green eyes

Under careful care, I recovered quickly and was discharged from the hospital. Cheng Jun sent me back to my room, which made me feel more at ease.It's a pity that I didn't get excited for long, because his driver quickly moved his daily necessities into my house. He told me that he was worried that my body had not recovered, so he would stay with me for a few days first.

I watched him take off his shoes and change them, and he sat on my sofa naturally, with a relaxed attitude, as if we had lived together all this time and hadn’t been separated for so many years... I let out a sigh of relief, thinking quickly in my mind, it’s almost the end of the year, and he always wants to I went back... I've slept in the bed, and now I don't want to be hypocritical, so I can only wait for his plan before making preparations.

No matter what, I'm still a little thankful that he didn't directly deprive me of my job and put me in a golden cage. I really have Stockholm syndrome, and I'm grateful that others didn't treat me more cruelly.I have seen their methods. An uncle of his once imprisoned someone on the island. That summer, Cheng Jun took me on vacation. I still remember that woman’s silk-like smooth and thick long hair dragging to her heels, and her eyebrows are extremely slender. Wearing a snow-white dress with suspenders, it seems that we are not a person in the world. Then our vacation ended in a hurry, because the woman committed suicide, of course to no avail, and was rescued. The woman's weak pointed chin is like a pale flower petal. has stayed in my memory forever.

Cheng Jun took me back to school the next day. I was a little uneasy at the time, but he just smiled and said, "It's okay, it's just a joke, playing hard to get. You're still young, and you haven't seen the tricks of those women... "After a while, he told me that his uncle hadn't been to the island for a long time, and after leaving her alone for a while, the woman really became anxious. After a while, she finally took advantage of the loophole and successfully became pregnant. She was able to marry into his family. When she returned home, she watched She was docile and obedient, where there was still that hypocritical look, and there was no lack of meaning in her tone that the woman had tried her best to finally get what she wanted.

I should have known people like them at that time, the so-called love is just possessive, people are like cats and dogs, and regardless of men and women, how can they not love them, it's just a matter of time, so when they want to Try your best to get it in your hand, and when you don't want it, you can easily get rid of it.

But when you want it, the more you resist, the more you will just humiliate yourself.All I can do now is to keep my heart.

I tidy up his things, and he walks around in my room, visiting my house with great interest, and flipping through my bookshelves. Because I live alone, the whole house is connected except for the kitchen and bathroom. No rest, no secrets.

He first saw the yoga blanket on the balcony and the sound system next to it, and touched the lush and vibrant green radishes next to it with his hand, the corners of his mouth curled up: "Still practicing yoga?"

I don’t really want to answer him. He told me to practice yoga back then, saying it was good for the body. In fact, after we got to know each other well, he explained the reason—just to be soft and easy to maneuver, and he has kept it since it became a habit. Come down, but the purpose of learning this thing at the beginning is really hard to mention. He didn't wait for my answer, but walked to the side of the floor-to-ceiling window and looked down. The high-rises on the [-]th floor could only see the traffic flow like ants .He said thoughtfully: "No wonder this building is called Yunding, it really feels very good." Then he knocked on the glass, turned to look at me, and smiled meaningfully: "Doing things on Yunding must have a special flavor."

...I knew he wouldn't have any good things to say... He used to like to press me against the glass to do whatever he wanted, making me terrified of someone passing by under the window and unable to restrain my disorientation under the huge sense of shame.

Fortunately, he just talked and didn't put it into action. Instead, he followed me into the bathroom after I put away his things, picked up a box of rose essential oil on the bathroom shelf and smiled, "Are you still using this?"

I feel a little hot, Cheng Jun bought this girly essential oil for me to use, but I refused to use it at first, and he wiped it for me himself every day after I took a bath.It is said that an action can become a habit after 21 days. I lived with him from the third year of junior high school to the second and third year of high school, and lived together for two years. Yoga, essential oils, reading before bed, sleeping naked... I have gotten used to it, and now I am used to the faint scent of roses to accompany me to sleep.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he just smiled: "I'll oil you up tonight."

