green eyes

Cheng Jun held my face, his eyes were full of sadness, he said in a low voice: "No matter what I say or do, you won't believe me, you obviously love me, but you can't trust me anymore Is it?"

I moved my sore body and dared not look him in the eyes: "Cheng Jun... I love you, but I can't be with you. The more I believe in you now, the more I believe in you when we break up in the future. The pain will be more severe, forgive me for not being able to trust you, I don't believe that your love for me is enough to last a lifetime."

Cheng Jun suddenly took a deep breath, and said with a trembling tone: "That's right... I gave up on you for the rest of my life..."

I froze for a moment, and looked up at him.

Cheng Jun's eyes turned away to look at the unknown distant place: "Jiashu... I had a dream."

I was stunned.

Cheng Jun's voice trembled slightly: "In my dream, I left you and went abroad. I passed many people. It was a very long journey. Although I really miss you, I have indeed given up on you. I have touched many people. Loved one another, had sex with each other, finally separated, and finally married a woman from the opposite family. Like my parents, I lived a life that seemed to be in harmony with God's intentions. Love is the icing on the cake of life. Like many people of this class, enjoy material things and the material brings a rich spiritual life, fulfill family obligations, and prepare to have a child."

I closed my eyes: "This is the natural ending."

Cheng Jun lowered his head and stroked my eyebrows slightly with his fingers, but I could feel his chest rising and falling, as if he was suppressing something: "Later, the domestic situation changed, and my family was not stable. I took my wife back to China. After that, I I accepted an invitation from an old classmate to invite me to a more private party."

My heart moved, wasn't it a dream?What did he mean by such detailed details?Cheng Jun's voice was calm: "It's an invitation from Liu Fangping. There will be a special note on the invitation that there will be sideshows, so please consider the partner of the dance. Most people understand that this kind of party usually does not bring official partners to attend. Sideshows are usually It's about sex...similar to an ancient church."

I raised my eyes to look at Cheng Jun, a little puzzled, it was too much like a memory, not like a dream, Cheng Jun's eyes were dark and suffocating: "I have been abroad for so many years, I have seen sex parties before, but I haven’t seen my old classmates for a long time, so I went too.”

"There were a lot of old classmates at the banquet. After we talked about the past, Liu Fangping said that there was a novelty for us to see, and then...he asked someone to carry out a birdcage."

My body was stiff, and I raised my eyes to see the huge golden birdcage. Cheng Jun hugged me tightly: "The huge birdcage is covered with a cover. After pulling it away, I saw you curled up inside."

My eyes must have been full of horror, but Cheng Jun's hands were holding my waist tightly like iron tongs, almost scratching me: "Although it has been more than ten years, I recognized you at a glance. Wearing nothing but rings everywhere, strange ornaments and golden collar shackles, your green eyes are full of indifference, and a trainer opens the door and pulls you out... You are completely tamed into a Pets... seem to have no thoughts, crawling under the scolding and whipping of the trainer, spreading their legs, masturbating with various utensils, and giving oral..."

My whole body trembled, and Cheng Jun hugged me tightly: "Liu Fangping brought you to me as if showing off, and said with a smile: 'Come on, I will also serve your old classmate...Cheng Jun, do you still remember? This beautiful green-eyed canary.'”

"I saw you speechless, your eyes met mine, as if you suddenly woke up, suddenly...suddenly shrank up, howled...then refused to cooperate again, no matter how much the trainer whipped you You, you never want to look up at me again."

I held Cheng Jun's hand: "Are you dreaming? Are you dreaming..."

Cheng Jun held my hand instead, and hugged me tightly: "Jia Shu... I'm even more afraid that this is just a dream..."

My throat choked up, my whole body trembled, and Cheng Jun's voice was a little hoarse: "I can't stand it anymore. After drinking Liu Fangping, he sent someone to pull you down. I broke up with him--the next day, I sent someone to go After inquiring about you, I heard that you bit Liu Fangping's... off when you went back that night, and then hit the wall. His neck bone was broken and he died. Liu Fangping was rushed abroad for treatment. I can't."

