Ye Suiyu'an

Mo Yinong put some clothes into the suitcase, squatted on the ground to organize the suitcase.Xi Ling sat on the bed behind her, and was silent for a long time before speaking.

"Yinong, have you really made up your mind?" Although Xi Ling already knew that Mo Yinong was going to study abroad, but when it was time to part, she hoped that her daughter would regret it temporarily.

Mo Yinong's busy hands stopped immediately, and then nodded again.

Xi Ling sighed, his eyes fixed, as if immersed in some memories: "I used to take you around when you were a child, and then you went to school, I still ran around. Maybe I was used to it before, and I always felt that parting is nothing. , I don’t seem to have considered your feelings too much.”

Mo Yinong continued to move her hands and brought up the past. She didn't have much emotion, she just looked at it with a calm attitude.

"Now we've changed roles. When I've been here with you for a long time and you suddenly want to leave, I can't bear to get up." Xi Ling smiled self-deprecatingly, "At that time, did you also think I was so sad now? Are you going to die?" She knew that Mo Yinong was not a person who would easily express too many emotions, and she had previously ignored her daughter's feelings.Young people are probably more cruel, but now that they are old, they are sentimental and can't stand loneliness.

Mo Yinong said: "Of course I will be reluctant." Although she and her mother have been dependent on each other since childhood, many times, she always felt that there was a faint layer of veil between them.This made it impossible for Mo Yinong to completely open up to Xi Ling and reveal his little emotions to her.

"It's just that at the time, I felt that my mother didn't need to be by my side every day. You have your job and career, and I have to be busy with my studies." People have to learn to be independent and can't always rely on their mother.Perhaps because of her natural personality, Mo Yinong has been very self-reliant since she was a child. She has her own ideas and a sense of independence.This made her very resistant to loneliness, and over time she developed a calm and indifferent temperament.

Xi Ling folded her hands together, still feeling that her daughter had been wronged a lot in the past: "You are very good, you are more outstanding and mature than mother thought."

Mo Yinong tidied up her things and sat next to Xi Ling. The sadness of parting made her look depressed.She leaned her head lightly on Xi Ling's shoulder, her voice was fragile: "Mom, maybe I'm not as good as you think, and I'm not as mature and sensible as you think."

Xi Ling's warm hand grasped her hand, holding it firmly, as if to make Mo Yinong believe what he said: "I believe in my eyes."

Mo Yinong kept denying in her heart, thinking that if her mother knew about her and Mo Qingshen, she probably wouldn't think so.

"Mom, if you find out that I've done something wrong in the future...can you..." Mo Yinong wanted Xi Ling to be vaccinated, so as not to provoke his mother to be furious and deny her daughter, "can you... "

"Can you do anything?"

Mo Yinong faltered and hawed for a long time, and finally swallowed the words several times.Playing a rogue to deceive others for forgiveness after doing something wrong is tantamount to forcing her mother to accept what happened between herself and Mo Qingshen in a disguised form, and it is despicable enough to think about it.In the end, Mo Yinong just straightened up and shook his head, vaguely saying it was nothing.

Xi Ling looked at her, feeling pity welling up in his heart, and only said: "As a mother, I stand by your side unconditionally." This actually sounds a little powerless, and all I can do is stand by your side. , if you can't support it, then at least it's not against you.

Mo Yinong's heart was warm, and he held his mother's hand instead, reassuring in his heart that he would not be confused anymore.

"Aren't you going to see Qingshen?" Xi Ling changed the subject.

As soon as Mo Qingshen was mentioned, Mo Yinong changed his appearance.She broke free from Xi Ling's palm, seemed a little anxious, stood up and turned her back to Xi Ling: "No, I'm leaving the day after tomorrow, and I have something to do tomorrow, so I might not be able to spare time to see her."

"That's it...she will be disappointed." Xi Ling said, "After all, she has been waiting for you to see her for a long time, and your father will also ask why you didn't go to the hospital later, and also said that you had a fight."

Mo Yinong looked down at his twisted fingers, and answered absently: "No. Actually, I haven't been in contact with her for long, I... I don't have a deep relationship with her, and I've been busy recently. So..." No matter what, Mo Yinong felt that his explanation was weak and pale.

Xi Ling smiled shallowly and comforted her: "It's okay, and you don't have to take the time to see her. I also think that Qingshen is best to avoid contact with people now. After all, she hasn't recovered yet. If she gets infected, it will be troublesome." gone."

Mo Yinong looked embarrassed, gritted his teeth as if he was deliberately suppressing something.

"Then wait until you come back from vacation to see her. At that time, she will probably return home from the hospital, so you don't have to go to the hospital so much trouble."

Mo Yinong just nodded, not knowing what he was thinking in silence, and then he said to Xi Ling in a tone of begging, "I'm leaving, Mom, you have to watch her carefully and let her eat on time. The medicine was checked in time."

Xi Ling repeatedly agreed: "She is your sister and my daughter, even if you don't tell me, I will take care of her. Yi Nong, are you worrying too much?"

Mo Yinong realized that he had said the wrong thing, and hurriedly wanted to explain, but he didn't know how to start, and was extremely embarrassed.Xi Ling smiled, and said in relief, "Why are you in a daze? I understand, you said that because you cared about her."

Mo Yinong felt guilty and responded perfunctorily.

"Then you pack up first, and I'll make you something to eat."

"it is good."

