Shocked in late autumn

Ji Song and Xu Chenyu stayed in Taiwan for more than half a month. They went to Tamsui Fisherman's Wharf to watch the sunrise and sunset. They rented a pink and blue motorcycle and rode along the eastern coastline. Floating Cloud also saw the undulating wheat fields under the setting sun in winter, and heard the waves of wheat coming from the distant fields.

During these days in Taiwan, they walked in the streets of unfamiliar cities, almost inseparable, even if they walked in a sea of ​​people, they did not want to let go of each other's hands. Some passers-by would still cast strange glances when they saw two big men behaving intimately. , but they don't care, in a place where no one knows anyone, it seems that they have encountered a long-lost freedom.

Because of love, they can hug and kiss as much as they want, in the street where no one knows.

In the evening, an unknown small village, looking around, surrounded by swaying reeds trembling in the wind, on the left side of the asphalt road is a pool, sparkling in the afterglow, maple trees are planted along the road, and maple leaves are falling all over the ground , the road that is so straight that there is no end is covered with a layer of red catkins.

Ji Songlin parked his motorcycle in the shade of a tree. At this moment, he received a call from Shen Xilan. The old lady came back from playing all the way in Guizhou, but she didn't see her grandson when she came home. There was only a message note, so she called and asked Ji Songlin Well, he simply said that he came to Taiwan, and at the end, he added that he came with Xu Chenyu.

Shen Xilan on the other end of the phone didn't have any special reaction. From the first time they met, she felt that she had hit it off with Xu Chenyu, but as usual, she told them that the weather was cold and asked them to pay attention to adding clothes and be careful.

Ji Songlin told the old lady to take her medicine on time, and muttered for a while before hanging up the phone.

Ji Songlin took Xu Chenyu's hand for a walk in the sunset.

Xu Chenyu turned his head and asked him: "Grandma is back, is she in good health?"

"Very good," Ji Songlin smiled, "I'll take you to visit her formally sometime."

An official visit, the meaning couldn't be more obvious.

Xu Chenyu looked at the corners of Ji Songlin's raised mouth, still worried and uneasy in his heart, he frowned and said: "What if, I mean what if grandma doesn't accept it?" He sighed: "She's not old enough It's too big, I can't stand the stimulation...how about we take it easy..."

The upward curve of Ji Songlin's lips stopped, he didn't say a word, Xu Chenyu continued: "I know that grandma is a temperamental person, she is very good, very very good, so this matter must be extremely cautious."

Although the society has been moving forward, same-sex love has always been classified as "heterogeneous". Xu Chenyu can't imagine how two generations who have almost spanned the long river of time can reach a consensus on this issue.

"I understand what you mean," Ji Songlin pulled Xu Chenyu's arm closer to his side, dodging the oncoming ox cart: "I just feel that our love is open and aboveboard, there is nothing shameful about it, and I don't want to hide it Grandma, when I find a suitable opportunity, I will have a serious talk with her and try to get the pass as soon as possible."

"Let's put it this way, I have also considered the situation at home. As for my mother, she seems to have a gentle personality, but in fact she is a very thoughtful woman. My father has been very busy with work since he was a child. He took care of me and accompanied me. Rarely, but my mom never blamed my dad. When I grow up, she doesn't interfere in my affairs... But that doesn't mean she can understand us," Xu Chenyu said Slowing down: "I hope, I can find a peaceful way to communicate this matter."

Ji Songlin didn't interrupt, he listened quietly, and walked with Xu Chenyu through the withered maple trees one after another.

Suddenly a gust of wind blew up the yellow sand on the concrete floor. Xu Chenyu raised his hand to cover his eyes, and waited for the wind to pass before continuing: "Besides, grandma, who has lived alone for more than 70 years, transitioning from the old society to the new society, still There are a lot of things that I can’t adapt to, whether it’s a fast-paced lifestyle, ever-changing technology, or more diverse ideas, it will take a long time to digest..." He squeezed Ji Songlin's wrist: "Let's not worry, take it step by step, as long as we are with you, I don't care how long we wait..."