I couldn't speak, my teeth were chattering, and Cheng Jun whispered: "After that, every night, I seem to hear your desperate howls in my ears, and I will always have your pair of horrified pain in my dreams." Intertwined green eyes, at the beginning of the dream, it was always emerald green eyes like a green lake under the bright sun, 17-year-old you looked at me purely and enthusiastically, and then it switched to your neck broken and your face covered in blood, lying in blood and losing luster His green eyes were covered with dead gray, and he stared at me wide open... I don't know what kind of mood you are in to die... I can't live the rest of my life anymore, I will check, I just know that you seem to have offended Liu Fangping. I don’t know how. In short, he used drugs to control you, someone trained you, and became a pet. You have been completely broken and have no self-awareness. I heard that you have been at parties many times It was shown on the Internet...I didn't expect to see me that day...you suddenly lost control..."

I hugged my arms tightly, and my heart was broken for the end described by Cheng Jun. I suddenly thought, what would happen to me if Cheng Jun didn't come back to me again?Impulsively, I reported Liu Fangping with resentment towards Liu Fangping. If Cheng Jun hadn't been by my side, I would have faced the tragic revenge of the Liu family... I muttered to myself: "Is no one caring about me?" Searching hopelessly in my mind, who cares about me?What about Ding Yun?

Cheng Jun was a little choked up: "Ding Yun took care of the funeral for you... As far as I know, she quarreled with Fang Kun and separated after a cold war because the Fang family took you to lock you up and directly pumped out the bone marrow for treatment. After being arrested by Liu Fangping, she asked Fang Kun for help, but after the Fang family refused to help, she and Fang Kun broke up completely, and after you died, she and Fang Kun divorced."

My tears flowed down, and Cheng Jun whispered: "Every vivid image of your youth is in my mind, you used to be so beautiful... I don't know why your life has become like this ,...the more I searched, the more frightened I became...the more I searched, the more I regretted it, I regretted it every day, I regretted not bringing you back at that time, I regretted not looking back for you sooner... Your life should not have been like this , you should be healthy, confident, happy and innocent, and you should be held in the palm of others and cared for carefully. I play life and play feelings, thinking that everyone is willing to get together and break up, but I don’t know that my letting go makes such a person fall into a trap. Hell, I left you alone in this world, and your blood was broken. In the end, all thoughts were lost... What did you think when you saw me? I don't know, I just know that I must be special in your heart, let you I collapsed and directly chose to end my young life. I thought over and over again, what were you thinking that day, what was I to you who gave up you so easily? Do you still love me, but I will never I can't get an answer." His hands trembled slightly, and there seemed to be tears in his eyes, with water flashing.

"Later I got sick...depression...I never felt happy again, I couldn't be interested in anything anymore, I even made a cage for myself, locked myself in the cage, Night after night, I imagined how desperate and hopeless you felt little by little. After the whole world collapsed, did you look forward to me in those desperate days, and did you miss me when I was 17? One day I finally decided to commit suicide, I injected myself with euthanasia, and when I opened my eyes, I found that I had returned to the past."

I interrupted him muttering: "Shouldn't you wake up from a dream?"

Cheng Jun smiled wryly: "Yes... I had a nightmare... When I woke up from the dream, I immediately rejected the marriage and started to go back to China. I hope everything will be in time."

I couldn't digest what Cheng Jun said at all. Cheng Jun hugged me tightly and gently stroked my back: "It's still too late. When I saw my dear Xiao Jiashu who had grown up in the bar, mature Confident, lively, you haven’t seen each other for more than ten years, you have experienced so many ups and downs, you have not fallen into the mud, but have grown independently in the sun to become a luxuriant tree, full of attractive Charm, you neither scolded me for my indiscretion, nor did you hate me, and you were even willing to sleep with me. I was overjoyed, but at the same time, I was even more frightened. I didn't know what Liu Fangping did to you to make you become That look..."

I recalled the one-night stand when we first met, he was indeed very happy that night, and I carefully recalled the time he spent with me since we met, and I became suspicious: "No, you obviously didn't know anything about my past at that time look."

Cheng Jun touched my hair: "I think, you must not want me to know about your past, and you don't want to dig up your scars that seem to have healed, so you pretend you don't know anything, just reunited in your best state, Will it be easier for you to accept me... I hope you can tell me your grievances in person, hope you ask me for help, and hope that I will become your most stable support... I want to take it slowly, call You know how good I am, I spoil you well, and I can always teach you to trust me again." I was dumbfounded.

