Cannon Fodder Counterattack [Quick Transmigration]

Time does not heal the pain, it hides these deep in the heart, when you think you are healed, it will come out and sting you.

He Zhao thinks that he is not worthy of happiness. Although many people have said that he is gentle, responsible, and a good man worthy of entrustment, He Zhao never thinks so. He thinks he is a sinner. How incompetent.

The death of his younger brother He Yang is a wound that he will never erase. Even after becoming a firefighter, he has done so many missions, saved many people and lost a lot of blood. In his dream at midnight, he was still the trash who watched his younger brother fall. Zhao Shi often thought that it would be great if he was the one who fell.

Mom and Dad passed away unexpectedly. As an elder brother, he should take responsibility, take good care of his younger brother, and take care of the family.

He Zhao really wanted to do well, but he didn't do any of them well.

The driver hit and run, his parents deal with the funeral, the police station, funeral parlor, court, street office, insurance company, etc., he ran back and forth every day without touching the ground, did not get compensation for the car accident, but a lot of money from the family went out.

The situation in He Zhao’s family is a bit complicated. His mother is an orphan, his father is an only child, and his grandparents passed away a few years ago. He and his younger brother have no relatives to help them. The burden of the family is all on He Zhao. Even the admission letter from the university of your choice has become a burden.

Money became a deadly problem.

His tuition and living expenses, his younger brother's tuition and living expenses, the stipend alone is not enough to guarantee, the compensation for the car accident is still arguing, and the other side said that it may take time to go to court, He Zhao was so busy that he was overwhelmed, but it just made things worse.

He Yang is sick, he has a heart problem and needs to be hospitalized.

He Zhao gave up going to college and persisted. Perhaps luck bottomed out. He finally survived this period of time, the compensation was settled smoothly, and his younger brother was discharged from the hospital.

But the obsession with lack of money has always been engraved in his heart.

He worked hard, and even had several part-time jobs. No matter it was dirty or tired, as long as he made money, as long as he had the strength to do it, he would do it.

At that time, He Zhao was like many parents who went out to work. He only knew how to earn money, and he was exhausted every day. He even smiled less and less after returning home from work, and gradually lost communication with his brother.

The two of them are like two parallel lines, with only occasional greetings.

He Zhao really wants to give his younger brother a good life. What others have, his younger brother should also have. Let him go to a good school, buy him good stationery, all kinds of clothes for spring, summer, autumn and winter, as well as children's pocket money and favorite food. He has never been stingy with snacks and so on, and has considered all aspects.

But He Zhao didn't know that doing so made He Yang feel more guilty. His brother was always wearing old clothes, but at the age when he should be studying, he was crowded with a group of middle-aged men to do coolies. All of these were dragged down by him.

Although He Yang has undergone treatment, the damaged heart is still a hidden danger. He is shorter than other children, his skin is paler than others, and he cannot do strenuous exercise on weekdays. He lives like a porcelain doll.

When He Yang was in high school, he met a group of bad students and suffered serious campus violence. Those people didn't touch him, but the verbal injury was more painful than the physical, especially the group isolation.

He Yang wanted to escape there. He didn't want to live on campus anymore, but he couldn't go back, because if he didn't live on campus, his brother would be distracted from taking care of him. He worked so hard and had to worry about him as a burden. Later, He Yang thought, it's not as good as him It's good to die. When he dies, my brother will be free forever.

He didn't leave anything behind, not even a letter, just "I'm sorry" on the last page, and then he jumped off the stairs.

He Zhao would often dream of him. In the dream, He Yang was still the same as before, sitting on the edge of the high platform without saying a word. No matter how much he tried to persuade him, he didn't look back. He danced in his dream again and again. down.

Even after He Zhao became a fireman, these dreams would still appear from time to time, making him hate himself more and more. He worked harder than other teammates at work, maybe... this would make him die well.

The team leader sent him to G City, the purpose was to let him take a walk and relax. Hearing that the scenery there is beautiful, the team leader ordered him and several other team members to study on behalf of the team in the name of a mission. He went with his backpack and met Jiang Ran there.

Looking at each other for a second, the child's eyes were the same as He Yang's before he died.

He Zhao made the craziest decision, and paid a terrible price for this decision. He was shot several times in the deep mountains, and he forgot about it. Take it out" "He can't die"...

Fortunately, things were going in a good direction, they didn't die, He Zhao sometimes thought of him after he was discharged from the hospital, the case was suppressed by the higher authorities, and he didn't even know the child's name.

But no one expected that one day, the other party would find him.

Looking at Jiang Ran who was following him, the child was like a hedgehog hostile to everyone except him. He was extremely restless and possessive. The team teased He Zhao, saying that he had become a male mother.

He Zhao himself is a little funny to say this, but maybe it's the happiness that God gave him for an incompetent person to be so attached to others?

In the years after He Yang's death, He Zhao grew up a lot. After meeting Jiang Ran, he poured all the love and care that he never had time to give to Jiang Ran, taught him many things, took him to many places, delicious food, Fun, leisurely, and adventurous, he wants to help the other party get out of the psychological shadow and grow up better.

Who knew that Jiang Ran was even more dependent on him.

If Han Chen hadn't appeared, He Zhao and Jiang Ran might have been in such a deformed relationship all his life, supporting each other, but he appeared, just like He Yang's situation at that time.