"Are you worried?" Ji Songlin said softly, "About our future."

Xu Chenyu slid his palm down and held his thumb, wrapping it in his palm, staring at his side face: "It's not that I'm worried... no matter how chaotic the road ahead is, I believe in you," he paused, Let out a breath slowly: "I just don't want to hurt the people around me."

One has to be firm and believe in something in life, this is the shining part of being a human being, and Xu Chenyu chooses to believe in Ji Songlin.

Ji Songlin was silent for a moment, his voice was soft but firm: "We are just in love, there is nothing wrong, and we haven't hurt anyone." He raised his finger to touch Xu Chenyu's cheek: "It won't take long... Don't worry, I will take care of everything and take you home in an upright manner."

Tangtang was going home together, Xu Chenyu smacked his words, his heart was warmed, and even the cold wind blew past, he didn't feel cold anymore.

Ji Songlin's gaze on him was the same as before, gentle and warm, firm and focused, Xu Chenyu looked into his eyes and smiled: "Don't worry, I will too."

The cold wind passed through, blowing away the vague uneasiness.

Passing by clumps of tall reeds, Ji Songlin changed the subject: "Have you been notified by the bureau to go back to work?"

Xu Chenyu was slightly stunned, then kicked a fallen leaf with his toes, and jumped childishly: "Not yet, Director Sun wished I could rest at home for two more days."

Ji Songlin held him by the hand, and was staggered by inertia: "I saw that day when your leader said that he was waiting for you to return to the team, didn't he mean that he wanted you to go back as soon as possible?"

Xu Chenyu twitched his lips and shook his head lightly: "In the eyes of the leader, team members who are emotionally unstable are not qualified to go to the front line." A psychiatric evaluation by a physician."

After Yu Chenjing's death, Xu Chenyu couldn't shoot freely. Out of mental health considerations, the leadership team in the bureau agreed that Xu Chenyu had a slight post-traumatic stress disorder, unless he completely repaired the psychological wound. to return to work.

Xu Chenyu lowered his head, staring at the slowly shifting light on the ground, talking about Yu Chenjing, there was still a slight sadness in the air.

Ji Songlin paid attention to his subtle expression: "Then what do you think? Do you want to go back?"

Xu Chenyu lifted two fallen leaves with his toes, crushed them again, and made a slight crackling sound. He was half sincere and half joking, and said, "Now...suddenly I don't want to go back."

"Playful," Ji Songlin provoked a smile: "An anti-narcotics policeman for the country and the people, this is not like you."

Xu Chenyu stopped, and stood under a tree that was falling maple leaves: "I misunderstood, I'm not just playing around..."

"It's not fun, what is it?"

A maple leaf with a broken corner spun down Ji Songlin's shoulder, Xu Chenyu raised his hand to brush off the fallen leaves for him, leaned over to approach him, and quickly kissed him sideways.

Their kiss is as natural and trivial as breathing, under the snow all over the sky, in the twilight and dusk, there are figures of them kissing.

But at this moment the kiss came too suddenly, leaving no time for Ji Songlin to react. Xu Chenyu flirted with others, and ran away, ignoring the stunned person behind him. Looking back, a clear voice came from afar: "Have you heard that, sitting on a beautiful woman, the king will not go to court early from now on."

beauty?me?

Ji Songlin's face was covered with black lines, he rubbed the side of his face with the back of his hand, looked at the figure running farther and farther in front of him, he frowned and chased after him, under the afterglow, two slanted shadows chased each other, shining light, swaying and swaying .

Ji Songlin caught the man until his back was covered with sweat. He opened his arms, trapped Xu Chenyu in his arms, and pretended to be angry: "You will talk nonsense, who is the beauty?"

