I Can't Be This Protagonist

Yan Shuang didn't speak, didn't struggle, just quietly looked at Qin Yubai who was holding him.

The expression on Qin Yubai's face was as if if he said one more word, he would collapse.

Yan Shuang reflected in his heart: Did he force Qin Yubai to this point?

"You won," Qin Yubai repeated again, and Yan Shuang could smell the pungent tobacco smell on his body, "Are you happy?"

Yan Shuang thought to himself: Happy.

His relationship line has reached 90, of course he is happy.

The core of his relationship with Qin Yubai is sadomasochism.

The moment of falling in love is also the beginning of tragedy.

When it reaches 100, it's time for the two of them to separate completely.

Now that Qin Yubai has fallen into it, shouldn't he also show it symbolically?

Yan Shuang thought about it, if he doesn't slap Qin Yubai now, it should be regarded as a performance of loving him, right?

The servants in the house consciously hid, Qin Yubai went upstairs with Yan Shuang in his arms, but did not meet anyone, it seemed that there were only the two of them left in the whole building, empty and lonely echoing.

Qin Yubai carried him back to his bedroom, put him on the bed and lay down, stretched out his hand to pull the quilt to cover Yan Shuang.

Yan Shuang reached out to cover the quilt, "I want to go back."

The arm was forcibly pulled down, and Yan Shuang was tightly wrapped by Qin Yubai, "You can't go anywhere, just stay here."

Yan Shuang was silent for a moment, thought about it, and decided to continue provoking him, "What I said in the car is true..."

"To shut up."

As expected, Qin Yubai's tone became cold again, and the quilt was pulled until Yan Shuang's lips were pressed, making Yan Shuang speechless.

"Don't worry, I will definitely find him and make him regret the person who touched me."

Yan Shuang: "?"

Tiezi, have you gone in the wrong direction?

He's just lying here, take revenge on him first?

Is it too far away? Isn't it?

"Stay honest."

As soon as Qin Yubai let go, Yan Shuang immediately became dishonest, and wanted to run away with his arms lifted from the quilt, but was still pressed back by Qin Yubai.

"The contract is still in my hands," Qin Yubai said calmly, but there was another stabbing pain in his heart, why did they return to the original point in the end? "Can you afford the liquidated damages?"

"You might think I can't do anything to you."

"You can try it."

Qin Yubai let go of his hand, he stood up straight, looked down at Yan Shuang, "Do you want to drop out of school and go to jail?"

Yan Shuang looked at Qin Yubai incredulously, thinking Qin Yubai, you finally remembered that you are a scumbag.

Zha Gong has no heart, Zha Gong doesn't understand love, Zha Gong only intimidates and lures him, and uses all means to achieve his goals.

Even if he likes him.

so what?

If he refused to love him, should he kowtow and kneel to beg for his love?

impossible.

Can't do it.

"You will sleep here tonight," Qin Yubai put his hand into his side pocket, and said calmly, "Tomorrow I will ask someone to come and check you up."

Yan Shuang: "..."

He really wanted to jump up and kiss Qin Yubai.

That's right, that's the smell, the more you like it, the more you want to stab people in the heart.

Sadomasochism activist Qin Dadan.

Yan Shuang thought to himself that if he didn't express it, it would be unreasonable.

Laughter suddenly sounded in the room.

At the first sound, Qin Yubai thought he had heard it wrong.

Afterwards the laughter continued, Qin Yubai didn't say anything to stop him, and let Yan Shuang laugh strangely on the bed.

Yan Shuang laughed tremblingly, "In the car...you already...kissed me..." With his fingertips on his lips, his smile was uglier than crying, "I'm bleeding, and you're bleeding too, if I'm sick Yes, and you too..."

Qin Yubai stood quietly, his expression did not fluctuate at all, and his tone was still flat, "I mean, let someone come and see if you have any frostbite."

Yan Shuang was still laughing, with tears dripping from the corners of his eyes. He took a deep breath, tilted his face on the pillow, and frowned slightly, mockingly and sarcasticly, "Really?"

Qin Yubai looked at him with lowered eyes, and said coldly: "You look like a ghost, I think it is necessary for someone to check your mind."

Yan Shuang fell silent.

They are going out of their way to hurt each other as hard as they can to justify their feelings for each other.

Still in pain, that is still in love.

Yan Shuang suddenly lifted the quilt covering his body. His body was white and attractive, glowing lustrously under the light. He smiled provocatively at Qin Yubai, "I want to fulfill the contract now."

This was the first time Yan Shuang took the initiative between them.

But in such a situation.

Heartache, really hurts.

Qin Yubai couldn't describe that feeling. For a moment, he wanted to go back to the time when nothing happened before he met Yan Shuang. It turned out that the suffering at that time was already a kind of happiness.

What can be restrained is desire.

What cannot be restrained... is emotion.

"Go to sleep," Qin Yubai resisted the throbbing pain in his heart, and said expressionlessly, "What's the matter, we will talk about it when you wake up tomorrow."

"Don't you dare?" Yan Shuang mocked.

"Why don't I dare?" Qin Yubai was suddenly annoyed. He pressed one knee on the bed, reached out and pinched Yan Shuang's chin, and said in a cold tone mixed with anger, "Don't take yourself too seriously, you are my vent A tool for desire, I don’t have that interest right now, understand?”

Yan Shuang: Ah, it's been a while since he heard Qin Yubai humiliate him, it's really like listening to fairy music.

