say love [rebirth]

——Rebirth——

Standing by the backlit hospital wall, Lin Yuguang lit a cigarette and took a few puffs, exhaling a smoke ring.

The wind in autumn is always a bit cold. Standing in the wind for a while and being blown by the wind, he unconsciously remembered his life these years.

The words I often heard in the past few years kept ringing in my head: "Xiaoguang, mom is leaving, and you can live your life with peace of mind when mom is gone. It was mom who sorry for you before, so don't blame mom, okay?" It's his mother.

"Don't come to see me. I've told you many times. I don't think it's your responsibility to take care of me. Don't come again... Just go and see your mother." This is his father.

Breathing out a puff of smoke, for some reason, the next second he recalled his high school days.

His mind was full of what the man had said and the unchanging gentle expression on his face.Lin Yuguang kept reminding himself that it has been too long since this incident, but he really hasn't made any progress in all these years, and he still can't learn to recognize the reality.

He had an urge to find what he had lost.

After thinking about it, he put out the cigarette in his hand, and planned to find a restaurant across the street to eat first, after all, he had to deal with his mother's funeral later.

When he walked to the opposite side, he kept thinking of the day when he rejected Lu Hui, and the familiar words rang in his mind again: "Forget it, Lu Hui, it's wrong for us to do this, if you can't keep going, let's give up."

He will always remember the sadness on Lu Hui's face and empathize with him, but what happened in the past few months has made him give up resistance, and it is futile to say more.

After a while of silence, Lu Hui only responded lightly: "Okay", then turned around and walked away, stopped after a few steps and turned to look at him and said, "I won't be by your side in the future, so take good care of yourself. "

Before Lin Yuguang could continue to think about it, he suddenly saw an extremely fast car approaching him. The next second his body also flew up, and a few seconds later, he hit the ground heavily.

Lin Yuguang, who was lying on the ground surrounded by pain, couldn't help but lose his temper because of this fucking thing of fate.

After suffering for so many years, he originally thought... maybe... he would have a chance to visit that person again.

But he didn't expect that even the final death was so hasty, and before he had time to be happy that he finally had nothing to worry about, he himself... just... died like this.

I don't know how Lu Hui has been doing for so many years. What would be his reaction if he knew he was dead?

Maybe he would just lament his untimely death. After all, so many years have passed, Lu Hui probably doesn't want to remember him.

When Lin Yuguang closed his eyes for the last time, he seemed to see a familiar figure running towards him. He tried his best to take another look with his last breath, but it was too late, and he still couldn't hold on. All consciousness is reduced to chaos.

……

When he opened his eyes again, Lin Yuguang still had the scene of being hit by a car and that blurry figure constantly flashing in Lin Yuguang's mind.

After taking a few deep breaths, he slowly calmed down, but his head still hurt a little.He clearly remembered that he was hit and died on the spot, and it stands to reason that he would never have the chance to open his eyes again.

With this in mind, he slowly turned his head and looked around, the familiar bookshelves and desks, and the high school uniform on the back of the chair.

He looked down at his arm again, obviously looking like a teenager.

He couldn't help guessing boldly, couldn't it?Finally jumped off the bed, went straight to the desk and picked up the upside-down mobile phone, looked at the time: "September 2012, 9, Friday, 17:14".

The familiar time told him that this was the second week of his freshman year of high school, and it was also when he and Lu Hui had just become classmates.

"Is it true that God has the virtue of being good at life? It actually...let me...live again?"

Lin Yuguang couldn't help murmuring in a low voice, and pinched his left arm with his right hand as if he couldn't believe it.

"Hiss..." Feeling the pain, he dared to be sure that he was really lucky to live again.

He couldn't help but think that it might indeed be that God felt that he had lived too aggrieved in his previous life, and he couldn't stand it, so he gave him a chance to live again.At this moment, he remembered the idea before his death, to live for himself.

In the previous life, I had to make compromises and get nothing, so I listened to my parents, and in the end not only lost a person who liked him so much, but also died so early, it was really not worth it.

It took him a while to truly accept the fact that he was reborn.He has to think about what to do next, and he can't waste this hard-won opportunity.

Although he has now replaced his core in his 30s in this body, the current "he" is just a 16-year-old high school student.

Without a source of income, it is impossible to be independent immediately, so leaving is definitely not the first option.

Besides, in his memory, his parents were very strict with him during high school.

It was precisely because the two of them oppressed him for so many years in his previous life that he formed the submissive character in his previous life.It also made him unwilling to give up so many things and dare not resist.

While thinking about it, he washed his face, splashed cold water on his face twice, wiped it off, and then looked at himself in the mirror carefully when he was young.

The facial features are gentle and natural, and the combination is clean and pleasing to the eye, but the bangs have not been cut for a long time and are a bit long, covering most of the eyes.

After washing up, he changed into a black T-shirt and light-colored shorts and walked out the door. Their house is quite spacious, but it doesn't look popular.

After all, as high school teachers, his parents also hold some administrative positions in the school. They are very busy every day, and they can only see them when they go home at night and at noon.

But he was so busy that he could spare some time to make the current "him" unhappy. Lin Yuguang looked at the note left on the coffee table, picked it up, and it read: remember to heat the rice in the refrigerator, make three sets question.

He still vaguely remembers how conscientiously he wrote the papers at home in his previous life, and the description of "vomiting in writing" is perfect.

Next to it is Liu He and Lin Fengguo's "eye gaze", which can be called the latest method of mental torture.