"So when I found out that you were actually playing SM with people, I was very scared. I was afraid that the nightmare would become a reality... Jia Shu, I will never forget how you were locked in the birdcage. I can't... I hate you Self-deprecating and self-deprecating, I lost control, I'm sorry, I came back to prevent you from being hurt, but I became the biggest source of hurting you, you don't want to believe me anymore... I can't let you go out alone , you are too worrying, but I was a little tougher, but I didn't expect to bring you out of depression. I don't know what to do with you. I hope you will be the same as when I first met you. I have good expectations for the future, self-confidence and self-improvement, and a friendly smile, but these things are too easy to be deprived of in the face of power. I can only protect you by putting you by my side. I just want to relax and let you adjust your mood. Thinking that after a year, you actually reported Liu Fangping, is this fate?"

I lowered my eyelashes, and Cheng Jun said in a low voice: "Although the arrangements were not complete and a little hasty, I still fought with the Liu family with great fanfare. Fortunately, there is still time for everything... Jia Shu, you are still fine... I hope you will always be fine, even if you don't want to be by my side..."

I whispered: "I'm sorry, your family must have suffered a lot."

Cheng Jun shook his head: "It's not what you think, it just looks like some people and properties have been lost, but in fact, those are rotten parts, and the carrion should have been cut off a long time ago. I have long wanted to get out of this chaotic chess game in China. Part of the industry has already been transferred to foreign countries, but it was just for outsiders to watch, and I took the opportunity to get away. Last time I told you that the family has been defeated... I just thought if you mind if my status is too far from yours So I can't believe me, so I might as well pretend to have nothing, so will you be willing to be with me, but unfortunately you still choose not...so I also choose to let go...I didn't expect, I didn't expect that it was just a car accident, you would ..."

I remembered that I was crying bitterly on the street holding a bloody corpse in a daze. My whole body was not well. I pushed his hand away: "Don't mention that, please."

Cheng Jun gave a low laugh, and brushed my hair aside: "You obviously love me, but you refuse to admit it, trust me again, okay?"

I raised my eyes and saw the deep hope in Cheng Jun's dark eyes. I hesitated for a while. The story was so painful and realistic that I had to believe that he had really experienced it. I silently rested my head on the On Cheng Jun's shoulder, Cheng Jun hugged me tightly, and said in a low voice: "I'm too afraid that this is a dream... Jiashu...you are the treasure I lost and found. I made a mistake once, and the lesson I learned is too great. Deep down, I don't want to let go."

Hot tears fell on my ears: "I love you."

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yes... That's it, with the addition of the car accident stalk and the rebirth stalk, it's complete.

Have you been beaten by Lei Fei? Are you still alive and strong until the last squeak?

Although there are still two more days, Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

ps, there is also a side story, write slowly and don't know when it will come out.

Extra Story [-]: Emerald

Since the frank confession, Jiashu and Cheng Jun have reconciled, but Cheng Jun still feels that there is still a gap between the two. Jiashu did not fully accept him. After he proposed to go abroad together, he hesitated for a long time. He only said that he was reluctant to part with the studio. In fact, he didn't know that he didn't give Jiashu enough sense of security, so that he didn't dare to give up his career easily.

He was also helpless. He also knew that it would be ridiculous to tell anyone about the experience of rebirth. With Jiashu's defensiveness, he might not believe it. He might still suspect that he made it up to coax him to change his mind. He was frightened by the tragic ending he said, and he was afraid that after thinking about it later, he would suspect that he was threatening, but he had no choice. No matter how much he tried, he couldn't win Jiashu's trust. Farther and farther away, now he is wrong in everything he does, and he is even more timid after worrying about gains and losses.

Jia Shu was also troubled, he didn't know how to get along with Cheng Jun at the moment, that dream was too strange, besides, Cheng Jun's feelings for him were aroused because of the dream, whether it was regret or pity, now he was holding the idea of ​​compensation Together with him psychologically, who knows when the regret will be exhausted, the cruelty in the dream will gradually be replaced by reality, and when Cheng Jun feels that he has compensated enough, he will revert to his old ways, but at that time he will not be able to take back his heart, how can he Is good?