Think of him as Ji Songlin, a masculine man, tall and handsome at 188cm, obviously very dissatisfied with the title "beauty".

"Teasing you, why are you so careless?" Xu Chenyu smiled and bent over. He found that Ji Songlin was very cute when he was being teased.

"It's too itchy...Okay, okay..." Xu Chenyu grabbed Ji Songlin's hand in a panic, not letting him scratch it, "I was wrong..."

Xu Chenyu tightened his arms so that Ji Songlin put his hands around his lower back, the two looked at each other, and the corners of Xu Chenyu's lips curled up: "I was wrong, you are not a beauty, you are... .”

Ji Songlin raised his eyebrows vigilantly: "What is it?"

Xu Chenyu stepped back and kicked the ground. He slowly took away Ji Songlin's hand on his waist. The setting sun shone on his face, making his smile like a sunny day. beauty!"

After saying that, he immediately turned around and ran towards the reeds in front of him like a [-]-meter sprint.

"bad boy!"

Ji Songlin's expression was helpless and doting, he stretched his long legs to catch up again, the moment he hugged him, his chest bumped into Xu Chenyu's back, he staggered a step, the two shadows overlapped and fell to the white reed In the dangli, between the sun and dusk, one piece after another of misty reed ears startled up.

"Tell me again, who is the beauty?" Ji Songlin tickled him: "Huh?"

"Haha..." Xu Chenyu laughed so hard that the reeds rolled all over, begging for mercy: "Wrong...I was really wrong...don't scratch...just kidding..."

Ji Songlin didn't let go, and fell into a ball with him, the lover's crisp laughter was scattered in the evening wind, blowing and blowing, blowing thousands of miles away.

The half month I spent in Taiwan was really dreamy. On the day I was about to leave, the temperature dropped sharply. On the way to the airport, the cold wind contained wet mist, which made the red lanterns under the street lights rattle.

Xu Chenyu was reluctant to let go, and wanted to see the city again, so Ji Songlin took him by bicycle.

Although there was no snowfall, the cold wind still mercilessly penetrated into the collar, Xu Chenyu pulled off his baseball cap, and tightened the lapel of his clothes, but he still couldn't stop the coolness: "You wear so little, are you cold? "

Ji Songlin didn't wear much, a brown padded jacket with a round-neck off-white sweater, and Xu Chenyu gave back his only light gray scarf.

"It's not cold. If you think your hands are cold, just stretch out my pocket. It's warm inside." The cyclist smiled, and Ji Songlin kept the faucet steady and tilted it a little to the left, so that the cold wind would be blown by him blocked.

With no hand in his pocket, Ji Songlin was about to turn his head, and put a soft scarf around his neck: "You are facing the wind, so you can keep warm."

"I don't need it, you are wearing it, you still have a cold." Ji Songlin tilted his head, he let go of one hand to take off the scarf, and was suddenly held back by Xu Chenyu, he pinched the corner with his thumb and index finger, Cover him tightly again.Xu Chenyu said with a smile: "I have recovered from my cold, don't refuse, put it on."

The overlapping hands of the two have not yet loosened. In the cold winter months, that bit of heat has become the only warmth, and the touch connects the heartbeat. This is how love is. cotton flower.

"What are you thinking about?" Xu Chenyu teased him, "The mouth is split to the back of the ears."

His undeniable tone reminded Ji Songlin of Xu Chenyu wearing a cat headband on him. He laughed dumbly and said, "Hey, you are really getting more and more domineering now."

Xu Chenyu scratched Xia Ji Songlin's chin on purpose, and teased, "Isn't that bad?"

The wheels of the bicycle slipped suddenly, the road bumped like beans, the body of the bicycle swayed left and right, and a small scratch was drawn on the black concrete road. Ji Songlin glanced away at his face, but the crispy feeling on his jaw was lingering, itching him so much He lowered his neck, and the veins protruded slightly.

