Zero-sum game

Perhaps forcing himself to admit that he never liked Zhou Xingchuan was itself a lie.

Shen Yan remembered the day when he was struggling to see Zhou Xingchuan, and saw his parents outside the hospital.

Father Zhou put on his formal attire, his brows were not angry, and he was followed by an assistant who looked at him with contempt, as if he had seen some heinous criminal, and said in a light tone: "We will take him to recuperate, You don't have to see him again."

Zhou's mother frowned, her face was full of sorrow, and she didn't say a word. Mo Qiang took her arm and said, "You should understand what uncle and aunt mean. Later we will send Zhou Xingchuan to the best nursing home. Don't worry." .”

Shen Yan's gaze fell to the ground, and he felt as embarrassed as if he had crawled out of a mire all over his body, which was a thousand miles away.

This feeling is a bit familiar, like when someone found out about his sexuality when he was in middle school, everyone didn't want him to get close to them, as if there was some kind of dirt on his body that couldn't be washed off even if it was stained.

But it was autumn, and it was cold all over.

He glanced at the ward where Zhou Xingchuan was supposed to be in, and remembered the days when he lived with Zhou Xingchuan not long ago, the two of them stood in the kitchen eating freshly made dishes, and there was a warm and sweet fragrance in the air.

The gentle singing from the CD player sang some unknown story. At that time, his heart and hands were warm, because Zhou Xingchuan would always hug him gently, and the warmth spread from him to him.

Father Zhou signaled everyone else to go away, and said to him alone: ​​"I know you are still a student, a year younger than my son, aren't you? You go to this kind of school, you should know what path you are going to take in the future, no Speaking of my son, would you still want to have that kind of scandal in the future?"

Shen Yan lowered his eyes and did not speak. In fact, he is not much shorter than Father Zhou, but he looks like he is curled up into a ball.

Father Zhou said again, "My son has absolutely nothing to do with that matter. Even if he doesn't take the road of acting in the future, he needs a clean background to inherit the family business and start a business. I believe you don't want to drag him into it. right?"

"I know you may have some feelings, but you should also know that my son is bisexual. He can actually like girls, which is what my mother and I expect."

Shen Yan had no way to refute, and had no position to refute.Although he won a small victory in the game with Zhou Xingchuan, he had no chance of winning in front of his parents, and he was not even worthy of a fight.

Zhou's father saw that he was still silent, and his tone became serious, "For his own good and your own good, I hope that you will never meet again in the future. In exchange, I can help you talk about it at the school, no It will affect your studies because of the case."

"..." Shen Yan's hand clenched the metal crutch tightly.

"I hope to hear your answer." Father Zhou said forcefully.

"...I won't see him again," Shen Yan finally replied in a low voice, "Don't bother uncle at the school, I will take care of it myself."

"Okay, this is your promise. I remember it, and you should remember it too." Father Zhou patted him on the shoulder and left.

The two light taps on the shoulder made Shen Yan decide to forget that he was in love with Zhou Xingchuan.

From then on, the two ends of the world will never see each other again.

Zhou Xingchuan kissed lightly, but felt that his face was wet against Shen Yan, only to find that Shen Yan's face was full of tears, he suddenly became flustered, and said repeatedly: "I'm sorry, I'm not messing around..."

——He didn't know what was in Shen Yan's mind in just a short moment, but he definitely knew how much hesitation and entanglement in the other party's heart since he saw Shen Yan again and approached Shen Yan step by step again.

Although Shen Yan once had a gentle face like a girl's, he was actually very strong in his heart, and he seldom shed tears for anything.

Shen Yan shook his head, stood up, and said, "I broke my promise with your father."

Zhou Xingchuan knew that when he was injured and unconscious, Shen Yan had visited him, but his parents stopped him.That is, after that, when he opened his eyes again, Shen Yan had disappeared from his world.

Zhou Xingchuan stood up and asked, "What promise?"

Shen Yan had already wiped his face dry, pulled the corner of his mouth reluctantly and said: "I won't see you again."

"...What kind of promise is this!" Zhou Xingchuan said, "I decide who I love and who I want to spend the rest of my life with."

"But you really shouldn't be entangled with me, after all, before..." Shen Yan said halfway and stopped, but said, "I might stay in this poor mountain valley for the rest of my life, we are already two worlds People, after you finish filming, you will leave here soon."

"These are not problems," Zhou Xingchuan took Shen Yan's hand and put it on his chest, "The problem is here, I beg you to forget the past, forget the people of two worlds, I ask you, do you love me?"

On a summer night in Xiaohe Village, the noise of insects outside broke into the hut because of the momentary silence.

Shen Yan looked at the strange yet familiar person in front of him under the slightly dim light, "I used to think that if I cut off contact with anyone and came here, our life would be bridge to bridge, road to road, change. into two unrelated people.

Zhou Xingchuan would appear on the glamorous stage, under the dazzling spotlight, and in hardcover pictorials, but it was impossible to appear in a place like Xiaohe Village.

I used to think that I didn't love you enough...but I was wrong, since I saw you again, I can't imagine being two people who have nothing to do with you again. "

Shen Yan gradually understood that love is something that the more you suppress it, the more it will overflow.Even if you cover your mouth and close your eyes, your brain will still be unable to restrain yourself from thinking about and thinking about someone.

Because the embrace and warmth that the other party once gave, the feeling of being loved wholeheartedly, is like poison, once you experience it, you will become addicted, and you will never forget it.