He Zhao was very glad that Han Chen had figured it out at that time. If he had made the same choice as He Yang, he would probably really collapse. No matter how much he had grown over the years, he would not be able to see someone jumping down from his eyes again.

This is his heart knot, neither he nor Jiang Ran are healthy people.

After Sangao's jumping incident, He Zhao began to dream about He Yang again. In the past, the other party always ended his dreams by jumping off a building. Now, occasionally he didn't jump again, but turned his head to look at him, looking at him with longing eyes. .

He Zhao wanted to cry when he saw that look, he was in a trance all the time, he was not suitable to be a firefighter, and the team leader knew that He Zhao knew everything in his heart, so he accepted the vacation.

At that time, he didn't know what he was going to do in the future, he seemed to be able to do anything, and he seemed to be unable to do anything, so he continued to live in a trance, and he actually brought Han Chen home.

No one is a substitute for He Yang, Han Chen is Han Chen, Jiang Ran is Jiang Ran, He Yang is He Yang, he just places his thoughts on them.

Maybe it’s not bad to just live like this, but in the end, God still favored him and gave him a sincere love. Ye Qingqing is a very beautiful, gentle, understanding and independent woman of the new era. When He Zhao met her, there was nothing wrong with her. Unreasonable thought, to be precise, he had already eliminated the plan of starting a family from his life.

Getting married is a luxury, is he worthy of a happy family?

He Zhao felt that he was not worthy, so he just regarded him as Han Chen's teacher. In addition, the two of them were not compatible in age. people of the world.

If Ye Qingqing hadn't stepped forward first, He Zhao's dusty heart wouldn't be throbbing at all. It's really funny to say that the first love's heartbeat was more than thirty years late.

In this relationship, he is actually very useless.

She always wanted to escape and always denied herself, but Ye Qingqing didn't dislike him, and patiently accompanied him until he got out of the cage in her heart. She gave him a home and a cute and smart daughter.

The relationship between He Zhao and Jiang Ran became very weak later, he knew that the other party avoided him, Han Chen told him not to worry, Jiang Ran was with him, He Zhao was not as smart as the two of them, and he didn't care about business matters. Good at, and slowly, I really don't have much to talk about with them.

An accident happened to the Jiang family, and so did Han Chen, but those news were concealed. When He Zhao found out, everything was settled, and Han Chen had already been discharged from the hospital. Everything seemed to be as normal as before, but He Zhao Zhao felt that something was wrong with Han Chen sensitively, and it turned out to be exactly as he expected.

Parting is always painful. At the funeral, He Zhao saw Jiang Ran for the first time after many years. His state was very worrying to him. Afterwards, he took the initiative to contact Jiang Ran many times. Unfortunately, no one answered the phone or returned the message, so he went to find him There was always no one there, and if he hadn't been able to see news about his company on the Internet from time to time, He Zhao would have thought that something had happened to him.

Later, maybe Jiang Ran really grew up, he became mature and stable, he did a lot of public welfare, appeared on TV, became a role model for the public, and his eyebrows became more and more gentle. He Zhao finally felt relieved seeing his changes.

That night, He Zhao dreamed of He Yang again.

In the dream, it was no longer a lonely high platform, it was a school full of laughter and laughter, he saw He Yang surrounded by many friends, they were talking and laughing, He Yang laughed very happily, and played games with them in his spare time.

He Zhao just watched, watched him go to school, watched him go to class, watched him leave school, He Yang and his friends walked in the dusk with their schoolbags on their backs, no one noticed He Zhao's existence.

When He Yang parted with his friends at the fork in the road, He Zhao couldn't help but call out to him. He actually didn't expect to get a response from the other party, but at this time He Yang actually responded to him: "Long time no see, brother."

His eyebrows and eyes were the same as before, and He Zhao's heart seemed to have been hollowed out. He opened his mouth for a long time and only said one sentence: "...how are you doing?"

"Ah Yi, I'm home."

There's a couple over there calling him.

He Yang turned around and waved at them, then turned his head and said softly: "I'm doing well, brother, my name is Lin Yi now, forget about He Yang, don't think about the past again."

After he finished speaking, he ran towards the couple. He Zhao wanted to chase after him, but there was an invisible barrier blocking him, so he couldn't go there. He saw He Yang following them, turned around and waved to him, smiling and saying goodbye .

He Zhao was left where he was, watching them go away helplessly.

"Zhao Zhao!"

Someone familiar behind him called him.

He Zhao turned his head and saw Ye Qingqing waving his arms not far away. Standing beside him was his daughter Xiaoxiao. The other party also followed suit and called Zhaozhao, but because she was very young in the dream and couldn't pronounce the words clearly, she pronounced it "" Jiaojiao".

Ye Qingqing raised her hand and gave her a brainstorm: "Don't call me dad like that, it's mom's exclusive name."

Xiao Xiao covered her head: "Hmph, so overbearing."

He Zhao's empty heart was instantly filled again.

Ye Qingqing reached out to him: "Let's go, we're going home."

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In the middle of the night, the wind blows gently across the street, and everyone has a good dream. On the balcony of He Zhao's house, a long-haired man in black is sitting. He looks up at the sky full of stars, with no expression on his face.