It's not that he hasn't thought about the idea of ​​completely letting go of the studio and going abroad, but what he's worried about is that the car accident happened right in front of him. People's hearts are suspicious and fearful, although they respect each other as guests and treat each other like relatives, it is difficult to appease them in the end.

Today is Jiashu's birthday, Cheng Jun had to arrange activities for the whole day, and cooked the dishes carefully. After dinner, Cheng Jun took out a jewelry box, but he was not in a hurry to hand it to Jiashu, hesitating It took a long time to open it gently, and there was a ring inside. The ring surface was carved from a perfect emerald, the color was dark green, bright and crystal clear.

Jiashu smiled: "How dare you wear such a big emerald ring on your hand, it's too eye-catching." Wearing such a big emerald on a finger is not Jiashu's taste anyway.

Cheng Jun hesitated for a while and said softly: "This emerald is... I have been wearing it in my dream... After your accident, I bought it at an auction, and I wore it until... I woke up from the dream It, I checked later, there are records in the Old Testament, Christians believe that emerald has a kind of divine power, it is a symbol of rebirth, the resurrection of Jesus is related to emerald.”

Jia Shu didn't want to accept the ring, but Cheng Jun took Jia Shu's hand solemnly, put the ring on him, and then silently held Jia Shu's hand, his fingertips moving lightly on the back of his hand Touching, the atmosphere was so serious that it was almost like a ceremony, Jia Shu finally felt a little uncomfortable, and gently withdrew his hand back.

At night, the two embraced each other and fell asleep. Maybe they were too tired. Jiashu felt that his body was extremely uncomfortable, curled up tightly and very restrained. He wanted to straighten his legs, but was torn apart Sharp pain woke up sweating profusely.

He moved, and there were tearing pains from several indescribable places on his body. He held back the pain and looked down, horrified. He was not wearing anything, and the nipples on his chest were pierced at some point , inlaid with emeralds, the ring is connected with a golden chain, extending to the heel of the leg, and there is obviously a tight lock and a bulging foreign body sensation in the shadow, as long as you move, the three short gold chains The place where it was connected would be in severe pain, and the tiny bell hanging from the chain rang softly, and his inside was even more sore, he had to curl up, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, his hands were locked around his neck He was wearing a collar, and there was a pair of shackles on his ankles. There were two chains connected to the waist chain at the back of the shackles, which meant that he couldn't stand up at all, and could only lie curled up on his side or...kneeling.

This is how the same thing!Jiashu suppressed the horror in his heart, looked around, and found that he was actually in a birdcage!The cage was covered with crimson velvet, which reminded him of Cheng Jun's cage, and his heart sank, not daring to think why he appeared here.

Cheng Jun...

He curled up, closed his eyes, felt his body trembling slightly, but heard someone outside saying: "Okay, take the bird cage out."

Jia Shu closed his eyes in despair, and felt the birdcage being lifted up, and then came to a hall full of people and cheerful music.

A familiar voice called out: "Ladies and gentlemen, it's time for a special show! I have a rare canary bird for everyone to admire!" Then there was a loud whip Voice.

It's Liu Fangping!Jiashu shrank to the innermost part of the birdcage, almost imagining that he was being driven by the whip, bowing his head and walking out without hanging on his knees, but he remembered the dream Cheng Jun said in his heart, and felt something was wrong, there was the sound of footsteps It was heard that the velvet on the cage was about to be uncovered. He closed his eyes tightly, but did not usher in the most humiliating moment. A low and calm voice said: "Slow down."

Liu Fangping laughed shortly: "Why does Young Master Cheng want to teach you?"

Cheng Jun said in a low voice: "Liu Fangping, I can transfer the piece of land you wanted most last time to you at half price, and you can transfer this pet to me."

Liu Fangping paused for a while, then laughed: "Looks like Young Master Cheng has good eyes and ears, and the old love is unforgettable?"

Cheng Jun didn't answer, but said: "I know that you didn't compete for that piece of land, and now it's a huge profit to sell it at half price. You are also honorable in front of Mr. Liu. If you don't believe me, I can immediately write a letter of commitment to you. You, just tell me, change it or not."