"Ask you." Xu Chenyu hugged his waist tightly, followed by an afterimage: "Is this not good for me?"

It's not bad, it's just... How should I put it, Ji Songlin is not a little girl, but seems to be spoiled by him, he pursed his lower lip, as if trying to suppress an overindulgent smile: "No ,fine."

Sweeping over from the corner of the eye, Xu Chenyu caught the corner of his slightly raised mouth in the smile that disappeared immediately. The smile that was deliberately not enlarged made Ji Songlin very sweet.As if peeking into some little secret, Xu Chenyu's mood became better and better, his expression was like a spring breeze, he swung his long legs cheerfully, and tilted the direction of the bicycle straight.

Suddenly remembered that before going out, Ji Songlin answered the phone, his face suddenly calmed down, he was busy packing his luggage, the two didn't talk about it in detail, the atmosphere is just right now.

"Who called this morning?" Xu Chenyu tilted his head, but he could only see the profile of Ji Songlin's jaw: "Is there something wrong with the record store?"

That call was from Yao Liang, and the two talked about a record store, and they talked for a long time.

"I told you before that the record store was taken over from a friend," Ji Songlin said with a relaxed face, "The contract is about to expire, and the landlord approached me to talk about renewing the lease, and we arranged to meet on the weekend. "

He vaguely felt that this matter was not that simple, but Xu Chenyu still said in the usual tone: "I have nothing to do on the weekend, shall I go with you?"

After hesitating for a moment, Ji Songlin made an excuse and said, "You still have to go to the bureau to do a psychological test, and the weekend is Christmas, why don't you take care of the grocery shopping, and cook when I come back at night, our first holiday, There has to be a sense of ceremony.”

Shops in the streets and alleys of Z city will be decorated with lights and colorful Christmas decorations during Christmas. Thinking about it, it is right to take advantage of the festive atmosphere to be romantic, so Xu Chenyu said yes with a smile.

Hearing the sound of wheels grunting against the ground, Ji Songlin's thoughts drifted away. After graduating from the University of Political Science and Law, he worked in a law firm for the first three years. Fortunately, he took on two big lawsuits and saved some savings. Choose to go it alone.In order to fulfill his childhood dream, Ji Songlin used the money to open a record store.

He lives soberly and intelligently, but he is not the kind of pure idealist. As the years passed and he experienced many helpless aspects of life, Ji Songlin became more and more aware that he was just a mediocre ordinary person and had to fight for it. A few taels of silver running around tired.He lived in poverty since he was a child, Shen Xilan always broke one piece into two pieces, and his grandmother saved food and money, he saw it all, and gradually understood the importance of money, now he really has no right to be unscrupulous , willfully do one thing.

If Yao Liang insisted on raising the rent, Ji Songlin would not be able to maintain the record store's survival. This is a 'real' part of life, and he didn't want Xu Chenyu to be exposed to these things that make people feel powerless.

For no reason, there was a silence between the two of them.

The way back was all downhill, but the way home was all uphill. Xu Chenyu sat in the back seat, shaking his long legs noisyly: "Can you still ride? Why don't I do it instead."

When he came back to his senses, he smiled and said, "Okay, you can take me instead." Ji Songlin stepped on the pedal and braked smartly, and the bicycle stopped halfway up the mountain without going up or down.

He stretched his legs and gave way to the bicycle.Xu Chenyu took it, he lifted his foot to draw a circular arc, put his hands on the handlebars, and put his hands on the handlebars, ready to start, raised his eyebrows at Ji Songlin, and said, "Come on, brother will take you home."

Ji Songlin grabbed the rear frame and sat directly on it. He raised his hand and patted the back of Xu Chenyu's neck: "It will be nonsense, who is the elder brother and who is the younger brother?"

Xu Chenyu was grinning, his eyes squinted into a crescent line, he took off his baseball cap and put it on top of Ji Songlin's head: "Of course, brother is leading the way, you sit down, let's go home."