Everyone can't get rid of the imprints of previous experiences on themselves... Cheng Jun intervened in my life before I was fully grown, and imprinted many imprints so strongly that I am now facing such a situation. It seems that the situation of still old love is extremely embarrassing.

I know he must be very satisfied in his heart. A pet that has been kept for a long time is found after a long time, and it is found that it still retains the habit of being kept by its owner. The owner is naturally Longyan Dayue.He lay comfortably in the recliner next to my bed, which was also carefully selected by me, with a velvet surface. When he sat down, he would sink into it deeply... as if being hugged tightly by someone.He was obviously also a little surprised at the softness of the chair and the degree of his body sinking into it, but then he looked at me with extra comfort, his eyes were full of ambiguity, and then he suddenly pulled me off and hugged me tightly.

I struggled and found that he just hugged me and didn't do anything else, so he didn't struggle any more. He hugged me quietly for a while before whispering: "Jiashu... I hope you will remember my good old days... But now I wish you could hate me..." I closed my eyes and leaned against his shoulder, smelling the familiar scent of rosin on his body without speaking, he gently stroked my back, and said slowly: "Just a few days ago I am really happy to meet you, I thought you would treat me coldly, or even resent... I didn't expect you to have such an attitude."

He was silent for a while, and I thought silently in my heart, does his young master still want to spend the rest of his life with me?When you see your old love, if you don’t want to get involved anymore, you should naturally stay away from it. Since you strike up a conversation, it must be for the purpose of having sex. Everyone is an adult, so it’s just a tacit understanding—yes, he can play like a campus if you support him Developing a game, now we have to talk about the mood, naturally it can't be as ruthless as a nightclub, if I cried and clung to it that night, exaggerated the ups and downs of the day with bitterness, and then begged Mr. Cheng for money to take care of him, maybe he I will back away... I really didn't think about it clearly, now he is obviously reluctant to let go, I probably have to cooperate... Actually, I don't suffer, Cheng Dashao is first-class, clean and healthy, everyone is so familiar, and we can solve each other Let's talk about physical problems, let's think about it.

He was still confiding: "You still need someone to take care of you as before... I really just feel sorry for your carelessness. That kind of game is too dangerous. Once you meet someone who is not kind, you will be ruined..." His chest was loose. We trembled slightly as we spoke, and the setting sun shone on us through the floor-to-ceiling windows, which was very warm.I closed my eyes and vaguely remembered that he confessed to me in the past... At that time, I really thought it was a confession, the golden burning sunset, the big golden mallow flowers blooming beside the football field, he was riding on the bicycle, with one foot on the ground , eyes shone menacingly under the broken hair, he said to me: "Luo Jiashu, I like you, please give me a chance to take care of you."

When I was in junior high school, I was selected into the junior high school football team because of my good sprint performance, but I was excluded for some reason. I still don’t understand how the exclusion and unscrupulous malice in the student days came about. Maybe it’s just because I don’t like it. The ball will never Pass it to me, after a game, I couldn't even touch the ball, but I was stubborn at the time, and I often fantasized that I would be able to practice all the skills in a certain game, so after the training ended, I found someone alone. Others used old patched footballs to practice over and over on the field.Later, I met Cheng Jun. He was tall, muscular, and full of energy. He took the initiative to tell me to practice with me.

At that time, I had a little girlfriend... In middle school, I was actually very popular with girls. I vaguely remember that girl with yellowish curly hair, gentle and gentle, fair complexion, and a good girl. She came here every day after cram school, just in time for me to practice. After finishing walking with me for a while, everyone was very pure at that time, but just holding hands lightly, our hearts were thundering and our faces were red. Later, after Cheng Jun joined the practice, our practice time became longer and longer. Although the girl still comes every day, she can't wait, she always has to leave first, and her family has to wait for her to eat, unlike my mother who often has to work night shifts, I take care of it alone, and Cheng Jun rides after practice. The bicycle took me back before walking by myself.Later, I had less and less contact with that girl, because I was called out by Cheng Jun to practice ball, go shopping, and climb mountains even on weekends, and gradually it ended without a problem.At that time, I still felt that sex should not be valued over friends, so I was not vigilant about Cheng Jun's approach-at that time, the Internet was not as developed as it is now, so how could I know what could happen between men?