transient stability

This is what happens every time I try to ease things up with my brother.What I don't understand is that Mingming was very close when I was young, he is like my right and left hand.Both of us grew up without a father, under the care of my mother.Whatever I want to play, he will let me, and give me his share of food.My mother went abroad eight years ago, and my elder brother took care of me alone. He had just passed the exam at that time. In order to pick me up from school, he took a driver's license test and asked my mother for a scooter. He would wait near the school on time.

I found out later that my brother was often absent from the roll call because he left half an hour early every day to pick me up, so he almost failed the exam.After I refused him to pick it up, I called my mother and told my mother. Later, he didn't pick me up due to academic pressure.

My brother took an intelligence test under my mother's pressure, and the result was a bit higher than my mother's intelligence, reaching 170, and my mother regarded her as her heir.I was a pet at home. After my mother heard that I was going to study art, she didn't force me. To some extent, it was my brother's freedom.Speaking of which, my brother is also a genius, but his growth path is completely different from Lin Qiu's. He didn't pick me up until he started to skip a grade, and graduated two years earlier than his peers.

After I went to high school, I seldom communicated with him. At that time, he was doing scientific research in the laboratory and was so busy that no one was seen all day long, but he would still drive me home on weekends and take me to eat delicious food.

Later, I was admitted to the university I liked, and my brother graduated smoothly.I thought he was going to go abroad to work with my mother, but he chose to stay in China, working on the same project as my mother.They usually communicate much more than I do. I don't know if it's about family or work.I don't envy him, my mother is the kind of person who can't maintain a family, she only thinks about her research, and her family affection is indifferent.

I don't know if it's because my mother didn't give him a sense of security. My brother never cared about women. After work, he started talking about friends, changing one after another.His appearance is too dominant, with blue eyes and black hair, with mysterious oriental beauty and deep facial features of Caucasians, he looks elegant and noble.

I resent him for treating marriage as a trifle and treating women as playthings. I argued with him a few times, but he felt that I was dissatisfied with his new girlfriend and changed more frequently.God knows how regretful I am. I can't communicate with him in this regard, and I'll explode as soon as I talk about it. No matter how I explain it, it's useless.Each reconciliation took less than half a month, and it became what it is now.In the past six months, it has become more and more serious. Later, I basically hid in school and did not go home, and I did not answer his calls. I only went home when I needed living expenses.

After a recent argument with my brother, my mother unexpectedly flew back from a foreign country, threw me into a mental hospital, and said to make me sober.God knows it's my brother who should be sober. My mother forbids my brother to visit me, and I won't see him if he wants to.

Fortunately, I met Lin Qiu. Now it seems that my mother knew him a long time ago, so she should have thrown me into his care, but Lin Qiu and my mother just met each other. Could it be the dean and my mother that Lin Qiu said Relationship?

I have a headache and my brother and I are in a deadlock again. What should I do if I don't have living expenses?My mother must be on my brother's side. I remembered that I have a father, and my mobile phone dialed my father's number.

The other end of the phone rang six times before answering, my dad's voice: "Shi'an wait, don't mess with that, feed him the one in the bowl first, hey, don't let him catch that...!" I waited For 1 minute, the crying of the child and the voice of the woman on the other end of the phone made my ears hurt.When my dad had another baby, I don't know.

He has his new family, and he has a brother or sister who is related to me by blood. I'm probably not that important to him.I hung up the phone, the people over there were his family and I was just a product of his failed marriage.

I suddenly wanted to cry, my mother, my father, my brother, why is my family like this, is it normal?

I bought pancakes and fruits at the food stall in front of the school, and ate them all the way back to school.At this time, I really miss Lin Qiu and want to talk to him on the phone.I hesitated, but in the end I didn't call because I was afraid that I would cry uncontrollably after talking to him.After all, I haven't been with him for long, will he think I'm too troublesome?If I tell him that I have no living expenses, will he support me for a few months?

I never told anyone about the situation at home, and neither did the people in the dormitory.They only know that my family's conditions are very good, which is very good. For me, I have no worries about food and clothing and can go to the university I like. I am very happy, but I am still not satisfied.

People are always very eager for what they lack, just like I never know what a father's love is like. My dad is away from home and I can't see him all year round.In my 20 years of memory, only my brother exists.

I don't know if I'm depressed, sometimes I feel very low, and when I'm in a bad mood, I can't control my anxiety at all, especially when it comes to my brother.When I first entered the hospital, I seemed to be very irritable, and I made a fuss once in the hospital.When Lin Qiu is around, this emotion will disappear inexplicably, and he can comfort me very well.Maybe it's because I like him and am willing to listen to him.

Speaking of which, my boyfriend is a psychiatrist, but I'm afraid to tell him these things.I want to fall in love with him on an equal footing, and I don't want him to treat me as a patient.I checked the time, 01:30.Lin Qiu should rest at noon. In the afternoon, he said what to do, consultation.Will the consultation take long?The more I thought about it, the more annoyed I became, and suddenly I turned around and glanced back.

"...Jiang Ziyan, what are you doing with me?!"

The author says:

I'm still on duty today, so the update is a bit late.National Day is not a holiday...