Liu Fangping laughed: "Of course, since Mr. Cheng is so sincere, I will also give away the medicine that this pet needs most, a month's supply, how about it?"

Cheng Jun still didn't answer the question, and continued: "Then I can take it away now, right?"

Liu Fangping laughed: "Of course you can. Young Master Cheng is one of a kind, and his reputation is well-known. You can exchange a city for a beauty. You are such a romantic young man."

The cage was lifted up, Jiashu opened his eyes, saw that the cage had been covered all the time, his heart relaxed slightly, but fell into confusion, was this a dream?Because you were frightened by the dream Cheng Jun talked about?However, the tingling pain brought by every movement of his body and his clear mind made it hard for him to believe that this was a dream.

The cage was put into a car, and it was driven until it arrived at a certain place, and then it was lifted down and placed on the ground. During this time, the cover was tightly covered, making Jiashu feel safe.

Then there were slight footsteps coming in eagerly, but hesitantly stopped in front of the cage, silent for a long time, he could only hear my own slight breathing, almost wanted to call Cheng Jun, but I felt a great humiliation in facing Cheng Jun dressed like this, and in the end I could only wait in silence.

I don't know how long it took before the crimson cover was finally pulled, and then quickly slid down. Jiashu closed his eyes in shame, curled up, not daring to look at Cheng Jun, the cage was opened very quickly, and people But he came in hesitantly, his chin was raised, but a finger was inserted under his nose, and then he fell into a pair of powerful but slightly trembling arms, with a trembling voice: "God bless, I'm still alive. "

Jia Shu was stunned for a moment and opened his eyes, but his chin was lifted up and kissed passionately, a kind of joy that seemed to be regained after being lost, a kind of relief that seemed to be relieved from a heavy burden, Cheng Jun looked at him deeply, his eyes were full of tears: "Jia Shu , you are still alive...I don't know how many times in my dream, I was finally able to speak, rescued you from Liu Fangping, opened the cage, but you..."

He shivered, as if recalling that terrible scene again, so he hugged Jia Shu even tighter, feeling the warm body and beating heart, he murmured to himself: "This time, this time I really rescued?"

Jiashu moved, feeling the chains on his body made him sweat a little, and muttered: "Such a big price, why don't I give you the key?"

Cheng Jun lowered his head, looked at him with a surprised expression, then hurriedly took the keys, opened the shackles for him one by one, and removed those strange ornaments, all the while his hands and feet were light and fast, but his fingers were Trembling slightly, when pulling out the thing stuffed inside, Jiashu almost went crazy, Cheng Jun pressed him on his lap calmly, then gently poked in, squeezed and pulled out, Jiashu took a deep breath , and then obviously felt that something was being pressed against the lower abdomen.

He blushed and struggled to get up, but was hugged by Cheng Jun, pressed on the wool carpet, and continued to mark him with raindrops of kisses, possessing him, as if this could prove that he finally defeated the nightmare and changed the ending.

Seeing Cheng Jun's appearance, Jia Shu couldn't help but didn't resist much, and stretched out his body for him softly, with a drunken look and a gentle expression, the two of them were lingering until the end, Jia Shu gradually couldn't stand up, dripping with sweat, panting weakly Sobbing, Cheng Jun lowered his head and whispered in Jiashu's ear, asking repeatedly, begging for his answer: "Leave everything to me, I will treat you well, forever, Jiashu, you believe me, you must believe me Me, don't leave me, I love you, okay? Don't die, don't leave me, trust me, okay?" His voice was messy and broken, and Jiashu's eyes were confused, with blurred tears still remaining in the corners of his eyes, sobbing finally Promise: "Okay, I believe you."

Cheng Jun was redeemed, hugged him and tightened his muscles, then released him with a rough panting.

The two finally hugged each other and fell asleep.

The two of them were woken up by the morning light, and Jiashu found in a daze that he was still lying on his bed, and on the opposite wall was a tapestry he had bought, with bright colors, and Cheng Jun was still hugging him tightly with his arms tightly, The strange thing is that the birthday present that Cheng Jun put on for him yesterday has returned to Cheng Jun's finger, shining green in the morning light.