Lin Yuguang casually picked up the note and threw it into the trash can next to him, opened the refrigerator, took out the food and heated it for a few minutes, then picked up a leaf of green vegetable with chopsticks, tasted it, and sure enough, it was the familiar taste in memory, not at all Taste of boiled greens.

He himself has a strong taste, but his parents' taste runs counter to his, which is too light.

When he was still eager for his parents to care more about him, he only felt that he could not force his parents to change his taste for him, so he kept changing his own taste, hoping that he would not be picky eaters and be a good boy.

But it is really too difficult, every time I swallow it is like taking poison after taking it for more than ten years.If you don't eat, Liu He will look at you with that disappointed look again, and blame him for being "picky eater" and "difficult to raise"...

He was so lacking in love in his previous life, every time he was looked at by that kind of gaze, he couldn't help but force himself, always thinking that they should like him more.

After taking a few bites to recall, he put the food back intact and only drank a bowl of porridge.After washing the dishes, he took the key and walked out of the house.

The moment he walked out of the unit door and was embraced by the sun, he felt the vitality in his body.Based on memory, I slowly walked out of the community and went to a nearby barber shop.

The haircut in this store is quite fast, and it doesn't sell various care products in his ears.

After cutting it, I looked in the mirror. After cutting it short, I felt much refreshed, and my forehead was fully exposed.

After paying the bill and walking out of the store, Lin Yuguang didn't know where to go, so he stood at the door for a while and then got on the bus to the city library.

Although he did enough papers in his previous life, he went back to high school and had to buy some exercises to review his high school knowledge. After all, his grades were still very good in his previous life.What's more, after being a high school teacher for so long, I know my status bar best.

There were still a lot of people in the bookstore on Saturday. Lin Yuguang was always careful not to bump into anyone. After walking for several minutes, he arrived at the high school teaching area, but found that there were more people here than in the previous hall. He had to squeeze to get in. Get the problem sets you want.

When I finally squeezed out of the crowd and wanted to check out, I turned around and saw the person next to the bookshelf opposite. He was nearly 1 meters tall, with short hair and sharp facial features, but he didn't have the same aura around him. a feeling of.When he realized that it was Lu Hui, he realized that Lu Hui was also looking at him.

The reunion after a long distance in time and space made him dare not breathe, he was too nervous and afraid that he was still dreaming, it was just a phantom.Just as he was thinking this way, he suddenly saw Lu Hui getting closer and closer to him.

What should I do, should I say hello?But he remembered that he was not very familiar with Lu Hui at this time in his previous life, what should he do, after living for more than ten years, there is still no way to deal with this situation! !

When he was thinking about countermeasures frantically, Lu Hui had already walked up to him, and asked him with a surprised expression: "Lin Yuguang? You are also here to buy books. I am Lu Hui, and we are in the same class. How about you?" remember me?"

"Of course... remember, yes, I... I... also come to buy books, hello!"

He finally knew what it meant to be more timid near the hometown, and he was still a little nervous after he stuttered.

Lu Hui was always smiling, and there was no sense of impatience at all when he heard him speak so nervously.

Seeing Lin Yuguang staring at her and not saying anything else, Lu Hui rubbed his nose in a little embarrassment and smiled.

In fact, he noticed Lin Yuguang the day he was assigned to a class at the beginning of the semester. After all, being the first in the class and being pretty good-looking was enough to attract a lot of attention.

But after seeing that Lin Yuguang acted alone every time and did not communicate with his classmates, he felt that this person might not be easy to get along with.

Originally, he came to the bookstore today to pick up some comic books to pass the time, but he didn't expect to meet Lin Yuguang.

Remembering that Lin Yuguang had always preferred to be alone, he was afraid that the other party might not remember that he hesitated to come over.

But when he saw Lin Yuguang, he was shocked and kept staring at him, and finally decided to come over to say hello.

Seeing Lin Yuguang who was obviously distracted, he asked Lin Yuguang again, "Have you picked out the books? I just picked out a few books and planned to pay the bill, why don't we go out together?"

Lin Yuguang didn't seem to expect that he would call him to go out together, and he was stunned for a while before answering: "Okay! Let's go out together."

The tone sounded a little excited, and coupled with his appearance, Lu Hui felt that such a schoolmaster was not so difficult to get in touch with.

The two went to the cashier together, but no one spoke again. Lin Yuguang was still immersed in his own thoughts. It was really Lu Hui. He didn't expect to see him today.

While he was immersed in his own world, the two of them also walked to the cash register.

Lu Hui saw that he was walking forward with a blank expression on his face, and when he was about to hit the bookshelf, he reached out and pulled Lin Yuguang, and said, "Lin Yuguang, be careful."

Lin Yuguang was woken up by Lu Hui, and felt that the first day he saw Lu Hui's performance was too bad, so he said a little embarrassedly: "Thank you, I...I was thinking about other things just now, Didn't pay attention to this. Thank you, Lu Hui."

Lu Hui looked at Lin Yuguang who was embarrassed in front of him, waved his hand and said, "Check out quickly, it's okay."

Just as the two walked out of the bookstore after paying the bill, they heard a bell ring.Lu Hui picked up the phone and chatted a few words. It seemed that the other party called him over, and Lu Hui agreed.

After hanging up the phone, Lu Hui smiled at him apologetically and said, "My friend has something to do with me, so I'll leave first. I'll see you in class on Monday."

Lin Yuguang secretly guessed that this friend should be Li Xuan. Although he really wanted to stay with Lu Hui for a while, but the two had just met, Lin Yuguang could only say goodbye to Lu Hui and go home. "Well, see you on Monday."

The author says:

Reposted after biming committed suicide...

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