Rooted

In the evening, we had a seafood dinner together. After the meal, they went to play video games, and the other party sent him home.

Before giving the address, he was inexplicably distracted.

Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, the other party asked him what's wrong.

Gan Hezhi didn't know what was wrong, he replied absent-mindedly that it was nothing.

Then he felt that this was a bit rude, and added that he seemed a little tired.

The other party said that if he was tired, he could sleep for a while, and he would wake him up when he arrived.

He didn't want to talk, so he closed his eyes and pretended to sleep.

The car drove to a street he was familiar with.He didn't open his eyes, and he knew where he was now, and where he would turn the next corner.The closer he got to the community, the more serious his retreat was.

The speed of the car slowed down slowly, and Gan Hezhi heard the sound of the window lowering.

He really wanted to get out of the car.

The guard asked which building to go to, but the other party didn't know, so he called Xiang Qi and asked which building it was in a low voice.

Xiang Qi asked Xiaozhi.The other party said that he fell asleep in the car and would wake up at the door after a while.

Gan Hezhi listened, not daring to open his eyes.

Building 111, after hesitating for a while, Xiang Qi answered.

The car moved slowly, walked along a familiar path, and finally stopped.

Gan Hezhi was looking for a suitable time to open his eyes, and he dragged it to the end without knowing it.

He thought he should pretend for a while, but the sudden approaching breath on his face made him open his eyes in horror.

This moment of staring at each other was a little awkward.

Qian Hezhi retreated to the corner, and the other party was also a little bit uncomfortable.

Gan Hezhi couldn't take it anymore, he unfastened his seat belt and got out of the car quickly.

The other party quickly followed.

Gan Hezhi held the side of the door in his hand, and the movement of pushing the door stopped suddenly. He remembered that he forgot to say thank you, and wanted to stop something, so he quickly said thank you for taking me back, I'm here.

The other party looked at him for a while, then looked inside the door and asked if he could go in and have a cup of tea.

Gan Hezhi showed panic.

The other party quickly stopped his imagination, explaining that he was not in the right state and wanted to spend more time with him.

The other party also assured that it was just a cup of tea.If you bully him, Xiang Qi will not let him go first.

You can rest assured.He also said that he was embarrassed just now, but he was so cute when he was sleeping.

Gan Hezhi's ears were buzzing, and he could only see the other party's lips moving.When the other party tried to check the temperature of his face, he suddenly woke up again and said no, let's go, goodbye.

He then scurried into the house, only to be relieved to see the other drive away from behind the curtain.

The house was pitch black.

Just now Gan Hezhi came in in a hurry and didn't have time to turn on the light.

At this moment, there was still the faint sound of wheels rolling over the asphalt road outside, which made the room even more silent as death.

Gan Hezhi suddenly didn't know what to do.His whole body hangs down, shoulders, arms, corners of eyes and mouth.

He turned his back to the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at the familiar dark room.He knew what was in every place, but he still felt strange like never before.

Since when did Building 111 cease to be his safe place, leaving him only to grieve?

Gan Hezhi knew the answer to this question.

He knew the temperature of holding both hands, but it was the first time he felt so clearly that when the other hand was gone, the temperature in his palm would also pass away.He understands that he has lost things, and people, that can never be retrieved.

But he was too stupid to understand it too late.

Now, he is still alive, but he has no expectations.

He remembered that many years ago, when he was still budgeting for three meals a day, he tightened his belt and bought flowers for Fu Wensheng.He was so happy at that time.Looking forward to a poor tomorrow.

Now, he dullly suspected that maybe he had harbored ill intentions towards Fu Wensheng a long time ago, otherwise why was he so happy at that time?He didn't know if Fu Wensheng was happy, but he was really happy.

I knew I should have asked.

His heart was still secretly struggling, but it was already very slight, and he could feel it.It's not like when I first came back.Maybe he was really tired, he thought.

Before going upstairs, he glanced at the refrigerator and remembered that there was no ice water in it, but it didn't matter because no one drank it.He went upstairs to take a shower and crawled onto the bed in the master bedroom.

He hasn't washed this quilt for a long time, only here is the familiar smell, but it's about to fall apart.

On the bedside is the storage box he found from the study, which contains all the things he sent back from Pingming, messy photos, and paper roses.

Gan Hezhi slept on the side next to the door. Another person slept on this side before, but he still lay on his side facing the door, which was the sleeping position he was used to.

He clutched a corner of the pillow in the darkness, and the pillow towel gradually soaked through.He wished on the lingering familiar smell, if it was destined to dissipate, he hoped he would never wake up again.