Xi Ling walked out of the room, looked at Mo Yinong's back before closing the door, and let out a heavy breath with indescribable emotion.

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When Mo Yinong left, her parents, Ye Sui, and Song Yu'an all went to the airport to see her off, and almost everyone close to her came, except Mo Qingshen.Her parents told her to be careful and take good care of herself, but Song Yu'an and Ye Sui knew that she had regrets and reluctance, but they couldn't do anything about it.Ye Sui hugged her and said a few words of comfort: "One year will soon, when you come back, Mo Qingshen's illness will be cured."

Although everyone knows that Mo Qingshen's recovery period is not that short, but they are all willing to think in a good direction, and Mo Yinong is no exception, smiling and nodding——hopefully.

"Alright, it's almost time to board the plane..." Mo Yinong said.

Ye Sui seemed to be thinking of something again, pulled Mo Yinong and refused to let her go, and whispered in her ear: "Don't just think about climbing up, think more about Mo Qingshen, she is waiting for you. "

Mo Yinong glanced at his parents, and replied to Ye Sui: "Climbing up is not a bad thing."

"I know." Ye Sui emphasized his tone, and the following words are the key, "I mean you are not allowed to stay abroad for too long, and it is best to come back after the training." Mo Yinong said before that she completed the training course , may stay in a foreign company, which makes Ye Sui very sad.It's not that she objected to Mo Yinong making more plans for her career, but she was deeply worried for Mo Qing.Anyway, he is a sick person, if Mo Yinong doesn't come back for a long time, what will Mo Qingshen do?

Song Yu'an faintly heard Ye Sui's words, and immediately pulled her back: "Yinong has his own sense, so don't meddle in other people's business."

"I'm not doing this because of..." Ye Suixiang retorted, seeing that Mo Yin and Xi Ling were both there, he lowered his voice, "Aren't I thinking deeply about Mo Qing? You are still her good friend, not at all. For her sake."

Song Yu'an only thought of her as a child, shook her head noncommittally, and said to Mo Yinong, "Don't listen to Ye Sui, you can do whatever you want." She believed in Mo Yinong.

Mo Yinong didn't linger on this topic, smiled sweetly, and threw three words - "I understand everything."

Song Yu'an smiled triumphantly at Ye Sui, Ye Sui was so angry that he was half dead, and finally hugged Mo Yinong again.From college to now, she and Mo Yinong have been good friends for so many years, and they will finally be separated for a while.Reluctant.

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The plane took off, passed through the layers of clouds, and carried her loved one to a foreign country.Mo Qing leaned deeply on the window sill and looked out the window. It was the transition from late autumn to winter, and the leaves on the branches had fallen in disorder, only a few leaves were still swaying tenaciously in the wind.Today's sky is very blue, and her mood is also very blue.

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The leaves outside the window fell, and the branches were covered with a thin layer of snow; the snow melted, and the flowers bloomed in spring; the summer was hot, and the branches and leaves became more lush; and in winter, it was depressed.

A year has passed, and Mo Qingshen's hair has grown back, but it's not as long as before, and Mo Yinong hasn't come back yet.Mo Qing was wearing a white sweater, leaning against the window and lost her mind.

"Qingshen, I brought the medicine here." Xi Ling poured hot water and beckoned Mo Qingshen to come and take the medicine.

Only then did Mo Qingshen regain her senses, and walked over slowly: "Mom, you can just leave it here, and I will do it myself." Over the past year, the relationship between the two has repaired a lot.I don't know if it's because of suffering from illness, life and death and parting from her lover, Mo Qingshen has become more gentle and mature, and has become more open-minded.For Xi Ling, she chose to forgive and let go of what happened in the past, and she was willing to accept her mother again.

That's fine.But in her own opinion, she is becoming less and less like herself, at least she is not the original her.What happened in recent years seems to be a patient grindstone, slowly, little by little, grinding away her once sharp edges and corners.And Mo Yinong's departure took away her anger, her vitality, her publicity and that cute arrogance.

There still seems to be a lack of the intimacy that a mother and daughter should have between her and her mother, and there is even a layer of window paper between her and her mother. The reason is still those three words - Mo Yinong.

Xi Ling handed her the water, didn't pay attention to what she said, and poured out the medicine to be taken one by one, ready to hand it to Mo Qingshen.Fortunately, Mo Qingshen recovered very well in the later period. Although there were rejection reactions afterwards, fortunately, she survived and overcame them.With the passage of time and further treatment, her body is gradually adapting to the transplanted hematopoietic stem cells.Everything seemed to be getting better, but Mo Qingshen's silence day after day made Xi Ling and Mo Yin worry - Qingshen was not happy.

"I want to go for a walk." Mo Qingshen said suddenly after swallowing various medicines with difficulty.

Xi Ling was taken aback for a moment, and then agreed: "Okay, where do you want to go? Your father is not free, so I can accompany you. It just so happens that I can take the opportunity to go out and sketch."

Mo Qing shook her head deeply: "I just want to go out for a walk by myself."

"..." Xi Ling hesitated, "No, I'm worried about your body."

"It's not recent. Wait until the beginning of spring. I'll go out again in March and April. My health should be better then, and I won't go far."

Xi Ling thought for a while: "Okay. Anyway, your health is the most important thing."

Mo Qing sat deeply on the chair, looked through the window, and when the branches were green, if Mo Yinong hadn't come back, she would go out.Since I can't find you yet, I will try my best to bring my former energetic self back to life.