pick up something to eat first, take a bath and rest for a while, and then go to resettle after the outsiders leave. land."

The group's eyes finally lit up.

Xiang Anxiang, who followed behind, led them to the second basement floor, while Ran Yu stayed where he was, looking at him without blinking.

"What's the matter, is there something on my face?" Lou Yue smiled, took out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped his cheek.

Probably because he hadn't rested for too long, or because he was patronizing to look at Ran Yu, he accidentally dropped the handkerchief in his hand and didn't notice it.

Ran Yu took a few steps closer, picked up the moon-white handkerchief on the ground, and handed it to Lou Yue: "You lost the handkerchief."

"Thank you." Lou Yue took the handkerchief and froze suddenly.

The corner of the handkerchief was embroidered with a small word "Yu" with silver thread, which was the piece that Ran Yu sent with the letter back then.

Ran Yu seemed to know what Lou Yue knew, and froze for a moment.

The two looked at each other, there was a lot to say, but they didn't know where to start.

In the end, it was Lou Yue who asked first, "When did you know it was mine?"

Ran Yu recalled for a while, and said, "It was very early, at the beginning."

"No wonder." Lou Yue said.

"Ah."

"Why didn't you ask me before?"

"It feels like you don't want to be recognized, so you didn't ask."

Lou Yue was silent for a while, and suddenly asked: "I know that the second ring road was out of power that night, when I saw the candle tears you left on the desk, what was the first thing that came to my mind?"

Ran Yu shook his head.

Lou Yue smiled embarrassingly: "It's a poem, I don't know if you have learned it in the general education textbook. 'Thinking of the king is like a candle, burning the heart and holding tears.'"

Ran Yu's vigilance soared with his greasy smile and strange words. He leaned back slightly and said stiffly, "I have no education. I don't understand."

Lou Yue: "It means that you miss me very much."

Ran Yu turned his head and left.

Lou Yue grabbed his wrist with a smile, opened his arms, and buried him in his arms.

"I mean, I miss you so much."

After a while, Ran Yu slowly raised his lowered hands and hugged the other person's back.His voice was as light as a breeze: "Me too."

Under the starry sky, in the crowd, beside the ruins, they embraced each other tightly and tightly.

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The author has something to say:

"Thinking of the king is like a bright candle, burning the heart and holding tears" - Chen Shuda "From the King's Departure"

There are still about three chapters to finish the text, and there will probably be no more swords QAQ