I don't know whether it's luck or misfortune, Gan Hezhi struggled, and unexpectedly met another person, this time he grabbed it with all his strength.

Before he had time to be happy, reality slapped him mercilessly: he couldn't pull the person, so he sank along with him.

In the water, he finally saw Fu Wensheng again.

Fu Wensheng had already fainted, his face was very calm, and his hair was slowly floating in the water.

Gan Hezhi felt like he had lost him, and he slapped Fu Wensheng's face in a daze with his hands.

Fu Wensheng never responded.

An unstoppable great sadness welled up in Gan Hezhi's heart. He touched Fu Wensheng's face, then his neck, tugged at his hair, and cried out a series of bubbles and whining sounds in the water, like a small The sound animals make when they are hurt is an innate way animals express grief.

Fu Wensheng wanted to slip away from him several times, Gan Hezhi didn't care that they were sinking, and persistently dragged him back, whether it was by pulling his clothes or hair, he was unwilling to let go no matter what.

He knew that he was going to die, and he still felt fear and pain for this realization, but his heart was full, and it was much better than when he turned around and ran to the road of life.

In the end, he really had no strength left, so he just hugged Fu Wensheng, his face pressed against his face, unable to restrain his sad sobs, but he never let go, and the two of them sank slowly together.

Why do some things I know I can't do?

Knowing that you can't save him, but still saving him?Probably because you can't afford the consequences.Of course it is important to be alive, but if it is not with Fu Wensheng, if there is no Fu Wensheng, Gan Hezhi dare not think about it.

Probably, escape is instinct, and love is beyond instinct.

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140、139节

"IF line + ending" returns to his world;

Fu Wensheng moved to a new residence.The community is called Zhoumiyuan, and the environment is not bad.Before Fu Wensheng moved in, he sent an invitation to his family, but they still preferred their old house.

Fu Wensheng understood and didn't force it.

After moving out, if he is not busy, he will go back once every two weeks for dinner.If you are busy, you may not come back once a month.

Although he doesn't go home much, he is not worried that the two elders in the family will feel lonely because he has a younger brother.

As a son, Fu Wenyan is much more qualified than him. He can talk and make his parents happy.

Fu Wensheng is not good at this, so he is mainly responsible for making money.

It was time for him to go back to the old house on Sunday. He drove back, parked the car and went upstairs. The door of the old house was not soundproof, and he heard laughter outside the door.

Xiang Qi was also there, and Fu Wensheng heard it. Fu Wenyan's friend and him together were like a pair of treasures.

Fu Wensheng stood outside the door and listened for a while, and only opened the door when their laughter seemed to stop.

The moment he opened the door, the movement in the room stopped.

Fu Yin's face immediately stiffened, this is his habit, he has a strange persistence, as if it is indecent to show a smiling face to the eldest son.

Fu Wenyan and Xiang Qi stopped joking.

Only Ms. He Sheng greeted him with "I'm back", and then Fu Wenyan and Xiang Qi called him "Brother", and Fu Wenyan added "I'm here".

"Yeah." Fu Wensheng changed his shoes, not knowing what to say.

The atmosphere turned cold all of a sudden, and Fu Wensheng was also very helpless, like this every time.But he is not as good as Fu Wenyan.

This meal always made people feel that something was missing. This was the information Fu Wensheng deciphered from other people's faces.He just felt that today's egg dumplings were a bit salty.

Well, I'm still a little sorry, he disturbed the good atmosphere again.

But he couldn't stop coming, and Fu Yin would not be satisfied if he didn't come, and Ms. He Sheng always asked.

The days go by like this.Soon, Fu Wensheng will be thirty.He has lived alone in Zhoumi Garden for six years.

The frequency of his going back is still the same as before, but Fu Yin has new dissatisfaction with him because he has not had a girlfriend so far.Ms. He Sheng was also dissatisfied with him on this point.

Fu Wensheng understood.

But he really didn't want to.He didn't expect to get married or have children, and he couldn't even think about the scene of a drooling mentally handicapped child calling him Dad, and riding a big horse, and so on.

He doesn't want to take on more of his life.

All kinds of reasons are either hard to say, or if they say it, it will arouse the other party's anger, so he keeps silent.

But that ultimately just made Fu Yin more resentful of him, seeing it as a challenge to his family's authority.

Fu Wensheng didn't mean to be provocative, he simply made a decision for his own life.He understands the incomprehension of his family.

They fought coldly for a long time, during which Fu Wensheng seldom came home.He felt relieved, and his family must have been relieved to some extent.

Until one day, Ms. He Sheng came to him.

Well, he thought, well, the days of being alone are coming to an end