The two were so close that Qin Yubai could clearly see every subtle change on Yan Shuang's face.

His nose trembled slightly, his eyelashes trembled, his teeth protruded from the cracks in his lips, and he was about to bite those two lips.

This is his signature action of enduring pain.

Yeah?He is also in pain.

That's good.

Why do they want to maintain a relationship that makes both of them feel pain?

But if you want him to let go now, he will never agree.

I would rather be in pain than let him go or let myself go.

Humans are really contradictory creatures.

Qin Yubai let go, and regained his composure, "Sleep, you need to rest now."

Yan Shuang tilted his head to one side, stared at a point in the sky, remained silent for a while, and said, "I don't want to sleep here."

"casual."

Yan Shuang sat up and said to himself, "I want to sleep on the third floor."

The air pressure in the room dropped noticeably.

"No."

Yan Shuang raised his face and said without a word: "I don't want to sleep with you on the same floor."

"I'm sleeping downstairs," Qin Yubai leaned over, watching Yan Shuang pick him up with warning eyes, his movements were cautious and cautious, "If you make any more troubles, don't sleep tonight."

It's fine if he doesn't say anything, but Yan Shuang wants to be a demon again.

Yan Shuang turned his face away, and bit the muscle of Qin Yubai's chest. Soon, even through the shirt, Yan Shuang could taste the smell of blood.

Blocking the pain, he doesn't have to worry about whether he hits or bites, and he is quick and ruthless when he speaks.

Without saying a word, Qin Yubai carried him back to the small room before.

He didn't go through the painting, but walked through the door of the room.

The small room remained as it was when Yan Shuang left.

Qin Yubai put the man down, but the arms hugging his neck were still tightly twisted, refusing to let go. He lowered his eyes and looked at Yan Shuang in the darkness.

Such a retaining gesture expresses the exact opposite meaning.

Those eyes stared at him in the dark, hateful.

It seems to be an overly optimistic idea to say that we have returned to the original point, but it is clearly... worse than that time.

With a heavy heart, Qin Yubai smiled and said: "It seems that I don't care about you today, you are reluctant to let me go."

The wrist was bitten hard.

He suffered more injuries during this period than the previous 20 years combined.

Qin Yubai said as if talking to himself: "It's really cheap."

The force from the wrist is getting heavier.

Qin Yubai lowered his head, followed the direction of his wrist, and lightly kissed the soft lips, and at the same time kissed a little blood from his wrist.

The moment the four lips touched, Yan Shuang bounced away as if scalded.

Qin Yubai's wrists were hanging down, and he suddenly thought of a joke he said when he was drunk.

"People who love each other will kiss."

The eerie silence in the room was restored in an instant.

Something... Something both he and Yan Shuang knew was rolling around in the room.

It's just that no one of them can admit it, and no one will say it.

Qin Yubai leaned over and kissed her.

Yan Shuang silently struggled to escape.

Once the lips touch and the tongue tips are twisted together, the feeling of intimacy will spread throughout the body, and the intoxication can no longer be concealed.

The body does not lie.

All the crumpled shirts and suits were thrown under the bed.

It's been a long time.

Embracing this body again, Qin Yubai was so devoted, he didn't think about anything in his mind, he was happy for a moment, that's all.

After returning to silence, the breathing in the room was deep and shallow, and the heartbeats that were attached together went from violent to calm, sharing gradually similar frequencies.

Sparks of joy and excitement remained in the brain, temporarily suppressing all other thoughts, Qin Yubai embraced Yan Shuang from behind, bowed his head and kissed Yan Shuang lightly on his shoulder.

Yan Shuang trembled all over. Qin Yubai's bed skills were advanced, and he improved every time. This was the opposite of his attitude towards feelings. The more he liked, the better he lived.

Yan Shuang praised him with one word.

--"roll."

A sneer.

The lazy voice behind Yu Yun replied: "You beg me, but I won't stay."

Yan Shuang: All right, all right, get out when you're done serving.

Qin Yubai wore a shirt and trousers in the dark. He walked to the door, turned his head and glanced at Yan Shuang who was lying quietly in the dark, and strangely remembered that Yan Shuang had crawled back into the room in embarrassment wrapped in clothes.

Is this the original mood?

There is no feeling of being cherished at all, or even a little favor.

He closed the door and looked up at the silent third floor again.

He hadn't received Qin Qing's response for a long time, but he got used to it, at most he felt a little bitter.

And tonight...

Qin Yubai lowered his head and smiled wryly.

Back downstairs in the living room, Qin Yubai walked into the kitchen and found that the housekeeper was boiling milk.

"gentlemen."

Qin Yubai glanced at the cup in his hand.

"Mr. Yan hasn't eaten anything since he came back. I think he should have at least a glass of milk before going to bed."

Qin Yubai opened the wine cabinet without saying a word, took a bottle of red wine casually, and said calmly, "Are you empathizing too much?"

"Mister misunderstood." The housekeeper poured the hot milk into the cup, and said calmly, "I just take care of Mr. Yan as a member of the family, such as the young master."

The wine was poured into the glass, Qin Yubai was too lazy to sober up, and took a hasty sip, it was really astringent and sour, the aroma of roses was just fleeting, leaving only endless bitterness in the aftertaste.

The butler is holding the milk and is waiting for the master's approval.

Qin Yubai drank half of the wine in the glass at once, put down the glass, and poured himself another drink.

Amidst the sound of the wine pouring into the glass, the owner lazily spoke.

"Give him more sugar, he likes sweet things."