Extra episode [-]: Allen

Alan was very sad. He found a wild vigilant green-eyed kitten, which seemed to have been raised by people, but was released. It was full of vitality and beautiful to the extreme.He spent a lot of thought, approaching cautiously, and slowly dissolving his guard. He thought that as long as he was patient enough, as long as the kitten got used to his approach, used to confide in him, and used to only him being able to let him vent, he would always have One day be able to tame him.

It's a pity that strangers are not only his advantage, but also his disadvantage.

Being strangers can make him feel at ease to reveal his fragile and insecure side to him, and being strangers makes the kitten really feel at ease to show his belly to him, let him caress and comfort him, and let him feel at ease. The process of giving everything to him has become very long.

He needs to be patient enough.

He almost made it.

Seeing that strong and cold man taking the fragile and soft kitten away, he knew that he had failed and had to sigh.It's not that he's afraid of power, but that the kitten has always maintained a gentle image in front of outsiders, but reveals his true feelings in front of that person alone. Obviously that's his consistent knot...

Countless little ms knelt down and begged him for the fortune of the king in the circle, but he felt it was boring. For an S, without a suitable M, this activity has become meaningless. S and M need each other and confirm each other The meaning of existence, and now others just ask him for... that's all.

He has never had a fixed M, and now he is unwilling to accept even temporary ones, so he faded out of the circle and opened a private clinic by himself.

However, late one night, a mysterious visitor visited his clinic.

It's still the same calm and cold look, probably only by facing the green-eyed kitten can it soften a bit.

Allen was a little annoyed: "What is the honor of the distinguished guest? Is it to settle accounts after the fall?"

The man was not irritated by his contemptuous attitude. After a moment of silence, he said softly: "Does he really like being... abused?"

Allen glanced at him, couldn't help laughing, and said a little triumphantly: "What's wrong? I found out that I have been released for many years, and my claws have grown back. I can't be as teasing as before? Let me guess, it's hard for you to do it. Is it the same body and soul as before?"

The man was not embarrassed, and said frankly, "Something is missing."

Allen sat down and said lightly: "M actually pursues such a sense of security, and believes that S can arrange everything for him, give him everything, not hurt him, and make him happy forever—but in our circle, we will play until the end. , how many Ms can really hand over their body, mind and all their property to S? Everyone knows that is the ultimate culmination, but very few people do it. Do you understand? In the final analysis, it is still a sense of security and trust. The problem, it will take time to prove that he has no choice but to give everything to you. The only thing he can control is his own heart. He is eager to deliver, but wants to protect himself. The idea of ​​disgusting and irresistible desire, and then feeling disgusted and repressed by your own desire, is probably beyond your comprehension."

The man was silent for a long time in the shadows, and only spoke after a long time: "Does he need some venting..."

Allen smiled: "Of course you need a professional...but you can't."

The man's face sank: "I can learn."

Allen laughed: "Dear guest, do you want to learn art? Most of them are taught by top trainers, why come to me?"

The man said coldly: "You know the reason, what I want is someone who really understands him."

Allen suddenly felt very angry: "Of course, it's not impossible." While looking up and down the man, his eyes lingered for a while, he chuckled: "The best S starts with M... If you agree to train me After a while...then you will definitely learn better..." He looked at the man's darkened face and laughed loudly.

That night, Jia Shu found that Cheng Jun's movements were very strong. He imprisoned his wrists and pressed his legs while kissing him. Ask: "What's wrong with you?"

However, Cheng Jun pulled the tie on the head of the bed to tie up Jiashu's wrists. Jiashu was startled and struggled: "Don't do this, what's wrong with you?"

Seeing that Jiashu's face turned slightly pale, Cheng Jun was a little frustrated: "It's nothing, don't you like it?"

Jia Shu burst out laughing, and held Cheng Jun's wrist with his backhand: "If you want to have fun, why don't you tie it up for me first, then I'll think about it—in fact, I really want to try..." while reaching out Touch Chengjun's buttocks.

Cheng Jun's face darkened, thinking of the annoying doctor: "I think you're out of order." Without hesitation, he pushed Jiashu down, opened his legs, and entered hard, Jiashu gasped, At the same time, she laughed and teased: "How can S ask this and that before kidnapping someone, what he wants is the aura of dominance and obsessive sentiment... Ah, take it easy... Hey... Don't grab there, you tie me up." What are you doing there... do you want to die... um..."